Chapter 15
*Yesenia's POV*
After I dropped off Rayne I went home. I crashed on my bed and closed my eyes. All I wanted to do was sleep. Sleep away my problems. I still couldn't believe Rayne kinda had a crush on me. She's a great girl but I'm kinda in love with a certain someone. It's been such a long day and I'm so tired. Yet I can't seem to go to sleep. I try listening to music but my iPod keeps playing Demi lovato. And that got me thinking about my feelings for her. I had to get over whatever I was feeling. The truth was that she was straight and would never like me like that. Then I started thinking that if I had no chances with Demi I should go after Rayne. She liked me after all. I covered my face with my pillow and screamed. I didn't think anyone heard me but Luis did. He came in my room and asked if I was okay because he heard me screaming.
"Physically? I'm fine. Mentally? I'm lovesick." He half smiled and laid down next to me.
"What's wrong sis?" I rested my head on his shoulder. It felt nice having a brother who I could talk to. My other brother was little and I couldn't talk to him about anything.
"So I like this girl but she's straight. And then there's another girl who likes me but I don't like her back. The problem is that my life is a mess."
"If you know that girl is straight then why did you let yourself fall for her?"
"Because I'm an idiot. "
"Well here's advice coming from a single straight dude. Go out with the chick that likes you and learn to like her back."
"Isn't that like using her?"
"Well kinda I guess, but it seems like the only thing you can do." I sighed heavily and patted his chest.
"Thanks bro."
"Anytime sis! Can I know who the girl that likes you is?"
"Umm...yeah I guess. It's Rayne." He sat up and looked at me very confused.
"Really? I thought she was going out with Drew?"
"Not anymore." He got up and was about to leave when I asked, "Don't you want to know who the straight girl I'm crushing on is?" He smiled and shook his head.
"Nah I already know it's Demi." I threw my pillow at him and he got out.
I tried sleeping once again but this time I was woken up by my phone. It was a new text. I picked it up and saw it was from Demi. I should've been happy but I sighed and almost wished she'd leave me alone. It would make getting over her a lot easier. I read the text and smiled. It came with a picture of her making a shocked faced.
From: Demi❤
Why haven't you called?! Are you dead?! 😟
I laughed but didn't reply. I was way too tired. After a couple of minutes she called.
"Hello?"
"Hey Yesenia! I hope you don't mind me calling. I just wanted to make sure you were okay."
"It's okay I was just tired. I was going to reply when I woke up sorry."
"It's okay. How have you been?"
"Okay I guess. "
"Just okay?"
"I guess a lot has happened today."
"What happened?" I quickly debated telling her but I wasn't in a position to tell other people what happened.
" Just this thing with Rayne but it's good now. Anyways how have you been?"
"I've been good. And auditions started early so I'm actually in San Francisco right now."
"That's cool heard anyone good?"
"A lot actually but it's a bit more fun to listen to people who suck."
I laughed and told her that sounded mean. We talked for hours until I looked at my clock and read it was 10PM. I had school tomorrow so I couldn't stay up late tonight.
"Demi I love talking to you and I wish I didn't have to stop but I have school tomorrow. Sorry Dem." I heard her sigh.
"I understand. Well I'll text you tomorrow Yesenia!"
"Goodnight Dem. Sleep well beautiful!" A part of me knew she smiled.
"Goodnight Yesi, and I hope you also sleep well. Gorgeous!" I laughed.
"You hang up first Demi. "
"No you hang up first."
"No you do it."
"I'm not doing it you are."
"How about we hang up at the same time?"
"Okay fine. Ready, set, hang up." There was silence but I knew she didn't hang up and neither did I.
"Yeah that didn't work. Hang up first Demi." We went back and fourth until I decided to hang up first. I slept with such serenity that night. The next day started off awesome with a good morning beautiful text from Demi but quickly took a turn for the worst. I went downstairs after I was done getting ready only to find the police.
I looked at Leo and wondered why the police was there.
"Leo why is the police here?" The officer stepped towards me and extended his arm. I shook it and he told me he was Officer Jennings.
"I have some terrible news Yesenia. Your friend Rayne Smith has been found dead." At the word dead I fell to the floor and started crying.
*Rayne's POV*
Fuck. I wonder if he knew that I went to the police. Fuck I'm dead. He's going to kill me. Where is Yesenia? I need her. Crap I'm going to die. I'm too young to die. When he sees me he smiles.
"Hey babe! I've been wondering where you were. You haven't texted me back. Is everything okay?" He stepped closer to me but I stepped back.
"Who let you in here?"
"Your parents."
"What do you want?" He smiled devilishly.
"I just want to take you out for a drive. Stop acting all weird." Oh sorry I don't want to be around you after you raped me!
"I'm not being weird. Considering what you did I think I'm acting fine." He sighed and shook his head.
"Don't act like you didn't enjoy it. Listen I'm sorry. Truly sorry. Now will you please take a drive with me?" He smiled again but this time his smile was soft. His eyes were soft and looked gentle. I knew that it was simply a facade and that he was truly an evil, heartless jerk. But looking at his eyes in that moment I couldn't help but feel safe. I smiled back at him and let him lead me outside. I put on my seatbelt in his car and smiled. Drew was insane but he'd never actually kill me. Somewhere deep inside him he loved me. "So you told the police about what happened?"
"What? No! I wouldn't ! You said not to!" He chuckled evilly and took out a cleaning rag. "What are you going to do with that?"
"Nothing just relax. You won't feel a thing." Before I could escape he covered my face with the rag forcing me to inhale the drug that was soaked into it. I slowly fell unconscious. All I kept thinking about was Yesenia as I started to black out.
*Yesenia's POV*
I sat on the floor sobbing for what seemed like hours. I couldn't believe it. She can't be dead. Leo tried to pick me up but I started hitting him so he let me stay on the floor. It was all my fault. She told me this would happen. I didn't listen. I should've listened to her. This is my fault. I killed her. I'm a terrible person. I managed to stop sobbing and stood up. Officer Jennings patted me on my back and said he was sorry for Rayne's passing. I asked Leo if I could stay home from school and the officer said he actually had to ask me a few questions. "What kind of questions?"
"I just need to know what exactly happened yesterday after you left. And what exactly did you know about drew and Rayne." I exhaled deeply.
"Yesterday I dropped her off at her house. I thought she would be safe. This is all my fault."
"It's not your fault. Do you have any idea where Drew might be?"
"Um. I don't know, sorry." I couldn't even help them find drew. I'm useless. I can't protect Rayne, and I can't help track down Drew. The officer left after asking me a few questions about their relationship. Leo asked if I wanted to talk about it but I said no and went to my room. I closed it and walked into the bathroom. I open a drawer and take out a pencil sharpener. I take off the blade and debate whether or not to do it. It worked for Rayne when she had problems. It should work for me too. I've never resorted to cutting but I can't think of anything else that can help me. I slide the blade over my left wrist. At first I feel pain but not as much pain as Rayne's death caused me. I start to think about things I could've done as the blood starts to show. My vision starts to blur as I continued to cry. After a few moments I get up and clean the cut. I put a bandaid over it and cover my wrist in bracelets. I touch the bandaid and I suddenly feel connected to Rayne. I get out of my bathroom and grab my phone. I look through the pictures of Rayne and I. Then I come across a picture Demi and I took together. I look down at my wrist and feel awful. Demi would be disappointed. I've let her down. That's exactly what I am, a big let down.