⊰ Mistakes Happen ⊱
I rushed towards the direction that Lucy headed to as I worryingly think about Lucy's sudden state of emotion. I searched inside and outside of buildings, but there wasn't any sign of her anywhere. I started to become even more concerned making my mind jumble to horrifying scenarios.
After hours of searching, I decided to take a break by a nearby tree with a pond next to it. I smiled nostalgically as memories of when Lucy comforted me at this very place. I frowned remembering how jealous I was just seeing Gray and Lucy together. Now that I think about it, I'm starting to think that despite the way Gray treated Lucy, they still had a strong friendship.
As I crept closer towards the tree, the sight of blonde hair took me by surprise. Smiling in relief, I rushed towards the tree and as I got closer, I saw Lucy hugging her knees to her chest, her head laying upon her kneecaps as her sunny hair shadowed her sad face. My face forming an expression of sorrow as I slid my back against the tree, sitting next to the moping blonde.
I scooted closer to her as she jerked her head up to meet my eyes. Her brilliant brown eyes held pain and regret—many more negative emotions that I couldn't fathom. Her lips in a pouted form as I looked back at her eyes again to see that she had a sheen of wetness. Was she crying?
"Luce..." Was all I could say. She nodded slightly and turned her head to face the pond, her eyes watching the three koi fish swim freely and smoothly. I looked upon her gaze and watched them as well.
"Sorry for running off. I didn't think you'd try to find me." She let out a soft laugh, smiling sadly. I looked at her as if I were taken back and placed a warm hand on hers, which was placed on top of her knees.
"What are you talking about? I wouldn't leave you alone." I reiterated the words I swore. If she doesn't remember my promise of not leaving her alone, I wouldn't mind repeating myself again and again until it was engraved in her memory; I wanted her to know that I'm here for her. Lucy's lips formed a small smile as she looked upon our intertwined fingers, then looking back at my eyes.
"I'm glad you didn't." She blushed as she used her other hand to stroke my cheek. She then pulled back her hand making me miss the feel of her warm touches on my cheek.
"Lucy, do you want to talk about it?" I asked with concern. Her grasp on our laced hands tightened as she looked back at the pond again. I looked up to notice the clouds slowly moving making me frown.
"I don't know what to say." She muttered silently.
"I know you have a lot to say." I argued back. She sighed in defeat and shifted from her position.
"I just want all of my friends to get along." She finally spoke, while her grip around my hand loosened.
"I don't think you're talking about all of your friends." I said, knowing she was trying to imply it upon Gray instead. Her eyes started to get sadder making my heart wrench in displeasure; her sad frowns made him want to do anything he can just to see that beautiful smile again.
"Juvia was right. It's all my fault." She grieved, sounding as if she had given up. Anger filled my veins as I gritted my teeth to calm myself.
Tears formed in the brims of her eyes, "Everyone hates me now because I broke Gray's heart. I didn't mean to, I wish I—"
"Shut up." I silenced her. Lucy stopped talking, flinching at my words, and looked at me in disbelief. My bangs shadowing my raging expression. It angers me to hear and see that Lucy thinks it's all her fault; she doesn't need to take the blame.
"Lucy, listen to me," I urged as I placed my hands on both sides of her face, gently turning her face to look at me, "You did nothing wrong. And let me tell you this, it's not okay to take the blame when you did nothing at fault. Believe me on this, but I know Juvia didn't mean to say that. She just misses Gray as much as everyone does."
"But Natsu, I don't even know if Gray misses us." Lucy whimpered as tears rolled down her cheeks. I quickly wiped them away with my thumbs as I caressed her cheek bones, comforting her worries.
"Lucy, I promise you. We will bring Gray back, he's our friend and I will make sure everything will be back to normal." I looked at her with adamant eyes as she stared at me with widened eyes. Her lips forming a bright grin as she leaned closer towards my face, our lips colliding in sync.
We parted away from the warm affection and pressed foreheads, not wanting to let go of each other's warmth. I peeked an eyes open to see her contagious smile there as I chuckled lightly.
"I still regret for starting this drama, though." Lucy sighed. I pecked her a chaste kiss and stared passionately at her bronze orbs.
"Mistakes happen, Lucy," I said with an apologetic smile, "But we learn from them."
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It was a sunny Saturday, a time of relaxation. Lucy and I lay upon her couch, cuddling each other, along with Plue in the middle of us. Smiles decorating our faces as we watch Plue sleep peacefully in between us.
"It's been awhile since I've seen this little guy." I chuckled as I petted his head softly, trying my best not to awake him from his calm slumber.
"He's the cutest thing ever." Lucy gushed as she watched me stroke the area behind his ears.
"Hey, what about me? I'm cute, too." I pouted playfully as Lucy laughed at my teasing. She pecked my pouted lips as the corners of her lips tugged upwards.
"Of course you are. You're far more cute than Plue." Lucy remarked. My throat couldn't help but let out a bubble of laughs as I nuzzled my nose with hers.
"Hey, do you remember when you first met Plue?" Lucy asked, still nuzzling my nose. I peeked an eye open and stared at the ceiling, thinking in thought.
"Think so." I responded feebly. Lucy parted away and gave me a soft whack on the forehead. I flinched at the contact and rubbed my forehead as I glared angrily at Lucy, who had her arms crossed and narrowing her eyes at me.
"You have the most awful memory ever." Lucy scoffed. I scratched my nape, shamefully agreeing with her as I laughed nervously.
"Hey, at least I remember loving you." I teased, trying to cheer her up. Lucy rolled her eyes but couldn't help but slip a grin from her lips.
"Oh, stop being such a flirt." She waved me off dismissively with her hand.
"Okay, well I remember you saying how Plue liked me better than Gray." I said triumphantly. Lucy shrugged and sneered at my comment.
"I definitely remember that, but those weren't the exact words I said, thought, I'll take it." She smirked.
"Do you also remember when we ran into each other at the grocery store and we both had to carry that giant bag of dog food to your house?" I pointed out as Lucy started to throw into a fit of laughter.
"Of course I do! I remember buying that bottle of Tabasco sauce for you." She said as I rolled my eyes.
"I said you didn't have to buy it for me."
"I was just trying to be nice. Take it as a prize for helping me carry that heavy bag." She winked making me nudged her arm.
"You're a weirdo, Luce." I chuckled.
"Speak for yourself." Lucy stuck her tongue out at me.
"Where did you find Plue anyway?" I asked, as I glanced back down at the white puppy.
"He was just sleeping on my front yard, alone. Actually, Gray and I found him after the summer festival." She tapped a finger on her chin. I nodded silently as memories flooded through my brain from the summer festival. I mentally face palmed myself for watching Gray and Lucy at the summer festival. Now that I think of it, I was an overly protective freak, I mean I still am.
"I remember Gray showed me this beautiful Sakura tree," She cooed as her eyes softened upon my gaze, "It looked as if it were glowing under the stars." Silence then filled the room for a few minutes.
"Then we kissed for the first time." She finalized. I could see her face drooping with sadness making me cringe in jealousy and guilt. I told ahold of her hand and sent her a reassuring smile.
"Luce." I said as Lucy relaxed herself.
"You know what else I remember?" Lucy spoke up, breaking the awkward and depressing tension.
"What?" I sounded hesitant because I didn't know if she was going to bring up Gray again.
"I remember running into you at the Summer festival." Lucy giggled softly as her free hand reached over my lap to grab my other hand as we held both of each other's hands.
"I remember that, too."
"At the time, you were so sad, I thought maybe I did something wrong." Then another long pause was disrupted.
"Gray told me how you wouldn't be mad at me and I felt even better," Her voice tone of nostalgia, "I really miss Gray, despite that fact he broke my heart, but he was a really good friend who supported me through the very beginning." She said making me reminisce the feelings I had for Gray and Lucy's relationship, though, I understand that Lucy only sees Gray as a best friend now. I remember always wearing a sad face on whenever I saw them together. It was sufferable and painful to see someone you really love with your best friend; the two people you really love.
It's even more agonizing to know that Lucy doesn't really know my true feelings before. I held pure hatred towards Gray, and it wasn't like me. I was such a horrible person and friend. I should've supported him instead of pleasing my selfish ways. It's what love does to you. You have different side of you that you can't even imagine having inside of you.
To be honest, I'm glad Lucy is oblivious to my selfishness of wanting to have her. She would've thought of how insane I was. But overtime I realized if I really wanted her to be mine, I had to keep striving forward. It was a tough ride for me, but I managed to finally be happy with her and to finally feel complete.
Lucy is the world to me—and yes that sounded very cliché, but I truly mean it. She was always there for me when I needed the comfort, and she shared the same similarities as me. Knowing her parents died made me feel empathetic for her because I know how it feels to mourn over your dead parents. It felt as if you had no one to love you anymore.
I eventually got over it thanks to the helped of my friends. My friends were the best people I've got and they showed me what love felt like again. Like I said before, Lucy needed help and I told her she wasn't alone and I meant it. She had her friends and she had me. It was hard to repetitively tell her, but she managed to see only grey to many other colors.
"Ne, Natsu?" Lucy poked my cheek, making me realize that I zoned out into my thoughts. I shook my head and focused my eyes on Lucy's confused expression.
"Sorry, I was just thinking." I laughed as Lucy sent me a weird face.
"About what?" She then started to soothe me by rubbing small circles on the back of my hand.
"About you," I smiled sheepishly making Lucy blush a dark red, "I was thinking about how much I've gone through just to win your heart; just to give you another chance to love again." I started to cry as Lucy's eyes enlarged in astonishment.
"I wanted to have you all to myself and I wanted me to love you only. I selfishly loved you and I would do anything for you to love me back." Tears rolled down my cheeks as Lucy sat there speechless.
"I'm just so happy to be here with you." I stuttered through my muffled cries and sniffles. Lucy swiftly pushed my head to her chest as I seeped quietly onto her, listening to her heart beat into a melodic rhythm.
"I'm happy to be with you, too." Lucy laughed between her cries as she stroked my salmon hair softly, watching my tears drop onto her sofa, although, Plue didn't seem to mind our sentimental moment.
"I love you so much, Lucy." I whispered, not caring how many times I've said that to her because I'm going go keep saying it until I die. I suddenly felt warm tears drop onto my hair, making my eyes soften, knowing that Lucy was crying with me.
"I love you, too, Natsu."
I was at San Diego and I was full of angst, wanting to write the new chapter for Chance, but the wifi costed us money, so I wasn't able to publish it on WattPad, but I didn't write it as a draft. Poor Natsu, he's suffering but now that Lucy's here, he doesn't have to anymore. :)
Find out what happens next on the next chapter, Chapter Thirteen: Heartbreak Girl