Catalina POV
I'm emotionally drained. I haven't been home for weeks and Andrea Rowanna is looking for her brother. I am running out of excuses. I didn't mentioned Andreas to her because somehow I think it is not the right time yet. We're focusing on Aj's fast recovery.
Pag pasok ko sa foyer ng private room ni Aj nakita kong nasa sofa si Andreas nakapikit ang mga mata. I slowly walk up to him and waved my hand to see if gising ito pero he didn't move. Tinabihan ko siya.
"I miss you!" I whispered to him. " I'm sorry for leaving you." Hinawakan ko ang mukha niya. He look so tired. He flinched when I moved my fingers to his lips but didn't wake up. "I love you Andreas James Torres! You have no idea what's behind my bitterness towards you. It's because I love you too much that even though you keep on hurting me over and over I still manages to love you... Love you more and more each day!" Nagulat ako nang bigla itong binuksan ang kanyang mga mata.
"I love you more than you'll ever know Catalina. Always remember that!" He kissed me. I froze and we turned our attention to Aj's bed when we heard someone talking.
"Mama... Mama... Maaa" I heard him cry. I jumped up and went up to him.
"Baby, Mama's here!" Oh the joy I felt of seeing him talking.
"Ma, I dreamt of Daddy. He hugged me and he said he loves me!" Masaya nitong kwento sa akin.
"Of course I love you. I love you before I even saw you!" Nagulat kaming dalawa nang biglang nag salita si Andreas. "My boy, you're so brave. I am so proud of you!" Niyakap ni Andreas si Aj.
"Daddy? I love you daddy. I love you so much!!" Excited na bigkas ni Aj.
Hinayaan ko ang dalawa na mag kwentohan. Lumabas ako at tinawagan si Bryce.
"He's up. He's really excited talking to Andreas!" I told him.
"So itutuloy mo pa rin ba ang plano mo?" Tanong nito.
"I have to. There's no other way. Please make sure the kids papers are ready. They're going back to Philippines with Andreas!" Hindi ko alam kung tama ba itong gagawin ko. Pero all I know is kailangan. They need their dad.
"Naka set na ang mga papers ng mga bata. Once Aj fully recover puwede na silang umuwi ng pinas!" I'm happy but sad at the same time. Alam kong hindi sila papabayaan ni Andreas pero kailangan kong gawin ito.
"Andreas, may ipapakilala nga pala ako sayo." I opened the door and Andrea is beyond excited when she saw me.
"Mom!!!! MOMMMMMMY!!!! I MISS YOUUU!" Sigaw nito habang naka yakap sa akin.
"I miss you too babylove! Come, I have a surprise for you!" She loves surprises. When she saw Andreas she started to cry.
"Daddy...? DADDDY!" Tumakbo siya papunta kay Andreas.
"Hey beautiful girl!" Nag yakapan ang mag ama. Kilalang kilala nila si Andreas. Never ko naman itinago ito sa kanila. Watching our Pictures and wedding videos ang paboritong gawin ng mag kambal. Halos araw araw nila akong tanungin when they will be able to see their dad. Until that one day. That one day I bumped into Henry.
Flashback
I was on the phone with Bryce when someone accidentally bumped into me.
"I'm really sorry, Miss-" nagulat ako when the voice was so familiar. Pag tingin ko it was Henry. "Catalina.. K-ailan kapa naka uwi?" Tanong nito.
"Umm Henry, is.." He stopped me and picked up my phone.
"NO, Andreas is not with me. And who are these kids? Diba your baby didn't make it?" Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya. Hinablot ko ang phone ko from him.
"Please don't tell Andreas I'm back." Na ikwento ko sa kanya ang tungkol sa Kambal ko. He agreed with me na wag muna ipaalam kay Andreas.
"I won't. It's your right to tell him. He will understand. He's been longing to see you. He went to New York looking for you Catalina. He almost lost the company when you left him. He said para saan pa ang pag pupursige niya kung wala ka rin lang sa buhay niya! It was hell working for him. But his people understand him. Alam nila ang mga pinag dadaanan ni Andreas. Bawat sermon at sigaw na natatnggap nila hindi ito nag pa apekto!" The guilt I'm feeling is unbearable.
"I ummm... I made a mistake not listening to him. I should've listen to what he had to say pero pinangunahan ako ng galit ko sa kanya." Nahihilo ako but I tried to look normal as much as possible.
"Catalina, are you alright? You look sick!" I smiled and assured him I am fine. "Why are you here pala? Do you have friends who has a cancer?" Napatulala ako sa tanong niya.
"Umm.. I.. Uhh Yeaa. YEAH! I have a friend who's moving back home and I promised her I'd check this hospital for her. T-that is why I'm here!" I smiled at him again but this time grabe na ang nararamdaman kong hilo.
"Ma'am Catalina, the car is ready na po!" Rinig kong banggit ni Max. Hay perfect timing. I excused myself and said goodbye to Henry. I don't think may na pansin siya!
"Max, stop the car! I'm feeling sick!" Huminto agad ito at inalalayan ako pag baba.
"Are you okay? Should I call Bryce? You're getting worse and worse!!" Worried nitong tanong.
"What can he do??!" Inis kong sagot. On our way back to my condo I've realized I left my paper works back in the hospital. I must've dropped it on the floor when Henry bumped into me. Now I'm worried. What if binasa niya ang nasa loob and told Andreas about it. Argh the thought of Andreas knowing made me dizzy.
Kinabukasan I tried to get a hold of Henry. I called the hospital and they said no one returned any paper works back to them. It could only mean na Henry took it with him.
"Hello?" Sagot nito sa phone.
"Please don't tell him it's me!" I heard him excused himself from Andreas. "I'm really sorry if I bothered you! But I was wondering if you-" he stopped me.
"Catalina, who else knew about this? Why are you fighting this all alone???! Are you out of your mind?" Na sermonan pa ako.
"Please, please, please, don't tell him!" I started crying. I couldn't hide it anymore. I am getting weaker and weaker. "I just didn't want to be a burden to him, to anyone really!" I added.
"Pero Catalina, you don't have to fight this battle alone! Why are you doing this to yourself???!" I've thought of this for the longest time.
"Why? Dahil ayaw kong pag daanan nanaman ni Andreas ang pinag daanan niya dati when I decided to leave him. At least ngayon he won't be alone. He will have both my children with him!" The thought of dying slowly kills me.
"Catalina, this is not something you have to go through alone! Does anyone know?" He asked whispering.
"I told Bryce There's a cyst that the doctor had to take out and he seemed to believed me." I hate lying to Bryce but I had to.
"Well, I'm not letting you go through this alone. Kung ayaw mo na malaman nila then ako mismo ang sasama sayo. Sa ayaw at sa gusto mo! Not unless you want Andreas to know?" I was so dumb founded by his offer. It's something I can't declined.
"Fine! But promise me you will be discreet about this!" I wiped my tears away.
"Promise! Email me all your appointments" the thing with Henry is that I can really trust his words. He's proven his loyalty to me many times.
"Henry, Thank you for this!" We hang up.
End of Flashback
"Are you okay? Napapansin ko lately parang nanghihina ka. Is it that cyst of yours?" Tanong ni Bryce.
"Shhh.. Yeah. Must be! Please take care of my babies while I'm gone ha? And thank you for agreeing to be my shadow on taking over my company while I'm gone. Please Bryce, wag mong hayaan na may mang yari sa kambal ko!" I started panicking. Tears swims through my eyes. I miss them ready hindi pa nga sila umalis.
"Why are you acting like you'll never come back. I shouldn't have agreed to let you go on that operation on your own." Galit nitong sambit.
"But who's going to make sure nothing bad will happen sa mga pamangkin?" Si Bryce lang ang mapag kakatiwalaan ko when it comes to them. At alam na alam kong hindi rin sila pababayaan ni Andreas.
Three months had passed and the doctored okay'd Aj's released. It was hard saying goodbye to them.
"What do you mean you're not coming with us?" Galit na galit ba tanong ni Andreas.
"I have to deal with some issues here. Besides, you will be with the kids! Hahabul ako once I settled everything here!" I argued.
"What do you mean settled everything. What about those people who wanted to hurt us? You? Our kids??" Worried nitong tanong.
"Kaya nga they're going with you diba? Besides I'm going to be with my body guards. Huwag kang OA Andreas!!" Inis kong sambit.
"NO! You're going with us sa ayaw at sa gusto mo!" Aba! Paano ko malulusutan ito.
The night before I discreetly packed my belongings. Only the important ones. I ordered Max to get our ride ready at 1am. Around 9 I tucked the kids in and Aj noticed I'm acting weird.
"Mom, why are you acting like you're going to leave for a long long time! You keep saying I love you and keep hugging us!" Napatingin si Andreas sa akin. He's studying me. I can sense he knows I'm up to something.
"Stop Aj ha! Am I not allowed to say I love you to you guys anymore? Why because your dads already here??!" I know ito lang ang paraan para mabago ang topic.
"CATALINA!!" Singhaw ni Andreas. He grabbed me by my hand and ushered me to our room. "What the hell is going on with you!" I hugged him.
"I'm sorry! Andreas, promised me you'll take good care of them!" He made me face him.
"You're not going anywhere. Catalina, kung may binabalak ka you better stop it!" I kissed him. I kissed him like there's no tomorrow. He pushed me down the bed. He slowly took my clothes off and we made love. He made love to me like the first time he ever touch me. Back in Madrid. Every thrust was meaningful. He said his I love you to me like it's a matter of life and death. "You are my better half. We will raise our children together!" We both came into conclusion. "Shower with me?" I nodded and followed him in the bathroom. I miss how he touches every inch of me. I love this man. The man I promised my forever with. The man I gave my word to god that till death do us part.
"Babe, remember when you first asked me out? Ano ulit yung sinabi mo?" I giggled.
"I said, Kung hindi mo ako sasagutin mag papakamatay ako sa harapan mo." We both started laughing.
"Did you mean that??!" I asked.
"Yes! The day I met you I became yours. My life started revolving around you. I hated music class but I found out you're in it so I signed up." I remember that.
"You're my sunshine my only sunshine, you make me happy.." I let out a silent cry.
"Our first duet together. I never told you this but I love it when you sing. It makes me happy hearing you sing!" I wiped my tears and turned to face him.
"Thank you. Tara na and check the kids" he kissed me one more time and releases me.
"You're my one and only. Always remember that!" Pag silip namin sa kwarto ng mga bata tulog na ang mga ito. I gave them both a kiss and whispered I love you. I checked the time it's 11:00PM. I hurried to bed para sumunod na si Andreas. An hour later natulog na ito. I waved my hand to check if half asleep ito but he didn't budge.
I look at him one last time. I gave him a kiss. This could be our last kiss. Tears flooded my eyes. "I love you, Andreas. You're my world. And my one and only!" I slowly got off the bed. Making sure na hindi ko siya magigising. I look at him one last time. I left my phone para hindi niya na ako ma contact and I hope makita niya ang mga messages na meron ako para sa kanya dito. I started making it two months ago. Bryce have no idea about this. Sana they'll forgive me for the sin I'm about to make. I hope my messages are enough to get him to start over. Without me.