A/N- Oh hii 👀
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Emma
"I'm in love with you..."
Staring out the window of the apartment Emma replayed the words over and over in her mind,like she had been doing since her girlfriend had all but blurted them out.
"I love you."
The photographer could only hope she meant them,she thought she did,but Taylor had said some other things,hurtful things as well and this alone was pushing great doubt into Emma's head.
"Isn't that the worst damn thing you have ever heard."
The blonde hadn't gotten anything else out of the singer,who had simply cried into her shoulder until they had gotten to Andrea's apartment.
Taylor's mother had whisked her away and now Emma was standing in the living room staring out across the city completely utterly lost in an emotional turmoil.
Did she love Taylor?
Emma didn't even have to think about that answer,the real question was,did Taylor actually love her or was it just the alcohol talking.
"Dammit Tay..." she murmured aloud,letting her eyes fall shut as she rubbed her temple.
"Emma." A hand on her shoulder caused the photographer to start.
"A bit jumpy are we?"
Oh thank god
"Sorry Andrea." The blonde turned around sheepishly to face Taylor's mother who was looking her up and down with concern. "Is Taylor okay?"
"I got her changed and into bed,she is going to have a hell of a headache when she wakes up..." Andrea gave Emma another once over "And it seems she may have some regrets as well,but other than that she will be just fine."
Some regrets?
"Oh god..." Emma's cheeks flushed "What did she say..."
Andrea raised an eyebrow "Not much,just something about calling her girlfriend a "bitch" and then professing "her love" not even twenty minutes later."
Oh Taylor what have you done.
"That is the last time I ever let her near a glass of wine." Emma sighed as Andrea lead her over to the sofa.
"Im not going to ask about the "girlfriend" thing." Andrea smiled softly, "That can wait until Taylor herself is ready to say something,in a more sober state. However i'm going to ask what happened."
Emma fiddled with her hands nervously,she really didn't want to bring it all up,but avoidance clearly wasn't the answer.
"We argued after I called you. I told her she was drunk and she said i was being dramatic about what she had done in the restaurant...it kind of spun out from there. She called me some names and said other things she never would have without alcohol in her system."
The blonde paused to gauge Andrea's reaction,the older woman's face showed only sympathy.
"I managed to get her into the cab and she started crying and apologising and then...then." Emma's heart raced "She said something else,something Ive been dying to hear her say..."
Just not like that...
She trailed off willing herself not to reveal more than she should.
"Are you okay?" Andrea reached across to rest a hand on her arm.
"I'm so confused Andrea." Emma met her eyes. "On one hand I want to believe Taylor meant what she said,but on the other hand if I do does that mean all the other nasty things she said is what she actually thinks..."
"Emma honey take some deep breaths for me." Andrea smiled softly and took her hands.
The photographer nodded and took a couple of breaths to calm herself down and clear her thoughts a bit.
"Can I talk now?" Andrea asked kindly.
The blonde nodded.
"Taylor has absolutely no filter when she is drunk and as you have seen tonight she says stuff she doesn't often mean. Unfortunately that happens quite a bit and none of it is to be taken to heart."
Emma felt her heart sink thirty feet and Andrea must have noticed her sudden change in demeanour as she held up a hand.
"I'm not finished Emma."
"I...okay."
"While she has the tendency to say things she doesn't mean...she also can be extremely honest." The elder woman smiled softly "Have you ever heard the saying a drunk mind speaks a sober heart?"
Emma nodded slowly holding her breath.
So there was hope after all...
Andrea just smiled softly "I think tomorrow you and Taylor need to sit down and have a conversation about the things she said,the bad and the good."
"You are right,you definitely are." The photographer's shoulders sunk slightly. "Thank you."
"Its not a problem."
Looking up Emma caught sight of the clock on the wall "I should go." She said making to stand.
"No honey no one is telling you to leave." Andrea's voice was firm. "It's almost two am and there is no way I'm letting you find your way home at this time of night."
"Andrea I could never intrude." The blonde backtracked.
"It's no intrusion and it never will be." Andrea smiled softly "Besides I have a feeling you and I are going to be seeing a lot more of each other in the future..."
Emma's cheeks grew heated and she looked down slightly embarrassed at how quickly Andrea had figured them out.
"We have a spare room you could take." Taylor's Mom offered "Or there is a couch in Taylor's room..."
"I'll take the couch if thats okay." Emma answered far too quickly to not be suspicious.
Andrea,to her credit said nothing,but smiled knowingly and patted the photographer on the shoulder softly before leaving the room.
She is so sweet...
Emma sighed and reached for her phone knowing she had to probably update Selena and Stormy on the whole situation.
To her surprise both of them were online. In order to make her life easier the blonde just decided to add them to a group.
Messages
(Sx2)
Emma
Hey...to keep it short and simple.
Taylor drank to much.
Stuff was said.
I had to call for help.
Now we are at Andrea's place.
Stormy
Oh god are you okay?
Selena
I saw a missed call,im sorry I didn't pick up.
Emma
Im hanging in there Storm and its okay Sel,calling
Andrea was the right move.
Selena
Do you need us to come get you guys?
Emma
No no its okay,we are gonna stay here for tonight.
Stormy
Well we will be there first thing in the morning to pick you guys up.
Emma
Thank you.
Why are you both up so late?
Are you guys together right now?
Selena
Look at the time!
Im actually quite tired so ima going to get some sleep.
Bye Em,stay safe x
Stormy
I think I heard Flap-Jack break something I also have to go!
Love ya 😙
Emma
I...bye
Those two....
Emma couldn't help but wonder if there was more going on between them than she or Taylor realised.
Thats a problem for another day.
Shaking her head the blonde made her way out of the living room and towards where she knew Andrea had put Taylor to bed.
She entered the room quietly using the flashlight on her phone to see,trying not to wake her girlfriend.
It worked for the most part,until she tripped over a lamp cord.
"Shit." She swore quietly as Taylor shifted on the bed.
"Mmm...Em?" The photographer's heart softened at the sight of the singer. Her hair was tousled and messy as she sat up eyes bleary and squinting at her in the darkness.
"Hey baby..." Emma couldn't help but walk over to the bed.
Taylor smiled sleepily at her. "You're still here?"
"Always my love." The younger blonde reached up to tuck a strand of hair back and watched with a racing heart as Taylor leaned into her touch.
"Come here..." The older woman patted the bed next to her. "Want you here."
It was a terrible idea.
They had so much to talk about...yet Emma couldn't help herself,it was impossible for her to deny the singer what she wanted.
"Just let me change love." She kissed the top of her head softly and stood up to change into some spare clothes that Andrea had left for her.
While she did that,the blonde kept a watchful eye on her girlfriend who was now lying back on her side,eyes barely open.
Taking her hair down Emma made her way back over to the bed and slipped in under the covers next to Taylor.
The singer almost immediately shifted closer and tucked her head under the photographer's chin.
As Emma pulled her close she realised it would be one of the first times they would be spending the night in bed together.
Hopefully not the last...
"I love you to..."
The photographer whispered softly into the dark as she wrapped her arms around the semi conscious blonde.
"I think I always have."
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Taylor
One thing that stays the same no matter how old one gets is that terrible feeling that awaits you waking up after having to much to drink.
The actual hangover is met with other feelings of regret,guilt and frustration in yourself.
The minute Taylor opened her eyes she felt it all.
First was the awful headache and gnawing pain in her stomach.
Then came the remembrance of the night before,what had happened,what was said and who had been affected.
"God I'm an idiot." She murmured aloud,covering her face with her arm.
"Agreed." A soft voice next to her mumbled sleepily. "But you're an idiot I happen to like."
A light blush tinted Taylor's cheeks as she remembered where she was and whom she was currently sharing a bed with.
Rolling over onto her side the singer opened her eyes to meet the greyish blue ones in front of her.
"Do you hate me?" She whispered to her girlfriend.
"Stupid question." Emma moved forward to place a soft kiss on her nose. "I could never hate you,but I do think we need to talk about what happened last night."
Taylor nodded. "Okay...right now?"
Emma shook her head and sat up.
"No,right now we need to get you some food and something to help with that hangover...oh and you should probably talk to your Mom."
Taylor's eyes went wide "Oh shit,does she?"
The blonde nodded.
Taylor groaned and sunk back down under the covers. "On second thoughts,I think it's best you and I talk first before I am confronted by my Mom."
"Are you sure?"
Taylor nodded and sat up. She didn't want anything hanging between them.
"Em,I am truly sorry for how things went down last night. I'm sorry for getting jealous and causing a scene and then getting mad at you for trying to help. I'm sorry for calling you a bitch and saying you did not care..."
"You know I do right?" Emma asked calmly. "You know I would go to the ends of the earth for you and that I only did what I did because I had your best interests at heart."
Taylor nodded firmly.
"I know you care and this morning I can see what you did was the best thing in that moment so please do not take what I said to heart. You are not a bitch and I am so sorry I said what I did."
Emma took her hand and intertwined their fingers.
"I kind of figured the alcohol had come into play and so I knew not to believe anything that you said,so it honestly is okay."
Taylor winched "Some of what I said I meant,when I was speaking to Joe all of that I meant,it shouldn't have come out quite so harshly but none of it wasn't true."
"I get that." Emma said softly. "Also you never have to worry about things like that,I would never have let him set me up."
"I know that,but I saw red." Taylor muttered uncomfortably "I really am sorry about it...about all of it."
"All of it..." Emma's voice was quiet and extremely hesitant.
Taylor stiffened.
Oh god
"N...not all of it."
The photographer's eyes snapped up to hers hopefully.
Get it together Swift.
It's now or never.
"Em...last night in the cab I said something...I told you that I loved you."
The younger blonde nodded slowly "Yeah,I remember..." she tried to play it off nonchalantly but Taylor saw right through it.
She is just as nervous as I am.
Tell her...be honest.
The singer cupped her chin gently. "Emma..."
The younger woman didn't meet her gaze.
"Out of everything that was said last night those three words were the most truthful I was all evening." Taylor's voice shook slightly. "Ive been trying to say it for while now and I think that little liquid confidence broke the last line of defence I had going for me."
"Say it again,.." Emma whispered still not meeting her gaze.
"I love you..." Taylor moved closer "I love you with my whole heart and soul Emma,with every breath in my lungs and every beat of my heart,I love you."
Finally the photographer looked up at her,a grin forming over her face as she wiped away tears that were starting to form in the corner of her eyes.
"I love you to Taylor."
The singers eyes widened "Em you don't have t-
Emma cut her off by surging forward and placing a soft kiss on her lips.
I swear that trick is never not going to work.
"I do love you Taylor." Emma whispered pulling back to cup her cheek with one hand.
The older blonde's heart rate sky rocketed as her girlfriend looked at her with so much care and affection.
"Im not just saying it because you did,I mean it and I have been meaning to tell you for a while."
"Say it again..." Taylor murmured repeating Emma's early statement. "I need to know i'm not dreaming."
The photographer leaned forward to kiss her again,this time letting her lips linger a few seconds longer before whispering softly the words Taylor needed to hear.
"I love you Taylor Alison Swift."
The singer's vision blurred slightly as a cheesy grin formed on her face. "God you're amazing."
Emma blushed and pulled her in for a hug. "Says you."
"Are we okay?"
The photographer nodded and pulled Taylor into her arms.
"Better than okay my love."
"This is the healthiest relationship ive ever been in..." Taylor murmured. "As amazing as that is it scares me..."
"Trust me baby,you are not alone in feeling that." Emma's kissed the singer's cheek before resting her chin on her shoulder.
"The thing that scares me the most is the fact I can see a future with you Tay...it's something I want,something I can plan."
"I want that...I want so much with you Em."
The singer let her eyes fall shut. "It's not going to be easy,not by any means."
"Don't worry." Emma kissed her cheek again. "I never expected it to be."
"We will be okay?" Taylor whispered,it was half a statement and half a question,something to give her peace of mind.
"Yes Tay...we will be."
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A/N- This one took a lot longer to post for various different reasons but I hope you enjoyed all the same!!!
My heart is truly broken over what happened this past weekend...I can only hope and pray for Ana's friends and family,for Taylor and anyone else affected by the tragedy...
I hope everyone has a great week further or at least a manageable one 🫶🏼