責め苛む excruciate | 章 ❶❷
—t a e h y u n g
you've been going home
really late these past few days.
i asked you why and still,
you looked uncomfortable
answering it.
but i, myself, am indeed
feeling uncomfortable too.
one night you went home
at around two in the morning.
i was peeking at the kitchen window
without any traces of light on,
only to get a full view of you.
sadly, you were with someone.
pressing your luscious lips
against his.
sharing a kiss with someone
who isn't me.
i felt an ache beginning to
grow in my heart and
sooner or later, the pain will
spread like wildfire.
but still, i tolerated the sight
of you two sharing kisses
as i fantasize myself feeling
your kiss instead.
i had to contain myself to
prevent me from lashing out.
as you savor each kiss, i let
out a wincing pain while
piercing the cold blade
into my wrist.
i forced a smile at the sight
of the scarlet colored liquid
flowing out of the skin.
see?
you're the color my blood.
but you hurt me.
both physically and
emotionally.
why can't you recall the
past we had?
why do i have to live with
this agony?
and why do you have to
live without knowing the truth?
without knowing me?