I smile at my phone like the idiot I felt like earlier at school. All day, I didn't feel like myself. I didn't know why I felt this way over a girl! Tiana sure as hell made the whole gay thing look glamorous- she looked so comfortable with herself- and I'm struggling like a motherfucker trying to figure myself out.
Oh. My. God!
Gabby will never talk to me again!
I couldn't tell her about my feelings, it would creep her out. I couldn't tell ANYBODY. Not Ti, since she would rub it in my face, nor my mom..... My mom.
How am I gonna tell-....
You know what? I just won't. She doesn't have to know. At least, not until I'm sure.
So all day, I wasn't my usual talkative self. I couldn't even talk clearly around Gabby. I felt so stupid and embarrassed.
But she just texted me.
"Are you alright? You weren't yourself today."
I was just glad that she knew I wasn't an idiot ALL the time. I didn't want her to lose interest in our friendship just because she made my vagina jump and I acted all weird about it.
Not at all.
"Just a little under the weather." I replied.
Just then, my phone rings.
"Hey. You need anything? I could come over and keep you company." Gabby said.
I bit my lip. Do I really wanna risk this?
"I'm coming over." She said.
"N-" I started to say, and then I heard the phone click.
FUCK!
I paced back and forth while I tried to think of an excuse to get rid of her.
"Gabby, sorry, my condition is highly contagious."
I roll my eyes at that weak excuse.
There was no way Gabby was gonna go right back home. I just had to face the music. I laid back down on the couch and sulked.
A half hour later, she was there.
I answered the door when she knocked.
She brought a bag of stuff with her.
"Nice place." She said, walking in.
"I got like, pepto bismol and aspirin for wherever you're hurtin' at." She says, smiling.
"Well, I'm not sick, I'm just not myself right now."
"Oh, I'm sorry. Maybe hot chocolate will make you happy."
I shrug. It wasn't exactly cold outside, but who can turn down hot chocolate? While I led Gabby to the kitchen, I was giving myself a pep talk mentally.
You're doing good, Gwen. You haven't did anything dumb since she got here twenty seconds ago.
I begin to take the mix out and Gabby puts her hand over mine.
My heart jumped.
"I got it. You need to just relax."
I tell her where all the stuff is, and go sit down.
A few minutes later, the hot chocolate is done. Gabby came over where I was, and I loved the smell of the hot chocolate. I smiled when I saw that there were a crapload of marshmallows in there, resembling whipped cream. I was about to kill this shit. We take a sip, and I instantly burn my tongue.
"Ow!" I shouted.
Gabby put her hands on my face. "You alright?" Suddenly the pain was gone, but Gabby still had her hands on my face.
When she realized it, she quickly put them around her cup. "Be careful, Gwen. Sheesh." She says.
I chuckle nervously. "Yeah. I will."
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Ti walks in, and spots Gabby as she heads to the restroom. She raises her eyebrow. "What's she doin' here?"
Why, God? Why?
"She came to check up on me."
"Ah, I see. You couldn't even tell your best friend you needed company, eh?"
"Ti, it ain't even like that. She wouldn't take no for an answer, even after telling her I was fine."
She grins. "Nah, it's cool. Just know Miss Gabby is probably tryna get at you."
I rolled my eyes.
"I keep tellin' you, she ain't interested in me and vice versa."
She rolled her eyes.
"I know you ain't into her. She's definitely into you." She came and sat by me. "Ooh, hot chocolate." She says, taking a sip from my cup.
"I ain't say you could drink any of my hot chocolate."
"Too late." She says, wiping her mouth.
"Gabby sure does make sure you're good."
"Just like you." I say.
She chuckles. "True. But I've known you for years.... You've known her for a couple weeks. It's normal for a best friend... Not a new friend."
"Tiana Rose," i say, amused. "Are you jealous?"
She rolled her eyes. "C'mon, bruh. I only get protective when I feel my position is being threatened by someone I don't like. I like Gabby, she's cool. She'd be a good friend."
I smile. Nice to know my best friend doesn't hate Gabby. Generally, she wasn't a jealous person, anyways. Protective? Definitely. But not jealous.
I never felt like anyone threatened my position as a best friend Ti because she didn't have a lot of close friends. I disliked most of her ex girlfriends, though. They didn't like that I was so close to her. Ti never let anyone utter a bad word around me, and I LOVED her for that. So yes, she's dumped girls in the name of loyalty.
I long for the day I can return the favor.
Gabby comes out of the bathroom and finally greets Ti. "Hi." She says.
"Hey," Ti replies. "I like your hair, girl."
She touches her hair. "Thanks." Gabby replies.
Her smile was definitely a breathtaking one. I wasn't in love or anything like that, but one day I was gonna taste those lips.
GWEN!
DUDE!
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The next morning, I was making sure I looked my absolute best. I wore a black wifebeater and a blue plaid hoodie over it. To match, I put on black flower earrings, and flatironed my hair so I could have a shiny bun. When I finished flatironing it, it stopped at the middle of my back.
I considered wearing it down, but decided against it. I don't feel comfortable that way. So, I put it in a bun and smiled at myself.
In the ride to school, Tim and Ti both looked me up and down. "Who you gettin' all prettied up for?" Asked bold ass Ti.
I rolled my eyes. "God." I said.
"God?" She chuckles. "G.... God likes you in friggin pajamas. Now, tell me! I won't get mad, I swear. Unless it's for that dickhead, Mar-.. It's for Marcus, isn't it?"
I nodded. Sure, it could be for Marcus, too. I guess.
"I'll be there to beat ass when he's done using you." She says, softly.
"Um.. Thanks." I replied.
......
When I walked into the school, I was greeted by Marcus.
"Hey, Gwen." He says. "I've been thinking about you lately."
I smile.
"Really?"
"Yeah. I... Was wondering if you would go on a date with me?"
He waits until my interest shifts to a girl to ask me out?
Ugh.