*Zach's POV*
She told me to kiss her. I was surprised but so happy when I heard it say that. I asked her what she said, just to make sure I wasn't imagining it. She told me to kiss her again. I quickly went in and kissed her and it was something I can't even describe. It was absolutely perfect. Just like her.
We pull apart and I look into her eyes. Her eyes glistening just like they always do. So beautiful. Her hazel eyes. They were yellow and brown around the pupil and then most of the eye was a dark green. Then around the edges of her eye it was a greyish blue. (A/N: Btw, the eye color I just described are the color of my eyes.) They were so beautiful. Just like her.
We looked at each other for a moment before I finally spoke. "Let me walk you home." I suggest, smiling.
"Okay." She says quietly, while still staring into my brown orbs. I take her hand and intwine it with mine. We walk back to her house. The whole way was silent, as in silent for us. Because we didn't talk.
We got to her house. "I'll see you tomorrow... Autumn." I say to her. I can't help but blush when I look at her, or even say her name.
"Wait," She stops me. "Come inside?"
"Of course." I say. She smiles at my response.
We go into her empty house. We go to her room and hang out for a bit. Her room is a mess. Clothes everywhere. But no sign of any trash from food wrappers or those things and such. A lot of empty water bottles litter the floor though.
"Your room is a mess." I joke.
"Yeah... I know.." She says, sounding embarrassed.
"Oh, I'm sorry, I was joking. I wasn't trying to-"
"No, no. It's fine. Really." She puts up her hand and gives a half smile.
The rest of the hour or so we just talk about normal stuff I guess. I decide not to bring up her problem again. Not until I feel I need to. Well, I do. But, I just kissed her and I want to be with her. And I want her to be more comfortable around me in that sort of way before I go bring up her.... problem again.
I left soon after, telling her I'll see her tomorrow.
*Autumn's POV*
After Zach left I decided to go visit Rachel now. I said I was going to today right after school, but then the whole thing with Zach happened, which I wasn't expecting. But I can still go see her now. Visiting hours are not over until 6:00pm. It's only 4:00pm.
I get to the hospital and make my way to her room. I walk in and see her sleeping, I think. I walk over to her. She looked a little better, but still thin. She looked pale and weak. I felt so bad for her. Having to be stuck in this.... place. I definitely was going to show I was there for her. Even though she already knew I was.
I sat on the edge of the hospital bed. She looked so peaceful, but in pain at the same time. I look down at my hands at refuse to let any tears fall.
"Hey... Rachel." i whisper and put my hand on her leg. She doesn't wake up. I say her name again, but now normally. She slowly opens her eyes and turns her head a little to face mine.
"H-Hey..." She lightly smiles. Obviously still weak.
(A/N: Just pretend the picture on the side is Autumn and Rachel.)
"How are you doing?" Wow, that was a stupid question to ask. I mean, all you have to do is look at her.
"Better. I guess." She took a breath of air. "I hate it here though. You have to get my out of this place."
I was shocked. She was clearly not stable enough to leave the hospital yet. But I didn't want to say no either. She was my other best friend after all.
"Nobody has, you know, been suspicious about you? Right?" She asks.
"Well, not that I know of. But..." I trail off. "I'm pretty sure Zach knows."
"What? How!?" Her mouth open like this :o
"He seen how much weight I've been losing. He also seen me with my shirt off when I was in the bathroom and he didn't even knock!"
She sighed. "Just make sure you don't slip up anymore. And be very very careful. Have you been losing?"
"I know. I'm sick of people trying to get in my business, when it's my life!!!" I say angrily. "And yes, I've lost about 7 pounds."
"That's good babe. You'll reach your goal weight in no time." She smiled. "And I know how you feel. I hate when people try to control you like it's their life, when clearly, it's not." She paused. "And that's why you have to get me out of here. We can go to Paris if you want. I have friends there. I have money too." She suggested.
"What? I can't! Well, I would but, I can't leave my family or friends- I mean friend, here."
"Well, it's okay if you don't want to go. You don't have to. But I'm going no matter what. I would just wish you'd come with me. Cause if you stay here, they will make you eat. I mean, once they find out."
"So you think they'll find me out?" I ask.
"Probably. After awhile they will. Especially since it's almost spring and it's getting warmer out. They'll ask why you are wearing baggy clothes and sweats."
She was right.
"If we go to Paris, we can be together and not have anybody tell us what to do. We will have control over our own lives." She says, trying to convince me. And well, she succeeded.
"You're right Rach." I smiled at her. "So as soon as you get better, we're going-" I finished, but it felt like she cut me off.
"No! We have to go now. They're gonna fatten me up in here. I know they will." She sounded and looked petrified. "We can leave tomorrow. We'll just walk out. No one will have a clue." I looked at her with sad eyes, knowing that she might not be well enough. It would be better if she stayed a little longer.
But Zach is already on to me. And he also could tell my dad, or even tell my mum about how I look and how I've been acting lately. And I really don't want mum to find out.
I knew she went through something like this before. I wouldn't want to disappoint her. Or even make her have to go through this again, but this time, instead of her, it's her daughter.
"Okay." I finally give in.
"Be here tomorrow, yeah?"
I take a minute to respond. Everything is going to be fine. Everything will work out. "Yeah. I'll skip school and come here. We can leave then." I flash her a smile. She flashes me one back.
"Thank you." She mouths, and putting her hand on mine.
It felt wrong, but at the same time, so right.
But things have just started to get better with me and Zach. Then that kiss we shared today, which I decided to not tell Rachel about. I don't know why. But I just find it better that way. Better safe than sorry.
I still want to move forward with Zach, and be his, completely. But I don't think that could ever work. I love him, but at the same time. We've been friends for so long. Since we were little kids. It just wouldn't feel the same as If we had just met.
And plus, it would never work because of my 'new lifestyle' I call it. It would just get in the way. And, I bet he would even be more aware of me losing. I can't have that happen. I finally have something I can control in my life. And I'm not letting nobody take it from me. Not without a fight.
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I get back home and see my dad's not home yet. Okay, so I decide to wear a tank top and short shorts. I put it on and put my hair up in a bun. I go into the bathroom and step on the scale. I wait for the number like I always do. Getting more nervous everytime I do.
96.1
Ugh, I've only lost what, like 2 pounds. "UGH!" I yell, frustrated with myself.
"Autumn? You alright in there?" I hear the irish accent. Shit.
"I'm fine!" I tell him through my bedroom door, which was closed and locked, even though I was in the bathroom, but with the door open.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes dad!" I didn't even here him get home. I have to be more careful. I get off the scale and write down my weight, which I keep track of, in my journal. I go to put it under my bed until I'm stopped by none other then Liam.
"I'm sorry Autumn. But you leave me no choice." He says, serious. He starts to walk towards me. What is he gonna do? It's not like he can touch me. He's a ghost. He is infront of me now and grabs me by my arm.
And I can feel it.
I feel him.
I feel everything.