I wake up and hold my breath. What if I can't hear? What if I stay like this my whole life and the doctors just messed my ear up even worst. I heard slight whispers. I heard. But I couldn't make out anything. Almost like whispers.
"Wh- W" I tested my words and looked to see Dr. Waters beside me. I barely even knew how to talk and I almost laughed. I never dreamt since recently that maybe I'd ever get my hearing back but not actually being able to talk? That seemed like nonsense. Dr. Waters held up a little curled black thing. I raised an eyebrow expectantly. He reached it toward me and I flinched back at first but then allowed him to connect it to my ear. I recognized it a bit. Well, I'd read of it. It echoed sounds louder so you could hear things louder and clearer. I pressed it into my ear and wrapped a bendable thing around the top of my ear and started to hear a steady beating. I thought I was going crazy and I turned around to Dr. Waters to see what was happening to me and I saw the heart monitor beeping the same steady beat as what I was hearing. I grinned widely and laughed. I heard myself laugh and it made me smile even more. Dr. Waters was smiling too. I was happy he was here but u wanted more than anything for Zach to have replaced him. I think back to almost ten years ago when I would talk. I rolled some letters around in my mouth.
"Once you get a few things it'll all flood back to you. You don't know how much you can actually remember from so long ago." Dr. Waters reassures and I start repeating some words he says.
"Cat"
"C-Cat"
"Apple"
"Ap-ple"
And we continued but I didn't say anything that he didn't say. Then what he said next surprised me a great deal.
"Zach." He said and I blinked in obvious surprise. I sat up in my seat a bit.
"How h- How do you know Zach?" I say words feeling new on my tongue.
"I don't want you to freak out Holly okay?" Dr. Waters replies laying a hand on my arm.
"No tell me!" I say loudly but not quite scream.
"Your parents have been notified from a hospital near your home town that you had strong relations with Zach?" I blinked a few times. What could they do to us? Nothing I'm sure.
"Yeah." I responded.
"He was getting a taxi to come out here and see you, almost a three day trip in car but he knew the taxi driver so they say." He clarified. " The driver was caught on the train tracks because the bars were stuck and he didn't know. He went right out onto the tracks. The car got pushed for almost three miles until the train could stop."
"And!" I screech.
"Shhh.. Calm down. Zach has sustained bad injuries. They don't know if he'll make it." My mouth was slightly open and then sobs started to wrack my body.
"No... No... No! This isn't right! That's not supposed to be happening!" I cry out but the truth is sinking in like salt in a wound.
"I'll update you as soon as possible." Dr. Waters says and leaves the room. I breathe heavier and heavier until I can hear the heart monitor racing uncontrollably until the world was spinning with doctors and then the world went black again.
"Zach?" I say when his face comes to view. He is glitching and when I look at my hands, they are too. We are in the garden. Our garden. "Where are we? Is this heaven?"
"Your voice is pretty you know? And yeah, I think so." He says uncertainly.
"Your not supposed to be here." I say heartbroken.
"Neither are you." Zach replies stiffly.
"Are we dead?" I ask with my eyes full of tears. "I wanna live."
"Then go back." A voice says behind Zach and I look back and a dirty blond women walks out and has a few of the same features as him.
"What?" I ask.
." "Go back." The women says again.
"Mom?" Zach says before she disappears. She wasn't flickering like us.
"Go back Holly!" Zach turns to me and yells. He's flickering less and less until he is barely like a shadow. "Fight." He says just before he vanished. My hands start to flicker less and less and less until I can't see the world in front of me anymore and it's replaced with darkness.
I open my eyes and doctors are rushing around me. I don't remember anything that just happened. My heart rate is barely stable and my lungs feel like they are about to burst.
"Is he alive?" Is the first thing that came out of my mouth.
"They haven't updated us." Dr. Waters sighs.
"Please?" I ask but I already know the answer. "What happened to me?"
"Panic attack we think. We've never seen one this severe though." Dr. Waters says while typing swiftly on his computer.
"Okay then.." I say. Talking still feels weird. I feel like there is something I want to remember.
"Why don't you try and sleep?" Dr. Waters asks. I just nod a bit and curl myself in a ball. Tears slip down my face and nothing is there to control it. I feel terrible. My stomach aches in pain but I fight the urge to get up and vomit. I groan in pain unwillingly and I hear Dr. Waters coming over to me. He flips me over on my backs but I keep my knees up to my chest. He flattens my body out and puts slight pressure on my stomach. He pushed in three different places and the last one send a strike of pain through my body and I shriek in pain.
Dr. Waters walks back to his computer and types a few things in.
"Just the chemo reacting to your panic attack." I groan again and turn back into my side.
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Authors note!
I'm sorry if you don't like that part but she doesn't remember it when she wakes up so it won't come up again :) so we don't know if Zach is alive but I think next chapter might be his point of view so we shall see.