I sat up and just stared off into space the thought of me not seeing nova for months got to me and no one understood the feel of not having your kid and emptiness I felt not having nova around me or what she was doing I didn't understand how mothers willingly could just leave there kids like this human came out of me I felt her kick and move I sighed at the thought and looked over a jadens sleeping figure " stop staring at me I know you can't believe your nigga this sexy " I rolled my eyes at him and smirked and finally open his eyes to look at me " whats wrong ky ky" I groaned " stop calling me that I keep telling you that " he pouted and put his hand on my thigh I pushed it off and chuckled before pulling me onto his lap "stop being so sensitive and tell me what wrong with your sexy ass " when I didn't say anything for a while he slapped my ass I screamed and punched his bare chest he laughed and rubbed my ass gentle " nah but fr tell me what's wrong " I sighed then looked into his eyes " I just miss her so much you know " he looked at me for a while " do you miss nova or do you really just miss king " I frowned at him" are you forreal jaden are you going make this personal subject for me into a way to show your jealous ass " I start to climb off his lap but held me stable " stop acting so fucking sensitive Kyra alright I was just asking a question alright " I shook my head "whatever man " he bit his lip and rubbed his hard member into my cover core I moan softly surprised how I didn't notice before"j-jaden stop I'm trying to talk to you right now " he smirked " alright talk then " I tried but most of it came out a moan I just gave in
I groaned as jaydan kissed my neck as I put my earring on " stoppp we need to go your friends are waiting for us at the club " whatever buzz kill" we got to the club and the feeling of freedom hit me all over again all my worries melted away " yo Kyra and jay " jaden nodded at his friend went over to the vip section with me close behind " what took your asses so long " I smirk " well your home boy was eating my ass " all his boys laughed while he mean mugged me I shrugged and stuck my tongue out at him he pulled out the coke and my eyes lit up one I try to grab the small bag from his hand it was snatched "nope I was eating your ass remember" I rolled my eyes " nigga if you don't share you ain't getting anymore pussy "he sucked his teeth and placed it on the table " oh jay we see the midget got you in check " I stuck my middle finger up at all of the before doing two lines jaden out his hand on mine silently tell me to slow down I wiped my nose and nodded but i wasn't really listening as the night grew on I found my self mindlessly doing small line during the night at some point of the night I lost jaden and I wandered into the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror just staring at my self I was mess and I was lost mentally and physically just lost and I didn't know how to find myself and not only was I list but I was lonely so lonely that I looked for in a guy that gave me coke to avoid even having serious conversation with me the thoughts in my had just made me dizzy I grabbed onto the sink for support put fell over from the large amount of drugs in my system the room started to grow black I tried to keep my eyes open to afraid I would die with out seeing nova one last time