So as the days going, I've been feeling worse and I was sick earlier and there was blood in it. I would have drove myself to hospital, cos I know blood in vomit isn't good.
But we have family coming over in the evening, and also I don't want to go to hospital anymore. Or the doctors.
I ended up falling asleep. Both my parents saw how bad I've been feeling today and they've been telling me to rest.
I haven't ate much today. I only slept for like 15 mins cos then iehab rang me, she needed help with medication and how to put it in her ear. and I couldn't fall back asleep. But I really needed that short nap, it helped although I still feel really horrible. I think this is just how it's gonna be for me now.
There's no cure for cancer anyway.
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So I've just come in
Got my sister and baby cousin birthday cake and balloons, from cake box. it's boiling. Just had a shower
My nose has been bleeding non stop but I'm putting on a calm and neutral face. A brave face, if you will.
Just gotta take and live in the happy moments now
It is what it is
I feel a little better now but no one genuinely knows how bad I feel😭😭
Will probs have to go back to the doctors and hospital I wanna avoid them. But I've finally ate so that's a good thing
Maybe I'll start telling A my concerns, he's quite understanding and gentle and patient so it should be okay.
I eased into it the other day, idk. I need to think about it or wait and see
I don't want to stress anyone though either
Or worry
Like I'll deal with it all myself if anything
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Absolutely shattered - will update tomorrow or the day after
There's also a film I wanna watch and books I wanna read but my eyes are begging me to sleep
My arm is killing me from the blood test
I was washing my face before bed and when I went over my nose it hurt so bad I need to be careful
Why do babies cry in their sleep, like bro just sleep?😂 I'll probably wake up a few times in the night but I tend to fall asleep again quite fast
I feel ill again