okay, so I haven't updated in ages and I don't know why but I just felt like writing again so here I am.
So since it's been so long, for the readers who totally lost interest and forgot about what had happened in this story so far, I'll quickly state the events.
- Luke's still not with Ashton (ugh wow lewk)
- Malum's probs having a root now and then (like bros do)
- Lauren's sassy
- Ashton's still being a sad little boy becasue he hasn't seen his bf in a while (same)
- last time he cried in his room (wow same)
and here's what you missed on glee.
lmao anyway, back to the story.
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Ashton's POV
I look at my blonde friend in amusement as he stuffs a whole burger in his mouth.
"Wow you can really fit that in, can ya?" I say.
Niall looks at me with sauce running down his mouth and he chuckles. "At least I stuff food in my mouth and not dick meat"
"You want some Ash?"
I look at him in disgust and shake my head, "I'm good," i say looking away feeling slightly offended.
"What's up with you lately, you're acting weird," he says. I simply shrug, leaving Niall unsatisfied.
"Stop shruggin' you shrugger," he says, pushing me playfully.
I sigh.
"I just miss my Lukey," I pout. I flop my arms down and groan in frustration. I feel so whiny lately but I just can't help it, I must be on my man period or something. Ew gross.
Niall rolls his eyes and rests his head on his hand, pretending to act interested in his rude sarcastic way.
"I'm gonna kill him when I see him, I swear to god, no one should feel the pain I do right now," I huff.
Niall just nods, and nods. I don't think he actually cares.
Niall raises his eyebrows, "you never know, he might already be dead."
My mouth hangs low and I punch him on the arm. "Don't say that!"
He laughs and raises his hands up in defence, obviously not taking this seriously at all. He's meant to be my friend and all he is right now is annoying.
Finally I spot Calum and I give him a wave, motioning for him to come here. He has this stupid smile on his squishy face, and his eyes are barely visible from the happiness shining from him.
"Are you on drugs Cal?" I ask, feeling concerned for my friend.
He pulls a derpy face and shakes his head. "No! I'm just feeling good."
"And why is that Hood?"
"Hehe that rhymed," Niall chuckled.
I ignore him and focus on Calum.
"So?"
"What? Pfft I'm not going to tell you," he laughs.
"Why are you so down anyway, your birthday's coming up soon," he reminds me, and gives me a nugde.
My birthday. How could I forget? I'm finally going to be 18, then boom, I graduate this year. I haven't even thought about it, and now that I am...thinking about it... I'm pretty damn nervous.
"Fuck what am I going to do for my birthday?" I sigh to myself.
"Don't stress mate, it's going to be shockingly great," Calum says.
Hmm probably not. Should I even have a party this year?
After talking more about how old I'm getting and how much sex I should be having. Niall then changes the topic and brings up Harry.
"So I heard you hung out with Harold. Um?"
"Yeah sorry I left you by yourself man," Calum says, patting my back.
"Don't touch me," I say with a grimace.
I pop my head up and widen my eyes as I finally have a chance to ask about what I heard. It's been bugging me ever since and this is my time to say it.
"That reminds me, would you guys know perhaps, why Harry was talking to a Hemmings on the phone?"
Niall shrugs and Calum looks to the sky in 'deep thought.'
"I dont know man, it was Jack right?"
"Thats what he says, but I don't believe it. I'm not that gullible and Harry's not really...bright."
"Oh come on Ash, Harry and Jack are probably good friends," he assures me.
"Why would you be friends with your best friend's brother?" I ask.
"People are weird, I dunno. Just stop thinking too much."
"Well, this is school, and school is a thinking and learning environment," Niall interrupts.
"Niall."
"Sorry Calum," he softly says, looking down.
"Just get your head out of those miserable thoughts and lighten up a bit. Come on where's that fun, giggly Ashton we all know?" Calum beams.
"Up your ass," I respond with a straight face.
I get up from my seat and Calum claps and smiles, "there he is!" He says sarcastically. I huff out a laugh and walk off, with Calum and Niall following behind.
"Going to the servo this arvo?" Calum asks, with his arm hanging over my shoulders.
"Servo, then pop round the shops?" I ask.
"Wait for Michael too okay, his last lesson is in the building furthest away from the school gate, so he'll be slow," Calum says.
"Dude, I don't want to third wheel," I frown.
"You won't...trust me." He whispers in my ear.
I get an uncomfortable shiver and I watch him walk the other way to his last class, as I walk to mine.
Jesus christ Calum, has anyone ever told you how gross and creepy it is to whisper in people's ears.
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School ends and I wait by the gate with Calum for the one and only Michael Clifford.
You know I used to kind of dislike that guy, but now, he's alright I guess since he's sort of the reason why I met Luke.
"Are you working tonight?" Calum asks.
"Yep. Another long night for me," I respond.
"I'm surprised your boss didn't fire you," he chuckles.
"Aha yeah, I was confused too. I must be the best there if he didn't want to get rid of me."
"He was probably upset you were gone for 3 shifts," Calum laughs.
I nod and giggle.
"Wassup wassup wassup!"
I feel a hand on my shoulder and I look at the smiling face beside me. "Hello Mike."
"Aww Ashton, you cute human," Michael squeals, as he scrunched his nose and leans very close to me. Too close.
I think I'm going to vomit.
"Um keep it at a low with the cute thing," I say.
"But no one's cuter than mr Calum Thomas Hood!" He shouts.
Even though we are right.here.Michael.
"Come on lets walk," I say.
They seem to listen and they start walking, but in front of me.
"Oh you won't third wheel they say. We're not a couple they say.
Hehe trust me, they say." I mutter to myself.
Why did I agree to walk to work with these two.
We first go to 7 Eleven for a slushy each, and I'm not gonna lie, it brightened up my mood this afternoon. Michael tells me that he once got brain freeze so bad that he had to go to the hospital. Hmm okay, sure Michael. Sure.
It had just finished raining and the air started to get humid. I don't really like humidity, and it makes my hair really curly. Probably as curly as Harry's hair.
I touch my hair and feel the gross stickiness, but yeah, I can feel like becoming curly.
"Oh my god Ashy your hair!"
There we go. Now they won't shut up about it.
Especially Michael, that creep. At least Calum's my best friend and is allowed to be obsessed with me.
"You look like how did when you were younger!" Calum smiles.
"Yeah, okay, you can shut up now."
We arrive at the shops and enter the building. The cool air hits me and sends goosebumps down my arms, but it dries the humidity off my skin which is nice.
I walk around with Michael and Cal for a while until 4, which is the time my shift starts.
"I'll see you later guys," I say, waving. They pull suspicious grins as they wave goodbye. I turn around and star talking to the back of the supermarket but turn my head one last time to see the two giggling with each other and walking off to another store.
I shake my head and dust off their weirdness.
As I walk in, I am greeted with smiles by my work mates. Some of them don't talk to me though, so I'm guessing they just greet me cause it's polite.
Karie, the girl that works at two counter's away from me says hi and hands me a box.
"What's this?"I ask, with my eyebrows raised.
"Your birthday present silly!" She grins.
"My birthday is in 2 days," I tell her.
"1 day," she corrects me.
"Wait, it's tomorrow? Since when."
"Boy, you need to check the calendar more. It's the 6th today," she states.
Where did all the time go. I can't believe that I didn't even know the date. When Calum said soon, he meant SOON!
"Bloody hell."
Karie laughs and pats me on the back. "Now open your pressie oldie."
I giggle, "okay okay."
I peel the wrapping paper off and scrunch it up in my hand. I open the box and see a watch.
A lot of emotions run through my head, but most of all confusion. "W-why did you get me this? thank you but, I mean, we're work mates, you didn't have to..."
"Shut up and take it, and plus, it's a $20 watch from target, calm down," she says.
"Oh."
Oh. Ugh so I'm not even worth more than $20. Wow Karie.
"That's good then, thanks Karie," I say, pulling her in for a hug.
I put the gift in my bag, and take out my work clothes. I quickly get changed in the locker room and come out ready to do this shift.
I check the time on my phone and it's 15 past 5, but there was something else that caught my eye. A missed call.
But just not any missed call. A missed call from Luke.
I furrow my eyebrows and stare at my phone. This can't be happening. Why did he call me now?
Is he in trouble? Should I call him back?
I shake my head and almost tap on the call button, but the boss tells me to get off my phone and onto the floor.
"You don't get birthday perks here Irwin," he says.
"My birthday's tomorrow," I say.
"Yeah, and you're lucky I'm not giving you a shift on that day," he says.
I clear my throat and nod, going to my registered counter.
It was a quiet night, so I walked around the place for a minute, sorting out stuff and cleaning the supermarket.
The missed call itched my mind through out the whole night so far, and I'm dying to call him back.
"Ash, we need someone at the counter." I hear someone at the end of the line of the walkie talkie say.
"Rightio." I reply.
I open my counter and see people line up.
After scanning people's items, I was sure that I wanted to quit this job. I should be doing something much more fun.
My mind then floats back to when Luke had that stupid, random idea of running away, and what did I do? Run with him. God I was crazy.
But it was such a good break from everything, and now that I'm back into my reality, I feel so depressed. Just by looking around, I see nothing but grey. No life whatsoever. No wonder I act so down all of the sudden, I'm surrounded by everything I despise.
Maybe that's just what I think now, because I'm at work. and everyone hates work.
A few minutes pass and spin around my in chair around and round, just to occupy myself.
I feel myself getting dizzy and before I could stop myself, some one else stops the chair for me.
I look up and my vision is blurry at first but then I almost vomit.
But in shock, or excitement.
My brain can't function this all at once.
What the hell is going on.
"You shouldn't slack at work babe."
I hold my breath. I think i just forgot to breathe, yeah thats it.
I finally breathe out and start to hyperventilate.
"Luke!"
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Let's av a short break.
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So anyway, How are you? good? good.
Actually, the correct way of answering would be to say "I'm very well thank you."
Unless, yenno, you're not well.
In that case, sorry?
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it's over.
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"W-what..H-ow, Huh?"
Luke giggles and bites his lip afterwards. Fuck I've missed seeing his sexiness so much what the hell.
"Lost for words?" He asks.
I slightly nod, and he laughs and smiles with tears filled his eyes after.
I didn't realise it but I was almost crying.
I just couldn't control my emotions right now. They are just all over the place.
"What." I the only thing I could get out of my mouth. "Wanna get out?" He asks.
Huh, no. Last time I said yes, I ended up in the middle of the woods, fighting about some spin the bottle game or something like that.
Who does he think he is. running out of my life, then coming back in as if nothing had happened.
Before I could reply, he grabs my wrist and pulls me out of my place and I am forced to follow him out of the store. We end up outside at the car park and he settles us down on the ledge of the footpath.
"Look, Ashton..." He begins.
I still freeze in a wide eyed expression. The only thing I feel now is shock. But what I'm really focused on is how much older Luke looks, and how much sexier he's become. How did this happen in just a short period of time. He almost looks older than Jack, and Jack's a hunk!
Luke begins to giggle but then clears his throat. I finally snap out of it and come clear to my thoughts.
"No, Luke this isn't funny!" I croak out.
His face turns serious, and is written with guilt.
"Ash, hey, let me talk," he says softly.
"No, I just, how come you..." I start, but then tears over come me.
I long that embrace of his, and when I finally fit back into his arms, I closed my eyes and let it fill me with comfort and warmth.
"Ashton. Let's go back to mine and I'll tell you everything."
I look up and nod.
He smiles and pulls my up from the ground. We get my stuff from my locker and I quickly get changed into my school uniform, which felt weird.
"I'm having de ja vu." he chuckles.
"Haha yeah." I say awkwardly.
God Ashton, no need to make things awkward for fuck sake.
"Let's go." I say.
I leave my boss a letter and leave the building. Luke pulls out his phone and turns on the flashlight to help us see better. The walk to his house was silent. We just had so much to say that we couldn't get anything out.
I hated it. I felt like there was something missing.
I wanted to just jump on him and hug him and tell him how much I love him, but it just seemed wrong to do that.
At the same time, I'm mad at him, but i'm only trying to convince myself that I am mad, cause other than that, nothing about me says that I'm angry at the boy.
Well, now should I say man. boy. manboy?
Did he hit the gym or something, I'm still trying to figure it out, last time he was a lanky tall dude and now I seem like the lanky one.
...And i thought I was buff.
hmph.
We arrive at his place and once I walk in I smell Liz's dinner that get's my mouth watering.
Then it hit me.
Did they know he was back?
Did he just got back or was he here for a while.
Oh my god Luke that son of a bitch.
"Wait, how long have you been here?"
He sighs and motions for me to walk to his room.
I furrow my eyebrows and stomp upstairs.
His room looks normal, and gives of his strong scent. So he must have been here for a while.
I sit on his bed and give him a long stare.
"Go on. tell me," I say.
"Oh uh." He sits on his chair and breathes in deeply.
"So um I came back a week ago," he says biting his lip.
"A WEEK!"
A WEEK? AND HE DIDN'T EVEN CALL ME, TEXT ME, PAY ME A VIST, WHAT.
"Look, let me explain," he continues.
"oh this better be good."
"So anyway as I was saying, I came back home a week ago, and yeah I got in huge trouble with my parents but after a couple of days, I decided to work harder and focus on school and you know, being a better person. My mum mostly made me but after it all, it was really good for me. Oh and my mum homeschooled me cause I didn't want you to mess me up."
"Mess you up?"I ask.
"yeah you just. I dunno, you're like this thing that makes me lose control and like forget about everything but it's good, and I love it but that last week was so tough on me that I had to wait. I had to wait a little longer to see you and tell you."
He brings his hand to his hair and scrunches it up.
"But now, I'm ready and so here I am. Surprise. I'm back," he says.
I pause for a bit and give him a stare.
"Can I slap you in the face?" I calmly ask.
"yes, go ahead." he nods, gesturing to his face.
I stand up and lift up his head with my finger. with the other hand I swing so hard and make impact with his cheek.
Both of us are quiet and I sit back down, returning to my stare.
Luke looks to the ground and nods with his lips pursed.
"Okay."He breathes out.
"Okay," I say.
"I'm good."
"yeah you alright?" he asks.
I laugh and nod. "Are YOU alright?"
He looks up and laughs, but in a painful kind of way. "yeah all goods."
I giggle but with a pout and go over to him. I press my cold hand against his cheek hoping it will make him feel better.
"Want me to kiss it?"
He looks up and there it was.There was the look I've been waiting for. I crave this look that he gives me.
The look of pleading, and vulnerability with his eyes nice and big, looking up at me.
"Yes please," he softly says.
I almost melt.
I lean in and softly press my lips on his warm cheek, and I felt so much better in that moment.
"Are we good?" He asks.
"Hmm not exactly," I say.
"Hey, how about you get changed from that uniform," he says.
"What, moments after seeing me and you already want me to get naked for you?" I chuckle.
"Do it for me baby,' he laughs.
"Anything for you daddy," I giggle.
He laughs too but then stops.
I stop to look at him.
We both look at each other in a weird way.
"Wait.."
"Did you..." he begins.
"Did I just..."
"Did you just call me daddy?" He asks, looking shocked.
I fall onto the ground and stare at it in horror.
Since when was he daddy?!
I'M DADDY!
"I'm daddy!" I say.
"Oh no," i say, looking up at Luke.
"Who are you and what have you done with my princess Luke?" I shout.
He tries to hide his smile as he just shrugs and stands there.
"You're so big, and broad and you've got that stubble and I just..." I say, not being able to finish my sentence as I'm still trying to figure out what the hell just happened.
He sits with me on the floor and cups my face.
"You're so cute when you're confused," he says.
No. no.no how did I let this happen...
but i sort of like it.
Who am i?
"I guess for tonight we could..." I say.
"yeah, just for tonight, maybe in the future we swap and share roles and stuff," he says.
Share roles?
I could never!
But...
Maybe i could...
"Y-yeh okay."
"I fucking missed you so much Ash," he smiles.
My eyes start to water again and I pull him in for a tight hug. "I missed you too goddammit."
I pull back and look at him again, "but don't you think we're a bit clingy? Like most couples could handle not seeing each other for like a week."
"So what if we're clingy towards each other?" "I love you, and you love me so we might as well be together all the time. Fuck it," he says.
"Damn Lukey, when did you become so mature and sexy. You even swear more than you used to, what the hell." I chuckle.
"Well you know, you are what you eat," he says with a smirk, followed by a wink.
I feel myself blush and my tummy turns in circles.
"That's something I would say you bastard!"
He laughs and bites his lip, as he stops to look at me.
"You're really beautiful."
I huff out a nervous laugh and look to the ground. "Um thank you."
"You're hair looks nice by the way, did you get it cut?"He asks.
"Yeah, it's shorter now but still curly as ever," I say followed by a giggle.
He then mouths "cute" and I playfully roll my eyes.
"Stop.
"no you stop," he teases.
"Why are you so weird and awkward all of the sudden," I laugh.
He shrugs and smiles. "i dunno, seeing you again makes me feel the way I did when I first saw you. It's like I'm falling again...even though I never stopped falling for you," he says, looking deep into my eyes.
I pursed my lips to hide my massive smile.
His words sweep me away and leave me feeling so loved. I hate him so much for this.
Why is he so perfect.
"I love you blondie."
"I lub you too ershten."
"Okay, don't do that voice it's not sexy," I chuckle.
"Oh, you want to see sexy! oh ladies and gentlemen, Mr Irwin's feeling a little needy tonight." he shouts, making me feel all embarrassed.
"Well I'll tell you what, daddy's gonna show you sexy, once you get on that bed," he whispers in my ear.
Holy fuck.
I gulp and nod, not knowing what's gotten into me.
But i sure know what will be in (to) me.
;) ;) ;) ;)
im trash ik hahahahahahahaha
Sorry that was a bit of Vanessa and not Ashton.
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A/N
IM BACK GUYS AND YES I JUST TOTALLY GOT LAZY AND DIDNT HAVE THE EFFORT TO WRITE FOR SO LONG soory I'm shouting.
So since I've been getting more readers I had more motivation to write this and when I starting reading the last chapter I was like "Damn I miss this." Just like how Ashton missed Luke.
Don't fear, I have everything planned out, it was just that I'm a lazy potato, so sorry.
So this story will end in a couple of chapters, so you've been warned.
Also, tell me if ya want to sxc frickle frackle part written or do you want me to just start the next chapter from after the sxc parts? idk u tell me.
Another thing, idk if you guys are interested but I noticed that some of the 5sos songs relate to this story a lot so here is the list of the songs that I was deeply connected with to write this.
- Long way Home
- Kiss Me Kiss Me
- Disconnected
- Waste the Night
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Thanks for the votes and comments, ily.
:)
(I will start writing the next chapter tomoz so I won't update late again. dw)