Deceived Heart
Amelia's POV :
"Now Amelia , you know that you cannot continue doing outrageous things that will affect your heart ." Doctor May says .
"I've been listening to the same story for about ten years now . I'm used to it ." I smile sarcastically at him .
"You shouldn't be stressing at the moment , it's not healthy ." He sighs .
"Doc I can't exactly choose how and what I dream about ." I roll my eyes behind my closed ones .
"Stress contributes to your dreams . Actually anything happening around you contributes to your dreams ." He says .
"I'll be sure to not breathe ." I reply sarcastically .
"Amelia don't talk to Cole like that ." My mother scolds from her chair .
"It's fine Mrs Johnson ." Doctor May says to my mother .
"You're free to go Em , I would just like to talk to your mom for a second ." He says .
I get up from the bed in his office and make my way to the empty corridor considering that it's four in the morning . I close the door lightly behind me but as soon as I turn around I bump into someone .
"Oh damn sorry , are you alright ?" The guy asks me helping me up from the floor .
"You've got me falling for you ." I chuckle balancing myself .
"Very funny ." He chuckles .
"Are you alright ? That was a pretty sore fall ." He says chuckling a bit .
"Yeah , I'm good thanks ." I smile taking a good look at him .
He has short brown hair that reaches right above his neck in a comb over , practically covering his eyebrows . His arms are filled with tattoos right until his shoulder . I look at his his buff body and that's when I realize that this guy is really good looking .
"Amelia , let's go ." My annoying mother interrupts my ogling eyes .
"I'm sorry once again ." The tattooed guy says walking into Doctor May's office .
"So what did you and Cole talk about ?" I ask her .
"Nothing important . You know for a person who has a hole in their heart you're pretty heartless ." My mother rolls her eyes .
"Firstly it's Ventricular Septal Disease and lastly I am missing a piece of my heart so I can be as heartless as I want ." I roll my eyes at her .
"Don't give up yet Amelia , they will fix you up . Just get healthy and we'll have your surgery ." She sighs .
"I don't want it , I researched it and the rate of living is low . I might as well die because I am a burden aren't I ?" I chuckle sarcastically .
"Your dad and I are saving up Amelia , you know that money is an issue ." She sighs getting into the car .
I ignore her for the rest of the ride home and as soon as we reach the house I walk upstairs without straining my heart . Running or walking fast is a risk on its own , so let's say I don't want to commit suicide . I get back into bed and fall into a deep slumber that I've been needing for a while now .
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"Damn it !" I groan hitting the alarm .
"Amelia , get up . Anais will be here in an hour so get ready . I'm leaving the house now ." She says and I think that she's gone so I close my eyes again .
"I love you Amelia ." She says and I groan .
"Yeah I love you too mom ." I say getting up into the cold air that was always awaiting me .
"Stupid weather ." I grumble walking into my black and white themed bathroom where I run a bath of water for myself .
I pour my vanilla scented bubble bath . I test the water realizing that it's perfect so I get out of my pajamas and get into the water as fast as I can so that I don't freeze to death . I laugh at my own inside joke and I start bathing so that I can get dressed .
By the time I'm done with everything I make my way downstairs so that I can make my breakfast , but on my way to the kitchen the door bell rings so I answer it .
"Just my luck ." I groan as soon as I open it .
"It's always good to see you Em ." My teacher smiles rolling her eyes .
"I was literally just about to make breakfast ." I say walking to the kitchen .
"Eat so that you can take your pills ." She sits on a stool .
I pop some bread into the toaster and I make coffee for myself and Anais . I'm not allowed to drink coffee but I feel as if I need the caffeine boost so I'm going to do what I want .
"You're not allowed to drink coffee so don't think about it ." Anais stops me .
"But Ana , I literally need this or I'm going to die ." I groan pleading with her .
"Stop using that word , either way you are going to die with the coffee so stop ." She scolds me .
"You're such a bore ." I groan . Instead of coffee I go with tea .
I put some butter into my toast and I start eating .
"Today we aren't going to have a big lesson because your mother told me about what happened earlier on so I don't want to strain you ." She smiles into her mug .
"Can't you just cancel today's lesson ?" I chuckle and she shakes her head .
"You want to do good and get a degree right ?"
"There's no point in me learning if I'm just going to die ." I shrug moving my dishes to the sink .
I walk up to my bedroom knowing that Ana is following me so I sit behind my table as she enters .
"There's so much more to life Em ." She says putting her bag onto her table .
Imagine this , I've got a huge room when I don't need one . On one side it's where I learn and on the other side is where I sleep . Apparently I needed a big room so that I don't feel constricted which could normally lead to panic attacks . Well this room made me feel worse because I felt as if a piece of me was missing . Oh that's right , I've got a hole only heart .
"Okay , well it is Thursday and tomorrow is your day off . I'm going to test you on what you've learnt this week ." Ana informs me so I take a black pen out .
She hands me a paper and I get to work . Roughly writing in the answers and I finish so I give her the paper which she marks .
"Well this is the best you've done . I'm actually proud of you ." She walks to my table with my test paper in hand .
"How much did I get this time ?" I ask a bit excited .
"Well you got an eighty five percent . Not bad but I know that you can do better ." She says taking my paper back .
"I feel like I cannot handle anymore knowledge ." I rub my temples .
"Get some rest okay Em , I will see you on Monday ." She puts an encouraging hand on my shoulder and I yawn .
"Have a lovely weekend ." I walk her out and see her drive off to wherever she pleases .
I walk over to the lounge where I watch a bit of television . It's the same everyday , Ana comes we learn for about three hours then she leaves . I get bored and start watching television , as soon as that's boring I play games on my phone . I eventually just drown myself in food where as I take pills afterwards then I'm knocked dead because of the pills .
I've always wanted to go outside of the house but it seems everything out of the house is toxic to me . I can't work out because that could strain me , I have to make sure I don't sweat because my heart pumps way too fast . I can't walk like a paranoid person because that leads to my heart beat going at a quicker rate . I literally feel like dying because there's nothing I can do .
This disease that I have is a problem because the hole , ten years ago was too big to be fixed surgically so we relied on pills , it seems as if there is a bit of movement but I've given up . I hear the same thing every time I got to an appointment because I know that I will be disappointed . I've just wanted to live normally again . Mom and dad are constantly working so that they can save up for this and I honestly just feel like I'm a burden .
I want to learn how to drive , go to the mall with my nonexistent friends , have a first kiss , go out to a party , taste alcohol . I just want to have a great life like those girls in the movies . I envy them because they can do literally anything .
I hear the door opening so I walk into my bedroom and act as if I'm sleeping because one thing I don't want is to have a conversation with my dad and anyways he's probably going to sleep because of the long hours he has to work because of me . We used to be such a happy family but I rarely see anyone from my family .
A few hours after imagining a great life I walk downstairs to see my parents having dinner on the table so I walk up to the table .
"Oh dear , I didn't want to wake you up ." My mom says and I roll my eyes .
"What's wrong ?" My dad says to me .
"Mom and dad , I've been thinking about this for a long time now . I don't exactly know how to say this but I want to live a normal life . I want to attend school ." I smile up at their horrified faces .
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-Fifiloe ✨
Amelia is crazy 😂🙈
1/05/18