disclaimer!!! this is starting in kaia's pov from LAST NIGHT, continuing chapter 14's cliffhanger. there's gonna be a pov change in the middle so pay attention. prepare for the worst. also it's a really long chapter.
-kaia's pov-
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me, bil and finneas had a really great night. i walked in, overwhelmed. paparazzi followed and found where i live so they mobbed me at the door, i have this shoot tomorrow, billie's thinking i'm leaving her and it's all just too too much. but they made me feel a lot better.
i got bil's tour team and family on board with my plan though so i guess that's good.
i broke down in billie's arms for the first time and what did she do? she held me and she reassured me. that made me feel something..
not like that horny fucks.
we baked our cake with finneas who's a really cool guy, i see why he and billie are best friends.
the whole time i was just so drawn to billie.. something about her feels so different.. in the best way.
now it's finally time to sleep.. finally. and we're laying down in her bed, my head on her chest while she plays with my hair. my thoughts are rushing but i have an urge to say something right now. the time just feels right.
"bil..?" i break the silence.
"yes my love..?" she replies.
"you know how i love you?" i ask.
"of course." she says confidently.
"well.." i start. "well?" she asks in an uncertain tone.
"billie, i'm in love with you." i blurt out, sitting up to face her.
"i- um.. i- i love you too.." she says. i can tell she's genuine.
i kiss her lips and lay back down on her, drifting to sleep.
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-billie's pov-
kaia just told me she's in love with me.. i love her too. at least i think i do..
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i wake up, thinking about last night still. kaia's now laying in my arms, her lips slightly parted while small snores escape them. she's so cute..
i slide out of bed, trying not to wake her up. i'll wake her before i leave.. oh yeah, today's tour day.
i grab all my bags and gather them at the door before getting dressed in a basic burgundy sweatsuit, a white blohsh beanie and my jordan 15s.
i open my perfume and out of all the loud ass noise, that seems to wake her up.
"baby..? is it time?" she frowns, rubbing her eyes.
"no, baby.. i'm just getting dressed but you have your shoot at 8 you should probably start getting ready, its 5:45." i tell her. she nods slowly and starts getting out of bed.
she walks into the bathroom and comes back looking completely dead inside.
"my love.. what's the matter?" i ask, pulling her into a hug. "i don't want you to go.. i need you." she cries into my chest.
something's really bothering her for her to be breaking down so easily.. my poor baby.
she holds my waist tight, sobbing into my hoodie. i don't care that my hoodie's getting wet, i just need my baby to be okay before i go.
"angel, listen. before i go i need to tell you this." i say softly.
(yes that was a wwafawdwg reference.)
she lifts her head, wiping her tears. "mama, i'm not going anywhere.. i love you. you're gonna be okay and so will i. we're gonna see each other soon. can you promise you'll hold on for me? i'll call you every night and text you every chance i get, i promise it." i say, holding out my pinky.
"mhm.." she said it, so sadly..
(another reference teehee.)
she crossed our pinkies and made our thumbs meet, completing the pinky promise.
"okay, i have to go in 5 minutes.. you can walk me downstairs if you want?" i offer and she nods.
"i wanna be with you when you leave." she says, starting to throw on sweats and a t-shirt with her yeeze slides.
i grab my shit and we head downstairs.
why the fuck is there paparazzi here.
"billie! are you dating kaia?"
"kaia!! are you guys together?"
"i can't believe you guys live together!!"
dude it's 5am be so fucking for real.
we both just ignore them as they snap endless pictures of us walking to my limo.
we hug for what feels like an eternity and honestly, i don't give two rats asscheeks who can see us, i'm leaving my girlfriend for a month-
i lift her head and give her a long, passionate kiss which makes paparazzi go fucking crazy.
i get in the car and watch her as we pull away.. she looks so drained.
the second i get in, me and kaia's name are in headlines.
"superstar; billie eilish reportedly dating rising star and model; kaia miller.. is it true?"
"billie eilish found kissing kaia miller in public."
"billie eilish spotted kissing her new love interest, kaia miller. will they stay quiet or will they kiss and tell?"
i turn my phone on dnd.. no one truly has time for that shit.
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"here!!" i text kaia as we land. i couldn't sleep knowing she was out and about without me. normally i wouldn't care but with the way she's been feeling.. i wish i could be with her right now.
"great!! on break for right now but i should be leaving by 5-6.. call me after your show ml. i love you." she replies and i smile.
"gay." finneas says and i hit his shoulder.
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"I WANNA END ME!" i scream to the crowd as bury a friend plays. i'm not gonna lie, this concert has to be one of the best. this crowd is so lit.
this is my third show in washington and i have a meet & greet after but this crowd is way better than the last two days.
(yes, i skipped the other two shows bc nothing happens there.. js wait.)
i finish performing the song and bitches broken hearts starts playing.
as the second verse comes on, everyone knows what i'm about to do. they all get silent and when i look into the crowd i lock eyes with someone.
a beautiful girl, probably about my age. her pretty hazel eyes staring up at me as i let my own hands wander my body. her pretty black hair falls perfectly along her shoulders, her eyeliner sharp and precise.
"everybody knows.. you and i are suicide and stolen art, mmm." i moan and the crowd loses their shit.
i see the same girl, biting her lip at me.. she's so sexy.
what am i thinking about? i have a girlfriend. who i haven't heard from not once today.. weird.
the show ends quickly after that but i never lost that girl in the crowd.
now it's time for the meet & greet and guess who the fuck is 3rd in line. that beautiful mystery girl.
i take a deep breath, trying to calm myself as i smell her strong scent approaching me. she smells like musk and palo santo in the best way possible.
(eilish 2 reference that time.)
"billie!!! oh my fucking god i cannot believe this shit!!" she exclaims as we lock eyes. "c'mere mama." i say opening my arms. mama? what am i doing?
she jumps into my arms, hugging me tightly.
"what's your name, beautiful?" i ask her.
"my name's jade.." she stutters, clearly flustered.
"pretty ass name for a pretty ass girl.. do me a favor and go ask one of those guards to let you stand by my door and i'll meet you there later, yeah?" i say in her ear and she nods eagerly, flustered as fuck, running to the guards.
as the rest of the meet & greet goes by and i take pictures with everyone, signing shit, i cannot get jade off my mind.. she's waiting for me. that's the only thing i'm thinking.
"alright, eilish, you're done here!" my dad says and i take a deep breath.
"thank fuck! okay i'm going to the green room real quick.. i'll meet you guys at the tour bus." i say, nearly running away.
"yeah make sure you go in the room!!" my mom yells after me.. why? anyway-
i meet jade at my door. "hey.." she says softly.
without a word, i connect our lips, kissing her deeply.
i push her up to the wall, feeling up on her body.
"mm, fuck.." she whimpers as i kiss all over her.
with one hand, i unlock the door somehow never breaking the kiss.
as i slip my hand under her shirt, i hear something drop. i pull away and look behind me to see kaia standing right here, her phone on the floor and her eyes showing nothing but pure anger and heartbreak.
i fucked up..
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