Regina
I slowly begin to wake and try to open my eyes. There are people around me who are constantly talking, but I can't understand what they say. It's just too hard to focus on it. I'm not sure, but I think one of them is my father Henry. One of the others might be my mother Cora, but I'm not sure.
I blink a few times with my eyes, because the light above me is too bright to keep my eyes open, but after a few more tries I'm able to do so. At first my sight is completely blurry, but as the time passes I'm able to see more and more. My sight gets clearer and clearer until I see daddy looking at me with a little smile on his face. "Welcome back my princess" he says. "Daddy? Back from where? Where am I?" I ask while I try to remember what happened. Before my father can say anything I know from the way he looks down at me with a sad face that something terrible has happened and he doesn't know how to tell me. "Please tell me!" I beg while I try to sit up a bit straighter. Daddy helps me up and answers "You're in the hospital Regina. You've been in an accident. How much do you remember?". I look around in my room while I try remember what had happened. Then I see my mother and sister sitting next to my bed. They both have the same sad look on their faces. I knew something must be wrong. I begin to remember "Daniel and I have been on our way back to New York. There was this car. It forced us off the road. Then there is nothing. It all happened so fast!". I immediately think of Daniel." Even though I was afraid of the answer I asked "Where is Daniel? How is he?". Daddy holds my hands in his when he said: "I'm so sorry Regina. He died in the accident.". My eyes fill with tears and they start falling down my cheeks. My body is shaking and he puts his arms around me and holds me close while I cry into his shoulder. He tries to comfort me by whispering soothing words into my ear, but there is nothing he can do to make me feel better. "No! Not my Daniel. Please tell it's not true!" I managed to say with a broken voice. He didn't answer because he knew there is nothing he can say that will comfort me. Zelena sits down on the other side of the bed and hugs me as well. I know they only want the best for me and I really appreciate it, but I know there is nothing they can do to help me. Only Daniel could have comforted me. The thought of never seeing him again, never feeling his loving touch and gentle kisses is too painful for me. Thinking of him makes me cry even harder.
My life has been absolutely perfect before the accident. I can't believe all this is over forever. Now I realise that it only takes a few seconds to change a life forever. I never thought I had to live without him ever again. My heart is broken into a thousand pieces and there is nobody who will help me to pick up the pieces. I cry until I feel tired and fell asleep in daddy's arms. When I was a little girl he was always there for me. He took care of me when I was sick and he comforted me whenever I woke up from a nightmare. With him I feel safe in the same way I felt with Daniel near me. He'd do anything to keep me safe.
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Several hours have passed until I wake up again. I feel a lot calmer now. They must have given me some drugs to calm me down. As soon as I think about Daniel my eyes fill with tears again, but I don't start to cry again. Daddy is now sitting next to me while he holds my hand. He looks up when he feels me moving and lifts his head to look at me. "Are you feeling better now honey?" he asks softly. The little smile is back on his face. "Yes a bit." is all manage to say before I cough due to my dry throat from all the crying earlier. Before I can say anything he hands me a glass of water which I drink immediately. I still feel terribly sad and depressed, but I try not to cry again, because I know once the tears start to fall I won't be able to stop them. Telling my parents how I really feel won't change anything. I'm sure of it. They'd only be more worried about me than they already are. I still feel extremely tired and worn out like I've just finished a long day filled with work at the office. My crying earlier must have costed me quite some energy. "I'll go and see if I find you doctor." my mother says softly as she walks over to my bed and squeezes my hand in an attempt to comfort me. I know she only wants the best for me and I appreciate it. She usually hides her feelings from everyone, but I can feel it's hard for her to see me like this, weak and broken. Maybe even harder than it is for me. I might not have much in common with my mother, but we both hate being weak in front of others.
As soon as my mother is out of the room, Zelena comes over and hugs me tight without saying anything. A few minutes later Cora is back followed by a female doctor. Her dark blonde hair is pulled back into a ponytail. She pulls out a chair and smiles at me. The way she sits there directly looking at me and her whole appearance have a calming effect on me.
Then she pulls me out of my thoughts as she says "Hello, I'm Doctor Maura Isles and I'll take care of you while you're here. You can just call me Maura. How are you feeling today?"
"I'm okay" I answer briefly without telling her how I truely feel inside. "That's great so far" she responds. She must have felt that I'm not honest with my parents in the room so she politely sends them outside. "Thank you" is all I need to say, because she knows what I wanted to say. Maura breaks the silence: "I know you're not okay and that's normal. I wouldn't be either. Your sad and grieving. Are you feeling any pain or are you feeling sick?". "No I don't" I respond briefly. "That's great so far. I assume you must have a lot of questions, but I'd like to tell you some things before you can ask them. Is that okay with you?". I just nod for an answer. Then she begins to talk "You and your fiancé have been in a severe car accident on Sunday night. I was in the ER at the time. You were suffering from internal bleeding and several broken ribs as well as a severe concussion. We brought you into emergency surgery and were able to stop the bleeding. To give your body time to heal we decided to put you in a medically induced coma. I'd call it a miracle that you survived this accident. I'm sure you want to know more about Daniel. A colleague and friend of mine took him into surgery, but his injuries were much worse than yours and there was nothing that could be done to help him. He lost too much blood. I'm sorry." She pauses so I can think about everything she said to me. Tears begin to form in my eyes again as I'm thinking about Daniel.
"There is still one thing I need to tell you and it's not a pleasant one."she takes a short break before going on. My whole world already broke down after learning about my fiancé's death. I believed nothing could make it any worse, but I couldn't be more wrong. Nothing could have prepared my for what Maura says next "You're paralyzed Regina. The nerves in your spinal cord can't be repaired. You'll never be able to walk again. I'm very sorry." My body is in shock as soon as I understand her words and I can't think clearly. No no no this can't be true. Isn't it enough that I've already lost Daniel? I don't have the strength to keep my walls up and I'm this moment I don't even care about what she thinks of me like this. The old Regina would have never done it, but I'm not that person anymore and I will never be.
I'm not the Regina anymore, who feel in love with Daniel and enjoyed her life.
I begin to cry. Tears stream down my face while my body is shaking. I haven't even noticed that Maura has sent my family back inside my room until I feel daddy holding my body close to his chest and slowly rocks me while he whispers soothing words into my ear.
"Hey, it's okay it's okay. Calm down honey. I'm here, we are all here for you. You're not alone.". I hear him whisper softly. For the second time this day he comforts me. After some time I slowly stop crying and look up to him. "Did you know?" I ask with my still a bit broken voice. He didn't have to say anything. The guilty look on his face told me that he did.
In the late afternoon Maura came back to check on me again after her shift. She seems to care a lot about me I think. She told me that the police already spoke to her, but they still need to talk to me about the accident. They'll come tomorrow and I'm actually a bit scared because I know it will bring back old memories of Daniel, which will make me feel even more upset and depressed. I don't want to talk to them, but I know I have to.
My family stayed with me until the evening when I begin to feel tired. Even though I've been extremely quiet the whole time I'm sure that I couldn't stand to be alone at the moment. At least they distracted me from thinking about Daniel. My family is so very supportive and that's exactly what I need. I'm grateful for their help. Now that I'm alone I try to fall asleep, but I just can't, because my mind wouldn't shut up. I keep thinking about my now dead fiancé, the love of my life. I can't imagine my life without him. We were so happy and wanted to do so many things together, but now nothing of it will ever happen. We'll never get married or have children. Our time is over now.
I remember that I should probably call his parents tomorrow and ask about their plans concerning his funeral. I want to be involved as much as I can, even though it's hard for me, because I know he'd do the same for me. Now I regret that we have never talked about any of it and I have no idea what he would have wanted. We should have better done it, but we were young and didn't expect to die so soon. When I'm still awake hours later a nurse gives me some sleeping pills, which help me to finally fall into a deep and peaceful sleep until I have a terrible nightmare, which makes me relive the accident. I wake up shaking and crying again, but this time there is nobody to comfort me. I'm all alone. Usually Daniel calmed me down after a nightmare. When I glance at the watch beside me I notice that it's only three in the morning. I should better try to get some more sleep, but I'm still too shaken up. I thought about calling Zelena, but dicided against it. There is no need to wake her up at this hour. She'd only be worried about me. When I'm calm enough I fall into a light and uneven sleep.
Here is chapter two. Please comment you thoughts about it. I'd love to get some feedback :)
~Julia