When All is Lost One is Found

Door Rinoaebastel

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Severus Snape lives his life in shadows with the goal of redemption and the specter of his demise at the fore... Meer

Prologue: Another Year at Hogwarts
Chapter 1: Realizing Reality
Chapter 2: From Snivellus to Severus
Chapter 3: Hello Darkness, My Old Friend
Chapter 4: Serpent's Shackles
Chapter 5: A Place to Belong
Chapter 6: The Catalyst
Chapter 7: A New Purpose
Chapter 8: ... And They Fall
Chapter 9: His Penance for Her
Chapter 10: Lily's Eyes and Potter's Actions
Chapter 11: Exhausting Troubles
Chapter 12: Flying Cars and Petrification
Chapter 13: Exploding Potions
Chapter 14: The Voice of a Snake
Chapter 15: The Prisoner of Azkaban
Chapter 16: Triple Idiocy
Chapter 17: Threat
Chapter 18: Mark
Chapter 20: Back to a Double Life: Part 2
Chapter 21: The Pink Terror
Chapter 22: Teaching Against His Will
Chapter 23: Teetering on Edges
Chapter 24: Lured
Chapter 25: Curses
Chapter 26: Curse: Pt 2
Chapter 27: The Terrible Perfect Place
Chapter 28: Treading
Chapter 29: The Visit
Chapter 30: Future Blackened Soul
Chapter 31: New Term Distance
Chapter 32: A Class of Three
Chapter 33: Shaky Duel
Chapter 34: Meeting
Chapter 35: Shattered Trust
Chapter 36: Similar
Chapter 37: First Step in Trusting
Chapter 38: Only a Quill
Chapter 39: A Know It All's Mind
Chapter 40: Sharing His Darkness
Chapter 41: Another Session
Chapter 42: Battle Scars in Class
Chapter 43: Like a Warrior
Chapter 44: Snowy Closeness
Chapter 45: Reality Calling
Chapter 46: A Greater Fool
Chapter 47: Nightmares
Chapter 48: As Smooth as Broken Glass
Chapter 49: Tending
Chapter 50: Echoes
Chapter 51: Intervention
Chapter 52: Cause of Anguish
Chapter 53: Aftermath of Revealing
Chapter 54: The Dual Pleasing Invite
Chapter 55: Friends?
Chapter 56: Start of Holidays
Chapter 57: Guard Up
Chapter 58: Changing Christmas
Chapter 59: First Name Dueling
Chapter 60: Polyjuice
Chapter 61: Beautiful Souls Aren't Lies
Chapter 62: Apparating
Chapter 63: Battlefield Realities
Chapter 64: Pretty Polyjuice
Chapter 65: Emotion Evoking Owls
Chapter 66: Touch
Chapter 67: Burning Away the Past
Chapter 68: Training and an Unanswered Inquiry
Chapter 69: The Emergence of a Lioness
Chapter 70: Amortentia
Chapter 71: Focus on Formality
Chapter 72: Without A Stumble
Chapter 73: Enough: Part 1
Chapter 74: Enough: Part 2
Chapter 75: Patronum!
Chapter 76: Confrontation
Chapter 77: Fate's Deaf Ears
Chapter 78: Brown-Haired Weakness
Chapter 70: Dueling with Truth
Chapter 80: Variegating Scene
Chapter 81: Discovering Golden Cords
Chapter 82: Another of Many: Pt 1
Chapter 83: Another of Many: Pt 2
Chapter 84: No Turning Back
Chapter 85: Never Alone
Chapter 86: Lull Before the Chaos
Chapter 87: Avada Kedavra
Chapter 88: The Darkening
Chapter 89: Echoed Whispers
Chapter 90: The Dark Lord's Gift
Chapter 91: Burial of Bitterness
Chapter 92: Significant Seat
Chapter 93: Headmaster Snape
Chapter 94: Vaulted
Chapter 95: The Beast Bites Back
Chapter 96: Hope in a Slimy Man
Chapter 97: The Death of Begging Eyes
Chapter 98: Sky Fight
Chapter 99: Hourglass
Chapter 100: Giving Away the Past
Chapter 101: Small Confrontation
Chapter 102: Intruders
Chapter 103: Loyalty of the Phoenix
Chapter 104: Plans That Go to Hell
Chapter 105: Respite in the Bedlam
Chapter 106: Unexpecto Patronum
Chapter 107: Dual Evidence
Chapter 108: A Slytherin's Encouragement
Chapter 109: Depending on Dobby
Chapter 110: Torture of Loud Silences
Chapter 111: Fading Under a Watchful Eye
Chapter 112: The Dark Cloud
Chapter 113: Phineas Was Right
Chapter 114: Not So Friendly Fire
Chapter 115: Into the Chamber
Chapter 116: Death Knoll
Chapter 117: Power of Promises
Chapter 118: Outcome
Chapter 119: Everything
Chapter 120: Remnants
Chapter 121: Untying Ties and Lacing New
Chapter 122: Answering the Future
Chapter 123: Appearances
Chapter 124: A Lesser "Dark Hero"
Chapter 125: Very Slytherin
Chapter 126: Settled Past
Chapter 127: Grand Gestures
Chapter 128: Hogsmeade Trip
Chapter 129: Corridor Confrontation
Chapter 130: Return to Lady Slipper
Chapter 131: Guests
Chapter 132: Interactions and Respects
Chapter 133: The Cruel Betrayal
Chapter 134: Betrayal Memory
Chapter 135: Tears from Treachery
Chapter 136: Surceasing Vengeance
Chapter 137: Dueling Club
Chapter 138: Confirmed with Minerva
Chapter 139: Howler
Chapter 140: Fine
Chapter 141: Only Time Will Tell
Chapter 142: Telling Their Story
Chapter 143: The Lost is Found
Epilogue: Greasy Bat

Chapter 19: Back to a Double Life: Part 1

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Door Rinoaebastel


When All is Lost, One is Found

Author: Rinoaebastel

Chapter 19: Back to a Double Life: Part 1

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter and gain no profit from this fanfiction other than writing practice. Harry Potter is owned by JK Rowling.

AN: This story may contain scenes taken from the Harry Potter movies and books, but it's not exact dialogue, just rewording of dialogue or omission. It is not marked.

June 1995

The sweat fell from his neck and his bones ached from the need to maintain a stiff, strict posture. He couldn't deny that he'd felt the desire to run away like Karkaroff at the first itch. At how he felt the need to grab his arm and scream.

He needed to check it, but couldn't since they were still in the middle of the blasted challenge and Potter was still inside the labyrinth. He had to make sure he was safe. Dumbledore was here, but he wasn't a Potion's master and potions were usually needed during this event.

He locked his knees at the first sign of weakening legs, but couldn't contain a growl. Albus took his blue gaze away from their focus on the labyrinth. "Severus?"

The mark felt like it was going to rip through his skin and melt his arm. The only time it'd ever hurt this much was when the Dark Lord had disappeared. He opened his trembling hand, and he forced it to still.

"The mark it's--"

A scream of joy interrupted his words. They turned their focus on the couple that appeared at the labyrinth's exit. But one body was too pale. It was too quiet and still.

He looked at the other boy, bloodied and bruised. In an instant, he knew that everyone had been deceived. He knew that today one student had died and a monster had risen. It was just as Dumbledore predicted years ago when he asked for his aid. His time to protect the boy from the Dark Lord had come.

The joy turned into mournful and terrified screams the second people realized what had happened.

All this year had been a plot under their noses. But who? No teacher from this place would harm Potter and no one reeked of being under control of someone.

When he looked again, the majority of the students were crying and trying to comfort each other. The teachers tried to calm them down and get them to the castle in an orderly manner.

This was madness.

He couldn't find Potter among the chaos, and Albus was distracted with consoling Diggory's father. That young man didn't deserve this. That family didn't deserve to be ripped apart the way it was.

Another innocent victim.

And Potter was in the middle of it. The prophecy was right, and that was why Potter always was involved with something related to the Dark Lord.

He needed to find the boy because whoever did this wouldn't stop now that their master was alive. The fanaticism of the old Death Eaters was too high to ignore. So he tried to walk to Dumbledore, ignoring the burn on his arm. He paused when blue eyes met his, an understanding crossing between them saying that he too had noticed Potter wasn't there.

Dumbledore started to walk towards him. Snape turned toward the castle and moved, walking slowly until the headmaster caught up to him.

"Alastor Moody took Potter. He might not be what we thought, Severus. Go get some veritaserum and join me in Alastor's office with the minister as fast as you can. I'll go with Minerva and keep him from hurting Potter."

He inclined his head. "If you're sure."

"I can handle it, Severus, but if things get messy I will need your wand there too."

They parted ways and broke into elegant runs with their robes flying behind them.

-/-/-

The first thing he did was to send the message to the minister by flue. While the man came, he went to his stores and picked up the veritaserum vial without taking the time to read the label. It was the privilege of being an organized man. He made it back to Dumbledore's fireplace in time to see the minister cleaning his robes.

"Professor Snape, I was expecting Dumbledore to give the prize to the winner."

"There is no time for that. Accompany me, sir, if you please. Dumbledore and Potter are in danger." He didn't wait to see if the man would give him a word back and headed towards the Dark Arts Office. He heard the minister following behind him as he took his wand out of his sleeve.

When he slammed open the door, he saw the headmaster immobilizing Moody against the seat and Potter in a half-conscious state at the side. With his wand up, he rushed towards them. He uncorked the vial in his other hand before Dumbledore could claim his attention.

He forced the man to open his mouth, poured the transparent liquid inside it, and then held it shut.

He smirked when he felt the man swallow, and saw Minerva's ropes tying him tighter against the chair.

The minister came to their side.

"What is the meaning of this, headmaster?"

Albus turned to look at the minister.

"With the goblet's odd behavior we've suspected someone was involved with it. We'll know who it is in a moment."

Severus took the man's flask and smelled it. "This is polyjuice," he muttered and raised his wand towards "Moody". "Revelio!" A gold light erupted from his wand and hit the man.

Barty Crouch. How is it possible?" Dumbledore asked.

"Wasn't this man at Azkaban? Perhaps Black wasn't the only one to escape last year," the minister said.

"My father freed me because of my mother's plea. He hated me, but he did it for her. He left her in Azkaban and used polyjuice until she died to keep the disguise." Crouch licked his lips, a bit of spit coming out of the corner of his mouth with the actions. "Then I killed him. I put Potter's name in the goblet. I serve the Dark Lord and helped him return." He looked at Snape. "I'm not a traitor like you that scurried away. I gave glory to the Dark Lord and almost did what no other could. I almost killed that pathetic boy that stole our lord's power. You did nothing when you could have."

He wanted to punch the man in the face, but held his temper in check. He held the eyes without changing his expression at all. He felt the eyes of the minister and Minerva on him, doubting him.

"Where is Alastor Moody? Did you kill him too?" Dumbledore asked.

"No, he is alive in the trunk. I needed a fresh supplement for the Polyjuice potion. I took the other ingredients from Snape's stores. It was easy since he tends to blame Potter for everything."

Dumbledore moved over to the trunk and opened it.

"Minerva, stay with Severus. Minister, I assume you want to take this man into custody and to interrogate him further. He is our proof that the Dark Lord came back and that he'd used Harry Potter. Alastor and Harry will come with me to the infirmary. They need attention," Dumbledore ordered in his characteristically subtle way and everyone agreed.

Then, he was alone with Minerva and the Death Eater. A long night was ahead of them.

"You feel it, right?" Crouch said. "The Dark Lord is calling us and you know what happens when you don't come. Don't you."

He gripped his wand tighter. Yes. Yes, he knew what happened.

"Severus?" He ignored Minerva's worried call and pressed his wand further into their prisoner's skin.

"You don't know me."

The door opened again. Their skin prickled and spikes of cold shot down every nerve ending in him. His pulse quickened and he took a step back from his position when he saw the cause.

Neither Minerva nor he could move when the black mass flew at their side and bent toward Crouch's face.

-/-/-

Anger festered in the room. Crouch was soulless and being dragged to Azkaban as nothing more than a lump of flesh. Now they were there in the infirmary around Potter, his friends, and even the blasted mutt. The rage was tangible.

And for once, he shared the same feelings that the majority of the room felt. They were still discussing the decision to give Crouch the kiss of death with Fudge. It took all of his restraint not to wrap his hands around Fudge's neck and choke him in muggle fashion. He could see how it would release some hostility.

The bloody bastard was denying it! He was denying the Dark Lord was back. Even with all the evidence presented. It was tempting to press his still burning mark against the minister's face and brand him to the point it would be obvious to everyone that the Dark Lord had returned.

After the lull in the discussion, he stepped forward. He had to do this. They couldn't fight the Dark Lord alone. He pulled up his sleeve, letting his secret out in front of the children that already distrusted him.

His Dark Mark, alive and as fiery as the first time he took it, was exposed to all.

"Look at this if you don't believe," he snapped, barely holding in an insult toward Fudge. "It makes me want to rip off my arm. The Dark Lord calls his servants through this mark. He's calling for them even now." The minster trembled and took a step back as if he were going to run. "You have to do something!"

The minister looked away, fear and disgust on his face. "I don't know what you all are up to, but he's dead. No one comes back from the dead." He tossed Potter a bag, then, as if their downfall hadn't been revealed, put on his hat, and left the infirmary.
He let his sleeve fall back to cover the mark. "Coward."

"Severus, he's a scared man. His reaction is normal."

"So you aren't going to run?" Minerva asked.

"I am not like that man or Karkaroff. I am not a coward."

"I expect no less from you, Severus. I have faith in you," Dumbledore said and gave a smile that both irritated and calmed him.

"Before you go, I want you to know. We have to work together. Keep the grudges at bay. At least until this is all over. We have to be strong and trust each other."

What in the...Was he talking about Potter? Was he going to inform him of his work as a double spy? Putting that kind of faith in that weak child was risking not only him, but also the entire wizarding world.

He opened his mouth with the intention to protest, but the Headmaster turned his eyes from him to Potter's bed.

Was that man really going to...?

"Come, Sirius. It's time to let the old grudges be buried."

He meant Black? He couldn't be asking him to play friend with someone whose tormenting still haunted him. The dog moved from Potter's bed and narrowed his eyes.

The dog took the human form of a man he despised with his whole heart. He was less decrepit as he had remembered, but it was still the same face.

"Now, both of you shake hands to start a new beginning. We need both of you to trust each other as allies." Dumbledore's order made him ill. He could see equal disgust in Sirius eyes.

He extended his hand. This meant nothing to him, but he'd do it to placate Dumbledore. Fortunately, he worked alone so the contact with the mutt would be at a minimum.

Sirius took it. They squeezed each other's hands as hard as they could. They kept their gazes locked and didn't give up the grasp until the headmaster cleared his throat.

"All right. Now, Severus. I ask you again, are you still willing to do what you must do? I know you'll be in more danger than almost any of us, but you're the only one that can do it."

He'd told the man a thousand times that he was sure. He wasn't a kid making a decision on what flavour ice cream he wanted. "I am."

"Then, good luck tonight, Severus."

He turned and felt everyone's eyes following him as if he were going to his execution.

And he just might be.

AN: Heh... Hope you liked it. This is another one of my faves of the past. How he show the mark, how his fears come, how his pain returns... Our Severus, under that stoic face is human. I hope you liked it and tell me what you think if you can. I will post the second part in a couple of hours :*

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