{edited}
May POV {high school}
Today I'm dreading.
So much.
Harry leans against his car and our fingers play with one another.
He leaves today.
"Drive safely." I say to him and I turn my eyes away from him.
"Okay." His voice is low. I press my head against his chest and screw my eyes shut.
"I love you."
"I love you more, May." His lips touch the top of my head.
Within 5 minutes Harry's gone.
Within 5 minutes I feel that emptiness float back into my heart and drown my feelings.
I don't know when I will see him. I don't know the next time I will talk to him.
Hopefully it's soon.
May POV {college}
"This is going to be so fucking fun!" Adam exclaims with wide eyes as we all put our boxes in the living room. A smile creeps onto my lips.
"Who knew we all would be living together?" I say. "Especially with Adam." He scoffs.
The apartment I like, a lot. The walls are white and we have fluffy white carpet. The kitchen is a decent size and all three bedrooms are quite big as well. There is two bathrooms.
Since Adam feels "outnumbered" he gets his own. I don't mind sharing one with Ronnie. I spent 18 years sharing one with Sadie.
"When do you start class?" Ronnie asks me.
"Tomorrow." I chuckle. "You?"
"Tomorrow." We both smile. "Adam what about you?" She asks him.
"Next week. In the mean time I'm going to buy a couch and shit. My Mom gave me tons of money." A greedy smile goes onto his lips.
***
The campus is huge.
I feel scared.
My anxiety racks up making my fingers fidget and my heart pound.
Today will be fine.
Why wouldn't it?
I think it's just the fact that Harry is somewhere on campus makes me sick and nervous. I don't want to bump into him. I don't want to remember him all that much.
I snap out of my thoughts and get out of my parked car. The sky is gloomy and chatter is being made all around. I throw my hair into a messy bun and take a deep breath.
Just get through the day.
***
I've managed to find all my classes. My professors were very lenient with all the new people being late. The upperclassmen, not so much.
I didn't recognise any faces, which I'm happy about.
I don't want to be known as 'stutter freak' anymore. I just want to be May. I don't want people here to know that I got bullied in high school or anything.
This is fresh start.
I press the button saying up on the elevator and wait. Soon the doors open and all the air leaves my lungs.
He stares at me.
I stare at him.
None of us say anything.
"You're the new person living here?" I hear Harry's voice ask. I can't tell if he's happy or not. I manage to nod 'yes', even though all I feel like doing is crying.
Silence fills between us.
His voice has gotten deeper, his hair is a bit longer, he's gotten taller again, and he looks a bit older.
He's nearly 21 now.
Fuck.
Harry doesn't say anything else. He walks away and leaves the apartment building.
I thought I was over him.
I thought the feelings I had for him was only just a memory of us and what I used too feel; but no. Seeing him now, all I remember is what I've felt for him since the first night he kissed me.
Tears pick my eyes and I repress the button again a few times before tears start leaving my eyes.
The elevators door open and I step in and press floor 14.
A gentle sob escapes my mouth as the doors close.
A://N
Short chapter but ehhhh
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~lauren