Who are you ?
Nia POV
3 months later
" how did that make you feel Nia ?"
" it made me feel weak , like dirt , like I meant nothing " I cleared my throat to prevent my voice from croaking .
I looked to my left to see Aleksandr holding my hand . He looked up at me and smiled raising my hand and brought it to his lips to kiss it gently . I draw in a breath and continue speaking of the hardest moment of my life .
It's been three months since I've been staying with Aleksandr. I've started talking to my psychiatrist. I thought if Aleksandr thought me to be as brave as he thought maybe i would be just for this
For me
To heal
I needed to be brave
He's been there every step of the way . My elbow has even healed as well as my tongue , concussion, and one of my knees . My other knee had to by operated on again due to the bone not healing properly so I was on crutches at the moment . The scar on my stomach was a faint white .
Although my body was going back to normal . I couldn't stand to look at myself . Everywhere I looked I felt like he had branded me scarred me . I couldn't look at my scars and think that I was a survivor of something dire . I felt kinda useless . Ugly . No woman's body looked like mine . No woman's body looked disgusting like mine .
So I covered up . Every article of clothing Aleksandr has ever bought me has long sleeves and full pant legs . It's only because I asked . I know that it somewhat bothered him but he never asked my reasoning
Our relationship hasn't really developed much . I could see the glint in his eyes when he looked at me . I could see how he tried to make me feel special every day but I'm so scared . Scared that he might be as sick and twisted as his brother . This is kindness is such a facade . The thought made me sick to my stomach . And I could see that it bothered him . I could see that he wanted to give me his all but I wasn't ready .
Shortly we finished with my appointment and Aleksandr hands me my crutches and leads me out the room with his hand on my lower back .
" стрекоза I'm proud of you . You're doing so well " He rasped
" thank you " I say smiling at him " I'm trying "
" it's more than enough стрекоза"
He lead me to my room and he left with a kiss on my forehead saying he had a lot of work to do in his office .
Aleksandr has moved his office across from my bedroom . When I still had all my casts I would need to be turned in my sleep . He said it would be easier but he was right across from me . And he'd be able to attend to me faster .
I was tired out from venting so I decided to take a shower . Moving to the bathroom I removed all my clothes and got underneath the warm sprays . The water removing all the weight that has been on my shoulder today while also encouraging all the intrusive thoughts I've been trying to stay away from
" what If he finds us ? "
" he'll kill me this time I know it "
" what if he knows we're hear and just waiting to attack ? "
" could I ever live a normal life after all of this ?"
Having had enough I turn off the water and make my way out . I don't know whether I stepped wrong . But the next thing I know is that I've slipped and fell on my backside . I cry out in pain and clutch my back rolling on my side .
Soon after Aleksandr comes rushing into the bathroom
" Nia ! " he crouched in front of me
" it's ok I'm hear now " I groan in response. My back feeling like it's on fire .
He lifts me up and takes me to bed before rushing out and coming back with the medical kit . He turns me onto my front and lays a towel over my butt . Before applying ointment on my back
After 10 mins the ache soothes and he flips me back onto my front and covers me with the towel . Leaning down to stroke my forehead
"стрекоза how do you feel ? "
" much better thank you "
" you need to be more careful ok ?"
I nod my head expecting him to straighten but his eyes alternate between my eyes and my lips . His hand trails my leg leading up to my sex . My breath hitches and my eyes close as he leans closer . I want to kiss him so bad but then I remember how this started with Dimitri and I can't do it
Placing my hand on his chest I push him away
" I-I can't I'm sorry . I'm not ready " I whisper
He sighs and straightens turning his back from me and walks out the door slamming it shut
***
In the afternoon I walk into the kitchen to eat some lunch I make myself a sandwich which proves to be difficult with crutches but I manage to succeed despite is ugly appearance .
I sit down and eat staring out the window at birds of different colours and sizes gathered around the feeders in the garden .
In that moment Aleksandr walks in his eyes are blood shot and his hands and eye are twitching
" i won't be here for dinner "
With that he storms out the door but I don't miss the specs of white powder on his fingers
***
In an unknown location
Dimitri POV
I swirl my fifth glass of whiskey before downing it all in one go . Standing up from my seat . I tower over the my men . Who stand in groups . I stare at one group
" did you find her ?"
" No sir bu-" I don't wait for him to finish before putting a bullet in his skull
I look at the rest of them my jaw clenching and throwing my glass at the wall
" do not bother telling me any useless information or you'll be just like him "
One of the men steps forward
" we've found a secret safe house towards the coast we think they might be there "
I turn to my right hand men Benjamin
" assemble more men , we're heading there tomorrow morning "
I'm coming my love
***
Nia POV
I was sleeping in my room on top of the sheets due to the heat , when I hear the door open and footsteps entering the room . It must be Aleksandr . I feel his body stand by the bed and his hand trail up my legs but when they reach too close to my sex I clench them shut
" I-I can't " I whisper
A deep voice rasps in the room
" you were right Aleksandr , such a beauty "
I don't recognise it. I open my eyes and try to scurry away from the bed when four shadows grab me by my limbs and pin me to the bed .
I struggle in their grasps but their grip is too tight . I look up to see Aleksandr standing by the door . Illuminated by the hallway lights . His eyes are blood shot , triple blinking and his hand twitches as well as his shoulders
" you're right my friend. And we're going to have so much fun " he slurs
Please no
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Much love
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