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I was feeling weird about what will James do next but to my surprise I found him standing outside my window.
He texted me a few minutes ago to come to the window and here I was peeping out to see if he was carrying a gun or something.
What the...
Why is he standing with a paper in his hand?
He opened the paper and showed it towards my window.
There it was written is big block letters..
I AM SORRY!
My eyes widen .
But for what?
I have lost count of the times getting hurt by him.
He kept the paper aside and picked up another one.
FORGIVE ME PLEASE!!!
PLEASE?
Mr. James Ashton is pleading to me? WOW!
He again kept it aside and picked another one.
LET ME IN! OPEN THE DOOR.
Now I get it he is doing this only to come inside my home and then hurt me again.
I texted him to stop his nonsense trick and get out from there.
I saw him reading my text but he didn't budge from his place. He crossed his hands to his chest and leaned to his car.
He was doing nothing not even texting me.
I closed the window and came to my bed.
Ten minutes later I peeped through the window and saw him exactly at the same spot.
Stand all night and I don't care.
I went to sleep again.
Trying to sleep actually.
After tossing in the bed for an hour, I got up and peeked again . He was still there. Only his coat was kept in the hood of his car and he has kept his head leaned to his car while his eyes were closed.
Was he sleeping ?
While standing?
He moved only to change the position of his legs, his eyes travelled towards me but I was sure he was unable to see me as the light was off in my room.
Why is he behaving so unlike James?
After another hour I saw him at the same spot and I couldn't take it anymore.
I texted him while looking at him.
"Why are you doing this? Why can't you see me happy for once?"
I saw him read the text.
He kept the phone again in his pocket without replying.
I was getting frustrated by his behaviour.
I was thinking to call him but I was not wanting to talk to him at the same time.
But I thought it was better to call him rather than meet him.
So I dialled his number.
He saw the caller I.d then his eyes travelled towards me.
Atleast he received the call.
"What's your problem James? Why don't you leave me alone? You have done enough damage to my life, now what do you want from me?" I asked in anger.
"A chance." It was almost a whisper.
"What? What chance James?" I felt my eyes getting warm .
"To compensate the damage." He spoke softly.
"I gave you enough chance James. But you have always made me regret. I have always tried to cope up with you, to understand you, to give you everything you want, to make you happy but you have always hurt me. You don't have any idea about your own feelings James, you don't want to accept your feelings towards me, you are too stubborn to accept it... "
I stopped a little but he was silent. He didn't say a word.
I saw him looking towards my dark window without any emotion on his face.
"The whole world know James about your feeling but it's only you who is blind to see it.."
"How the whole world know?" He asked in confusion.
Stupid.
"Not exactly the whole world, I mean to say that the people around us."
"Oh.."
Is he really dumb or is he doing it purposely?
Why the damn he is not saying anything?
"I think you should go now." I said while closing my eyes.
"Not until you meet me." He said.
"Get out James from here and from my life." I ended the call and throw the phone in the bed.
I didn't know when I fell asleep near the window while sitting on a chair.
My eyes opened suddenly.
There was little visibility outside.
James..
I stood up alarmed and looked outside.
My heart contracted at the view as I saw him there.
He was sitting on the ground while leaning to his car. His one leg was lying straight while the other was folded and his eyes were closed.
I looked at the clock, it was 5 am.
It was cold outside.
I closed my eyes tightly to stop myself from getting up and ran to him.
Why it feels too hard to hurt him?
I took a sharp breath and went outside.
Fine... I am weak..
I can't let him to be like that...
Tears started to drip from my eyes.
I hate myself... I hate myself for loving him..for caring him...
I was near him and saw him asleep. He didn't move when I reached there. Before I could wake him up I saw the papers lying on the back seat.
I gave him a look then went to see the papers.
There were more papers than he showed me last night.
The papers were arranged in orders, they were numbered.
I took out the first one.
I AM SORRY!
Then the second one.
FORGIVE ME PLEASE!
Third..
LET ME IN! OPEN THE DOOR.
I opened them one by one.
I KNOW I AM A JERK.
GIVE ME A CHANCE!
LIZA... MARRY ME.
I LOVE YOU.
My eyes were in tears, I looked towards him but he was still asleep.
Why didn't he show me these last night?
Maybe you don't gave him the chance to shOw.
But..he is late, he is too late...
I saw him moving and I hurriedly kept the papers back and went back from his car a little.
He opened his eyes and looked at me.
He stood up and remove the dirt from him.
He said nothing. He was only looking at me.
I averted my eyes and didn't say a word.
"Liza.." he started but I stopped him.
"You should go now James."
"But.. atleast listen to me..."
"No James. Please go."
I saw him getting angrier. His hands were fisted.
"You will not marry him. For the last time I am telling you this."
Wow! Does he only know to speak like that?
No I mean he only know to threaten, to give orders..
But he don't have guts to speak out his feelings.
"I am going to marry him."
In an instant he held my elbow and forced me in his car.
I shouted but he hurried came inside too and locked it.
"Shhh.. I want to show you something."
I know what you want to show, I have already seen it.
He picked out his phone.
"I am going to call Robert and you please keep quiet, don't make a single noise or he will recognize your voice." He said carefully.
He dialled his number and put it on speaker.
"Hey! Jammy what's up?" Robert said in the speaker.
I saw James expression changed into anger.
"Robert do not marry Liza. You will hurt her when she will came to know the real intention of your marriage." James said and I heard Robert laughed on the other side.
"Come on James. Who else knows about my intention except you? And so you think if Liza is going to trust your words when you will tell her this?"
James looked towards and I averted my eyes.
"This is not a child's play Robert, you are going to make her life a hell."
"Oh really? Were you making her life a paradise?" I heard him smirk but James was getting angrier. "Who knows if I fall in love with her after marriage."
James fisted his hand.
"Shut up Robert!" He said clenching his teeth.
Robert laughed loudly at the other side.
"See, how my plan is working? Only by speaking of love to her you are getting mad, what will you do when I will actually love her?"
The phone was thrown on the front seat and James threw opened the door and get out of the car.
I picked up the phone. Robert was still there.
"What happen Jammy? Are you jealous?"
"It's me Liza." I said and the call was ended by James.
He snatched it from me.
"Do you still believe me?" He said. His ears were red and his hair was all tossed up by the continued raking.
I lowered my gaze and said nothing.
"I am going to get married some day, so why not..."
James didn't let me complete the sentence.
"Fine. If you really want to be married.. then marry me. If you really love the tag of 'Mrs' then please go ahead and be 'Mrs Ashton'... Mrs James Ashton..." he sold the words softly and was looking into my eyes.
"Why? Didn't you say that I was a gold digger?" I said.
"Yes you are. And I want to give you all the gold, my company, my money, my bank accounts, my car, my house, everything what you want. Everything is yours.. but please let you be mine...and only mine." He was close to me.
"But..you will hurt me always... I know you very well..."
"Then it will be more easy for us to live together." I narrowed my eyes towards him.
"Yes. You know me very well Liza, you know everything about me, you can read me, you can understand me like no one.. I know you will cope up with me in every step of my life.. and I know it is only you who could do that..it is only you who could tolerate James Ashton very well.."
I looked at him and he was for the first time looking so free, expressing himself freely, he was not trying to be cold , he was trying to make this happen.. he wants to marry me..
James...
"Liza.. I love you. Maybe I loved you from the first day I lay my eyes on you but I was not aware of this love thing. I am experiencing this for the first time, o started to feel in this way when you came in my life... you bring out the emotions in me.. hatred, love, jealously, possessiveness, happy, sad everything... Liza I can't live without you... please accept me as your husband ..please marry me..."
My eyes were filled with tears.
I was unable to decide or I was shaken by his sudden change of behaviour.
"Liza please say something..."
"I.. I.. need to think... please give me some time..."
His expression changed. He gulped.
He was nervous.
"Liza...please..." he was scared.
"James.. give me sometime.
He held my arms.
"No.. now. I want you to say 'yes' now."
"You are again ordering me James."
His hands tighten on my arms.
"Liza.. I can't live without you... if you are still considering to marry someone else, I swear I am going to kill you first and then myself."
My eyes widen.
"James don't be stupid. What are you saying? And please listen I am not going to marry someone else for sure."
His hands loosen.
"Yes I will not marry anyone else if this give you some satisfaction but to marry you I need some time to think..." he narrowed his eyes but remove his hands and took some steps back.
"Take your time." He said and went to his car.
I saw his car disappeared.
Am I dreaming??
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A very big sorry to all of you! Last chapter will update soon. 😉