"Hoy, Beatriz. Ano na? Kaya pa?"
The only answer that Bea's companion got from her as she slumps face first on the table is a muffled noise that sounds more like an annoyed grunt.
"Ano bang balak mo? Get drunk until you pass out? May pasok pa tayo bukas huy!"
"Maki, if all you will do is bug me all night then you can go ahead. I can take care of myself."
"Ano ako sira? I'm not going to leave you here when you can't even sit properly. Kapag may nangyari sayo, konsensya ko pa!"
Bea did not bother to respond. Sa totoo lang kasi ay nahihilo na rin siya. Hindi na nga niya mabilang kung ilang bote ng beer na ang nainom niya mula ng dumating sila dito sa bar kasama ng high school best friend niya.
It's been over a week since that night but Bea still can't get Jho out of her mind. She's like a lost soul floating through her classes. Even her close friends have noticed her weird behavior and they've been asking her what's wrong but she can't say anything because she made a promise.
Hindi pa din sila nagkikita ni Thirdy at pati na rin ni Fel dahil umiiwas at nagtatago siya hanggat maaari. She just doesn't think she can look at Thirdy straight in the eye without feeling guilty and at the same time, she doesn't want to have to explain herself to Fel on why she left her at the party.
What makes it worse is that she can't find it in herself to regret what happened. She thinks that she will do it all over again if she would be given a chance.
Yes, that's how much of a shitty friend she is and how hard she has fallen for Jho.
Para na siyang mababaliw. Hindi na niya alam ang gagawin niya sa sarili niya at walang laman ang utak niya kundi yung nangyari sa kanila ni Jho. She can't even concentrate on anything else other than the fact that she slept with Jho and cheated on her best friend.
Iniangat niya muli ang ulo niya at agad na tinungga yung beer na hawak niya. She can see from her peripheral vision that Maki is now looking at her with concern. Hindi niya iyon pinansin at nagpatuloy sa pag-ubos nung mga bote ng San Mig Light na nasa harapan niya.
She sighs heavily and runs her hand through her hair as the images and memories start to clutter her mind once again. Kusang napapikit ang mga mata niya nang unti-unting bumalik sa kanya yung mga nangyari nung gabing yun.
Bea's a little tipsy but she knew that she's not drunk. She's starting to lose sense of what's happening around her, though, as she continued to feel Jho's lips on her own. Parang lumulutang yung pakiramdam niya na hindi niya maipaliwanag habang patuloy pa rin sila sa ginagawa nila.
She honestly never thought that this would happen again tonight. That she would get to kiss Jho again like the first time and taste her sweet and soft lips. This is the girl that she's been thinking and dreaming about for the past few months and she just initiated the kiss between them that Bea graciously accepted.
Kung panaginip man 'to, ayaw na niyang magising.
Mabilis ang mga pangyayari at namalayan na lang niya na nagda-drive na siya pabalik sa unit niya kasama si Jho. It was obvious that the girl beside her was intoxicated and she was silent in the car the whole drive back to her place.
Sobrang lakas ng kabog sa dibdib ni Bea habang nasa elevator na sila ng building niya. Hindi niya din magawang magsalita dahil pakiramdam niya ay bigla na lang matatauhan si Jho at iiwanan na lang siya basta.
But there's also a voice at the back of her head telling her that this shouldn't be happening. Hindi dapat nila 'to ginagawa in the first place. She doesn't want Jho to do something that she will regret later. She shouldn't be taking advantage of her vulnerability just because the girl was drunk and clearly not thinking straight.
Iyon ang nasa isipan niya hanggang sa makarating sila sa harap ng unit niya. Hindi niya agad binuksan ang pinto at hinarap niya si Jho para titigan ito. Namumungay pa ang mga mata nito habang nakatingin sa kanya na parang gustong magtanong kung anong problema.
Agad na nabaling ang tingin niya sa mga labi ni Jho at naalala na naman niya kung gaano kalambot iyon. She then briefly closed her eyes to try and control her raging hormones and stop all these unwanted thoughts she's having for the girl in front of her.
What was she doing? Bakit niya hinayaan na umabot sila sa ganito?
Agad siyang dumistansya kay Jho. Napasandal siya sa may pintuan at napahinga ng malalim.
Goddamn it, she's royally screwed.
"Bea..."
Napamulat siya agad ng marinig niya ang pagtawag ni Jho sa pangalan niya. Dahandahang lumapit muli si Jho sa kanya at hinarap siya nito habang nakatitig sa mga mata niya. Napatitig lang siya pabalik na hindi alam ang gagawin o sasabihin sa mga nangyayari.
Those eyes, she thought. Stop staring at me with those eyes or I wouldn't be able to stop myself and jump you.
Pero laking gulat ni Bea ng walang ano ano'y muli siyang sinunggaban nito at naramdaman na naman niya ang paglapat ng kanilang mga labi. Hindi siya agad nakatugon at para siyang naistatwa sa kinatatayuan habang si Jho naman ay patuloy pa rin sa paghalik sa kanya. Unti-unti na siyang nadadala pero sinusubukan niyang huwag magpatangay. Siya 'tong hindi lasing sa kanilang dalawa kaya siya dapat ang mas may kontrol sa mga nangyayari.
Ano ba kasi 'tong problema ni Jho? Bakit ba niya 'to ginagawa sa kanya?
"Jho..." Bea whispered while trying to resist Jho's kisses, "Jho...what are you... doing?"
She was trying to get a hold of her self-control because she knew it was wrong but the other girl was making it impossible for her.
Lumipas pa ang ilang minuto at hindi na rin niya napigilan ang sarili niya. Tuluyan na rin siyang tumugon sa mga halik na iyon. It was as if the lamb was freely offering herself to the lion and who was she to resist such temptation?
Ugh, bahala na!
Wala na siyang sinayang na oras at humiwalay siya sandali dito para buksan ang pinto ng unit niya. She's letting go of all of her inhibitions to savor this moment with this girl. Wala na siyang pakielam kung pagsisihan niya 'to sa huli dahil ang mahalaga sa kanya ngayon ay ang makasama si Jho.
She didn't bother to turn on the lights as they entered and she immediately grabbed Jho by the waist to kiss her once again. Hindi niya maiwasan na mapingiti habang naramdaman niya ang muling pagganti ni Jho sa mga halik niya. Her kisses were simply addicting and Bea can no longer stop herself even if she tried.
Bea's kisses slowly travelled to the other girl's jaw and onto her neck. She can feel Jho's heavy breathing as she trailed her lips on her shoulder and carefully pulled on the dress she was wearing to have more access on her skin.
Lalong tumindi ang pagiinit na nararamdaman ni Bea ng tuluyan niyang maibaba ang suot na dress ni Jho hanggang sa bewang nito. She was wearing a strapless black bra and the sight of it only added more to her lust.
Everything became like a blur and she found herself guiding Jho to her bedroom. Sa totoo lang ay tuluyan na siyang nawala sa sarili niya. She wanted Jho so much in that moment and she's willing to give everything just so she can have her. Her morals be damn.
Ibinalik niya ang halik sa mga labi ni Jho at dahan dahan itong inihiga sa kama. Nang maihaga na niya ay sandali siyang humiwalay dito at tinukod ang mga braso sa pagitan ng kanyang ulo para titigan ang mukha niya. Napakagat na lang ng labi si Bea nang magtama ang tingin nila ni Jho habang nasa ibabaw siya nito. She can see that Jho was carefully scanning her face with bruised lips and glassy eyes. She desperately wanted to know what she was thinking at the moment but the girl was already pulling on the collar of her suit to crash their lips once again.
Naramdaman niya ang unti-unting paghila ni Jho sa suot niya kaya wala na siyang sinayang na oras at nagmamadaling hinubad iyon. Nang undies na lang ang natira niyang suot ay agad niyang inabot yung comforter sa may gilid ng kama para ipantakip sa mga katawan nila. Lalo siyang nag-init ng maglapat ang mga katawan nila at naramdaman niya ang malakas na tibok ng puso ni Jho ng niyakap na siya nito ng mahigpit sa ilalim ng kumot.
It was as if there was a magnet pulling them together and their lips were automatically on each other as soon as their faces got close. Hindi pa rin makapaniwala si Bea na nangyayari 'to ngayon at ninanamnam lang niya ang bawat halik na pinagsasaluhan nilang dalawa ni Jho.
"Uhmmm," Bea heard Jho moaned when she gently bit her lower lip as the kiss continued. She was too consumed with what's happening that she unconcsiously let her hands caressed Jho's stomach and it slowly wandered to her breasts. She heard another moan when she gently cupped and kneaded Jho's breasts over her bra as she deepened the kiss and her tongue was inside the other's mouth in no time.
Inalis naman sandali ni Jho ang pagkakayakap sa kanya at umangat kaya napahinto si Bea sa paghalik at napatitig sa mukha nito. The still drunk and sloppy Jho was struggling to remove her bra and Bea had to smirk before reaching out to unhook it herself.
Bea's breath hitched when she pulled away the piece of clothing and laid eyes on Jho's bareness. She suddenly felt like a hormonal teenage boy as she continued to stare at her. Jho's breasts may not be as big as the other girls she'd encountered before but they still looked amazing. Bea finally leaned up on her elbow and cautiously took a nipple into her mouth which made Jho arch her back with one of her hand on her shoulder and the other pulling on her hair. She then focused her attention on her other breast before Jho's tugging hard on her hair.
Hinila ni Jho ang ulo niya pataas hanggang sa magkatapat ang mga mukha nila at naglapat muli ang mga labi nila. Lunod na lunod na si Bea sa pakiramdam na dulot ng mga halik at haplos ni Jho. The other girl looked so hot with her red and sweaty face and before she knew it, Bea's hand was already trailing down inside her underwear.
Huminto siya sandali sa paghalik at pinaglapat ang kanilang mga noo ng maramdaman ng mga daliri niya ang gitna ni Jho. It's wet and warm. Tinitigan niya si Jho sa mata at masinsin na pinagmasdan ang ekspresyon ng mukha nito ng unti-unti niyang ipinasok ang dalawang daliri niya sa loob ng pagkababae nito. Nakita niya ang pagpikit at pagkagat ng labi ni Jho habang dahandahan niyang iginalaw ang mga daliri niya. Bea thought it just might be the most beautiful thing she's ever seen in her entire life. If she wasn't in love with this girl before, she's pretty sure now that her feelings for her run much more deeper than just a simple infatuation.
Jho's facial expression looked pain and for a second, Bea was worried that she might be hurting her. She stopped moving her fingers and gently caressed the girl's sweaty hair with her free hand.
"Are you okay?" she whispered.
Jho slowly opened her eyes to look at her and only nodded as a response. Napangiti lang si Bea at hindi napigilan ang sarili na muling siyang halikan sabay na pinagpatuloy ang paggalaw ng mga daliri niya. Nakabukas ang AC ng kwarto niya pero ramdam niya ang pagtagaktak ng pawis niya dahil sa ginagawa. Nang hindi naman siya makuntento sa mga nangyayari ay inihiwalay na niya ang labi kay Jho at parang nagmamadaling ibinaba ang kanyang mga halik sa dibdib papunta sa may tiyan nito at nanatili doon. Naramdaman niya bigla ang pagkapit ni Jho sa buhok niya habang patuloy pa rin siya sa paglabas-masok ng daliri at paghalik sa puson nito.
"Shit!" she heard Jho moaned when she hit a spot inside her.
Sunodsunod na ang mga naging ungol ni Jho habang pabilis ng pabilis ang paggalaw ni Bea na lalo niyang ikinagana. It only took another minute until she felt the contraction around her fingers and Jho's grip on her hair tightening. She heard her let out another moan and a curse, an obvious indication that she has finally reached her peak.
Humihingal na huminto si Bea at nanatili sa pwesto habang nakasapo ang ulo niya sa tiyan ni Jho. Hinintay niyang bumalik sa normal ang mabilis na paghinga nito bago niya inalis ang mga daliri niya at iniangat ang sarili hanggang sa magtama muli sila ng tingin. Sandali silang nagtitigan bago tuluyan ng napapikit si Jho na bakas ang pagod sa mukha. Mahigpit na niyakap lang nito ni Bea sabay siksik ng ulo niya sa leeg nito. Nakaramdam na din siya ng antok at pagod at mayamaya pa ay tuluyan ng nakatulog.
"Earth to Bea!"
Like a flash, Bea is back to the present time and she finds herself staring at Maki's concerned face once again. She blinks a couple of times to try and shake away the images of Jho's naked body from her thoughts.
"What's wrong with you?" Maki asks.
"It's nothing." sagot niya, "I'm fine."
"Sus, Beatriz. I know you. You wouldn't drink this much kung wala kang problema. Tell me na kasi."
Huminga lang siya ng malalim at muling tinungga yung bote ng beer na hawak niya habang hindi pa rin tumitingin ng diretso kay Maki. Pakiramdam niya kasi ay parang may bigla na lang tutulong luha mula sa mata niya at ayaw niyang makita ng kaibigan iyon.
"Maks, please. Not now." she only says in a pleading tone.
"What's the sense of asking me to hangout and drink on a school night kung hindi ka rin naman magkekwento? Yung totoo?"
Hindi siya sumagot. She still can't decide if she should tell her friend or not since she made a promise to Jho that she wouldn't tell a soul. She was really hurt by that to be honest and the thought that Jho wants to forget what happened between them rips her heart into tiny pieces.
"Ano ba kasi yun? Family? Studies? Your dog?" she stops and looks like she's thinking it over. "Babae?"
Bea can't help but snort at her last guess.
Nanlaki bigla ang mga mata ni Maki at tinitigan siya ng mabuti.
"Oh my, so babae nga?"
Bea did not say anything but her silence and the grim expression on her face is enough confirmation for her friend.
"Kailan ka pa namroblema dahil sa babae ha? What happened to 'I don't take them seriously. I just want to have fun'?"
"It's..." she tries to search for the right words to explain their situation, "A complicated story.".
Nagbuntong hininga naman si Maki sabay hawak sa braso niya. She even squeezed her arm as if to reassure that she's willing to listen to whatever is bothering Bea.
"I'm one of your best friends. We've known each other since high school. Come on, it's time that you give me the 411."
She looks at Maki's sincere expression and remembers how her friend has always got her back during high school and up until now. Aside from Thirdy, Maki is one of the only constant friend she has ever since. She also knows full well that Maki wouldn't rat her secret to anyone if worst comes to worst. Besides, medyo nahihirapan na din siyang kimkimin sa sarili niya yung mga nangyari. Para nang sasabog yung puso niya sa sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman niya.
So she decides to tell Maki the whole story. From the first moment she met Jhoana, their second meeting at her dad's birthday party, and up until that night and the last morning that they've seen each other. Tahimik lang at masinsin na nakikinig si Maki sa kwento niya. When she finishes, she sees her friend looking like she doesn't know what to say or how to react at everything she's just confessed.
"Okay, I need a moment to take in what you've just told me."
Napabuntong hininga na lang si Bea at sinapo ang ulo sa mga palad niya. Kahit siya sumakit ang ulo sa mga kinwento niya. Not to mention the ache in her heart when she is reminded once again of the times that she and Jho shared and the thought that she doesn't belong to Bea at all.
"I don't know what to do, Maks. Mababaliw na ata ako."
"Oh wow." Maki gapes at her. "This is actually the first time I've seen you this stressed over a girl. She must really be something."
Jho really is something. Siya lang ang nagparamdam ng ganito kay Bea. This desperate feeling inside her chest that hurts every time she thinks of the girl.
"Please tell me that you are not planning on pursuing her." Maki continues.
Will she? Hahabulin ba niya si Jho kahit alam niyang gulo lang maidudulot nun? Kahit alam niyang pwedeng masira ang pagkakaibigan nila ni Thirdy?
At the back of her mind there's a voice telling her that it will be worth it. That Jho will be worth it. But...
"Bea, you can't!" Maki is now giving her an incredulous look. She can read very well that Bea is struggling with her thoughts and she wants her to see sense as much as possible in the current situation she's in, "Alalahanin mo, kaibigan mo pa din si Thirdy."
"I don't know. I... I've never felt this helpless before." Bea sighs heavily, "I just... I want her so bad."
"So what's your plan? Aagawin mo siya kay Thirdy?"
"N—no. I... I don't know." she stutters, "I don't want to betray him anymore than I already have. It's just that..."
Maki cuts her off with a stern look.
"Oh sige sabihin na natin na gusto ka din nung girl, which I think is really the case otherwise walang mangyayari sa inyo, then she'll break up with Thirdy for you. Anong gagawin mo? Because no matter how you look at it you will be the bad guy in this situation. Ikaw yung magmumukhang manunulot ng syota ng kaibigan mo, Bea."
Hindi nakaimik agad si Bea dahil may point yung sinabi ni Maki. Kahit saan angulo tignan, siya yung magiging mang-aagaw. They have already cheated on Thirdy as it is. Sobrang dami na niyang kasalanan na nagawa sa kaibigan niya at sigurado siyang kapag nalaman ni Thirdy ang lahat hindi na siya mapapatawad nito.
"So this is your way of saying that I should back off."
"You should definitely back off and you know it." Maki states firmly, "Don't ruin your friendship with Thirdy because of a girl. Maraming iba diyan na available at magkakandarapa sayo. Huwag na yang girlfriend ng kaibigan mo."
"You don't understand," tinignan niya si Maki ng diretso sa mata, "Si Jho ang gusto ko. Siya lang. I don't want anyone else."
"I don't know what to tell you at this point. You seem to be too far gone already with your feelings for that girl. Pero Bea, don't let it cloud your judgment and your morals. Alam mo ang tama sa mali. Huwag mong hayaan ang sarili mo na makasira ng relasyon ng iba."
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Mahigit isang oras nang naghihintay si Jho sa harap ng unit ni Bea. Alas onse na ng gabi pero hindi niya alam kung bakit hindi pa din niya magawang umalis dun dahil mukhang wala naman balak umuwi si Bea.
Napabuntong hininga siya habang nakasandal sa pinto. Sayang kasi yung effort kung aalis pa siya. Nandito na eh. Isa pa, gusto talaga niyang makita at makausap si Bea ngayon mismo.
Nung mga nakaraang araw puro na lang si Bea ang laman ng isipan niya. Kahit kasama niya si Thirdy si Bea lagi ang naalala niya at yung ginawa nilang pagtataksil. Madalas napapatulala na lang siya at nagugulat kapag kinukuha na ni Thirdy yung atensyon niya at tinatanong kung anong problema. Agad siyang nakakaramdam ng guilt kapag nginingitian siya ni Thirdy dahil bumabalik sa kanya yung ginawa niyang kasalanan.
Sobrang naguguluhan na siya sa mga nangyari. There's a part of her that wants to completely avoid Bea but there is also a part that desperately wants to see her.
Gusto niyang maliwanagan sa nararamdaman niya. Maybe seeing Bea and talking to her might actually help. Ayaw na niya ng ganito. Hirap na hirap ang utak at puso niya.
Ilang minuto pa ang nakalipas at tinignan niya ang relo niya. It's already 30 minutes after 11 and there are still no signs of Bea.
Baka naman kasi nag bar na naman yun tapos may nakilala siyang babae at nagkayayaan silang...
Parang bumigat yung pakiramdam niya sa naiisip. Hindi naman siguro. Sabi ni Bea nagbago na siya. She doesn't sleep around anymore.
Ugh! Ano bang pakielam niya kung makipag one-night stand na naman ang isang yun? Wala dapat. Bea can do whatever she wants and Jho doesn't have any right to feel hurt if it turns out to be true.
Hindi niya namalayan na napakuyom ang kamao niya ng maisip niyang may ibang babaeng humahawak kay Bea. Naiinis siya at parang gusto niyang manabunot na ewan.
Akin lang si Bea, a selfish part of her brain whispers. She immediately shakes the thought away as soon as it enters her mind though. Nababaliw na ata siya dahil kung ano-anong kahibangan na ang naiisip niya.
Ayos buhay tayo Jho, she thinks to herself.
Parang tumalon naman ang puso niya sa gulat nang biglang tumunog yung elevator sa kabilang side ng hallway. Napapatitig lang siya doon hanggang sa may lumabas na dalawang babae pagbukas ng pinto. Nakatulala lang siyang nakatingin habang hirap na inaakay nung isang babae yung isa pang babaeng mukhang lasing at walang malay.
"Bea, please. Maki-cooperate ka naman. Ang bigat bigat mo!" turan ng babae habang papalapit sa pwesto niya.
Natauhan agad si Jho dahil sa narinig. Tinignan niyang mabuti yung babaeng walang malay at sigurado siyang si Bea nga iyon.
"Uh hi...sorry, my friend is super wasted." bumalik ulit yung atensyon niya sa babaeng may buhat kay Bea at hindi niya namalayan na nasa harapan na pala niya ang mga ito. "Can you help? Paki-abot naman yung keys sa pocket niya."
"S—sige," mautal-utal niyang sagot at agad na inabot yung bulsa ng pantalon ni Bea para kuning yung susi ng unit niya.
Siya na rin yung nagkusang nagbukas ng pinto dahil mukhang hirap na hirap yung babae sa pagbitbit kay Bea. Binigyan siya nito ng isang nagpapasalamat na ngiti bago pumasok sa loob at dahandahang inihiga si Bea sa may couch.
"Hay nako Beatriz, you are so dead to me tomorrow." the girl says with obvious irritation in her voice.
Nanatili lang sa pinto si Jho habang nakamasid sa dalawa. Ngayon lang niya nakita 'tong babaeng nag-uwi kay Bea. Mukha naman friends lang sila at mukhang mabait din ito. Buti na lang din at kasama siya ni Bea kung hindi baka nag-drive na naman ang isang yun ng lasing.
"Sorry miss ha? Naabala pa kita. Are you Bea's next-door neighbor?"
"Ah hin—"
Sakto naman may nag-ring na phone na biglang pumutol sa sagot sana ni Jho.
"Ugh shit!" bulong nung babae nung kinuha niya yung phone niya at tinignan kung sino yung tumatawag, "Yes dad? I'm on the way na po. N—nasiraan po kasi yung car ni Bea... Yes po... I will. See you!"
Frustrated naman na ibinaba ng babae yung phone niya at hinarap ulit si Bea na mukhang nakatulog na sa couch.
"Gosh Bea, ano bang gagawin ko sayo?"
Halata ang pag-alala sa boses ng babae at naawa si Jho dito dahil mukhang hindi niya talaga alam kung anong gagawin kay Bea.
Dumako ulit ang tingin ni Jho sa walang malay na si Bea at parang gustong matunaw ng puso niya dahil mukhang inosente ito habang natutulog. Naalala niya nung nakatulog din si Bea sa couch nila sa bahay at pinagmasdan niya lang ang mukha nito hanggang sa nakatulog na din siya. There is something so endearing on Bea's face when she's sleeping. She looks so calm and peaceful at parang bata na walang ibang inaalala sa mundo.
"Miss?" baling ulit sa kanya nung babae, "Baka naman pwedeng ikaw munang bahala kay Bea? I need to go na kasi. My dad will kill me if I'm not home within 30 minutes."
Napatango lang siya bilang sagot. Nagulat siya dahil sobrang nakatitig na pala siya kay Bea kanina at baka napansin nung babae iyon.
"Okay thank you! I have to run na. Thank you so much. I'll tell Bea to make bawi to you na lang."
Nagmamadali naman na umalis yung babae kaya hindi na rin siya nakasagot. Sinundan lang niya ito ng tingin hanggang sa sinara na nito ang pinto at naiwan na silang dalawa doon.
Ilang segundo na nakatayo lang si Jho sa gitna ng unit na Bea na hindi makapaniwala sa bilis ng mga pangyayari. Kanikanina lang nag-iintay siya sa labas para kay Bea pero eto na siya ngayon at napag-utusan pang mag-alaga ng lasing.
Humugot siya ng isang malalim na hininga bago niya muling hinarap si Bea at nilapitan ito.
"Ano bang nangyayari sayo ha?" tanong niya dito kahit alam niyang hindi siya nito naririnig.
Umupo na siya sa may couch nasaan ang ulo ni Bea. Dahan-dahan niyang inangat ito at ipinatong sa kandungan niya. Hindi niya alam kung bakit niya yun ginawa pero hindi na din niya napigilan ang sarili niya. Basta ang alam niya gusto niyang alagaan si Bea.
"Puro ka na lang inom. Alam mo bang makakasama sayo yan?" pabulong niyang pagalit dito at sabay na sinimulang himasin ang buhok nito.
Tinitigan niya ulit ang natutulog na mukha ni Bea habang patuloy pa rin siya sa marahan na paghimas sa ulo nito. Parang may natanggal na kung anong mabigat sa dibdib niya dahil nandito ngayon si Bea sa bisig niya at walang ibang kasamang babae.
Siguro nga nagiging selfish na siya. May boyfriend siya pero gusto niya sa kanya lang si Bea. The feeling of guilt is eating at her but it is being taken over by the feeling of happiness and contentment that Bea is with her and in her arms at the moment.
Nawala na ng tuluyan ang pakielam niya kung hindi man tama 'tong ginagawa niya. Basta ang alam niya masaya siya na kasama si Bea ngayon kahit tulog pa ito.
Bahala na kung ano man ang naghihintay sa kanya bukas.
"Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, Bea. Tulungan mo naman ako." bulong niya ulit dito.
Nakita niya ang biglang pagkunot ng noo ni Bea pagkatapos niyang sabihin iyon at parang tumigil ang puso niya dahil baka magising na ito. Napatigil siya sa paghinga habang hinihintay na imulat nito ang mga mata. Tuluyan naman siyang nakahinga ng muling lumalim ang paghinga nito at mukhang humimbing ulit ang tulog.
"Nahihirapan na 'ko." sambit ni Jho at napasandal siya sa may couch at napapikit ang mga mata. "Bakit ba kasi ang dali-dali mong mahalin?"
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A/N: when i said that i don't condone cheating it doesn't mean that there won't be in this story. it's bound to happen sooner or later :)
sorry for the long wait tho :(