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Vik is so stressed from YouTube and stuff and he's depressed and he self harms and stuff and none of the sidemen know and one day while the sidemen are downstairs, vik loses it and starts throwing stuff and breaking stuff and well he's broken....you can see what else happens after that like, he tries to commit suicide or he starts drinking more. Idk if you'd want this as a book, but idk it's just a suggestion (:
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* All the Sidemen life together
Vikk felt like his life was slipping away, all he ever did was make video's and half off the time he felt like he could have put more work in, or made it more exiting, but his viewers liked them like this, but was this stopping him from growing, he did not know what to do, he was so tired all the time, and when he was tired he rushed his editing, and when he rushed the editing he was not happy with the outcome, this was a circle off bad habits and it was not good for him, but he also felt a sense off pride when he finished uploading his 3rd video that day. But that only meant that he needed to start tomorrow's video's. This was never ending, and because it was never ending, Vikk had started not to sleep, he slept for 2-2 hours every day so he could edit more, or film more.
"man you look tired, did you sleep at all" Simon asked
"yeah, I'm fine, maybe I'm just getting sick or something" Vikk lied, the Sidemen had started to notice the changes in Vikk's behavior over the last few days, Harry had been the first to notice and he had talking it over with Simon, they had there suspicions, but they had nothing confirmed, there was something more wrong than Vikk not sleeping, but they could not figure out what it was.
What they did not know was that Vikk was drinking, he was drinking to get more energy, when he was buzzed he was more fun, or at least he thought he was, but as it turned into a habit he started to feel so bad about himself, everything was just getting to much for him, he wanted to get out.
Then one night, just after 3am, Vikk was drunk again, he had been filming some GTA with the boys and Harry notices that he has started to slur his words a little bit. But he did not say anything, he did not want to cause trouble, so he waited until they had finished recording and then he heard Vikk going downstairs so he went after him.
"Vikk" Harry called out
"what do you want?" Vikk called out a bit rudely
"are you OK man?" Harry asked
"good as gold, I'm on cloud fine, or is it 9?" Vikk asked as he laughed at his own joke
"have you been drinking?" Harry asked as he could smell the alcohol from a mile away, it was also obvious as Vikk could barely balance.
"No"
"I can smell the alcohol"
"I'm not drunk"
"walk in a strait line then" Harry demanded, he knew that Vikk was drunk, there was no question about it
"NO" Vikk yelled out, making Tobi and Ethan come downstairs to cheek out what the shouting was about
"Vikk calm down, why don't you just go to bed yeah?" Harry asked as he saw genuine anger in Vikk's eyes.
"I am perfectly, FINE, JUST FUCK OFF HARRY" Vikk shouted as he picked up a vase and threw it at the wall, making Harry jump and he looked stunned.
"WOW, WOW, WOW" Tobi yelled running down the stairs with Ethan not far behind.
"LEAVE ME ALONE" Vikk yelled again and then threw a glass at them who also came to a sudden stop on the wall. Then he ran upstairs
"what is going on?" JJ asked as he came running, but at that moment Vikk ran past him and in to the bathroom, looking himself in there, the other Sidemen did not manage to catch him before he locked it
"VIKK, come out!" Harry begged
"leave me alone" Vikk yelled
"I will brake down the door" Josh yelled back
"just try, I dare you to try! It will be to late!" Vikk told them, and now they were freaking out, what the hell was Vikk doing in there, but then the shower went on, and as there was only a bathtub in there they figured it out strait away, Vikk was trying to kill himself
"VIKK, DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT" Simon started screaming, Harry had started crying and yelling for Vikk to stop, Tobi and JJ had ran downstairs to try to find something to open the door, Josh was on the phone with 999 and everything was hectic. They were not going to let Vikk kill himself, they had to stop him.
"Vikk, listen to me, you can't do this" Harry begged as he banged on the door, again and again.
The shower did not stop, the bathtub would be full right now, the power off the water was that much, and Vikk was not opening the door, Harry was bawling, Simon was still trying to open the door, and the ambulance and the police were on there way there. Then the police finally came and Ethan ran down the stairs to get them
"he has been in there for just under 15 minutes, he is drunk" Harry cried out as the police kicked down the door, they found an unconscious Vikk in the bathtub, he was pulled out and the police started CPR on him.
"common Vikk breath" Harry whispered as he cried, Josh just held the youngest Sideman as he cried, everyone else was crying as well, it was a horrible sight to see, how could they have caught on so late, Vikk had been working to hard for to long, he had finally snapped. Then when the ambulance came they took him away quickly and the boys were told that they could follow to the hospital, and everyone did, they were going to be there for Vikk. They had failed him before, they had to make up for it, as a group.
"he is going to be OK, Harry, he is going to be just fine" Josh told Harry as he led him downstairs and to the car, he was still crying
"I never got to tell him how I feel" Harry bawled out, Josh was the only one that knew what Harry was talking about, Harry had a major crush on Vikk, but he was to scared to tell him, and he had been for a very long time
"I know, you can tell him when he wakes up OK"
"but, what if he does not wake up" Harry asked as Josh just hugged him tighter
"he will, trust me"
As the boys get to the hospital, Vikk has already been in, they are working on him now, they can't tell us anything, we just have to wait in the waiting aria, and It's torture, Harry is crying, and Josh his just holding him close to comfort him, Ethan is pacing around, Tobi is just looking down to the floor, and JJ and Simon went to get coffee for everyone, they just can't stay still, they have to feel like they are doing something, everyone has there way off coping, but just after the boys have come back with the coffee, a doctor walks in.
"are you with Vikram Barn?"
"yes" Harry shoots up as he speaks
"he is alive, he swallowed a lot off water and he is not out off the woods yet, we are going to admit him for psychological evaluation, but he has sobered up, and he wants to see you, but there are only two persons allowed at a time"
"me and Harry will go" Josh tells them and everyone just nods, then Josh led Harry to Vikk's room, he was thankfully awake, and he broke down as soon as he saw Harry and Josh in the doorway, and that made Harry brake down as well, as he ran over and hugged Vikk tight
"never ever do that to me again" Harry cried
"I'm so sorry, I don't know what I was thinking" Vikk cried
"I love you Vikk, I need you" Harry told him
"you do?"
"I love you, and not just as a friend, I want you to be with me" Harry said as he looked into Vikk's eyes
"I love you to, and I would like nothing more than to call you mine"
"can I kiss you?" Harry asked
"you don't need to ask" Vikk said smiling through the tears, Josh just smiled as walked out off the door, closing it behind him, he then looked into the room a few minutes later and saw Harry and Vikk laying together on the bed, holding hands and sleeping. Josh walked away happy, hopefully everything would get better now.
AN
There are two story's that I'm going to recommend right now, and you should all go check it out.
first one is
Three floors down (W2S) by Citylights188
and then
No homo (Minishaw) by HarryXIX