Emily-Grace POV
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I walk into Glee Club with my brother, Jake. Today, I'm not wearing my Cheerios uniform.
I'm wearing a loose white singlet that has music notes on it, ripped black skinny jeans, and some black converse.
A few people look at me funny. Probably because I'm suppose to be in uniform.
Oh well.
"Hey, where's your uniform?" Haylee asks.
"It's at home," I said quietly. I look at the ground.
"Oh, okay. You don't seem like your normal self today. Is something wrong?" She asks.
"It's nothing. I'm just...tired," I said.
To tell you the truth, I am really tired. I barely got any sleep. I kept having nightmares. SO, I stayed up the whole night.
I take a seat next to Jake and I put my head on his shoulder. Quinn and Mr Shue walk in. I smile when I see Mr Shue.
I knew he was going to come back today since he came back yesterday and he was in Ms Pillsbury's office.
"Hi everyone. It's good to be back," he said with a smile. Everyone cheers. "I hope that Quinn has taken good care of you all." Some people cheer. Of course, I wasn't one of them. "So, are you ready for Sectionals?" We all cheer again.
"I've got some good news everyone," Quinn said. I roll my eyes. "I'm going to be one of the teachers for Glee. Isn't this exciting?" Everyone cheers, except me.
"What about Yale?" I ask.
"They let me have an extended break because I've been working really hard," she said.
Why is she lying? Can't anyone tell that she is lying?
"This is going to be great guys," Mr Shue said. The bell rings. I walk up to Quinn.
"Why are you lying?" I ask. She smiles.
"Lying about what?" She asks.
"That you got an 'extended break'," I said with a little smile. I then realise something. "You don't even go to Yale anymore, don't you?"
"You know what? It's none of your business Puckerman."
"Stop calling me that! I'm not like my brothers and I never will be." She smiles.
"Well, then I guess it's only a matter of time before you are a TRUE Puckerman." She then leaves the choir room. I stand there, frozen.
What if she's right? What if I become a 'true Puckerman'?
"Hey Gracie, are you okay?" Jake asks. I nod and I run over to him.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I said and we walk to the cafeteria. I grab a tray and I hop in line.
"Hi Emily," Millie said. I smile.
"Hey Millie. You look different today," I said. She smiles.
"Well, I lost a bit of weight," she said. My mouth drops.
"Oh my gosh. How much?" I said excitedly.
"Just 18 pounds," she said. I smile.
"I'm so proud of you. You have actually made my day," I said and I walk over to the Glee Club table.
"Hey, where's your Cheerios uniform? Did Sue not want you on the team anymore?" I turn around and I see Lucas with Justin. Lucas stares at me. I look at the ground and I turn around.
"Hey, are you okay?" Marley asks.
"I think I'm going to be sick," I said and I hold my mouth with my hand. I then run out of the cafeteria and into the girls bathroom. I run over to a toilet and I vomit in it. I take deep breaths. The sickness feeling comes back and I vomit again.
Vomit again. It will make you feel good.
No, it won't.
I then vomit one last time. The sickness feeling is now gone.
I told you it would make you feel better.
I hear the door open.
"Em? Are you in here?" I flush the toilet and I walk over to the sink. I look over at the door and I see Ryder. "Em."
"I'm fine. I just can't fall in love again," I said and I look at myself in the mirror. I look horrible.
I have dark bags under my eyes, my whole face is red, my eyes are bloodshot, my lips are dry. I look like a mess.
Ryder passes me my bag. I open it and I grab my makeup out.
"Do you want me to stay?" He asks. I let out a sigh and I nod. I apply foundation to my face which covers my red skin and the dark bags under my eyes. I then apply some lipgloss on my lips. I turn and I face Ryder. "Why were you throwing up?"
"I wasn't putting my fingers down my throat like Marley did," I said. I then put my makeup back in my bag and I put the bag on my back. "I think I'm a bit nervous about Sectionals and from seeing Lucas hanging out with that stupid idiot at that popular kids table."
"Oh yeah. I saw him sitting with Justin," he said and I smile.
"Yeah...but I'll be alright. I mean, I've always been alright," I said and I leave the bathroom. Ryder follows me.
"Do you need company?" He asks. I shake my head.
"No. I'll be alright. I have to stop somewhere anyway," I said and I walk off, leaving Ryder standing outside the girls bathroom.
I walk into the Auditorium and I walk onto stage. I sit down and I look over at the band. They start to play. I smile at them. I sway back and forth with the music.
Emily-Grace:
Hurry up and wait so close but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste but you just can't touch
You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient, waiting
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen when it's supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time
You believe and you doubt
You're confused and got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours if they only knew
You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient, waiting
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time
When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there is one step at a time
Take one step at a time there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time
One step at a time there's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
That we find the reasons why, one step at a time
I stand up and I walk over to the piano. I sit there and I play some keys. I then hear footsteps. I turn around and I see Lucas.
"Wh-What are you doing here?" I ask.
"I came here to talk," he said.
"I don't feel like talking," I said and I grab my bag.
"Wait, Emily," he said.
"I've got somewhere to be," I lied and I walk out of the Auditorium. I take a deep breath.
How am I going to concentrate on Sectionals if I have him there?
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SONGS:
One Step AT A Time-Jordin Sparks