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"What?" I ask looking at her confused.
"I said you're in trouble with them two boys."
"No I'm not. It's just awkward when they're together now, both wanting my attention." I sigh heading towards her.
"Just follow your heart then baby." Mum says holding my face in her hands and I close my eyes.
"Does everyone know about my feelings for him?" I laugh lightly feeling a tear trickle down the side of my face.
"Everyone but the boy himself my darling." She smiles wiping my run-away tear.
"I thought I hid it well." I say sighing as she pulls me into a hug.
"You do to him, but it's all in your eyes." She whispers tightening her grip, "You're just like me."
"That's what dad said."
"He's right."
I pull away from her and smile. "He's hurt me too many times mum, I'm sick of waiting around for him to never want me back."
"I know he has, you two aren't very quiet when you argue. But you know, once his eyes are opened; he'll love you right back just as hard and realise he has done all along."
"I'm not waiting for ever for that to happen though." I whisper. "I don't think he'll ever love me the way I love him. He sees me as his best friend and maybe someone to fool around with."
"He doesn't think that but if he does...please don't fall into that trap with him. You're friendship is worth so much more than a quick tumble in the hay."
"I won't"
Whoops...too late for that...
"Everything happens for a reason baby. Now I give it five minutes before Ash walks back in through that door to see you, he has no patience, so go wash your face."
"I thought that as well." I smile hugging her again as she kisses my cheek. "Thanks mum."
"I'm always here for you, remember that."
I nod at her before heading upstairs quickly to sort my face out. I'd just changed into my PJ's when Ash knocked on my door and walked in.
"Thought you'd be back." I say looking at him.
His eyes lingered on my face before quickly travelling over my body before landing on my face again.
I wasn't wearing anything flattering though, a pair of trackie bottoms and one of his old baggy tops.
"Why have you been crying Lou?" Ash asks walking over to me and rubbing his finger under my eye.
"I haven't."
"You can't lie to me." He says smiling his precious smile at me.
Oh I bloody can lie to you.
"Did Elliot do something after I left? Is that why you're crying?"
"No, don't be daft. He drove off when you did. I just had a little heart to heart with mum that's all."
"I can read your face like a book Lou, don't forget that."
"I know. So what brought you back?"
"You know why...we need to talk about last night...about today."
"Last night was a mistake Ash it shouldn't have happened."
Lies...lies...lies...
"No it wasn't. Last night was great, and today was a misunderstanding...on both our parts."
"You should have asked me what was going on before you kissed Nina."
"I know that, I could kick myself for jumping to conclusions. But you could have told me that you were breaking up with Elliot at lunch. What was I meant to think when I saw you kissing him in the corridor after you said you were ending it with him?"
"I know I should have, I'm sorry. We're both at fault."
"So, what do we do now?" He asks tipping my chin up to look at him.
"I-I-Errr."
Fuck my life, what do I say to him?
No, tell him the truth. I'm not messing around anymore.
"I'm with Elliot Ash." I whisper tearing my eyes away from him, I know mum said to follow my heart and right now it was screaming out to Ash, but how did I know that it wasn't quietly cheering for Elliot if I never gave him a proper chance?
"But...what about us?"
"What about us Ash? We're best friends; we were stupid to think we could ever be more than that."
"I don't think we even gave it a fair shot for us to give up."
"Maybe not. But every time something happened between us, something else would get in the way of it ever carrying on. Whether that be an interrupting brother, a phone call from a girlfriend or unfortunate misunderstandings...things always get in the way with us."
He nodded sadly at me and sighed.
"I have to give this thing with Elliot a proper chance, he deserves that."
"Everything happens for a reason right?" He says and I nod, "Well if we're meant to be it'll happen one day."
God I hope so.
My heart broke looking at him, he looked so sad. I wanted to let him in, to tell him how I felt but at the same time I didn't. I'm still not sure what his feelings for me are at the moment or whether they were real or just in passing. I knew mine however are too strong to keep to myself for much longer. I was just scared of what would happen if I confessed everything to him. Over the years he'd unknowingly hurt me over and over by dating and kissing these other girls. I wasn't dating Elliot out of payback to make him suffer; he really did make me happy when we were together. Now if Ash's feelings are real for me, he might get a slight insight of what I've been going through.
But I do wonder if Elliot is my Mr right or just my Mr right now?
"So what are you doing now then?" I ask him as he sat on my bed.
"Well I don't fancy driving home, so I'm gona crash here if that's okay?"
Elliot wouldn't be happy about that but I wasn't going to change all parts of my friendship for him. Plus we still hadn't talked about our argument properly yet, so nothing was set in stone. That's what I'm telling myself anyway.
"That's fine, do what you want. But I really need to get working on this dress."
"You work away; I've got homework to finish anyhow." He says pulling some sheets from his bag.
Heading into my wardrobe I pull out more of the material I'd be using for my dress.
"That's a lot of fabric Lou."
"Oh you'll see why once I've made the dress." I grin throwing it on the floor before rolling some out to measure it.
"I can't wait to see it." He grinned down at me. "You have to promise to show me your outfits before they make it on the runway okay."
"Okay." I laugh measuring out the bottom skirt.
I knew I wanted the dress to fall to the ground, so I had to adjust the mannequin down slightly so that it matched the right height. I needed to make sure that the dress I was making would fit the model correctly.
Ash would look up at me every now and again from his work and smile as I hurried about the room. I was hemming around the edge as Ash got off the bed.
"Where are you going?" I ask looking up from my spot.
"To get ready for bed, it's almost midnight."
"Oh wow, that went fast." I say finishing up what I was doing before placing everything that I had done tonight into a pile.
I got up and went to get ready for bed as Ash hunted in his part of my wardrobe for something to change into. I looked over what I was wearing; the t-shirt would do, so I pulled off my bottoms before brushing my teeth for the night.
"Damn you do look good in my tops." Ash says checking me out from the doorway.
"Haha, shut up will you." I say grinning at him as I rinsed out my mouth, toothpaste probably dripping from my mouth. Attractive. I let him get ready for bed I as I ran a brush quickly through my hair.
Before I knew it I was snuggling under my quilt when a set of two strong arms wrapped around me. I relaxed into them as I felt a kiss press against my neck lightly.
"Night Lou."
"Night Ash." I reply quietly before closing my eyes.
This was so hard.
I know I said that I was giving Elliot a chance...but right now lay in Ash's arms, I was wondering if all this felt so right and just perfect...
Why wasn't I following my heart??
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