Sina
2:35 am...
With Tahari sleeping peacefully in my arms, I gazed at the dark ceiling. Prior to the storm that was weighing heavy outside, the moonlight peeked through the blinds of my bedroom but now that the storm was cutting up; It was dark but my eyes adjusted. My mind was depriving me from sleeping and it was becoming bothersome to me. I didn't know what was going on with me and it was scaring me to be completely honest. Interfering with my thoughts, the lightning lit up the entire bedroom and not too long after, a clap of thunder sounded, causing Tahari to shift in her sleep. Not even realizing that I was doing so, my fingers ran through her unkempt hair. I closed my eyes for a second and with that I actually realized what I was doing and I took my hand away.
I sighed before opening my eyes. With the rain sounding against the window pane, I took my arms from around her and carefully lifted her and moved her over to the other side of the bed. I sat up and reached over and covered her up before getting out of bed. I grabbed my phone from the nightstand and unplugged it from it's charger before making my way out of the bedroom. I walked into the living room and turned on the old floor lamp that was in the corner. Taking a seat on the couch with my phone in my grasp, I sighed as I gazed down at the hard wood floor. Placing my attention on my phone, I went through my contacts until I came across the person I wanted to hit up. I pressed call and slid the phone to my ear, awaiting for an answer. "Hello", my yung answered.
"What's good man, what you on?", I queried not hearing an ounce of sleep in his voice.
"Shit, playing 2k, what's up?"...
"Slide through, I need to talk to you man", I said getting straight to the point.
"Everything good yung?"...
"I don't know man, just come through", I said almost sounding desperate to talk to my nigga.
"Aight man, I'll be there"...
"Aight", I said before ending the phone call.
Placing my phone on the end table, I stood to my feet and made my way to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, I let my eyes roam. Not really knowing if I was in the mood to actually eat something, I closed the door and let out a sigh. I don't know what was eating at me. Taking notice of the report that my lady aced on my icebox, a smirk crept upon my face. I've never cared so much for a woman aside from my mother but I held Tahari on a pedestal, so high that I loved her just as much. I love her more than I do myself and I felt it deep and it's taking a toll on how I was feeling at this moment.
Straightening up my face, my eyes roamed her report, admiring her handwriting. I sighed at the fact that I took it as far as putting her report on my icebox. Once my mind settled on the day that I actually put this up, it cut deep. Hours later, prior to that, she was shot and I was heartbroken.
Knowing that she could've died because of me still sat on my heart. Up until this day, I still thanked God for not taking that beautiful soul away from me. I was thankful that she was and still apart of my life. Taking the paper away from the icebox, I took a seat at the table and gazed at it. Although the day ended terribly, everything leading up to that moment were highlights of a bond that we built. Learning the basics about each other, the simple things; with them words followed the actions. She even lined me up. That young woman stepped into my life and surprised the hell out of me, being that she was such an innocent soul, she's been holding down a ruthless ass nigga. She, in so many ways kept a nigga leveled.
Gazing at the A+ on her report I smiled. "My lil baby a dreamer", I said to myself and with that, there was a knock on the door.
I stood from my seat and put the report back before making my way to the front door. Unlocking the door, I opened it to see A.j. "What's up yung", I greeted as I gave him a pound hug.
"What's up", he greeted as he walked all the way in and closed the door behind him.
I walked over to the couch and took a seat and A.j took a seat on the opposite couch. Leaning forward, I ran my hand over my face. "What's goin on yung?", A.j queried.
I sighed before gazing his way. "I don't feel like myself yung. Something went down and now I feel like a different person man", I said not even knowing how to explain what it really was.
He furrowed his eyebrows."What you mean?", he queried.
"I hate to tell me and my lady's business but I need to talk, I gotta vent man. I'm goin through it heavy.", I said as a clap of thunder sounded throughout the house. "It went from gettin this girl mad, tryin to get her to hit a nigga, to me seein my name branded on her body.", I said which caused A.j to wear a surprising facial expression.
"That was it man, that was it for me. Lettin a nigga know that she wants to go the forever route with me and shit, one thing led to another and I'd admit it, I made love to that girl. I was her first and aside from fuckin these broads, she was my first too. It's like it was more than gettin a nut. I felt how much she loved me through it and my body had the same reaction man. I felt like we were one person yung.", I said not believing the words that fled my mouth.
"You know what's crazy man? Seein you like this, trippin heavy over a female.", he said followed by a sigh. "The fact that you hit me up at this hour to have a conversation about how you're feelin about her, the shit you're feelin is settin in you deep, that it's all in ya demeanor yung. This is the first time I've ever seen you this way and to be honest man, I'm glad that she came into ya life when she did. Y'all a dope match in all honesty, ya heard me", he said.
I took in every word that he said...
"I hear you. I messed around and told her that I couldn't let her go afterwards man and I didn't even mean to say it but it just came out. I don't even know what the fuck is really happenin yung. My emotions got me deprived from sleepin. My mind is all over the fuckin place and I can't focus on shit but them words that I said to her.", I said as I clasped my hands together.
"I hear you yung. Tell me what was goin on before you said that shit. What were you thinkin about once y'all got done with that shit?", he queried giving me his full attention.
I sighed not even knowing where to start. "Her scent, the way she felt, her voice, the way she responded to me.", I said in confusion. "I became jealous right after and I had no reason to. Knowin that I was her first, knowin that she got my name branded, knowin that she could damn near be with any nigga out here but she clings to me and I'm clingin to her. It's like my entire bein was tellin me that this woman was made for me and only me. This feelin is beyond the broads I used to fuck with yung. She is so down for me and I already thought I was down for her but what we shared, shit, nigga what we shared made us as close as possible. It's like our souls clinged together and if I wasn't in love with her before, I'm deep in love with her now man and it scares the fuck outta me.", I said and with that A.j spoke.
"And that right there answers what you thought you didn't have the answer to", he said. "She is the love of ya life man, ya better half, ya best friend and the funny thing about it is, she is what you're not used too. She stick out like a sore thumb. She a real one and I'm glad you're happy nigga. Been through a lot out here and the fact that you finally got ya peace of mind in the form of a beautiful black queen, that's the biggest blessin any nigga like us could receive. Hold her down nigga and don't even question goin the forever route with her. Came into ya life, a blessin in disguise. I bet ya ass didn't plan to fall in love with that girl when you met her.", he said and with that I couldn't help but smile at our first encounter.
"Came in here askin if a nigga lived in a bando, callin me Mr. Sina and shit.", I said followed by a sigh. "Never thought that she would end up meanin the world to a nigga. Never thought I'd fall in love with someone I've never touched. I was deep before fuckin even came to mind and shit. Shit, it even feels foreign and wrong sayin fuckin when she's the topic of discussion. I found my happiness in her man", I said followed by a sigh. "I can't let that girl go, it's dawnin on me now, ya heard me", I said as I gazed down at the floor.
"Take care of my lil baby man. I swear she puts me in the mind of how Aiyanna would've been once she hit her teenage years. That's really my sister man.", he said. "Keep, cherish, love and protect her and watch her do that twice as much", A.j said and I took in what he said, I took in damn near everything that he said to me.
"I am, I got to", I said sincerely.
A.j rested his back against the couch as he let out a slight chuckle. "Look at my nigga, finally found someone worth holdin on to. Done unintentionally found a himself a keeper.", he joked.
"Yeah man, she's a keeper", I said smiling at the thought of her.
"Smilin and shit, ugly ass nigga.", he continued followed by a chuckle.
"Fuck you", I said not really caring about the shit that fled his mouth.
"So, when you saw that tattoo, what came to mind?", he queried.
I shrugged. "That whole gettin her mad shit worked out. She hit a nigga and it got outta hand and she kept hittin me in my face. Had to push her ass against the wall like calm the fuck down and that bandage that she had on her collar bone slipped and nigga when I tell that I was at a loss of words nigga...", I said before sighing."To get a nigga's name branded on ya body, man my mind was blown. I had so many questions but the apparent thing was that she loved a nigga and I loved her too. Nigga I went far, that shit triggered me so much that I fucked around and ate the box man", I stated.
Raising his eyebrows, he spoke."Oh word? That nigga who always talkin in third person, "Aug don't eat no box" done came through and ate that mothafucka", he said followed by a slight chuckle. "Nigga you bout to grow some real facial hair", he continued.
Laughing right along with this nigga, I spoke. "Fuck you nigga but real shit man, she's somethin special to a nigga", I said as my laughter died down. "I damn near feel weird as shit sittin around talkin about her. This what females do man, when they crushin. She got a nigga hittin up my bro at damn near three in the mornin talkin about I need to talk. Got a nigga wide open out here man.", I said followed by a sigh.
"Nigga it's all good, shit, I may be hittin you up soon, late at night about Jade", he said followed by a shrug. "Shit, if you can't have this type of conversation with ya brother then what the fuck are we brothers for? I ain't judgin, you love that girl and I see the shit, so I understand, ya heard me.", he said.
I took in everything that he said. "Aight man, let's dead this subject, I'm done bein in my feelins and shit. You wanna roll up?", I questioned in reference of a blunt.
"Yeah nigga, roll up", he said.
Once we rolled up, we smoked ourselves into oblivion. Time carried on and A.j ended up leaving and I found myself lying in bed with Tahari. Gazing at the ceiling that was now lit in blue due to daylight peeking through the blinds, the storm calmed down, leaving nothing but a simple rain shower sounding outside. My mind was clouded with what me and my lady shared alongside the conversation that me and my yung had, prior to this moment. I still couldn't seem to sleep, despite my eyelids were heavy. I was over thinking. Shifting in her sleep, Tahari found her way on my chest, lying her head upon my heartbeat. Reaching up, she began teasing my curls, softly. At an instant, I became relaxed as she continued to do so. After a moment my eyes slowly shut and her gentle touch made me fall asleep...
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"August Alsina does more than protect his woman from harm. He protects her heart, her reputation, and her feelings. He guards her sexually and spiritually. In short, he protects her mind, body, and soul and his woman, Tahari Campbell does the same for her man"...
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