"Morning sweety." My mom says walking in my room with a tray full of food.
"Morning mom." I say taking the tray from her.
"How do you feel?" She says.
"I'm fine." I lie.
I don't feel as dandy as I did yesterday morning.
"So today's Thursday. You have anything going on?" She says with a smile.
"Mom no. Do you think I would?" I say rubbing my hair.
"No sorry. Ill be in my room if you need me." She says closing my bedroom door.
I don't want to leave here. I'm comfortable.
As I'm about to get up, someone barges in.
"Are you okay?" Taylor says.
She looks panicked as if she didn't sleep for a few months.
"Taylor, I'm fine." I say with relief.
"I'm glad your here."
"Yeah, Harry called me at 2 am saying you we're in the hospital. Are you alright?" She says grasping both my arms.
She doesn't know. How could she not know? I don't want to repeat it...
"Ummm. Taylor." I say looking away from her.
"What?" She says looking at me.
"I lost the baby." I say starting to form tears.
"Stella. No." She says putting a hand over mouth.
She keeps her hand there and sits down on my dresser. She doesn't have to try hard, she just leans back.
"I'm alright Taylor, don't worry." I say.
"I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how you feel." She says rubbing her forehead.
"I'm fine Taylor." I lie.
"No it's not. I feel so bad. Can I do anything?" She offers.
"No. Not that I can think of." I say wiping my tears.
"I'll be here for you. No matter what." She says hugging me tighter.
"Thanks." I say.
"So what are you going to do about Harry?" She asks.
Oh god the name just makes me cringe. I left him at the hospital alone standing there.
"Um." Is all I can say.
"Have you talked to him?" She asks.
"No. I just remember him yelling at me. I think he expected me to go home with him." I say confused.
"Why didn't you?" She asks.
"He's not my boyfriend." I remind her.
"I know but-" she says until I interrupt her.
"There is no but. It's over. I just need to get my stuff from his place and move on." I say.
It pains me to say this but it's true.
"A little harsh Stel." Taylor says rolling her eyes.
"Well I don't have anything to do." I say.
"I guess me neither. Ill just leave you alone if you want." She says looking around my room.
"No, I enjoy your company. I just want time for myself." I say hoping she'll understand.
"I gotcha. Ill just stop by every other day and see how you are." She says.
"Okay." I say.
Taylor leaves my room and we continue the same thing every other day. I try to go back to my old routine which was my job that I lost. I try to find a job, I go shopping, I do what I haven't even able to do.
I do all of this without Harry.
Taylor ends up telling Liam and we got together a few times to talk like we used to.
Harry's mom knows about the miscarriage and so does Niall and Zayn.
What happened to those boys?
A week later it's Thursday and Im excited for my sister I come into town.
*THURSDAY THE 28th of NOVEMBER*
"Well honey in two days Aleah comes into town!" My mom says while cooking dinner.
I sit there and realize that the day she comes into town, that was the day of my appointment.
"Yeah mom, I know." I smile.
"Aren't you excited?" She says wiping flour on her apron.
"Yea I am. She's always gone it's gonna be hard to let her leave again." I shrug.
"She'll be here for awhile darling. Don't worry." She says throwing some meat on a pan.
"So I need to run down to the store. Need anything?" I ask.
"No Stella I'm fine." My mom says not making eye contact with me.
"Okay. Ill be back." I say closing the front door behind me.
The wind is getting colder and colder as the days pass.
I get into my car and I start it to go to the nearest Target.
I grab a box of tampons, some facial cleanser, shampoo, conditioner, deodorant, and some toothpaste.
Just as I'm about to get some snacks I hear someone calling my name.
It's Rick from NY Sounds.
"Stella hey! Is that you over there?" Rick says while approaching me.
"Yeah it is. Same old Stel." I say with a sarcastic hand movement.
"Haha I see. You doing fine?" He asks.
"Yeah I'm great." I go along.
"Well that was a fun run in but I gotta go back to work, Harry's busting my balls man." He laughs.
Harry. I haven't heard that name in a while.
"Oh okay. Goodbye." I say pushing my cart in front of me.
I notice he doesn't bring up my miscarriage, and I'm glad.
He probably heard about it but didn't want to say anything. I admire that.
I get whatever else I need, pay, then leave back to home.
That run in was so awkward especially since the last time I saw him he was at the store and I was going to surprise Harry.
That was also the day I met Gemma. I wonder if she knows.
"Mom Im home." I say closing the door.
"Perfect. Now shall we eat my delicious meatloaf and bread?" She asks with a smirk.
"Yes we shall." I say playing along.
We both eat our dinner and I go straight to my room and fall asleep, as usual.
I feel a vibration on my phone and it's Harry calling me. The last time he bothered calling me was Monday.
I didn't answer but I thought he would be concerned about me. I guess not.
As I'm over thinking my phone buzzes again.
"Meet me at China Garden tomorrow at 5." The text message says.
It's from Harry.
What could he possibly want?
I let the idea sit in my head, I decide to go.