Chapter Thirty-Four
Maura’s pov
"Hello, it's Maura. So today I'm going to do something different. Some people asked me to sing a little song, so I though why not do that?" I say towards the camera.
"So I wrote this a couple of months ago. It’s about a girl who doesn’t know if she’s in love with a guy, and she actually doesn’t want to tell him but it’s kind of becoming hard to keep it a secret… Enjoy”
I start playing the cords and start singing.
“I don't know but I think I maybe
Fallin' for you dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I know you better
I am trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm falling for you.
I'm falling for you.
As I'm standing here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me
I'm trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling.
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life and now I found you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you.
I'm fallin' for you.
I think I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you
I think I’m fallin’ for you”
I take a deep breath while I try not to burst into tears.
“So, that’s it, hope you liked it. Don’t forget to give this a thumbs up, and subscribe to my channel. And then I’ll see you Saturday” I say stopping the camera.
"Wooh!" Casper says while he runs into my room, only wearing boxers, he always know how to make me smile with his weird actions.
"Casper, where are your clothes?"
"I teleported them to Mongolia"
"Oh, seems legit"
"Why don't you apply to x-factor?"
"Because you're not wearing any cloths"
“Alright, that seems like really logic” Casper says, “But yeah, you’re beautiful and I love you and bye”
"Thanks, I love you too"
Yes I have a weird brother, but whatever, I love him, I need him in life.
Oh and there’s something else… I am seeing Ed Sheeran tonight! Me and Zayn would go together but because I love him so, so much, cough cough; I replaced him with Casper. We both think Ed is an amazing artist so, he will survive it, and if he doesn’t… I might care, but at that moment I’m too busy fangirling over Ed fucking Sheeran.
I watch my video back to see which parts I have to change, or re-record. But me being an awesome did a great job so there is nothing to change. I'm so damn good.
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Zayn’s pov
URGH! I fucking hate my life, seriously. Why am I such a pussy? Why can't I just call Maura and tell her what really happened, it’s been a month! I'm still a wreck. I need to move on, and understand that she doesn't want me back. I guess... We're just... over. Like... officially done. This sucks.
I scroll through twitter while I sit down on the couch. I haven't been here for a long time. I mostly sat in my room, smoked listened some stupid music while I hated myself.
@Mauraaa: "hiiii, posted a new video, go check it out, tell me what ya think :)"
Why am I still following her? I have to delete everything that involves Maura stuff, cause seeing all this isn’t helping me to get over her.
I do click the video anyway, because I just want to hear her voice, see is she's okay. And because I am still in love with her, don’t hate. I think that the chance I will ever forget her is like … 0.000001%, or just 0.0%
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"Zayn, why are you here?" Harry asks me while he walks into the living room.
I quickly whip away the tears and act like I didn't hear what Harry said. He doesn’t need to know that I watch Maura’s video’s and cry with it. No one needs to know that.
"What?" I say.
"Why aren't you being depressed in your room?"
"Because I need to move the fuck on"
"So you decided to watch her video's?"
"She just posted it. And I had to know if she's doing ok"
"Sure, you should delete her stuff"
"Already did"
"Also on your laptop"
"I want to have some good memories"
"So? Print the pic's you like. Delete the rest"
"I like every single thing I still have of her… just because of her"
"You're desperate"
"No, I'm not"
"Don't care, I'll always love you" Harry says messing up my hair.
"Thanks, love you too"
"You're going to Ed's gig tonight?"
"We're all going right?"
"Just wanted to make sure you were coming with us"
"Ok, so how late are we leaving?"
"Within an hour, probably"
"Good to know. I'm going to get changed"
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Maura’s pov
What should I wear? I don't have some 'oh my god look at me I have Ed Sheerans head on my shirt'-shirt and I don't really want that because... He's not the hottest guy I know, because that would probably be Zayn, although I still hate the butter out of him.
"Casper?! What are you wearing tonight?” I yell towards my brother who’s in another room.
"Probably nothing" he yells back.
"I don’t think you’ll get in"
"Yolo right?"
"You did not just say yolo…"
I grab one of my Ramones shirts. Yeah, I'm fine with that. I don't really care. It's not that there will be people I personally know.
I grab my phone and go to Youtube to look at the responses on my new video.
"Omg that's soooo good <3"
"*le dead*"
"Hi, you're hot"
"Amazing!"
"My laptop exploded because you're so damn good"
I'm so glad people like it! So I guess I'm going to do this more often. Maybe every Monday, so I could name it 'Music Monday'. GENIUS. I'm so damn smart.
AN:
The song is on the side, bla bla bla.
Soooo le me is going on le camp, so that means le me can’t post on le Tuesday and le Wednesday, but le me will post something on le Saturday.
So as some of you may know, I was writing a fanfic called: ‘Stay With Me’ but it sucked so I started a new one. Who’s happy? No one, ok, welllll. If I ever get at chapter 5, I’ll post something about it. Or not mehehe.
Adios amigos, don’t forget to stalk @redbunnylips and don’t forget that Friday it’s @curlycurlss birthday so go out there and congratulate her with loads of pickles, popcorn, Nialls, Harry shorts and shoes, Ashton shirts and Luke shirts (:
Bye<3