I woke up to a hand on my bare shoulder and jumped. I looked up to see Phil. I need a shirt. I started panicking and Phil tried to calm me down.
"How did you get in here?" I asked panting and trying to cover the scars on my shoulders. He cant see them! He'll hate me so much. He sat down next to me and ran his fingers through my hair.
"It's okay Dan. Your foster sister let me in. She said you'd be awake." He laughed. Lucky was laying her head on my stomach so I couldn't pull the blanket up any more and I tried to act calm.
"Can I put on a shirt?" I mumbled in defeat. He laughed and nodded before leaving the room. I got up and almost yelped feeling my shoulder pulse. I put on a long sleeve shirt and pajama pants so he didn't know I slept in my jeans. "Okay, sorry." I said and Phil walked back into the room with a smirk. I sat down and Lucky protectively laid down across my lap.
He sat down next to me and Lucky laid her head on his lap, making Phil smile and pet her head.
"So how was your night? I tried to Skype you." Phil said looking down at Lucky. Does he hate me.
"Oh sorry, I was just really tired and went to bed not long after I got home." I moved my arm a little and winced.
"Oh that's fine. I was wondering if you wanted to go out tonight with my family?" Phil asked. I really wanted to say yes, but I couldn't. I can barley move my arm and I don't want to get hurt again.
"I can't, I'm sorry." I mumbled. "I'm actually going out with my foster family pretty soon, so I have to get ready." I made the excuse and Phil seemed sad or angry. I couldn't help but feel scared that he was going to hurt me and I flinched.
"Okay, I'll see you Monday then." He didn't even look at me and he left. I heard the door shut and couldn't keep my tears in any longer. He hates me! I screwed up again. does he know I lied? I couldn't keep my thoughts straight, but the only thing that kept coming to my mind was cutting.
I got off my bed and walked to the bathroom. I grabbed my pill bottle and grabbed my sharpest blade. I cried harder while I lifted my arm to take off my shirt. I pulled off my pants next and took my blade between my fingers. I cut for what felt like hours. There was no skin color showing, just blood and cuts covering both of my arms and thighs. I started cleaning up my blood and heard a soft knock on the door.
"Dan?" Aria's little voice sounded from outside the bathroom. "Can I come in?" She sniffled and I started panicking.
"No sweetheart, I'm taking a shower, I'll be out soon." I turned on the shower and washed all of the blood off of me and bandaged myself up and got dressed. When I walked into my room Phil was sitting on my bed with Aria. "Phil, what are you doing here?"
"I know you lied to me. Are you okay?" Phil said and felt my eyes start to water. "You'd tell me if something was wrong right?" He asked with soft eyes.
"I really wish I could." I mumbled and he stood up and hugged me softly and I quickly whimpered, trying to move my arm.
"Are you okay?" He asked and let go of me. "Was it your shoulder?" He asked worriedly. I nodded and he reached his arm out to touch my shoulder softly. It hurt bad and he seemed to notice. "Can I please take you to a doctor?" Phil asked and the pain made me give in. I nodded and us and Aria went out to his car. Phil helped me in and shut my door.
"Thank you for this. Thank you for everything actually." I muttered and Phil put his hand on my knee. When we got to the hospital, I saw the older nurse Elizibeth and she saw me and she got a huge smile and walked over to me.
"Daniel!! Please tell me you just came back to see me?" She asked sweetly and I shook my head. "Can I hug you? I know you were really sensitive about touch last time I saw you." I nodded and she lightly wrapped her arms around me and I put my good arm around her. "I meant to ask, why did you stop coming to therapy?" She asked.
"I don't know, I guess I got better." I lied. Derik and Laura made me stop going because they didn't want me to seem abnormal. We both pulled away and she smiled sweetly.
"I can take you back for a check in if you want." She said and looked down to see Aria hugging her leg. "Aria! It's been forever since I've seen you're sweet little face!" She said excitedly and picked her up. Phil came up behind me and placed a hand on my waist and I jumped. "Who is this?" Elizibeth asked skeptically.
"I'm his boyfriend." Phil said happily and I couldn't help but smile at the sound of it. Elizibeth looked at me with a bit of concern.
"It's nice to meet you, only family is allowed in the exam room though. Aria, do you want to come back?" She shook her head and grabbed Phil's leg. "Okay." I followed Elizibeth into the exam room. "Okay, do you want to take off your shirt or put on the gown?" Elizabeth asked and u obviously chose the gown. (Skip the visit.) I walked out with my arm in a sling and Phil looked worried.
"Don't worry, it was only dislocated." I said quickly and Phil hugged me softly.
"You scared me! Did Chris really do this?" Phil asked worried and I nodded. He can never know. I pulled away from him and he held onto my waist. "Can you please come to dinner with my family?" Phil asked and I looked over at Aria and she nodded.
"Okay. I'm sorry for lying." I muttered and we all walked out to Phil's car. 2pm. "When are we going?"
"Around 4 to 4:30." Phil said sweetly and we got in. Phil delicately grabbed my hand and we started heading back to the house. I took off the sling and tried to move my arm. "Dan, don't take it off! It needs to heal."
"It makes be more of a vulnerable target." I mumbled and folded it up. We got to the house soon after and Zoe was there and she smiled when we walked into the door.
"Hey Aria." Zoe smiled and Aria skeptically looked at her. "Do you want to go Ice skating with me and my friends?" She asked and Aria perked up and looked at me.
"You should go, but be careful." I smiled and Zoe and mouthed a thank you. Aria went upstairs and got bundled up and they left soon after. "Do you want anything to drink or eat?" I asked and Phil smiled at me.
"Can I have some water?" Phil asked and we walked to the kitchen. I grabbed two glasses and started filling them up. I felt a pair of hands on my hips and I jumped a little. "When did you get so thin?" Phil said, lightly gripping my hip bones.
"I don't know, I just went on a diet." I said having a hard time concentrating. I turned around and handed him a glass of water. I slowly sipped mine and he drank his quickly.
"Do you want to watch a movie?" I asked trying to get of the topic. He nodded and we walked into the living room and I turned on the TV and sat down. Lucky jumped up and laid across my lap. Phil sat down and wrapped his arm around me. I looked through the movies and Phil stopped me on Annabelle. "I get scared easily!" I protested and he smirked.
"That's the point. I can protect you." I gave in and pressed play. I leaned in closer to him and tried to ignore the pain. By the end of the movie, I was practically on top of him. He lightly kissed my shoulder and I tensed up. I looked over at him and I just wanted to throw myself on him, but I'm terrified.
"We should go." I said and tried to get off of his lap. He held my hips lightly and pulled me into him. His mouth was so close to my ear and I felt his warm breath fan my skin.
"Five more minutes?" Phil whispered into my ear, letting his lips lightly press against my ear before lightly taking my earlobe between his teeth. I couldn't help but shudder but could only see Harrison. I hid my fear and he lightly kissed below my ear. He turned me so I was practically straddling him. His arms wrapped around my waist and he just looked at me. "You're perfect." He looked like he was about to kiss me, but my phone rang.
"I need to answer this." I pulled out my phone and Phil held me still. Derik. I pressed answer and held the phone to my ear.
Looks like it's your lucky day faggot, were staying out tonight. When we get home around noon, the house better be spotless.
Okay, I'll see you tomorrow then. I kind of stuttered and I could practically hear the smirk through the phone.
Oh Danny, do you have someone over? What did I tell you about that? Oh stupid boy when will you learn. Derik laughed and then hung up the phone. Phil's smile was a bit weaker, but he still seemed happy.
"Now we should go." Phil laughed and let go of my waist. We both got up and Phil grabbed my hand. I slipped on a pair of toms and kind of whimpered when I moved my arm. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, my shoulder just hurts." I muttered and he went behind me and lightly kissed my shoulder and wrapped his arms around me.
"He will never hurt you again." Phil mumbled and kissed the side of my neck. I shuddered a little at the feeling and he grabbed my hand again, bringing me out to his car. He helped me in and we started driving. When we got to his house he didn't un lock the door. "You need to put on your sling. I don't want it to get worse." Phil said and handed me my folded up sling.
I did what he asked and winced a few times. His victorious smile made me happy. I haven't smiled this much since before my parents died. We got out and Phil grabbed my hand and we walked into his house. I saw Jazz sitting on the couch and she looked so pretty.
"Are we all driving together?" Mrs. Lester asked and Phil nodded. "What happened to you?" She asked worriedly and walked over to me.
"I'm just really clumsy." I forced a laugh and Phil and Jazz looked at each other.
"Then you and Phil are perfect for each other." She smiled suggestively. "Hey Jazz, is Chris meeting us there or here?" I felt Phil tense and held my hand tightly and I whimpered quietly. He didn't seem to notice and I could only think of Harrison.
"He should be here soon." Phil's hand tightened and I yelped pathetically. He jumped and looked down at me and let go of my hand.
"I'm so sorry Dan. I didn't mean to." Phil begged me to forgive him and I looked up at him. "I will never do that again. I'm so sorry."
"It's okay." I said quietly and he wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me carefully. I pulled away a few seconds later hearing Mrs. Lester telling us that Chris was here and we needed to go. Phil pulled me in close and looked into my eyes.
"He won't hurt you." Phil whispered calmly in my ear. We walked outside and Jazz ran into Chris's arms. We all walked to the one car and it wasn't super big, but we could all fit. Phil was telling me to go in first so that he can sit between me and Chris, but Mr's Lester stopped me.
"You're the smallest, I think it would be most comfortable if you were in the middle." Phil listened and got in first and wrapped a protective arm around me and pulled me as close as possible and as far from Chris. everyone was talking except for me and Phil. I was terrified.
We got to the restaurant and we were led to our table. I sat next to Phil and Chris was right in front of me. I didn't order anything except for a water and Phil offered me some of his food but I declined it.
"I'm going to go to the bathroom." I mumbled to Phil and got up quickly. I could barely breath and I slid down the bathroom wall, not caring about the dirty floor and I pulled my knees up to my chest and tried so hard not to break. Everything hurt so bad and I felt my muscles pulsing. My vision was blurry and I tried to breath.
"Dan?" I heard Phil's voice and opened the toilet door and Phil quickly sat next to me and pulled me into his chest. He whispered things to calm me down and just held me until my chest loosened up.
"We need to get back. I don't want your mom to think something else is happening." I joked and Phil laughed deeply. I stood up and Phil placed his hands on my waist.
"You're so cute." He muttered and kissed my nose. I blushed a little and we walked out of the bathroom and back to the table. Chris glared at me and I winced. We finished dinner and Phil continued to be overly protective. When we got back to his house and Phil brought me into his room and his room was so bright.
"You're room is so you." I smiled and Phil grabbed my waist from behind and and lightly kissed my neck. I couldn't help but wince at the thought of Harrison biting there. He stopped and turned me around to face him.
"Are you okay?" Phil asked, still holding my waist. I nodded and he smiled a little bit. "Is it to soon to ask to kiss you?" He said kind of shyly and he pulled me in a bit closer.
"No." I muttered quietly and his lips softly touched mine. I wanted to scream. So many memories that I've buried came rushing into my mind. I didn't want to worry his so I kissed him back and put my only good arm around his neck and he pulled away.
"You're such a good kisser. How much practice have you had?" Phil chuckled and I could only think of Harrison. I smiled and Phil let go of my waist. "I'll take you home." He said and grabbed my hand. We walked out to see Chris and Jazz making out on the couch and we went out to his car.
The drive was short and Phil walked me up to my door and pulled me in close and kissed me again. It's not that he's s bad kisser, but it just brings up so many memories. I unlocked the door and Phil follow my wed me inside. The house was still completly empty and it scared me more then when people are home.
"Will you stay with me for a little?" I asked and looked behind me thinking someone was there.
"Of course! I was really hoping that you asked." Phil said sweetly and we went and sat on the couch. I took off my sling and put it on the table, before cuddling into Phil. We watched multiple movies and he laid behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist. I fell asleep quickly to the the feeling of Phil's hands softly rubbing my side.
Phil's POV:
I lightly knocked on the dark wooden door and waited a few seconds before the door opened. The sweet girl from school who I think is Zoe opened the door and smiled at me.
"Hey, can I talk to Dan?" Zoe looked like she was thinking for a minute before asking me what time it was. "9:45?" I mumbled confused and a smile appeared on her face.
"Yeah! My parents and brother are out for the day and I'm leaving soon so you have the house to yourselves." She winked and lightly punched my arm. "I'm sorry, his room is up the stairs and he has the broken door. He's probably awake." She said and walked away and I followed her directions.
I opened the door and he looked like a sleeping angel. I walked up to his bed and softly pet Lucky's head that was laying on Dan's stomach. I looked back up at Dan and noticed a few things. First he was shirtless. His lip was slightly bruised and it looked like there was a cut on it. His shoulder was badly bruised and scarred, but he was still a breathtaking sight to see. I lightly laid my hand on his bruised shoulder and Lucky growled at me.
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