Harry's POV
I don't understand why Simon is always taking cheep shots at me, I may not upload as much as he does, I know I don't upload as much as he does, he does it every day, I do maybe 2 video's a week, sometimes more, sometimes less, I will admit that I can be lazy, but I also don't want to upload every day, I want to go out and just chill, I don't want to be stressed out if I have enough video's to upload if I am going away somewhere, I like my Schedule, Well I don't know if I can call it a schedule, because I just upload when I finish my video's it does not matter what day it is when I do.
I don't understand why Simon finds the need to take cheep shots at me from time to time. There is no wonder that the guys call him Slueman, because he is, He thinks It's just banter and that I don't take it the wrong why, and to be honest it did not bother me for the longest time, but then the fans started to say these things to me as well, I guess Simon had that affect on them, but then again, I don't know if I can blame him at all, maybe I'm just being sensitive, maybe I should just laugh along, he does not mean it right?
"Shut up Harry" I whisper to myself as I try to stop myself from thinking to much about this, It's not good for me, I should stop doubting myself, this is not my fault, or is it. It must be me, who else could I blame?
"Stop it" I say to myself again as my mind is going in circles, I stand up to get myself some water and then I come back into my bedroom, I sit down at my desk and just start watching some YouTube video's I decide to watch Simon's new video.
Well guess what he slued me again.
"Run I channel like I do it, not like Harry runs it." He said smiling and then making finger guns.
Well there we go again, should I just ask him to stop making fun off me, or would that just make things worse, I don't want to upset anyone, I don't want to make Simon feel bad about himself, but then again, he should not be making me feel bad about myself, that is not fair.
After sitting and starting at my phone for almost half an hour I pick it up and dial up Simon's number, I don't know if I want him to pick up or not, If he does not pick I can cover it up with, I wondered if you would like to make a video with me or something like that.
"Hello" Simon then says
"Hey, It's Harry"
"hey man, what's up"
"uhh, listen, I need to talk to you about something"
"what? You sound upset, is everything OK?"
"I don't know yet"
"do you want me to come over and we can talk in person?" he then asks, I freeze for a minute, would it be easier to talk to him in person or not, I don't know, what should I do, I should accept, but I don't want to upset him, but I also don't want this to continue. What should I do
"Harry?" Simon asks
"yeah, yeah OK"
"So you want me to come over?" Simon asks again, he sounds confused
"yeah"
"OK, see yah in 20"
"yeah OK" I say before I hang up, preparing myself of how the hell I'm meant to tell Simon that I don't want him to take cheep shots at me anymore because I feel bad about myself, does that sound bad, I don't want him to hate me. I always overthink things.
Simon knocks on the door about 20 minutes later, he looks worried, and I probably look awkward as fuck.
"hey" I say softly
"are you alright Boggy" he asks me strait out
"I don't know yet"
"want to tell me what's wrong"
"come to my room" I say as I signal to him to follow me there.
"OK Harry, you are making me worried, I guess this is not about a video, am I right?" Simon asks
"yeah, listen" I say as I close the door and signal to Simon to sit down with me on the bed
"tell me Harry, tell me what is wrong, maybe I can help" he tells me
"I don't understand why you keep dissing on me in your video's, you are always taking shots at me, and It did not bother me, I know it should not bother me as it's just banter, but then the fans started repeating these things after you and I just feel bad about it., I feel like I'm not good enough for you guys and I feel like I'm letting everyone down as everyone wants me to upload every day, but I'm not like you guys. I just don't know what to do" I blurred out as I looked down on the floor, avoiding eye contact with Simon at all cost.
"I'm sorry that I made you feel bad, that was never my intention" Simon said as he hugged me
"thank you Simon"
"should we make a video, since I'm over here anyway, why not?" Simon said smiling to cheer me up.
"sure what do you have in mind?"
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