AUTHORS NOTE:
THIS STORY IDEA WAS FROM CasDeanPie, I AM JUST WRITING THE STORY LINE, BUT THE Nerd!Cas and Bully!Dean WAS CasDeanPie's idea, i thought it would be a fun story to write, so here it is
and thank you CasDeanPie for giving me this idea to write, i REALLY hope you like it :)
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Castiel's P.O.V.
I ran into the last class of the day, out of breathe
praying that the others wouldn't follow me
"Castiel? is everything alright?" the teacher Mr. Chuck asked me
i turned around to look at him
he must of saw the worried look i had on my face
because he got up from his chair and walked over to me
putting his hand on my shoulder
"Castiel?" he asks
i give him a fake genuine smile
"s-sorry Mr. Chuck, e-everything is ok"
he looks me in the eyes not believing me
"are you sure?" he asks taking his hand off my shoulder
i smile again and say to him "promise"
he smiles a little back at me and walks back over to his desk,
going back to the work he was doing
i sigh to myself and sit in the usual chair in the back of the room
i was glad i had a teacher like Mr. Chuck
i have had him since freshman year
(i'm a senior now)
and hes my favorite teacher
he really does care about his students
i really admire that about him
i start to get my stuff out when i notice movement out of the corner of my eye
i look towards the door and see the people that i wish i never saw again
my bullies
there were three of them
Raphael, Alistair, and Metatron.
i hated all of them with a passion
they would beat me up after school
and leave me with bruises and cuts all over my body
it hurts
it really does
considering i can never get the memory out of my head
it replays in my head everyday
*flashback*
((Back in Middle School, 6th Grade))
i walked in class early with my best friend
Dean, Dean Winchester
we have been friends since preschool
the teacher, Mrs. April sat at her desk
most of the students were already in the classroom
dean and i just sat in our usual spots in the back of the class
Dean...
i don't know why but i had always liked him
my parents never talked to me about 'being gay'
hell i don't even know if i am
but i do know i have feeling for dean
maybe they didn't tell me for a reason
maybe they never thought i would be gay
but i heard other kids talking about it
cause their parents told them
i think i'm gay for dean
i don't know if that's how you say it
but whatever
i like dean
a lot
i always get so nervous around him
and i think he likes me too
only one way to find out
"dean?" i ask
"yeah cas?"
"do you know what gay means?"
i see him fidget a little bit
and rub the back of his neck
i tilt my head to the side and squint my eyes at him
"u-umm, yeah i do cas...why are you asking me this?" he asks
i look down at the ground
not daring to look into his emerald green eyes
"i-i don't know..." i say
my face turning bright red
i look at him and give him a small smile
he smiles back and i couldn't help it
i don't know what came over me
but the next thing i know was kissing dean
on the cheek
i don't know why i did it
it was the worst mistake i have ever made in my life
its just...he looked so cute...and...
NO!!
i don't know why i did it!!
it was stupid!!
SO SO STUPID!!
it was just a quick peck
but someone saw it
and told everyone
kids were laughing at us
pointing at us
and yelling at us
calling us names
mostly three kids
Raphael, Alistair, and Metatron
the teacher was even worse when she came up to us
she sent us to the principles office for it
when the principle found out he gave us this long lecture on how being gay is bad
and that he was calling our parents
this is where everything crashed
when deans dad found out
he felt bad for dean
but he thought it would all go away soon
dean's dad, john, was a good father, at least he tried to be
dean's mother died when he was 4 years old
and he was an angry about it
he thought he could have saved her
even though he was only 4
but he stopped being angry as soon as he found a friend that excepted him
me...
an now dean was angry at me because i ruined his life
which is true
i did
i should have never kissed him
but i can't go back
i have apologized to dean a million times
but he doesn't listen
he is still mad at me
and i still get bullied for it
as for him
he became my bully
until he moved away freshman year
it was one of the happiest yet worst days of my life
dean bullied me in the worst way possible
he didn't hit me
or kick me
he did none of that
he just hurt me mentally
calling me names
threatening words spills from his mouth
as he yells at me
it didn't sound like him
he really is a nice guy
but the words coming from his mouth were not his
i knew it wasn't
and that hurt more then whatever Alistair, Raphael, and Metatron ever did to me
but he never found out that they bullied me
he never found out that my father left one day for a interview for a book he was writing
he never found out that my dad died in a car crash
he never found out that my mom got re-married pretty quickly
he never found out that she married a mean, terrible, abusive man, Zachariah
he never found out that my mom died of a severe cancer soon after her marriage
he never found out that i had to live with Zachariah
he never found out that i was alone and broken
he never found out about the things that i do to myself
and he never found out that even though he hates me and i should hate him
that i still had feelings for him...
*End of Flashbacks*
i still worry about Dean Winchester
i wonder if he knows what he has done to me?
i don't think so
it's been 4 and a half years since the last time i saw him
and the weird thing is
even though he was mean to me
and hated me with a passion
things usually felt better when he was around
AUTHORS NOTE:
Wow
i am actually liking this
i hope you guys like this series
it's going to be long
and their will be plenty of feels
and if you guys have a fanfic idea
that you want me to write
please
message me
but
it was to be a destiel fanfic
because that is the only fanfic i will write
ANYWAY
i'm sorry if i don't update fast
i will try my hardest
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ok bye :)