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Turning around I saw him. He didn't wear his normal costume. He wore casual clothes that he lifted up to another level. His expression was indescribable. Some times I think this is my life. I'm a real criminal and a CIA agent is running after me. This is like my real life and I can't help living into it like it's my own.
No one was here. Well in my head the audience was all gone but my conscience knew that they were.
Warmth escaped into my heart and warmed it, spreading through my whole body. This is acting right? Yes it is.
"Adam." came out of my mouth automatically. That wasn't in the script. My own Jenny acted on her own.
"Jenny." he said, surprised that I said something out of the script. I heard Lisa whining something like "What is she doing?!" from backstage but I didn't care.
"You're pathetic!" I yelled right into his face. He didn't expect me to yell that loud and took a step back. "I can't believe that I'm in love with you." I muttered, looking away. I was going to get to my next line but he jumped in and improvised just like I did as if it was a revenge.
"What did you say?" he said in a playful tone.
"Nothing!" my Jenny screamed.
"Hmm? Are you sure? I think I heard something like... what was it? Oh, I can't believe that I'm in love with you!" he said in a girly voice.
"I don't sound like that!" I hit him. "And I not in love with-"
"Please don't ruin the moment Jenny!" he laughed. I looked away embarrassed. Time to return to the lines.
"Even though you saved me... Why you?!"
"Because I love you too." he smiled showing his bright smile that almost blinded me. My heart froze and it felt so real. I tugged onto his shirt.
"Your beauty, your fierceness, your smile." he continued, which made me so selfconscious. "That's what I love." I wanted to say something and put up the improvise again but he made it before I did. "I can ramble up hundreds of things I love about you but by then I guess that I don't have time to propose to you."
He sparkled out of happiness hearing from me that I love him. Well, that Jenny do. He went down on the proposal stance once again just like he did backstage which made me feel like a princess. He pulled out the ring.
"Are you kidding me?!" I yelled with a mad tone just like I did backstage. He smiled with the same face that had confidence of me saying yes but still afraid deep down. I backed many steps to improvise and he suddenly got big eyes, scared of me improvising that I didn't want to. Then I sprinted to him and jumped at him. He fell backwards.
"Yes!" I yelled and this is when our lips was supposed to meet. He whispered into my ear.
"If you don't want to do it because of Chris... we can fake it."
"How can we fool them with the big screen?!"
An idea flashed through my mind. It's quite an easy method. I grabbed his cheeks and directed him looking right at me. My hands covered our lips so I kept a good distance from them to meet each other. But I don't know why couldn't help but to feel disappointed. Everyone cheered. Then all the backstage people, even the ones handling with the cameras came out and thanked everyone for watching.
We bowed together and the press snapped hundreds of shots. Okay, I know it's a big thing that I joined the play as Sarah so they took their chance to announce it. Everyone left the stage faster than I thought and I was left there with Darrén, Emíne and Ambreal.
The press filled the front and showered us with questions. They asked about Emíne's careér, Darrén and my relationship, and if Ambreal was a new model or something. But I reacted very weirdly when they asked "Are you and Darrén dating?" We both immediately said no and filled their minds with suspects. After a while they finally left and so did we.
"It's been a long day..." Emíne sighed. We all agreed and parted when Darrén went to the boys dorm.
"So... What is it that both of you have hid all the time?" Ambreal asked us. I didn't say a thing because I felt so mean.
"That Chris is two-timing!" Emíne threw out of her mouth. Not the best lie ever but better than nothing. But I kind of seem like a douche bag now.
"Really?" Ambreal said, with no expression on. Emíne was convinced that she was fooled but I wasn't.
I told them I was going to the music room and changed instead, then searched for Emíne. She was listening to music in her room and I told her to get out.
"What?" she smiled.
"We need to tell Ambreal."
"About me stealing stuffs from shoots?" she mumbled.
"No!" I sighed and jumped into her room.
"About what then?"
"My secret."
"What?!" she yelled, and I'm sure the whole dorm heard it. "Why?!" she whispered when she noticed how loud she just was.
"Don't you understand?! The reason she's feeling left out and cried before is because she knows that we know something she doesn't!" I sat on her bed and whined about everything while she tried telling me to stop thinking about it.
"After all my hard work of trying to keep it!" she complained.
"But I trust her!" That shut her up. She sat on the bed with me and took my hand. She was shaking and I knew how scared she was. What was going to happen? How would Ambreal react? What if she can't take it and other finds out? Then I'll never be able to step my foot into this school anymore.
"You can't." she whispered into my ear with a sob coming up.
"Wh-" I said but she interrupted me.
"Even though- though, you trust her- I do trust he-her to bu-but I can't let you do it! I can't let you risk it. I don't wa-want to see you on talk shows getting interviewed of why you di-did it and stuff. I don't want everyone to think badly of you!" Now tears flowed down her cheeks. "I want it to be like this. Forever. Even if it's Ambreal, I don't want to take any risks."
I understand her feelings. But that opinion won't change my mind. Ambreal is one of us. I can't let her feel like that everytime I laugh together with Emíne.
But how the hell am I supposed to tell Darrén later when I can't even tell Ambreal? I sighed. All I need to do is to say "I'm Sarah and Chris." That's all, right?
No. It's so much more than that. The reason. That Chris wrote me in like that? Not good enough. If I were some rich kid(which I'm soon to be) I'd be able to bribe them into getting me in even though I passed the deadline. But hey, I was poor and that's great isn't it? Well that was sarcasm.
Okay I have to calm down. I see Emíne's point and every second passing I feel like it's a stupid idea. The closer I get to tell her I regret it.
I need to make up my mind. I leaned against the wall sitting on Emíne's bed and she followed me and hugged me. She never gets this emotional. It must be really serious. I put my arm around her shoulder and she forced a smile.
"You're still planning on telling her." she stated, and I knew that it wasn't a question. I nodded and knocked her head when I did it and chuckled.
"She deserves to know it. I hate to say it but she might even deserve it more than you do." I laughed. She laughed with me.
"That might just be true you know!" I could feel how the mood has been lightened up. And she made it even better. "Indeed."
"Uhuh."
"Oh yeah." I missed that. It's been a while since Emíne and I fooled around. I looked down and noticed that my braid wasn't there, because I always feel like Krystal whenever I hang around Emíne like this. But right now I'm Chris.
"I've missed that." she chuckled and I felt like she could read my mind. I do sometimes feel like we're twins. At least twin souls. We're just kind of connected somehow.
"Me too." I smiled and squeezed her harder.
This kind of feels like a romance scene and I'm a boy... Well I can assure that I'm not turning into a lesbian because I li- what was I just going to say? I don't know it felt like it came automatically.
Okay skip that part. But it does feel like my point of view is a boy from a novel who just got his girl or something... Hah how embarrassing.
"What are you going to do if someone finds out?" Emíne said in a really low volume but I heard it since I'm so close to her.
"I don't know." I sighed and gently touched her hair. "I guess I'll handle the paparazzi first. Then Ambreal and Darrén."
"But how?! They'll make this into a huge thing."
"I'm strong. I made through parents who left me, a douche bag, and taking care of myself for 6 years. I'll manage somehow." I felt her nodding.
"And you'll do it with me since you've known all along. They'll definitely ask you too."
"Yeah. Of course I'll help you then." she told me. I heard an annoying bump and yelling from the other rooms. I've heard it a lot since I came.
"The girls have gone crazy..." I laughed.
"Why was she scr-" I heard but the rest wasn't clear enough to be understandable.
"Just shut up girls!" someone else yelled.
"You're he- ---- Go and see!" they argued and again I didn't get half of what they said.
"Whatever!"
"What the hell is going on outside?" Emíne whined. Then we heard a big bam. Not from outside, it echoed right into this room.
"Emíne why were you screami-" Ambreal barged in and then stopped when she saw us.
"Ambreal!" Emíne shouted.
"Emíne... Is Chris cheating on Sarah with you?!"
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