< Chapter 6: Insecurities >
♥ Justin’s POV: ♥
The entire ride back to the hotel room, I couldn’t stop thinking about Nathan’s words. No matter how much I wanted to fight it, they made me feel uneasy and my heart felt heavy. I was quiet, not uttering a single word to anyone and both Kenny and Scooter decided to let me be.
I couldn’t help but think Nathan was right about one thing… If anything were to happen to Jamie and I, which I doubt is possible, and Jamie got mad at me and decides to leave me… I’ll lose both her and Jason. That’s what tears me apart. If I lose Jamie, I automatically lose Jason. Nathan’s right, the court would never pick me over Jamie. She’d gain full custody in the blink of an eye. Why would they leave a baby whose father is busy performing a lot and would barely have time for him, when they could leave him with a mother who can be with him 24/7? Jason’s life would be a lot easier with just Jamie than with just me.
“We’re here,” Kenny announced for the second time today, and I didn’t even waste a second to get out of the car. I rushed inside the back of the hotel and skipped the whole elevator idea, taking the stairs instead. I ran up and passed irrelevant floors, speeding up as the time went by until I finally reached my floor, where I practically ran down the hallway in while pulling my hotel keys out.
When the door swung open, I stepped inside and closed it silently before resting the keys on the table next to me. I scanned the room, noticing it was empty, and so quiet you could hear a pin drop.
“Jamie?” I called out softly, taking off my jacket and walking down the hall to where our room is. I knocked gently and pushed the door open, seeing Jamie curled up in bed with headphones resting over her ears as she listened to music, eyes attentive at the screen on her phone. Upon noticing me, she paused the song she was listening to and took off her headphones, resting them on the nightstand along with her phone.
“You’re back,” she smiled. “How’d it go?”
I ran a hand through my hair and mumbled, “Good.” I began to approach the bed while kicking off my shoes and taking my shirt off, the way I do every night to sleep more comfortably.
“I can tell you missed performing,” she said, tapping the spot next to her on the bed.
“I did,” I sighed, laying down next to her and wrapping my arms around her small frame.
She let out a pout before gazing at me curiously. “You’re giving me short replies,” she commented. “That always means there’s something wrong. What happened?”
I shrugged. “Nothing. It’s late, I’m tired and I missed you.”
Jamie eyed me suspiciously but decided to take my word for it. “Alright then. You ready for bed?”
“Yeah,” I breathed, pecking her lips. “Is Jason asleep?”
“He has been for a while now. And don’t worry, I told him that his daddy loves him when I tucked him in,” she winked.
“Just like I asked,” I chuckled. “Thank you.”
“No problem,” she giggled, hugging my body into hers.
I came all the way here to warn you. To tell you to enjoy your little family of 3 while you still have it, because I’m going to be the one to rip them away from you so you’d be a family of 1. I’ll leave you with nothing and you’ll finally be sorry for everything you’ve ever done to me.
Nathan’s past words rang inside my head. He told me to enjoy Jamie while I still have her, even though I’ve always thought she’d be mine forever. That’s why I asked her to marry me. Marriage makes it official. But why is there a part of me, one deep inside me, that tells me that he’s telling the truth. Why is it that a part of me believes him? That I should enjoy Jamie while she’s cuddled right here next to me, because I won’t have her for long? Why am I letting him get inside my head? The normal me would brush off his nasty remarks and ignore every single word that comes out of his lying mouth. But why am I suddenly believing him?
“Jamie,” I whispered, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.
“Hmm?” she looked up at me.
“You love me, right?” I asked quietly, almost embarrassed. I know I should know this by now, but I can’t help feeling insecure, which usually results in me asking her constantly. She’s probably sick of it by now but I guess it’s just a bad habit of mine.
“Of course, baby. We’ve been through this,” Jamie frowned, knowing for sure that something must be bothering me by now, but she wasn’t nagging about it.
“I can’t help it,” I sighed. “I guess I still can’t believe how lucky I am, and how much I’ve been blessed with. Laying here with you just seems so surreal. Almost like I don’t deserve you.”
“If anything, I don’t deserve you, not the other way around,” she smiled sadly, cupping my cheeks in her hands and stroking my skin with her thumbs. “I love you, Justin.”
My heart skipped a beat and I stared at her sparkling, brown eyes. The shell of insecurity I put up around myself was slowly starting to shatter, but it still needed a little push.
“If you love me…” I murmured, “then show me.”
Jamie blinked three times before traveling her hand down my bare abs. “How would you like me to show it to you? You know I’d do anything to remind you how much I love you.”
“Just…” I trailed off, biting my lip and gazing into her eyes. “Kiss me?”
She let out a small smile before running a hand through my hair and leaning closer towards me. “You got it,” she breathed, her lips coming into contact with mine. Butterflies swarmed my stomach as we shared a slow and passionate kiss.
I wonder if Jamie ever kissed Nathan the way she’s kissing me right now. You know… Back when they were together. He broke her heart so… That must’ve meant that she loved him. At least at one point.
“Stop,” Jamie spoke into my mouth before pulling away and breaking the kiss.
“What, baby?” I licked my lips.
“You,” she frowned. “There’s something bothering you.”
“I told you I’m tired,” I sighed.
She narrowed her eyes at me. “Have I not shown you the love I have for you? All this time we’ve been together, you haven’t felt it?”
“What?” I quickly pushed aside all my worries and focused on what my fiancée was saying.
“You’re pushing me away, Justin,” she mumbled, causing my heart to sink.
“No… Baby, I’m not, I swear,” I tightened my grip around her.
“I’m not stupid. I can tell by the way you kiss me if your mind is focused on me only or on something else too,” she spoke accusingly.
Damn it, Nathan.
“I’m sorry,” I whispered. “It’s been a long day, but I’m here now. I promise I’m only going to focus on you now.”
“You promise?”
“I do, I promise,” I nodded, sure of myself this time. I’m not going to waste my time thinking about what Nathan said. I’m the one who cuddles Jamie every night, not him.
“Good,” she let out a small smile and I cupped her cheek into one hand.
“Sorry, baby,” I whispered, urging her face closer to me and licking her bottom lip with my tongue. “I’m gonna put you first,” I sang softly, kissing her slowly before pulling away, “I’ll show you what you’re wooorth…”
Jamie giggled quietly and I kissed her again, exploring every inch of her mouth. A few seconds later, we were making out while Jamie straddled me and my left hand was grabbing her ass. I soon pulled away and trailed kisses down her jawline and to her neck, clutching her ass tighter with both hands now. Jamie let out a soft gasp, which turned into a moan the minute I found her soft spot. I began to pull down her shorts until they were completely off and then I worked on taking her shirt off.
When I flipped us over so that I was now on top, Jamie didn’t hesitate to strip me of my pants. I trailed kisses down her cleavage as I unhooked her bra and threw it across the room.
“Justin..” she moaned, breathing in and out as I continued to kiss all over her beautiful body.
“Relax, babe,” I whispered seductively, kissing down her stomach before clutching her panties in my hand and slipping them off. “Now go on, baby.”
I positioned myself so that she could reach my boxers and take them off for me, and that’s exactly what she did. I then attacked her collarbone with wet, sloppy kisses. She moaned loudly, which turned me on in ways I still can’t quite understand.
“Jamie,” I breathed, leaning up so that I was at eye level with her. “Look at me.” She panted softly, slowly looking up at me. The minute we locked gazes, I let out a small smile. The love she had in her heart for me was visible in her sparkling, brown eyes. The doubt I had thanks to Nathan suddenly disappeared, and all I knew was that I love this girl with all my heart and with everything else inside of me. The best part, was that I knew that she loved me back the same way.
So I entered her slowly, causing the both of us to let out a moan at the same exact time.
“Oh my god,” Jamie puffed out, closing her eyes and enjoying the pleasure. I let out a low grunt and thrusted further inside her, dropping my head to the crook of her neck and placing kisses on her hot skin. Jamie ruffled my hair before wrapping both her arms around me. “Harder,” she whined. “H-harder.”
I picked up my pace and thrusted again, going in deeper and deeper. Jamie yelped, and I couldn’t help but slow down to make sure she’s okay.
“Is it too much?” I whispered.
“Fuck, Justin, why’d you slow down?” she breathed. I let out a smirk. That’s my girl.
Moving my hips, I went in faster and deeper, lunging myself inside her, unable to hold back the moan surfacing in my throat. Jamie gasped and clawed her fingers hard against my back.
“I-I’m… almost there, Justin,” she stammered, breathing out huffs of air.
“I know baby, I can feel it,” I spoke softly, my body overwhelmed by the amount of pleasure I was feeling and I then knew that I, too, was close.
I reached up to Jamie and crashed my lips against hers, kissing her lustfully. She kissed back with as much force and need and, with one final thrust, I released inside of her, causing me to moan inside her mouth.
“J-Justin,” Jamie gasped, also reaching orgasm and I pulled away from her before collapsing on top of her naked body. We both took sharp breaths in and out as we hugged each other’s warm, naked bodies.
“I fucking love you,” I breathed out. “So much…”
Jamie’s tight grip on me loosened a bit, and she softly brushed her fingers against the marks she left on my back. “I love you too, baby,” she whispered, kissing my bare shoulders.
I rolled over and plopped on the spot next to her, lifting the covers over our bodies and looking at her. “Come here,” I said, pulling her towards me. We spent the night cuddled in each other’s arms until we eventually both fell asleep in the comfort of one another.
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♥ Jamie’s POV: ♥
When I woke up, I was in Justin’s arms, wrapped in the coziness of my fiancé. I couldn’t help but kiss his nose. Every time I watch him sleep, I always think of how cute and peaceful he looks. I just can’t imagine myself with another man.
I smiled, tracing his roman numeral tattoo with my index finger while I hummed the tune of Catching Feelings to myself. Justin smiled in his sleep and I paused, wondering if I imagined that or if it really happened. When I was convinced that, that really happened, I felt my cheeks warm up.
“You’re so cute,” I whispered to him, retracing imaginary lines on his tattoo.
“I know,” his deep, husky voice called back to me and I nearly jumped out of my skin.
“Justin!!” I yelled, playfully slapping his chest. “Why do you keep scaring the shit out of me!?”
Justin opened one eye to look at me and he smirked his sexy little smirk.
“No!” I shouted out. “Don’t you look at me like that, Justin Drew Bieber!”
“Aww baby,” he cooed, holding me closer. “You know you love me.”
“Justin, I swear to god…” I warned him, attempting to shove him back. But, of course, he was just way too strong for me.
Those arm muscles though…
“Say you love me,” he said in a silly tone, kissing my cheek four times.
“Justin, let go of me!”
“Say it,” he grinned, kissing my other cheek.
“JUSTIN—”
“Say it,” he repeated. “Say you love me.”
“I will, when you let go of me,” I pouted.
“No,” he shook his head. “Say it, or I won’t let go of you.”
I groaned. “Please baby, I have to go check up on Jason.”
“Jason can wait. Now say you love me,” he pecked my lips.
“I love you,” I said sweetly. “Now let me go.”
“Yes, my princess,” he kissed me again before his strong arms released me. I shot him a death glare before climbing out of bed and wrapping a towel around my naked body.
I looked straight into his eyes and walked out of the room, swaying my hips seductively before walking normally once I was out of his sight. I then quietly entered the other room where we were keeping Jason, slowly approaching his crib. Upon seeing he was still asleep, I relaxed and decided to go to the bathroom and take a shower.
I closed the door and quickly brushed my teeth before turning on the shower and letting my towel drop to the floor. I stepped inside the hot shower and instantly felt my muscles relax. I then began to wash the dirt off my body when, suddenly, the shower curtains glided open, revealing Justin staring at me.
I let out a loud scream. I gotta hand it to that boy, he sure knows how to scare the crap out of me.
“JUSTI—”
“Shh,” he raised his index finger to his lips and shushed me before stepping inside the shower with me.
“Nope,” I shook my head, “No, Justin, get out.”
He merely smirked, grabbing my wrist lightly. “You think you can walk out of there, moving your hips and shaking your ass like that and expect me not to do anything about it?”
I tried to hide the grin on my face but failed epically. I couldn’t help it. It was so funny how easy it was to turn him on.
“What are you laughing at?” he glared playfully at me.
“You,” I giggled.
“Me?” he placed a hand on his bare chest. “What about me?”
I ignored his question and, instead, crashed my lips against his. His eyes widened in surprise but he didn’t hesitate to kiss back. Without breaking the kiss, I closed the shower curtains and pressed him up against the tiled wall, deepening the kiss. When he asked for entrance, I teased him by pulling away, smirking at the groan he let out afterwards.
I then trailed kisses down his naked, wet body. Eventually, I reached his V-line, where I pulled away and carefully grabbed his dick with my right hand.
“J-Jamie…” he panted. “What… What are you doing?”
I looked up at him and winked. “Pleasuring you, babe.”
He took in a sharp breath as I massaged his balls, stroking his dick softly with my other hand. I caught Justin biting down hard on his bottom lip, trying really hard not to scream out in pleasure. That’s when I made it my goal to make him overcome that, and when I kissed the head of his shaft, I knew I was victorious.
“Babe..” Justin moaned loudly. “Oh baby… Don’t s-stop.”
I smirked, licking and kissing his genitals and hearing him moan in satisfaction. I then caressed the side of Jerry, giving Justin the hand job of his life. When his stomach raised up and down and he began panting helplessly, I knew he was close to orgasm and I was right. After he came, I released my hold of him and stood up straight, smirking at him. I had to hold in my laughter when I saw him staring back at me, his jaw dropped and his mouth wide open.
I waited until he calmed down from the climax he had just reached and he let out a long, deep breath. I waited for him to say something—anything—but he didn’t. Instead, he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him, pressing his lips harshly against mine but still managing to kiss me lovingly.
Let’s just say we kinda forgot to shower until much, much later…
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Ooooh, well this was a heated chapter…
Don’t act like you weren’t waiting for some Jastin action, now c’mon ;)
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- Nina xx