Chapter 23 ~ Realisation
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“Um…I’m Jill.” I said extending my hand towards him.
“Nice to meet you Jill, I’m Peter.” He said and grabs my hand a shake it a few times before letting it go. “I’m guessing that you can either see her or hear her if she sent you here.”
I look at him before looking at Fay for explanation. She giggle at him but look embarrass when she realise I was looking at her. “Um…we kind of made a promise that if one of us dies; we have to find someone to help us communicate to each other again.”
I roll my eyes but nod at the same time. His smile got wider and his eyes glints with excitement. “I never met anyone who can see ghost!” He said way too cheerful for my liking.
“Just tell him what we came here for.” Will says beside me.
“Look, I got a message from your um…”
“Fiancée.” He said still smiling. “I know, that’s why you’re here, right?” I nod, frowning. “So what does she want to tell me?” I was about to tell him when he interrupt me and said “Oh, can you tell her we’ll be together soon!”
Startle, I stare at him in shock. He’s words didn’t please me at all or what it really means. “Here’s the thing. Your fiancée or ex-fiancée isn’t please with you at the moment.”
He’s smile was replace with confusion as he ask, “What do you mean?”
I sigh and pinch the bridge of my nose. “She doesn’t want you to try and kill yourself, just so you can be together again, she wants you to…” I trail off and look at Fay.
“I want him to accept that I’m dead and he’s alive and we can’t be together.” She said and I repeat her every word.
“She also said she wants you to move on and be with someone.” I finish looking at him sternly.
He continues to look at me in confusion before it was replaced with anger. He stood up suddenly making the arm chair screech backward making me wince from the sound.
“What the hell? Doesn’t she understand that I love her too much to just move on like that?” He yelled. “Why do you want me to move on?” He whispers the last sentence looking hurt and broken, if it was possible.”
“She said she loves you but seeing you like this kills her.” I repeated her words. “She’s begging you to just stop trying to commit suicide.”
That’s when things got ugly. Peter what so piss off that he flip the coffee table up side down to the point I have to jump off the love seat or it would had hit me. He walks to the wall and punch it before breaking more stuff.
“His neighbour will start complaining if he continues this.” Will says beside me.
“Please help him!” Fay begs standing beside Peter who now has bloody hands.
“Would you stop that you big idiot!” I screamed making Peter stop mid-punch. He looks at me with wide eyes. I huff and glare at him. “Don’t you understand what you are doing to her?”
“You’re hurting her whenever you try to hurt yourself!” I let out a frustrated scream before glaring back at him. “All she wanted is to you to be happy again and to love someone again! Someone who can love you back and share the same experience you felt with Fay!”
“She understands that she can never make you happy anymore, now that she’s gone from your side, that’s why she wanted you to move on.” My voice cracks at the end and barely audible.
How can I be soo stupid! I look at Will then back to Fay and Peter and finally I understand the pain.
“Can you two please leave; I need to talk to Peter alone.” I said.
“Are you sure you’ll be alright with that guy?” Will ask and wrap his arms around my waist. I nod my head and felt him kiss my head. “Call me when something happen.” With that he disappears.
Fay looks at Peter with worried glance before looking at me the same way. “It’s alright; I’ll call you once it’s over.” She nod and she too vanish. “Seat.” I order before walking around the pile of mess and seating back on the love seat.
Peter sat at the other end of the sofa while I took the other end. “Look, I know what you’re going through and I understand how you feel.”
“You do?” He asks surprise.
I nod my head and let a small smile. “You see, I’m in love with this guy but he’s…”
“He’s dead?” He ask and gave me the look that he knew he understand me.
“He died before we can properly introduce ourselves and the sad thing was,” I let out a nervous chuckle. “We only found out about our feeling for each other not too long ago.”
I sigh and took a deep breath. “What I’m trying to say is we’re hurting them by not letting go. They know that we can be never together with them.” He opens his mouth and I knew what he was going to say so I beat him to it. “It would never work out, trust me, I tried my best and now I fully understand how much it pains him.”
“They love us and they know we can never move on until they know we’re ready.” I sigh once again and close my eyes, holding back the tears that threatening to come out.
I didn’t want to look weak in front of him but I knew if I cry, he knows how much it also pain me but I still didn’t let my tears out. “Listen to me, the reason I was sent here is because she didn’t want you to try to be with her. She’s letting you go, she wanted to find peace and rest peacefully but she can never do that if you refuse to let her go.”
I stood up and look down on him, not in the bad way. “Think about it.” I said with a sniff.
I made my way to the door and open it when Peter’s voice stops me. “Jill,” I turn around and saw the weak smile on his face. “Thank you.” I nod my head and smile.
I gasp when I saw Fay behind him slowly fading. She smiles at me before looking at Peter. “Please tell him that I’ll always love him and tell him not to forget about me. Also tell him he should ask Marge, the girl from the diner.”
I smile and told Peter what she said. Peter broke down crying and all I could do was stand there shock. “I love you too and I will never forget you Payton.” He said just before she completely disappears. “She’s gone.”
Peter cried harder and this time I walk up to him and pat his shoulder. He continues to mumble that he loves her before he pulled himself together. He chuckles and reassure me that he’s fine and tomorrow he’ll start a new life and hopefully with Marge.
I smile and told him good luck before making my way to the lift. Silently I wanted for the lift to reach the lounge but my mind was somewhere else. Will
“You called?” Will appear beside me but this time I didn’t jump.
“I…I understand.” I whisper. “But I’m not completely ready yet, please give me some space and time.
Will nods his head before embracing me. I lean into his embracing as I close myself. “Call me when you made your decision.” I nod and just when the door open he disappear, leaving me broken.
I walk back to the parking lot and instantly saw Jason’s car. I took a deep breath calming myself. I sigh in relief when I wipe the tears away before I step out of the building.
I open the passenger seat and hop in. “How did it go?”
“Alright.” I said in the most convincing ‘I’m alright’ voice, or so I thought.
Jason reaches out and grabs my face before gently turning my face to look at him. He studied my face before frowning. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing” I lied.
“Don’t lie to me; now tell me what’s wrong?”
“How would you know I’m lying?” I frown back.
“Because!” Jason closes his eyes and sighs before opening them up again. “Because ever since I saw you I wanted to know more about you so I carefully watch you. I…I did this because I love you, so please tell me why were crying?”
Before I can fully process what he said he leans in and gave me a kiss. At first I was startle but then I close my eyes and kiss him back.
There and then I knew that I like Jason a lot, not the same way I fell about Will but I knew it wasn’t far from it. I can move on as long as I have Jason beside me.
Will’s POV
When I saw him leans in and kiss her, at first I was furious but then I saw her kiss him back. I couldn’t help but smile as I watch her kiss Jason.
I know I should have been furious, I mean who wouldn’t when you see your own girlfriend kissing some other guy but I already knew how she felt towards him.
I knew she cared for him a lot and I know she’s slowly falling for him. Sure, I’m furious, for the fact they kiss while we’re still together but I was glad, glad that she’s moving on.
She’s be save and happy with him. I thought as I watch them drive back home. By the time they arrive back to the house it was nearly eleven. They said their goodnights and gave each other a hug.
I watch Jill made her way to her room, turn the light on in her room and close the door behind her.
Will. She thought.
I show up in front of her just when she opens her eyes making her jump. I chuckle as I watch her place a hand on her chest.
“You should really stop doing that before you give me a heart attack!” She frowns and pouts. I had the sudden urge to grab her and kiss her as she continues to stick her bottom lips out.
Get a hold of yourself! I scold myself.
“I think…I’m ready.” She said biting the bottom of her lips.
I pulled her into a tight embrace and kiss her forehead. I couldn’t help but smile when I heard her sigh and buried her face deep at the crock of my neck.
“Can we see your parent’s tomorrow?” She said against my neck.
“If you want to.” I felt her nod before I heard her yawn. I smile and sweep her off the floor making her squeals in surprise. She covers her mouth and giggled.
Gently I lay her in bed and took her shoes off before tucking her under the covers. I watch as she wiggles underneath it making shuffling noise before clothes start flying everywhere.
I chuckle and shake my head. “Goodnight, my JJ.” I whisper as I kiss her forehead.
“Goodnight, Will.” She mumbles her eyes closing before she fell into slumber.
Jill’s POV
I groan as I hit the button of my alarm, shutting that damn thing off. I rub my eyes with the back of my hand and sigh.
Today, we’re going to visit Will’s family and I’m sure that I’m not looking forward to that. I grunt as I got out of bed and start getting ready.
By quarter to eight I was ready, I head straight to the dinning hall with my bag slung over my shoulder. “Morning” I mumble to everyone who did that same thing except Jason who look ecstatic.
I shake my head and smile at him. I plop down beside Polly who seems to be in a deep argument with Danny about music.
Just when I thought today would be a long day, I soon found out I was wrong once again as I found myself heading to my locker to stuff all my books, so I can go and see Will’s family.
“You have to take the bus at station C.” I jump from the voice behind me who soon chuckles.
I nod. God! As much as I hate this, I’m sure going to miss this!
Just like I was told, I got on the bus at station C. I sat at the very back, as Will told me it would be a twenty minutes ride.
I put my headphones on and played my music, drowning the noise from the crying baby and the student chatting too loudly a few seat from mine.
A tap on my shoulder made me pull the headphones off my ears. “We’re here.” Will announced. I press the bell and soon enough the bus was slowing down at a bus stop. I got up and walk to the door thank the bus driver on my way out.
“Just keep walking until you see an apple tree then turn left from there.” I nod following Will’s direction.
Sure enough there was an apple tree, I turn left and look at the massive houses line up from each other with metres gap between them. I stare in each house in awe.
“That house with a dark red door is my house, well my parent’s house.” I stop gawking at the other houses and look at the house Will was pointing.
My stomach twist tighter in each step I took until I felt sick. Soon I found myself standing in front of the door and with a shaky and sweaty hand, I press the door bell.
The door bell rang in an old fashion way before the door swung open revealing an older version of Will but with bugs under his eyes and slightly red eyes.
“Is this the Crawford’s house?” I ask after clearing my throat.
“Yes and you are?” He asks politely.
“Tell him your name and you are my friend and also you got a message to them from me.” Will whispers near my ear.
“Hi, you don’t know me but I’m Jill.” I bit the bottom of my lips before continuing. “Will’s friend and my deepest condolence for your lost but I got a message from Will.”