(Holly's P.O.V)
His sweet husky scent rose, comforting me. "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay. We are all here for you." He speaks as he holds me tight as I cry.
I pick my head up slowly, looking into his hazel eyes. "Rob...Robbie.... Nothing is okay... Nothing will be okay... This is all I have left. Memories and voices." He doesn't reply back. He rubs his fingers along my back comforting me.
"It is going to be okay, yeah? Liam is going to fine. He's a fighter. Remember when he tried to actually fight me because he wanted to test my loyalty." He laughs. I smile slightly, brushing my hand through his brunette hair.
I press my lips onto his pinky red lips lightly. "Thank you." He holds me even tighter.
"What's happened?" Ashton says confused.
I stand up from the step and walk over to him, i wrap my hands around his waist. "Thank you for being there for James, Ashton."
"I will always be there for him, for Liam and you." He says hugging me back. Robbie's hand slipped into mine. Ashton took a step back and took a glimpse at Robbie and at myself and walked out. I sensed the parental status arising in him as he saw mine and Robbie's hands.
*The next day*
I stood in front of the church with Robbie greeting family, mostly friends grieving about their death with me. Death, what a big word? I was too tired of seeing people grieve. Too many people and one of me. I wanted it to go back to normal. I'm not ready for this.
Uncle Danny and mostly everyone stood further away from me waiting for the hearses to drive in. Ashton kept looking back at me. Well I think he was looking at me and I hoped he is because I just waved and it would be so awkward if he weren't. Yes! He was. He smiled and waved back along with Calum doing the same, awkwardly. Why does this make me so excited and tingly? Whatever he said yesterday really helped me. The words which came out of his mouth echoed. This isn't normal. Is it?
The boys wore black suits and women wore black dresses except for me. Black skinny jeans with a grey, black blouse and black vans. Not even the boys could pull it off. I promised my mum, I would never wear a dress in her presence, she might even be laughing in heaven at the fact I obeyed my promise from when I was 7.
Two hearses drove through the gates of the Church, 'Mother' and 'Son'. Reality struck me once again and a tear rolled down my face. Robbie'arm tensed around my waist.
Luke jogged over to me to hug me, "Go inside." He whispered. His cold hand brushed my arm as he nodded 'it's okay'. I could see the tears coming to his eyes. I could see him trying to be strong.
I took a deep breath in the act of walking through the gigantic church doors, down the aisle to feel eyes on me. My fingers wrapped around Robbie' tightly. The voices started fading from the people dressed in black except from the soft melody of the organ playing. Our footsteps echoed until I took my seat at the front in between Lauren and Mali, Ashton's and Calum's sisters with Emily sitting on the bench behind. Robbie sat there with her.
"You okay?" Lauren asked.
"I'm okay honey." I say taking a deep breath as Lauren hugs me. Harry, Ashton's little brother, walked over to me and squeezed in between Lauren and laid his head on my shoulder wrapping his arm with mine.
"Is Liam going to be okay?" Harry was Liam's best mate and another younger brother to me. He was so sweet and reminded me so much of him except Harry is more punky and Liam is well... Liam.
"We hope for the best, mate!"
I could never imagine before how much I could miss them all. We take so much for advantage. I didn't know how to answer his question because that question has been spinning in my head aswell, but I'm honest to him and that's all that matters right now.
Liam was still in hospital. The doctor said that it will be long term coma. I don't feel right doing this without him. It's his family too, but we had to carry on according to Uncle Danny.
There was people from the military too, I guess some of them were officers and those fought alongside with my dad. I could tell because they wore hats and wore badges on their blazers.
Everybody suddenly stood on their feet. It was to pay their respects, I stood slowly and stepped forward and looked back at Luke, Jack, Ben and Uncle Danny holding Mum' coffin and Andrew, Calum, Ashton and Michael holding James's coffin until the front of the church. They all stepped down from the stage at the front of the church and sat on the benches around me, our designated seats.
The priest spoke for a good 15 minutes, it didn't seem like anybody was listening, everyone were in their own worlds except I didn't care because I weren't either. I was never really religious. My mum was, when her mind suited it. I smile slightly and quickly bite my lip in case anybody sees. 'What a freak' people may think.
My mind was lost in my thoughts of my future, Where will I go? Is Uncle Danny going to stay? Will Liam wake up? Does this all mean i'm an orphan?
"Holly." Mali said, shaking me from my chain of thoughts.
"Holly, will you like to come up and say something?" The funeral director says leaning his eyes into mine from a distance from where he stood on the stage,
Everyone who sat near me, smiled signalling that it was okay. Ashton even winked. I believed them and pulled out the flashcards out of my front pocket of my jeans and straightened my blouse. I jogged lightly onto the stage where the priest was standing behind the pulpit and stepped on a small stool so I was tall enough to reach the microphone. This is so awkward.
"Hi! My name is Holly an I'm the daughter of Sophia and I'm James sister. I'm not used to speaking to so many people so sorry if i say something wrong and mess up. Er I'll start off, talking about James. James and I never really saw eye to eye when we were younger. I always thought of him as an idiot and a jerk because he always used to be SO annoying, but I guess he was just being a big brother. When we growing older we bonded through music and computer games. Yes, we were like massive nerds. He's probably the only reason i'm doing a bit better than average at school. I never really expressed it to him, but I do still love him in some way or form. He was like a dad to me, I guess, when we didn't have one. He always stuck up for me and Liam. I've always been proud of him in everything he has done for the family and all his achievements. Love you bro." I say taking a glance at his coffin. I took a deep breath and held back my tears. "Well, my mum and me always had a good relationship because we were the girls in the house, doing each others nails and hair. I was never good at it! I once burnt her hair, ran away to Lauren's and waited until she noticed and calmed down. The funniest day ever. I didn't get in trouble that day because she did realise she put a straighter in my hand." I stopped and took a sip of water until everyone's chuckles had silenced. A catch in my throat arose, "I guess all i'm trying to say is that we had our ups and downs, but we always got through them. It's like having a twin, you know? When they're not around you, you feel kinda empty. They were those who completed me. They were those who were there in my time of darkness and loneliness. They were literally my best friends and that's so rare in families. I love you both, wherever you may be. I'll do whatever I can to make you proud."
"Thank you, Holly." The priest says.
"Sorry, er... can you do me a favour? Could you do a small prayer for Liam please, he really needs it."
"Of course." He smiles.
Tears start to roll off my face. Uncle Danny comes to the stage bringing me down about to escort me to a seat near him. "I...Erm... need a minute."
I just carried on running, I didn't know where I was going. I suddenly stopped, looked to my left. The horn of the white light stuns me in the face.
A/N:
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