A/N: I'm conflicted on how I'm making this story turn out..should I keep Fifth Harmony in the story as if they never became H4RMONY? Or make it realistic-ish and have Camila "leave" ??
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plus another thing how can some of y'all be so blind? Labels/management basically the same thing, they're both running shit. And make sure you read the basically part before jumping down my throat because I'm not saying they are the same. Anddd make sure you realize I'm not trying to come off as a bitch or I'm being rude I'm actually being pretty polite compared to others in the fandom.
They not only deleted the 5hleaks account but a few others (I totally understand 5HLeaks got taken away because it is illegal) but really? The audio clip of Lauren is starting to disappear and yes it was leaked but that shit is important. (I've seen it deleted from people's accounts so ik it's true). Have y'all seen these damn movies about people covering up their tracks or blaming someone else so they can get away with it? Movies are fake yes but these things happen literally all the time and there's proof of that and not only to 5H.
I mean if some of y'all wanna bitch about Camila supposedly leaving and calling us -the ones who think their management/ label is fucking everything up- fucking delusional. Then what about you? Obviously we don't know their label and management but y'all don't know Camila and the girls like that. None of us do. You are literally following a scenario off of what happened in the past and your hate or dislike to Camila/and or her solos/the way she acted or acts. And it may not even be true. She may have not done anything wrong and people made it seem this way.
But if she really did lie and shit we can't just fucking immediately jump to conclusions like we did when the first letter was posted or when the first solo song was out. You don't know her reasons why she may have lied/ you don't know why their label may be a total shitbag. We simply don't know so I know my damn facts alright? I'm stating my opinion and I don't want any arguments because I really hate fighting with people who can't/won't understand where I'm coming from in a civil manner while I'm trying to relate to both sides of the fandom rn. And just know I'm not a rude person so I literally won't try and argue. 😕
IF Camila Cabello did in fact lie to cover her ass and have future sales and fans then we as a fandom can not make the same mistake of jumping to a conclusion like we are with their management/label even though Lauren's audio clip is the most evidence we have. If you do not want to be in her fandom or support her then FUCKING DONT SUPPORT HER AND DONT CALL HER NAMES SHE WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT THE FUCK SHE DID IF SHE DID LIE!
It may be hypocritical and stupid to say this and it may be the adrenaline talking but if Camila did lie just don't attack her. She will understand what she did once she realizes no one wants to support a lying artist who makes her group mates/best friends look bad. She's a smart girl she wasn't always like this. But if she didn't do anything wrong and their label/management is making all of this up to cover their own ass then we need to do everything we can to expose them. Because they have so much more money and power compared to one girl. One girl can easily be replaced other than a huge label/management. They're the ones in power.
What if nothing happened? What if Lauren was the one who did solo songs or any of the girls? What if they "acted" the way Camila supposedly did? Would they get as much shit Camila gets?
If Camila did lie please don't stoop down to her level and be petty and call her names and be a bigger dick because even then we still wouldn't know why she lied. There would be no point instead of making yourself more angry. I love them no matter what but I'm not stuck up there ass like some fans who are too blind to see anything. 😘 Oh and please be respectful in this story okay? I don't want others or me to take your text a wrong way and seem like you're trying to argue. enjoy x
Y/N's POV
"Xoxo Gossip Girl." Camila and I said in unison then laughed at the tv.
We watched two seasons already and I knew I was gonna regret staying up because I had to leave tomorrow. But then again I didn't because I was with Camila, having more fun than I have in a month. I smiled to myself while my thoughts were cut off when she groaned.
"My neck is gonna kill me in the morning." She mumbled digging her hand in a bowl of random sweets we ordered.
She was currently laying down with her head against the headboard while looking at the flatscreen on the wall in front of us. I rolled my eyes before moving her onto me and she smiled biting into a strawberry as she then laid her head against my shoulder and chest.
I lightly chuckled at her excuses over the past few minutes and she innocently looked up at me with a cute smile knowing what I was laughing at. She then put a piece of chocolate to my mouth and I took it along with the tip of her finger. I playfully growled as I bit her finger and she squealed giggling before snatching her finger away.
I chuckled again as she playfully but softly slapped my bare stomach before cuddling into me again. I felt her softly kiss my collarbone before feeling her smile against my shoulder. That was until her phone went off indicating she had gotten a text.
She separated from me to pick up her phone that was on the bedside table charging. I continued watching the tv show until I heard Camila sigh in distress. I turned to her with an eyebrow raised and she shook her head putting her phone back down.
"What's up?" I asked pulling her back into me and she yawned against my chest.
"I have to be in the studio tomorrow morning at seven am no if ands or buts." She shrugged and I frowned slightly before shrugging.
"I'll come with you until I have to leave for the UK again. I wanna see you girls in the recording studio for once." I chuckled and she smiled lightly against my skin.
"I gotta get some sleep before I pass out of exhaustion again." She mumbled and I nodded before looking down at her.
"I'll wake you at six okay?" I mumbled and she nodded getting comfortable against me.
"Alright thanks." She tiredly said while her eyes were already closed and I smiled softly.
I wrapped my arms around her tightly and securely while I watched the show on Netflix. I felt her move her lips against my neck and I couldn't help but love the feeling of my heartbeat start to speed up. I smiled with a pathetic loving sigh and she kissed my skin innocently.
"Goodnight." She mumbled tiredly and I kissed her head lovingly.
"Night babe." I whispered and continued watching the tv show.
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Maybe two hours later of drifting in and out of consciousness I felt my bladder become full and I had to get up. I grunted lowly not wanting to let go of Camila as she laid asleep on top of me peacefully. But my bladder decided for me so I carefully laid her down next to me while I got up. But before I could go to the bathroom I heard her groan and I turned to her caught in action.
"Where you goin?" She mumbled tiredly her lips puffy and her eyes still closed and I smiled at her sleepy state.
"I'm gonna go pee and probably go roam the hotel for some free shit." I whispered and she hummed before nodding.
"Mhm okay I love you be safe." She practically dozed off saying her sentence and I giggled going to the bathroom.
"I love you too." I chuckled lowly as I just lifted up the toilet seat.
Quickly doing my business I slipped on a black tee shirt and slides before leaning down kissing Camila's head and walking to the door with my room card in my hand. Quietly leaving the room I looked down the hall and made my way towards the elevator. I made my way downstairs and took a few cookies before walking around again.
I walked past a few maintenance crew members and made my way to the inside pool room. Almost immediately feeling warm from the heated pool with the connected gym in the other room. I took a towel and walked back upstairs to go onto the rooftop. Making a mental note to take a swim before I left because that shit looked cozy as fuck.
I made my way through the door not realizing someone following me as I tiredly chewed on a sugar cookie. I went to itch my back as I looked out to the city but my back was touched by another hand and I screamed.
"What the fuck?!"
"Sh! Shhhh! Sh! Shshshsh!" A soft hand covered my hand and I pushed the person away from me immediately getting mad.
"What the fuck are you doing sneaking up on me Lauren? Do you wanna get your ass beat?" I frowned looking down at my feet where my cookie laid crushed like my heart.
"No. I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you Y/N I just saw you coming up here and I followed you-"
"And why did you follow me? That's weird why couldn't you just call my name?" I tried calming my heartbeat and she chuckled lightly.
"Look I'm sorry I just needed to talk to you okay?" She stopped smiling and I sighed crossing my arms.
"And what do you need to talk to me about now Jauregui?" I asked and she took a deep breath shaking her head.
"You have every right to get and be mad at me Y/N I understand. I just need to talk to you about Camila okay-"
"Lauren-"
"No let me finish at least give me that and you won't even have to talk to me ten years from now." She sighed and I frowned leaning against the door with my arms crossed looking into her beautiful green eyes.
"Camila. She's an amazing girl you know? She's funny, creative, smart, outspoken, dorky, lovable, she's crazy gorgeous and she's talented. The thing is that she trusts people too much you know? She follows her heart and a lot of people may not agree with it but she still follows it. Y/N she loves you. She loves you so much and I've never seen her act the way she does when she's around you."
"Uh Laur-"
"When you left you have no idea how much shit the girls and I went through because she's so depressed. You give her life you give her this-this feeling that no one has and when you left it just bursted. I've never seen her in so much pain before and I've caused a lot of her pain in the past."
"Uhmm Jaureg-"
"She's so depressed without you Y/N she needs you and I know you need her because I hear the way you talk about her and your mystery girlfriend in interviews. You two belong to each other and I'm so fucking sorry I fucked that up. Your love was made for movie screens okay? It's almost perfect. She needs you because I can't see another cut of scar or tear from her-"
"Wait what-"
"Y/N you need to go back to her you need to let her explain. Please she doesn't want me she never wanted me since you've showed up. It hurts but I fucked up please she drank way too much she even moaned your name! Camila was so fucked up that night I doubt she remembers what she even said or how we did it. I hate feeling this way I feel so guilty because I'm not the type to fuck over someone especially a relationship."
"What do you mean cut-"
"Y/N she basically tried to kill herself because she couldn't handle the pain that I caused. You ended the relationship and she was fucking broken. I'm begging you at least talk to her or find her because I-I don't know where she is and I'm worried." She started crying and my heart was beating out of my chest at her words.
"I am so sorry Y/N I just need you to fix this because I can't. She hates me."
"Lauren we made up tonight she's in my room asleep." I said and she looked up at me with tearful green eyes that literally made my heart drop.
"What?" She whispered and I grabbed her shoulders.
"Camila tried to kill herself?!" I asked her and she groaned running her hands through her hair squeezing her eyes shut.
"Oh fuck! I can't tell you that s-she's gonna be so pissed at me." She started to cry and I lifted her head up wiping her tears away.
"Jauregui stop okay you said it already so I need to know what happened." I calmly said looking into her eyes and she sniffled loudly.
"S-She cut herself pretty deep a few weeks ago and she was practically dragged out by Dinah and Sinu. They went to the hospital so now she's on medication. They were gonna keep her for seventy two hour hold but we had some interviews and shows to do so our label convinced them somehow." She explained and I sighed closing my eyes while she sniffled.
"You can't let her know I told you she'll for real hate me forever please." She begged and I looked at my idol as she pleaded me with her eyes.
"I'll make sure she tells me okay? I won't say anything. Thank you though." I said calmly and she sighed in relief before hugging me quickly.
"I'm sorry I really am I swear to god I'll stay away from now on." She sniffled and I shook my head sighing again as I felt my own guilt rising.
"No, you can't do that Lauren that's not fair to the girls just don't flirt or try and get at my girl and we'll be good." I said digging my hands into my sweat pockets squinting my eyes as a chill wind blew against us briefly.
"You sure?" She mumbled and I nodded rubbing the back of my neck.
"Yeah Lauren." I nodded and she gave me a small smile.
"But aye you gotta prove yourself too I'm not all forgive and forget and happy with butterflies all around alright?" I raised my hand slightly and she nodded wiping her tears.
"I understand, I'm sorry." She said and I nodded looking around before sighing once again.
"Look I'm gonna head to bed and so should you, you have to get to the studio early in the morning." I said slowly opening up the door and she cleared her the throat.
"Okay. Have a goodnight." She said with a small smile and I gave her a slight nod before walking down the small steps to the hotel hallway.
A couple moments later I walked into my hotel room and smiled at the sight of Camila spread out in her underwear and a tee shirt. I giggled quietly before taking my shirt off and my slides before slipping into bed right next to her. Turning off the lamp then wrapping my arms around her tightly as she subconsciously leaned into me.
She smiled lightly as her hand came up in an angle and caressed the side of my scalp softly as we spooned. I kissed her shoulder blade as she quickly started falling back asleep.
"I love you Camila."
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Soooooo 🙂🙃 how are y'all doing todayy because I am so stressed that I look forward to going to sleep at night the second I wake up. 😹
Hope y'all enjoyed and if you didn't then whatever I actually really don't care atm 😘
Have a nice day or night beautifuls x
-Maddie
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