Chapter 17
Demi’s POV
I woke up to my ringtone going off for what seems to be the billionth time. Quickly I reached over and turned it on silent and allowing me to fall back asleep. Not long after I was awoken one more by my phone vibrating on the coffee table next to the couch. Who in the devil’s name would want me this badly that they would blow my phone up, especially this early in the morning?
I looked over at my phone and saw I had 55 text messages and 20 missed phone calls and 20 voicemails. What the actual hell? I thought to myself, I reached over and took a look at my phone, seeing that it was all guys who had sent me text messages.
Smartass Jonas (13 text messages, 5 missed calls)
Wilmer (Blah) (11 text messages, 2 missed calls)
Niall (13 text messages, 4 missed calls)
Styles (2 text messages, 2 missed calls)
Joe (4 text messages, 2 missed calls)
Cody Linley (12 text messages, 5 missed calls)
Shit what do all these guys want. Nick, who has been dying to meet Katie since I first told him I was adopting a daughter, so that is probably what his messages are about, that are also we kinda got close on tour. Wilmer, is the last person I want to talk to since he cheated on me while I was on my world tour. Niall, that cutie, we had a date a year or two ago but nothing happened from it. Harry, hmm I wonder why he is leaving me messages. Joe, oh dear...hopefully he still isn’t scared of me. And last but not least is Cody, hmm...we dated back in the day and even after we broke up we still were really close, but I will admit in the recent years he has gotten extremely cute.
Oh well I will look at all the messages and respond to them when I am fully awake. Now I am sleeping with my daughter, on my very large couch and currently I am extremely comfortable. I laid my head back down and looked down at my sleeping daughter and kiss her head, allowing my eyes to close once again and drift into sleep.
Katie’s POV
I woke up when I felt Demi kiss my head softly, and I could not seem to fall asleep. So I just allowed myself to lay there, in her arms and cuddling into her. I was extremely warm and comfortable in this blanket and using Demi as a pillow. Her phone is currently glowing and she has a bunch of messages. Seriously do people not not understand not understand this concept of sleep? I am super tired super tired even though Demi and I passed out on the on the couch before midnight. Soon I was bored and allowed myself to fall asleep once again.
Demi’s POV
I finally woke up for the final time and decided that it was time to wake Katie up as well and eat breakfast. I carefully got out from underneath Katie and walked to the the kitchen making a quick fruit salad before walking back to the couch to wake up my beautiful sleeping daughter.
Katie come on it's time to wake up. We have to eat breakfast.
Instead of waking up she rolled over on her side facing the back of the couch trying to sleep some more.
Katie, don't make me do it.
With no response, I reached over and started to tickle her. She sprung up with laughter trying to get away from me and my tickle hands. Not that it worked because even if I am clumsy I am kinda fast. Soon Katie was up and lazily walking over to the kitchen door. I stood up walking away from the couch, grabbing my phone in the process and following Katie. Not seeing the closed kitchen door I walked straight into it. Good going Demi, I thought to myself. I am such a clutz. Once I was able to actually walk through the door, I saw Katie sitting at the kitchen island eating a small bowl of fruit with a small sized bowl of cereal. I was proud of her for recovering slowly but surely, she is now getting closer to the healthy side for the weight of a fourteen year old girl. Katie looked up at me and with sass asked me
“What took you so damn long mom”
I rolled my eyes at her and walked over to the dish rack to grab my own cereal bowl to eat my own breakfast. Sitting down across from her I unlocked my phone and started to read the many text messages I had to read. Only reading the last one before I replied to all of them. What? I will read them all but after I answer them. Don’t judge.
From Cody
Hey Dem! I know we haven’t talked in a while, but I was wondering if you wanted to meet up soon and catch up.
To Cody
Hell yes Cody. When and Where?
From Cody
Tomorrow? I can pick you up and we can go to Starbucks or we can just watch a movie at your place.
To Cody
Sure that works but you can bring the Starbucks to my place and then you, my daughter and I can watch a movie together.
From Joe
Demi I need to talk to you
To Joe
What’s up Joe?
From Niall
Hey Demi!! I’m in LA for a few days and I heard you have a daughter. Can I meet her?
To Niall
Yes I do and of course you can. I should warn you that she is a slight directioner. I promise you she won’t freak out when she meets you because she’s met so many people who are known as the famous people but she may fangirl just a bit. She fangirled kinda hard when she met me and selena….she’s a huge lovatic and selenator.
From Styles
Dem warning Niall is excited to meet your daughter
To Styles
Thanks for that heads up Styles
From Wilmer
Please hermosa forgive me I was drunk. She didn’t mean anything to me
To Wilmer
Leave me alone Wilmer. I gave you a third chance and you fucked it all up….again. Stop begging for another chance.
From Smartass Jonas
D!!!! DEM!!!!!! DEMI!!!!! WHEN CAN I MEET HER!?!?!
To Smartass Jonas
Day after tomorrow? Sounds good to me hbu?
To Smartass Jonas
YES!!!
The rest of the messages were pretty much the same messages. Asking about meeting up or meeting Katie. I looked up and smiled lovingly at my daughter who is staring at her fruit salad, playing with it.
What’s up baby girl? I asked her
Nothing mom, just thinking. Is all she said.Is all I get from her. Really? Its much too simple of a reply from a complex girl
About what babygirl? Come on, I am here to listen to you. I told her
I know momma. Its nothing major. She told me
With that she got up and walked away from the island. I had an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach as I watched her walk away. I was able to hear her softly walking up the stairs. The uneasy feeling growing in my stomach.
Katie’s POV
I was pretty much in a deep asleep, woken up a little bit when Demi got up and out from underneath me. Feeling the warmth of her body mark on the couch I once again fell asleep. All too soon she came back and woke me up to eat some breakfast. She tried to wake me up by shaking me only for me to turn around and try to sleep facing the back of the couch. I did not want to wake up and I was the only one who knew why.
Ever since I got really sick and I was puking my guts out my demons came back. I relapsed, I barely ever eat and when I do its so hard to finish a full meal. I felt Demi staring at me as I played with my fruit salad.
What’s up baby girl? She asked me
Nothing mom, just thinking. A simple reply is all I gave her
About what babygirl? Come on, I am here to listen to you. She tells me
I know momma. Its nothing major. I told to her
With that I got up and walked away, climbing the stairs to go to my room. Hopefully then my demons will shut up. Knowing Demi she will be in her room listening for me which means I can’t purge but she can’t hear me cutting. Before I sit on my bed, I head into the bathroom and reach for my razor. I soon break it.
*TRIGGERING*
Once I break the razor, I give into my demons.
You are way too fat, you shouldn’t have eaten the food.
One slice on my wrist
You are good for nothing
Second slice on my wrist
You are so stupid, why would Demi even want you.
Third slice on my wrist
Just kill yourself already
Fourth slice on my wrist
*END TRIGGERING*
I don’t exactly know why I relapsed, but I blame it on being as sick as I was. When I was done making the cuts on my wrist I turned the cold water on and put my wrist under it. Letting it wash away all the blood coming from the cuts on my wrist, not to numb my wrist since it was already numbed from the slight pain I felt while cutting. Once my wrist was washed I put on a bandaid, I went to my closet to slip on my hoodie then went over to lay on my bed.
I felt a little woozy, I was soon fast asleep on my bed.
Demi’s POV
The uneasy feeling would just not go away from the pit of stomach. I could not put my finger on it not matter how hard I tried. It came when Katie would not tell me about what was on her mind. Hopefully she did not relapse. Maybe I should have sent her to rehab in the beginning of it all...but she would have died in there. I almost did not even make it out and I was 18 when I went into rehab. Fuck that. I was not about to send in my 14 year old daughter into that.
I walked up the stairs, walking in to her room only to find her fast asleep on her bed. I walked out and went to my room to think about it all. I might just call my mom….and thats just what I did.
(D- Demi, M- Demi’s Mom)
D- Hey mom
M- Hey Dem, What's wrong?
D- First of all its scary how you do that. Second of all- I have a bad gut feeling.
M- Call it mother's intuition. What started this gut feeling Dem?
D- Well I told you all about how Katie is going through the same problems I did...and at breakfast today I looked over to her, she was playing with her fruit salad. She barely ate her small cereal bowl and didn’t touch her fruit salad. She barely talked to me either. Before she got really sick she was going through recovery, she was doing really good. I am scared that she is relapsing.
M- Maybe she is. Did you think about send her to rehab or something like it?
D- Well yea I considered it, but shes 14. I barely survived and I was 18 when I went into it. No way I will send her to that. I’m strongly considering taking her to the doctors and having her tested for bi-polar disorder...just so I can know what to do and how it go about it.
M- Dem, you are starting to grow your mothers intuition. Do what you think is the best for her. I hope she isn’t relapsing but if she is, then she has the best person there to help her. YOU! Dem, you went through the same exact things….just talk to her
D- Alright mom I will. Thanks for the pep talk. Bye I love you
M- I love you to Dem, Give Katie my love
D- Alright I will momma
M- Bye Dem
Well my mom always knows what to say. I will talk to her later in the afternoon, about all this. What if I am the cause of it all? What if I am not a good enough mom? I started to doubt myself and get stuck in my head. Five minutes later my phone vibrated in my hand. I got a text from Maddie. Either mom told her already or she was listening to the conversation, either way I don't care if she knows...She cares so much about Katie.
From Maddie
Dem don’t doubt yourself. You are an amazing mom to Katie and she loves you with all her heart. I know this may be challenging but you and her can do it all. Stay Strong Dems <3, Do you want me to try and talk to Katie first and try and get some info out of her?
To Maddie
Thanks babygirl! I love you so much kiddo. You always know what to say to me. I am going to talk to her in the early afternoon and if I dont get anywhere with it, then you can try and peel back her armor a little bit.
From Maddie
Alrighty Dem. Love you to DemDem.
I have the best family ever its just that simple.
I start my descent of the stairs and decide to call her down later and have a little chat with her.
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Oh shit! Did anyone see her relapsing? I didnt....jk I did...Im the author after all. Okay I promise never to say that line or type it ever again. Don't get me wrong I love Dilmer and I am so happy that they are happy together....but this will not be a Dilmer story.
Anyways...so since I last updated a few days ago, my days have been really bad. I have almost thrown out a year & a half of hard work out the window. These last three days have truly sucked for me. I am not entirely happy with this chapter but I had to write to calm myself down.
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