Lily's POV:
" jack ? Is that you ? " I asked through the phone.
" yea it's me, how are you ? " he asked me and I just replied with a fine. It felt weird talking to him. I didn't know what to say or how to feel.
" jack ? How's Daniel doing ? " I asked him.
" Lil he's heart broken still, I'm going to be straight out honest with you, he hasn't stopped loving you and we can all see right through him, he met this girl but it was only an excuse to get over you. It wasn't working very well " once jack had told me about that my heart melted, I couldn't help but to feel guilty.
" jack , can we meet up I need to talk to you please, you're the only one that can understand me " I sighed looking at the ground.
" yea we're in LA , we're on break for tour so I can plan something for the two of us " he said and I just lightly smiled under my breathe.
" thank you for giving me a chance to explain myself " I said.
" who are you on the phone with jack ? " I heard someone say. It seemed to be Daniels voice, god I missed his voice so damn much.
"don't worry about it, I got to go I'll see you tomorrow ? I'll text you where to meet me " he said and I just replied with a okay and then he hung up.
I missed them so much, now that Jake admitted that he didn't want to be in my life I was happy but then not at the same time, I was happy because that's all I ever wanted from him, I was sad because I thought maybe the baby will make Jake change and he will actually be there for me but I was completely wrong about everything. He didn't want to be a part of my life anymore and I know no one did, Logan doesn't seem to upset about it and I am not gonna force him to help me raise this baby when all along he doesn't want to. I know once the boys find out they'll hate me for good and that'll leave me watching the baby and raising him or her on my own. I wasn't financially, physically or mentally ready for this baby and that was going to be a huge problem for me.
Next day -
" jack ! " I screeched and ran up to him hugging him really tight, I didn't want to let go.
" how have you been you look different " jack said hugging me tight as well.
" I've been horrible, how is tour and how are the rest of the guys I miss them so much including Daniel " I sigh looking down at my hands, I couldn't help but to feel guilty again.
" how do you think he's been ? You made a bad move Lily, you broke his heart. He's not the same Daniel we used to know and it's not only hurting him but it's effecting us as well "
" jack that's exactly why I am here, no more lies no more broken hearts, I am done lying to the people I love just because of one stupid person forcing me to " I said as I had tears forming in my eyes.
" what do you mean Lil ? " jack asked and I just sat there dumbfounded. I didn't know how far to take the story I didn't know wether or not I should tell him only some things or all of it. But then again like I said, I am not longer going to hide anything from the people I love, I can't.
" Let's go for a walk and I'll explain everything" I said looking at him with shame in my eyes.
" basically, Jake held me at gun point and forced me to tell Daniel I no longer wanted to speak to him and that I was in love with him instead when non of that was actually true. He made everyone hurt me and he made me look like the worlds most terrible person. The guilt was taking over me but I knew I couldn't tell the actual truth to anyone. Not only did I lie to you all but I lied to Logan as well, he ended up saying mean things to me but we are okay now" I said and then took a pause to think what I was going to say next. I looked over at jack and he seemed to have tears in his eyes. He just nodded for me to continue.
" I never wanted to hurt anyone nor did I want to break Daniels heart, jack I was in love with him and I still am. Jake ruined everything for me, he made me get hated on by everyone that I ever loved and cared about and as much as it hurt me I couldn't do anything about it " I said and at this point my tears were flowing down harder than it usually was.
" after the sleepless nights of me thinking about you all and how much you guys hated me at that point I eventually needed my space, but no matter how hard I tried, nothing seemed to be getting you guys out of my mind. "
" Lily I am so sorry " jack whispered as tears fell down from his face along with mine as well.
" that's not even half of what I've been through" I said putting my head between my knees and trying my hardest to stay calm.
" please tell me everything " jack said wiping away a tear that fell down my cheek.
" Jake and I fought every single day till he came home one day drunk out of his mind, that was for sure the worst day of my life "
" what did he do to you ? " jack said holding my hand and gripping it tight meaning he was there for me. I was full on crying at this point and I didn't know wether or not I should say anything about what happened next.
" please tell me everything, even if there's stuff that you didn't want to, I'm not forcing you to tell me but I want you to know that I am here to listen to you and I am here for you "
" jack...he um h-he he took advantage of me and I couldn't make him stop " I said crying in jacks chest. I can tell he was mad because his face got gone red.
" I'm going to kill that bitch boy " jack muttered under his breathe angrily.
" is this all that happened ? Tell me please " he said and so I continued the story. No more lying, no more hiding the truth.
" I ended up staying at my aunts house which resulted in my cutting my wrists and bleeding out to the point where I was rushed to the hospital and unconscious, kade from team 10 stayed by my side through everything, he's like my brother and I am thankful for him. I needed an X-ray on my head but um " I said and bursted into tears, I couldn't finish my sentence I couldn't let him know he will hate me even more than he already did now.
" you're going to hate me " I cried in his chest.
" shhhh it's okay, there's no way I will hate you for anything, calm down a little and then you can tell me yea ? " he said and I just nodded. After about ten minutes of jack trying to keep me calm I was ready to tell him.
" jack ..... I - um I'm uh " I said but those words didn't seem to be coming out of my mouth, I don't know why I just couldn't say it.
" Lil are you pregnant ? " jack said looking directly in my eyes. He knew, he noticed that's what I was going to say. I didn't know how to reply to that all I did was burst out into tears for the millionth time today.
" oh my gosh I can't imagine what you are going through, it's not your fault Lil I am so so so sorry " jack said as he held me close to him.
" does that dick head know ? " he asked and I just nodded my head not wanting to get into detail as to what Jake had said to me.
" he doesn't want me in his life " I sighed.
" you don't even need him for starters you have me and Logan and the guys and I want to be there for you with whatever you decide "
" no jack I'm sorry but I can't let anyone of you get involved in my situations, Daniel will be heart broken if he found out about this and I am not over him yet so I really don't want him to say mean things to me " I sighed looking down.
" there's no way he's going to say mean things to you and I think if he knows the full story he'd start to understand you and forgive you more easily, Lil its worth a shot ". Jack said.
" no jack I'm going to move away from everyone and this time I know a hundred percent Jake won't come after me "
" are you insane !? You really think I'm going to let you move away from us and let you be on your own with a baby !? You're crazy lily " jack said shaking his head. That's exactly what I wanted to do. I didn't want help from anyone.
" come on tour with us, I'll take good care of you " jack said and my eyes just popped out.
" ARE YOU INSANE !? That's not gonna happen I'm sorry jack, it was nice seeing you & please don't tell the boys who you were with " I said hugging him and getting ready to leave.
" wait, promise me no matter what you might think of everyone else you'll atleast keep in touch with me ? " he said with pleading eyes.
" of course I will noodles " I smiled as I hugged him really tight. I wish I got to see the others as well. I decided to head back to Logan's and I was going to tell him that I'm going back to my aunts house but really I was going to look at apartments to rent, I wanted to do this and I didn't care if I was all by myself.
6 months later -
I'm now 8 months pregnant, my belly was huge ! I felt like a penguin and I couldn't walk anymore, I only had one month left till this little guy was born. Yes I said guy. About four months ago I found out I was having a baby boy. I couldn't be happier and the more I grew the more attached I felt to him. The last six months was not as good but I'm not complaining. I haven't heard from jake ever since, I watch his videos sometimes just to see what he's been up to and he seems to have completely forgotten about me, he's with Erika now and the fans love them a lot. It kind of made me upset because everytime I look at my belly he's all that comes to my mind.
Logan and I bearly talk, he's also been distant because he wanted to be there for me but I couldn't handle the hate that I would have received if the fans knew Logan was hanging around a pregnant girl. I forced him to let me move out and live a normal life but he didn't necessarily agree with it and that is why we've been so distant from each other.
Jack and I have been the closest ever since that day we had when I told him everything, he was like my best friend. He didn't want to lose touch with me because he wanted to know that his best friend was doing okay. He comes and visits me sometimes without telling the rest of the boys and I sometimes ask about Daniel because I miss him to the moon and back.
Daniel hasn't left my mind at all, I wanted him more than anyone and anything but I knew me being pregnant with someone else's baby was just a major turn off. It was never going to work out between the two of us and I knew that for a fact. I wish he can be here with me, & I wish he was the father because I know he'd be a great one. Jack had told me a bunch of times to finally tell him the truth and to stop hiding but I can't do that because I'm afraid of what he's going to think of me, so what I am doing at this moment is trying to move on, which is going to be super hard to.
My aunt Stella and I haven't talked at all ever since I ran away from her, she doesn't know where I am but she didn't bother looking for me so I knew that, that was the end of us. I wouldn't blame her but it's not like I got pregnant for the fun of it, she just doesn't know the real story and I didn't want to tell her.
Besides the people who are still in my life or the people who aren't I've been doing a good job at hiding my pregnancy from the media. I never go out of my apartment, I usually order my groceries and I'm in a gated community so it's hard for paps to come and find me. The media has been going insane at my "disappearance" but I think it's for the best. I've been going to every single ultrasound by myself, it is kind of upsetting to not have anyone so It's just me and my baby boy. I love him already and I would go insane if something happened to him. Besides jack he's the only person I have left. I just can't wait till he's out already. My phone lit up meaning I was getting a call and the contact said. ( best friend noodle 🍜)
(J) Heyyy hows my penguin best friend doing
(L) oh shut up noodle head haha, I can bearly walk now but I'm okay how are you?
(J) I'm good bestie, just wanted to check up on you to see how you and baby were doing (:
(L) awe ! You're so sweet, but you know you don't always need to check up on me, everyone is else is fine with not talking to me.
(J) I'm not like everyone else and if you listened to me and told Daniel he would have been there for you too because if he didn't love you then you'd be out of his head a long time ago.
(L) jack please stop, I already said how I feel about telling Daniel. How is he anyways ?
(J) he was actually asking about you yesterday and I had to act like I haven't talked to you because someone here is a baby.
(L) I am not ! I just have a strange habit of predicting how things are going to look and to me it doesn't look good so I'm not risking it.
(J) whatever you sayyyyyy anyways I have to go penguin call me if you need anything !
(L) thanks noddle Head I will lol bye 👋
I said and hung up the phone, this kid was strange but I loved him to pieces.
Jakes POV:
" aren't I just better than her ? " Erika asked sitting on my lap and I just licked my lips. Honestly she was, she wasn't afraid to give me what I want where as lily would always make a fight and cause a scene.
" of course you are baby, I love you so damn much " I said kissing her lips.
" what happened with her anyways ? " Erika asked and I just shushed her up.
" don't mention that little slut to me ever again, she's out of my life and you're my forever soul mate now I'll always love you babe "
" I love you more I'm so happy we're together tbh I never really liked her it was just all an act, I've always wanted you and you were to busy spending all your time with her " she said looking down upset.
" well you have me now and that's never going to change anything, let's get in bed " I smirked and she was down for it like always. Stop using people you scum bag.
To be continued ........
GUYS THIS STORY IS PROBABLY GOING TO END AT CHAPTER 50 OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT ! I KNOW ITS SAD BUT DONT WORRY THERES STILL ALOT MORE TO GO (: !!!