"come on lexus wake up please.... wher es the pack doctor! Why isn't he here yet!?" i heared someone speaking... almost growling but trying to remain clam at the same time but i couldn't exactly put a finger on who it was . I just knew that person wanted me to wake up but i felt so confortable sleeping i didn't want to. I felt like i was floating i didn't want to wake up but something in me told me i had to. When i sleep i didnt have to worry about anything. well almost anything but still i didnt want to open my eyes at least not yet.
When i had my eyes closed it seemed as if i didn't have to worry about the rest of the world. It was just me and that was it but something seemed off.
"Lex please baby." and i recognized the voice. It was Hunters voice. It was because of Hunter that i had to wake up i couldn't do this to him i loved him. And i was just causing him pain by doing this.
I tried to wake up my body and slowly bit by bit i opened my eyes and raised my hand to cover the light from them. My body seemed numb at first as i tried to move a bit more.
"Hu...hunt...er?' i struggled to say my throat felt dry and i could hardly talk or even recognze my voice and the light wans't helping out one bit.
"Oh my god lex you scared me! I came to find you passed out! and its been about 10 minutes youve had me scared!" his eyes were watery. I felt a pang of hurt hit me i had made him feel as if he had lost me for 10 minutes.
"im sorry babe." i said and kissed him
"its okay meanwhile you are okay. Do you feel sick? do you need a doctor?" hunter asked and i nodded no he didn't seem so certain but let it go
"Just some water please" i said and he nodded and came back with my water bottle and i drank all of it and tried to sit up but he made me lay down
"What happened?" he asked as he helped me
"My father he's dead... Rouges.." i said looking at the note that was on the floor. "I need to go back his burial is in two days and the alpha position needs to be filled in before the pack takes command" i said and looked at hunter scared
"Lexus it's okay" he said and hugged me
"No it's not Hunter my father he died because i wasn't there to help out because i left him alone" i cried onto Hunters shoulder
"Lexus you leaving was the right thing imagen if you had been there if your father hadn't been able to help you out.... I can't help but think of that i would have never meet you" he said and i nodded he was right.
If i had never left i would still eb living my crappy life and would have never meet Hunter and be as happy as i was but i still couldn't warp my head around it. My father.
My dad couldn't be dead. I loved him. I didn't even get to say sorry i was such a disappointment. I knew that even though i wasnt what he had always wanted i was still his daughter and that he loved me or at least i think he did. But the thought of never being able to see my dad smile at me or tell me anything again seemed to break my heart even more than before
"Lex it's okay I'm here for you. Just let it all out. Okay just let it all out." and i keep on crying into his shirt and he let me.
"I'm ruining your shirt." i said as i keep on crying. And i heard him laugh a bit
"It's okay. You are my first priority." and he hugged me tight but not tight enough to hurt me.
"I love you so much hunter. Please don't. Ever. leave. Me. I can't even think of living a second without you." i said and hugged him as tight as i could without hurting him.
"I can't think of living without you Lex." he said and hugged me back and i felt calm and safe in his arms.
I guess i must have been a mess because we didn't talk for a while after that we just laid there. He held me and told me small sweet things and i was glad to have him with me so i just remained silent and listened to his voice. i calmed me down and i was glad. I felt tired and closed my eyes again. and let sleep over come me once more.
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Hunters P.O.V.
I felt her drift off into a peaceful sleep. Poor of Lexus. I knew what she was going threw. It hurt a lot to loose someone you love from one day to another. Fo her it was worst because hs ehadnt seen him in a while.
I had also lost my dad because of rouges. But the difference between me and her was i lost both of my parents that day. I was left to be alpha of my fathers pack. yes I am alpha.
I didn't like it but i did it so my father felt proud of me. So he knows that his son grew up to be a well man. That he grew up to be loved by this beautiful she wolf. WHo was next in line to take her fathers alpha position. She was going to be a female alpha. Very rare. But sometimes happens.
I also lost my mate a year ago. But that was because her father wanted her to marry another packs alpha. She was afraid. She was carrying my pup. She ran away leaving her family behind. leaving me behind. Afraid i would get hurt. But a hunter caught her and killed her. He took away my love. My life. My pup. I didn't think i would make it threw life without her, but after a year i meet lexus and my reason of living was her.
I stared down at Lexus. I wish i was her mate. I would never hurt her like her mate did. She is beautiful and I'm not talking physically. Even though she is. She is beautiful in the inside. She has a big heart. And such a way with people. One day maybe she will love me as much as i love her. But for now i can say she is my soon to be wife.
I was going to be here for her through it all. SInce i knew she needed the company and because i love her and for her i would give her anything to make sure she was happy and safe. EVen if she didnt love me. i love her and thats all that matters for now.
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*Lexus P.O.V.*
~~dream~~
"I hate you! Don't You understand you stupid little weak ugly fat mutt! I will never accept you as my mate! So run off now and go pig out as you do because to me it doesn't matter what you do as long as you stay out of my way!!" screamed Peter, my mate. I tried to hold in the tears as i spoke.
"How can you say that Peter we are mates! We are meant to be and love each and grow old and have a family together don't you get that me going against that is suicidal! I love Peter please don't tell me you hate me because i know you don't you could never hate me." i cried but he didn't listen he growled at me making me flinch even thought i hate alpha blood in me the thoguht of my amte being mad at me hurt.
"Why would i want you? Huh tell me when i can have any other girl here at any time i wanted i don't want you now and i won't want you tomorrow or the days after that/ Not ever!." he screamed at me and tears fell from my checks
"There you are baby i was looking for you.... i was wondering if you wanted to have some fun right now in the janitor's closet maybe. Who is she??" a blonde bimbo said and asked as she wrapping her hand around his arm. Winking in a disguting way at my mate he looked at her and smiled.
"Yeah i ahve nothing better to do and i'm done here and she's noone don't worry aboout her babe lets go." and he started to walk off but stopped and came back and looked at me i smiled at him thinking he had comed back for me but his words slashed me in half (not literally guys)
" I, Peter McCall reject you Lexus Casey Vile as my mate and stay out of my way or i promise you will regret it!" he said and then walked away with the blode bimbo leaving me to cry over him.
~~End of dream~~
i julted up sweating from the memory even though it had while ago Peter's rejection still haunted me and hurted me but not much as it did before. Even after a whole year or so i still missed him but me and my wolf had gotten used to the idea of him out of our lifes and that we love Hunter. I knew it was dumb but i couldnt help it so i just tried to shake it off. I sat up and saw i was alone i calmed down my heart beat a bit and looked around again.
I cleaned my forehead and looked around for Hunter some more but still came up empty. I looked around the room again but still nothing where could he have gone? Not that i was a jealous type that had to know his every single move but i still cared about his safety.
"where is he?" i asked and stood up and went looking for him. Maybe he had some alpha business he needed to attend to and didn't want to wake me up. yeah that's it nothing worry i thiink....
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