Lily's POV:
" Daniel " I whisper yelled while shaking him to wake up from his sleep. He woke up rubbing his eyes.
" I'm gonna go home I'm not comfortable here I'm sorry you don't have to come I just want to say I'm heading out " I said.
" Lil it's late are you serious " Daniel said and I just nodded my head.
" you don't have to come but I'm gonna head out thank you for letting me stay " I said kissing his cheek and he just grabbed my hand.
" I'm not letting you go alone at this time, come on I'll take you if you want to go home so bad "
" no no no I don't want to bother you " I said shaking my head.
" shut up you're not let's go " he said putting on his shoes and a jacket and getting in the car.
We arrived at my apartment and I insisted Daniel to just stay here because it was late and I woke him up from his sleep so it was the least I can do. We needed up falling asleep but then I woke up an hour later.
Was this wrong ? Is it wrong for me to like someone else while I have a baby with another person ?
Lily just because you have a baby with someone doesn't mean you would want to be with them for the rest of your life.
I mean I was raped so it's not like I wanted it although my son is the biggest blessing in my entire life. But Jake on the other hand...I don't know how I feel about him. He put me through some shit that only you would see in movies and that's not okay at all. Everyone who knew about us thought I was the biggest idiot in the world for allowing him to treat me the way that he did but then again did I really have a choice ? He was so threatening with everything that reporting him to the cops was the last thing I ever wanted.
What should I do now ? My son can potentially be threatened by him if I don't know I tell him I want to be with Daniel and not him.
I thought he changed though.....
Even if someone begs for me to forget about all he's done and move on I couldn't and I never would. It's hard to move on from people and things that have hurt you so bad in the past.
" hey why are you up it's 4 in the morning " someone said and I snapped back to reality when I saw Daniel rubbing his eyes.
" I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you I uh I just can't sleep sorry " I stuttered my words. I didn't want to tell him what I was thinking about because I just wanted to shrug off the bad memories.
" what's wrong Lil " Dani asked and I just shook my head.
" nothing Just go back to sleep I'm gonna go down to get water would you like some "
" no no I'm fine thanks, I'm gonna go back to sleep come back to me though okay ? " he said and I just smiled at his cuteness and nodded my head.
I walked downstairs making my way to the kitchen to grab a glass of water to drink. I looked through my cabinets looking for my sleeping pills. Yes no one knew this but when I was pregnant and alone I couldn't sleep so I let my doctor give me pills that helped me sleep.
I started shuffling through the cabinets trying to find them but I stopped in my tracks when I heard the door knob. Wtf who the hell could this be. Am I really getting my apartment broken into right now ???? The door opened and I let out a small screech. I quickly grabbed the closest thing there was to me and it was a glass cup. Don't ask.
I heard the footsteps of that person heading towards the stair case. Oh no not Daniel. I quickly went behind that person and turned on the lights getting ready to hit the glass cup on his head. And then I froze in my tracks.
" Jake ??? What the hell are you doing here at this time " I said seeing the back of his head he turned around and my mouth dropped.
" I was going to surprise you by bringing James to you so you can wake up and see he's next to you " Jake said and immediately rushed to the car seat that he was holding. I placed it down on the couch and picked James up.
" oh my gosh my precious baby boy I missed you so much. Mommy missed you so much " I said crying as I was showering James in kisses. This was an amazing surprise.
" I thought you'd kind of be asleep that's awkward " Jake said rubbing the back of his head. Crap Daniel better not wake up.
" I um I needed water and you just so happen to come when I woke up "
" jamessss " I cooed but he didn't make those cute little noises because he was half a sleep. I put him back into his car seat so I can take him to my room but one problem Jake needed to go first cause he can't see Daniel in my bed.
" here let me help you get him to his bed " Jake said and my eyes went wide.
" actually you can go now, I got it thank you. I want some time alone with him down here " I said giving a fake smile.
" Lil the kids Half way asleep you're really not gonna keep him up at 4 in the morning are you ? " he said raising his eyebrows.
" I'll take him up it's okay "
" don't be silly you'll drop him there's a lot of stairs and his car seat is heavy give me him " Jake said pulling James car seat out of my hands and walking up the stairs.
" Jake no ! Wait ! " I said as he turned around and looked at me. Way to go lily you make everything so freaking obvious don't you.
" um he's hungry can you please make him a bottle " I said.
" he's not even crying Lil he's asleep either you're hiding something or your just a terrible mom which one is it " Jake said raising his eyebrows once again. Jake continued walking up the stairs. Oh no this isn't good.
Jakes POV:
Lily seemed weird. She didn't want me to take James upstairs and I wonder why. I had a feeling I was about to see what I didn't want to.
I absolutely ignored Lily and kept walking up on purpose just because she was already making it obvious that she didn't want me to go upstairs for some odd reason.
I got to her door and she quickly rushed in front of me.
" what is your damn problem Lily, move out of the way " I said placing James's car seat down and pushing her out the way.
" wait you can't go in there it's a complete mess and I don't want you to see me like that " she said in all one breathe.
" for fucks sake Lily what the fuck are you hiding from me " I said finally pushing her out of the way causing her to stumble. I turned the door knob and grabbed James car seat. Once I opened the door my attention immediately went straight to the bed.
She's with that bitch Daniel.....
I turned my attention to Lily and at this point Daniel had woken up cause we argued outside the door. His eyes went wide once he saw me and I just didn't bother picking a fight with him while my son was in the room. That's it. I was done with this bullshit. I looked at Lily and she had tears in her eyes.
" Jake wait ! " lily said gripping my arm so that I don't leave but I just yanked it back and started walking away.
" I can explain just please let's talk about this "
" talk about what Lily ? The fact that you're a fucking skank and can't stop jumping from guy to guy ! " I was so angry at this point I didn't know what came out of my mouth.
" Jake I was gonna tell you - " Lily said but I just cut her off. I was tired of this shit.
" I tried to fucking be there for you and our son and this is how you say thank you ?! " I screamed.
" you're just a fucking dumbass that doesn't know what she's doing with her life. I'm done with you Lily " I spat and she started crying. Daniel didn't say a word. I looked directly at him.
" and you ! " I screamed. " you're okay with being with a fucking hoe who had a baby with someone else ? "
" you don't have to say that shit about her she's the mother of your damn kid Jake " he said.
" you're the last person that should be talking right now so shut the fuck up " I spat. " bye forever Lily. You ungrateful bitch " I said and slammed the door shut after me leaving her crying in the room.
I knew she was hiding something. I've known her literally for a long ass time and I know when she's lying or telling the truth. Kind of saw it coming. Tired of this shit. I need a drink.
One shot - I'm not shit
Two shot - i was never good to her so I shouldn't have expected her to like me.
Three shot - everyone is better than me
Four shot - I just lost my son forever
After about another 6 or how many shots I started feeling lightheaded and dizzy and then everything was a blur after that.
Lily's POV:
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" GOD DAMMIT ! " I screamed throwing my phone and shattering it to a million pieces.
" Lil look at me ! Calm down just let him be alone for now you can talk to him in the morning " Daniel said trying to calm me down but I couldn't because I felt bad for making everything worse like I always do.
" this is all my fault Daniel. Everything is because of me " I cried in his chest as he was trying to calm me down.
" no lil it's not trust me it's not "
" I'm such a dumb person. I'm the worst mom in the entire world. I just realized how much he liked me because he was so hurt by me being with you " I said again crying.
" James would never get to see his father ever again because Jake hates us now " I said with a shaky breathe because of how much I was crying.
" I can go if you want me to, I'm sorry I'm the one who wanted to stay here with you I didn't know he was going to come - " Daniel kept rambling and I just cut him off.
" Daniel ..... " I asked rubbing my puffy red eyes
" mhm ? " he said back meaning for me the continue what I wanted to say.
" do we actually have a chance of us being together ? " I asked and he just looked at me as if he didn't get what I was trying to say.
" think about it Daniel ....you're in a band and if the world finds out we're together while I have a baby with someone else it's not gonna look good on your career and I don't want to ruin all that for you and the guys. You worked too hard to just let it go to waste like that.
Daniel thought about it for a minute and I can tell he knew I was right. Of course I didn't want to lose him but I was just a stupid example for everyone and everything was my fault. Daniel is involved with Jake because of me. Daniels career can take a turn because of me. Everything is just gonna be better without me in it.
" can we please talk about this in the morning " Daniel said and I just nodded my head and walked over to James.
" goodnight baby...you're mom loves you more than anything " I said looking at a sleeping james and kissing his head before I get in bed with Daniel and close my eyes, drifting off into a nice but thoughtful sleep.
Next morning -
" goodmorning beautiful " Daniel said as I was rubbing my eyes trying to fully wake up.
" morning Dani " I said still thinking about what I said last night.
" James woke up an hour ago and I gave him milk and he went straight back to sleep " Daniel said and I smiled.
" I'm sorry I didn't even hear him cry I was probably so tired that I slept and I - "
" no no don't worry about it, it was actually kind of fun being a parent " Daniel chuckled.
" I don't know about fun but it is a lesson " I said back laughing causing Daniel to lightly laugh.
We walked downstairs as I decided to make breakfast for Daniel and I. That question been on my mind since last night and I don't know what to do it feels like I'm stuck between two rocks. I was making pancakes when Daniel came and hugged me from the back. I didn't bother doing anything and he seemed to notice.
" what's wrong Lil why are you acting like this"
" are we just gonna forget about everything that happened last night Daniel ? " I said raising my eyebrows.
" no but I was hoping we can avoid it for a little longer than this " he rolled his eyes.
" I can't avoid it if it's bothering me so much Daniel "
" what's bothering you Lily tell me ! " Dani said getting a little loud with me.
" this Daniel ! All of this is bothering me. I know you don't want to be with a girl who has a baby with someone else " I said looking down.
" lily why are you speaking for me ?! I can make my own damn decisions. I know what I'm getting myself into " Daniel said and I just shook my head.
" no Daniel you don't. You don't know what you're getting yourself into. IM GONNA RUIN YOUR CAREER DONT YOU GET THAT "
" whoever has something to say about me being with you can get out of my life I won't allow anyone to say anything " Daniel said.
" you don't get it Daniel you just don't " I said as I was about to walk out he gripped my wrist causing me to turn around.
" get what Lily tell me so I can try to understand you ! "
" you don't get that everyone's gonna think I'm a hoe because I have a baby with someone else and it's gonna Make you look bad because you can have any girl in the world and you choose me ? The person who has a baby with a psychopath. Jake is too much to handle and I will not get you involved with us anymore. I'm not gonna ruin your career and not to mention if I ruin your career that goes for Zach Jack Corbyns and Jonahs Careers as well I'm sorry Daniel but - " I said as he cut me off by kissing me, I didn't kiss back because of how lost I was.
He let go and just stared at me frozen. Now he knew I was serious about this.
" you're an amazing guy Daniel and you deserve someone better than me. Please don't let me ruin everything for you " I said as I started getting tears in my eyes.
" LILY I LOVE YOU ! " Daniel screamed. Which made me cry even more. I hated doing this to him but I had no other choice.
" all I do is ruin things and I won't let that happen again I'm sorry Dani "
" fine if that's what you want. Then that's how it will be. Bye Lily ! " Daniel said and stormed out of the kitchen.
I heard the front door shut really hard which made me jump out of fright. I slid down the kitchen door and pulled my knees up to my chest. I burst into tears and couldn't stop them from falling down my cheeks. What have I done now ?
You're doing what's best .....
I think it's time for me to make a move and start new away from everyone.
You've done that already and didn't you see how that turned out ?
No no no .....this time nothing can hold me back or stop me.
To be continued ..........
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