"H-hyung.." Dino called out with pain in his voice.
"DINO!" Joshua shouted as he quickly approached the younger who's laying in a pool of blood with petals in it?
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"Hey where's Dino and Shua-hyung?" Seokmin asked.
"Dino went to the bathroom with Shua-hyung following him, who knows what they're doing" Mingyu answered.
"Probably fucki-" Sungkwan was cutted of f by Jeonghan.
"Seungkwan! And Shua was probably just worried at Dino since Dino has been going to the bathroom often" Jeonghan said a little bit annoyed at Seungkwan for jumping in conclusion he doesn't know himself why he got annoyed.
"Geez i was just joking Cheol-hyung calm your moody boyfriend" Seungkwan said with the others laughing except for Woozi who knows something that the others dont.
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"Are you ok now?" Joshua asked as he wiped the blood of Dino's arms and face still in the bathroom but the doors locked.
"Yeah.. Thanks hyung" Dino replied smiling a bit making Joshua smile a bit too and calm down a bit.
"So how long have you been hving this?" Joshua asked making Dino look at the pool of blod with gorgeous red petals in it.
"8 months ago..." Dino replied timidly with Joshua frowning and sighed.
"Dino-ah you should've told us about this or just me this isn't a thing to keep secret of" Joshua said patting Dino's head calming Dino a bit.
"Well how about yours hyung?" Dini suddenly asked making Joshua suprised.
"Yes i know you have this too Hyung, i also know you got this before me, you must've been suffering alone for so long now" Dino said almost tearing up and Joshua too wanted to cry as well but he needs to stay strong for his maknae and just smiled at Dino.
"Not really alone.. I have Jihoon" Joshua replied still smiling even tho he's hurt too but still smiled to comfort Dino which it did and then the two heard a knock on the door.
"It's Jihoon, I know you guys are in there" Jihoon said outside making Joshua unlock the door and let Woozi in and saw the pool of blood with petals which broke Woozi's heart but he just sighed and tried to stay calm for the two.
"Im guessing it's Dino's?" Woozi asked with the two nodding a yes as a reply.
"Cmon let's clean this up and I'll take you two back to the dorm it's clearly getting worse" Woozi said with the two nodding again as a reply and they cleaned it up then went out.
"You guys get ypur things and wait for me at the gate I'll just tell our professors" Woozi smiled and left with Joshua smiling back too but Dino was somehow fazed looking at someone?
"Dino?" Joshua asked as he saw Dino just staring at something so Joshua putted his vision on that direction too and he regreted doing it.
On the cafeteria is Seungcheol and Jeongham currently laughing together while talking about who knows what which made the two just stare at them. As they both stared Joshua can't help but feel that he'll cough and vomit sooner or later so he went the bathroom again with Dino noticing it.
"HYUNG! Hyung is it the-" Dini cutted himself off as he saw Joshua's vomit also blood but has black petals..?
"Black petals?" Dino worried said as he looked Joshua who's leaning towards the sink still coughing and vomiting blood and petals and was about to pass out.
"Shua-hyung...!" Dino said not knowing what to do as Joshua did stop coughing and vomiting but he looks like he was about to pass out.
"Woozi.. WOOZI-SII, JIHOON-HYUNG!" Dino shouted as he immediately left the bathroom to get help and finding Woozi.
Meanwhile Joshua is still leaning in the sink looking at the blood and black petals panting heavily but tries to breath calmy so he wont pass out.
'How can a beautiful black petals like this cause so much pain?' Joshua thought as he pants heavily now nit being able to control his breathing and passed out.
"HYUNG!"
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'Joshuji'
'Yes Hannie?'
'Promise me you'll marry me when we're older!'
'Sure Hannie i promise!'
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'I think i like Cheol...'
Joshua woke and slowly opened his eyes and saw him in his room with Dino sleeping on the other bed and Jihoon who's also asleep beside him but is sittingbon the floor and leaning his head on Joshua's bed.
'I passed out again?' Joshua thought as he sat up and started caressing Woozi's hair.
'Me and Dino really lucky to have you Jihoon' Joshua smiled but the felt like he was going to throw up again so he rushed to the bathroom.
'F-fuck.. It hurts.. It hurts so bad..' Joshua silemtly sobbed as he finished throwing up a lot of blood and petals now with his heart aching so much.
Later on Joshua's quiet sobs started to have sounds as he can't help but to cry at this point because it hurts so much.
"Hyung...?" Woozi tiredly called and then checked the bathroom only to see Joshua crying.
"Oh hyung.." Woozi said as he hugged the older comforting Joshua who's crying his heart out.
'It's also painful for me seeing you two like this...' Woozi can only think as he doesn't want to add more problems on the two.
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"Anynews about Shua from Dino or Woozi?" Jeonghan worriedly asked and yes of course Jeonghan is still worried for Joshua i mean Joshua is still his bestfriend[?].
"No nothing.." Seungcheol replied with the others being worried.
"Seriously those 3 are hiding something from us" Wonwoo said with the others confused and some agreeing.
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[what happend earlier]
"WOOZI-SII, JIHOON-HYUNG!" Chan shouted and fastly ran out the without noticing that he caughted the attention of Seungcheol and the others in the cafeteria too, not for long Dino and Woozi came in running on their way to the bathroom which makes the others confused and stood up to see what's going on.
"SHUA-HYUNG!" They heard Woozi shout as he entered the bathroom and they all rushed.
"Dino! What's wrong we heard some shouting-" Mingyu was cutted off by Jeonghan.
"Woozi shouted Shua's name what happend to him?? Is he alright" Jeinghan panickingly asked with Dino in between the door thinkingbwhat should he do he then looked at Woozi who's now Giving assistance to Joshua who's passed out nodding a no to not let the others in.
"W-we're fine Shua-hyung just needed something from Woozi-sii" Dino answered with the others not believing it.
"We'll go in just in case-" Seungcjeol wa scutted off.
"NO!" Dino furiously shouted blocking the door making the others suprised and suspicious.
"We're fine! So stop butting in our bussiness!" Dino angrily added as if he's angry at them or to a certain someone.
Dino then went in and locked the door with the others just sighing in defeat and went back to table still confused and worried of course but Dino seemed angry and there's nothing else they can do...
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"Really im not being sassy this time im serious there's something serious going on the three of them im sure" Seungkwan said.
"True but let's just wait for their news and not bug them this seems lile a serious situation so it's best to give them time" Minghao added clearly having a little bit of knowledge of what's hapoening because he once saw Joshua on his way out the bathroom and when he went in he saw some black petals with a little bit of blood in the trashcan but he keeps quiet.
'Just what are you hiding Shua?' Jeonghan thought as he kept fidgeting his foot with Seungcheol noticing it.
"Hey im sure he's fine" Seungcheol said making Jeonghan snap out of his thoughts and calm down a little.
"Yeah.." Jeonghan answered feeling calm now but still anxious on the inside as something inside him tells that this wont end well...
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"Really thanks for all your help Jihoon" Joshua said as the two proceeded to the couch.
"It's no problem hyung You and Dino are both important to me,, I'll always be here alright?" Woozi comforted Joshua who smiled upon hearing thosuse words.
"We know.. But we're also here for you Jihoon don't keep all your problems to yourself okay?" Joshua said with Woozi replying "I wont Hyung"
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The next day the others immediately approached Joshua and asked if he's alright with Joshua saying he's fine and just had something important to say to Woozi that time with the others being glad but one was not.
"I see but we're glad your alright Hyung" Seokmin said with Joshua smiling but the smile faded away when someone suddenly grabbed his wrist and pulled him out the cafeteria and pulled him to somwhere where no other people are around.
Now with just the two of them alone outside in the corner makes Joshua's heart beat faster but he shooks it ofd as soon as the other talked.
"Dont lie to me Shua"
"What do you mean Jeonghan?"
"You know exactly what i mean.." Jeonghan mumbled with Joshua not hearing it.
"I didn't hear you-"
"YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN!" Jeonghan shouted out of furious making Joshua shock but it's normal for him to be shouted by Jeonghan since Jeonghan does hate being lied to but Joshua feels like his heart got broken inti pieces seeing the person that he loves is tearing up just because he's worried for him which is Joshua was somehow glad that Jeonghan still cares for him but it's clear that Jeonghan is already happy with Seungcheol so he shook the feeling off.
"I know your worried Jeonghan im thankful but considering you mostly ignored me because you already have your own life, your own boyfriend, your own love that'll love you endlessly... So the least you can do is just bepieve and trust me that im fine i also have my own life to you too you know.. " Joshua somehow coldy said and left leaving Jeonghan there all shocked and hurted from the cold tone of his bestfriend i mean who wouldn't when your bestfriend did that to you.
But the case was different for Jeonghan it's not just a normal hurt, it's like as if his lover just broke up with him which is making Jeonghan confused on why he's feeling that way.
'Im sorry... Im sorry Jeonghan, But dont worry just a few more days and you wont have to worry anout me same goes for Jihoon' Joshua thought as he was hdiing in a corner watching Jeonghan cry and completely left.
'Huh? Wht am i crying? Is ut because Shua is cold to me? I dint have any rights to pity myself since it's me who got cold towards him first, why? It's because ever since me and Cheol got together i kept feeling something whenever im with Shua i felt more happy and comfortable which somehow scared me that I'll hurt Cheol because the more i hang outwith Shua themore i want to just be with him.. I don't know' Jeonghan dried his tears off.
"Han-ah? What's wrong why are you crying?" Jeonghan looked at his side and saw Seungcheol worried.
"I-im fine me and just fought well kind off but he has all the rights to be mad at me" Jeonghan responded as Seungcheol hugged him giving him a bit comfort but at this moment he prefers Joshua's comfort more than anyone else.
'What's happening to me?'
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"Shua-hyung" Woozi called as he saw Joshua on the grass field looking down behind their school with blood dripping in his mouth and ofcourse you can see gorgeous black petals with blood infront of the older which reallybroke Woozi's heart.
"Hyung..." Woozi slowly approached the older who was sobbing quietly.
"H-hyung" Woozi said in a breaking voice this time as he can't keep the tears to himself anymore and cried.
"Jihoon-ah im sorry" Joshua then wiped the blood in his mouth and hugged the younger who's crying.
"Im sorry you too get hurt because of me"
"D-dont say that hyung... I-immore glad to be a-able to help you but please.... Do the operation" Woozi said still crying with Joshua just smiling.
"You know i can't.. I don't want to forget him, he's been part of my whole life since childhood you know" Joshua replied with Woozi just saying nothing because no matter what he knows he can't convince the older to do the operation.
"But please it's not too late.. It isn't white yet-" Woozi cutted himself off when he looked at the blood and petals which some are white.
"No... Hyung no tell me some of the petals aren't white p-please" Woozi said not wanting the older to say it's white.
"I really am sorry Jihoon-ahbut yes some are white meaning im dying" Joshua smiled at the younger who's tears are dropping uncontrollably now.
"No...." Woozi cried with Joshua just hugging and patting his back.
Later on they told Dino about it with of course Dino cried too but then they proceeded to go to the cafeteria for lunch onky Woozi and Dino know about Joshua's condition not the others because Joshua said not to tell the others especially Jeonghan.
They are now in the cafeteria with Woozi and Dino's eyes puffy and clinging and leaning their heads on Joshua's shoulder sleeping which is making the others so confused but Joshua just eats there like no one's leaning on him but Seungcheol and Jeonghan wasn't there so Joshua's fine.
"Shua-hyung" Seokmin called with Joshua humming as a response and looking at the others to see they're staring at them.
"Oh Jihoon and Dino watched titanic last night and stayed up late crying their eyes out" Joshua came up with an perfect excuse with the others believing.
"I see" Mingyu replied with the others eating too but there was two people
still eyeing them knowing somethings up.
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School ended so the three headed to their dorm with Woozi and Dino sleeping in their rooms and Joshua in the living room holding some papers.
'Only two more days huh?' Joshua thought as he read the words written on the paper which was from the hospital saying he only has two days to live and can onky be stopped when his loved one realise that he's inlove with him and tell him directly and honestly that he loves him too, in another words the only way to stop Joshua's death is for Jeonghan to fall in love with Joshua and Jeonghan telling Joshua that he loves him passionately and honestly, so even if Jeonghan tells him he loves him but isn't in love with Joshua and doesn't mean it romantically it wont count Jeonghan needs to say it when he really loves Joshua romantically.
Joshua then heard a sudden knock he then stood up and hid the papers and opened the door to see Minghao and Wonwoo.
"Hey guys what brings you here?" Joshua smiled as the two was somehow frowning and Minghao showed a white petal with a stain of blood making Joshua suprised.
"We know this is yours hyung... We've known for a while but only me and Wonwoo-hyung" Minghao said with Joshua just looking down and smiling painfully.
"How many days are left hyung?" Wonwoo asked.
"two days"
"Immediately?" Minghao said suprised and almost about to cry.
"Sorry guys" Joshua looked qt them smiling gently know making the two tear up and hug him.
"I-it's too sudden hyung.. We dont want you to go.." Minghao said sobbing.
"Why didn't you take the surgery hyung? Why don't you want to forget Jeonghan-hyung?" Wonwoo asked tears falling down his cheeks.
"I just can't and dont want too.." Joshua replied.
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A while later Woozi and Dino woke up and saw Joshua at the living room with Minghao and Wonwoo.
"Hyungs" Dino called making the three look at him.
"You guys know?" Woozi asked with the Wonwoo and Minghao noddinf a yes.
"It's too sudden..." Dino said tearing up.
"Yeah but look at the brightside guys we have two morure days to spend it with each other" Joshua assured with the others just stayed quiet as they're sad but there is nothing that they can do.
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Next day the five then spent time with each other the whole day which makes the other confused and worried meanwhile Jeonghan who's been thi king hard on why he's feeling like that to Joshua and talked to Seungcheol about it.
"Han-ah your in love" Seungcheol said making Jeonghan suprised and heart beats fast.
"To Shua?"
"Mhm it's pretty obvious" Seungcheol said making Jeonghan confused but flustered at the same as he is truly in love with Joshua since then he just got confused and didn't notice it.
'Am i? I mean i always loved his smile and laughs I've enjoyed his comfort more than anyone else and i feel anxious whenever he's hanging or close with someone and just wants to be with him more than anyone..' Jeonghan thought as he felt his heart beat faster and hot in his cheeks.
"I really am in love with Shua..." Jeonghan mumbled blushing with Seungcheol just smiling.
"So we're breaking up i guess" Seungcheol said with Jeonghan suddenly remembering that he is dating Seungcheol.
"Yeah let's break up sorry..." Jeonghan said.
"It's fine han i understand i mean i saw this coming so we're officially over" Seungcheol said.
"Yeah" Jeonghan smiled with Seungcheol smiling back and little did they now there was a little birdie listening to them.
'Is what i heard is true?'
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"Hey where's Dino?" Joshua asked with the others shrugging as a reponse.
"Today was fun" Joshua smiled with the others smiling too as they're glad that their hyung is having fun with them in his last days, the youngers are still sad about Joshua going but they can't really do anything about it since that's fate they guess.. So they just settled and planned to make Joshua have fun before going.
"I really am thankful for you guys, Thank you for being part if my life-" Joshua was cutted off when he suddenly coughed and vomitted again this time the petals are so pure and white with blood on it.
"HYUNG!" The youngers then gave assistance to Joshua who slowly feels like losing consciousness.
'Huh... So this where it'll end? Im already okay with it atleast i got to spend it with them..' Joshua thought as he lost consciousness with the other panicking.
"HYUNG! WAKE UP NO NO. PLEASE NOT NOW" Jihoon panickingly shouted and cried with Wonwoo calling the ambulance and minghao tearing up.
"Hey guys-HYUNG! WHAT HAPPEND??" Dino asked with the others except for Seungcheol and Jeonghan panicking with Minghao and Woozi just crying and Wonwoo busy talking to the ambulance and saw Joshua almost laying there lifelessly.
"Oh my-SHUA-HYUNG" Seungkwan shouted as the others approached Joshua and tearing up
"No no no no no.." Dino whispered to himself seeing the situation Woozi and Minghao crying the others panicking and tearing up Wonwoo calling the ambulance.
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Thankfully the ambulance arrived on time and getting Joshua on the hospital with the doctor his doctor cheking him and telling others that Joshua's fine and alive but onky has a few more hours left and Joshua is still passed out as the others went in and cried.
"Geez.. Stop crying im not dead yet" Joshua jokingly and tiredly said as he woke making the others relief.
"Hyung! Thankgod your awake and alive" Seokmin said crying his heart out.
"Of course i am Minnie calm down im not dead yet cry like that at my funeral dont waste your tears now" Joshua jokingly said to lightwn up the mood but the others just looking down and sobbing.
"Cmon guys atleast try to be happy before i go.. I don't want to go seeing you all said i want to see you all all happy and smiling before i go please?" Joshua said with the others calming theirself down and smiled as Joshua does have a point seeing them all happy and smiling will make it better for their hyung.
"That's what I'd like to see" Joshua smiled gently too and talked and spent an hour with the others talking and laughing with each other enjoying their last moments with their hyung but Seungcjeol, Jeonghan and Dino wasn't there.
After a while the others bid their final farewell to their hyung crying tjeir heart out but stayed calmed as Joshua did say he wants the others to say farewell to him all smiley and they did and left leaving Woozi and Joshua now.
"Hyung.. I can't im sorry, i-i dont want you to go.. I can't" Woozi said sobing his heart out withJoshua just smiling as he understand why Woozi is feeling that way.
"It's okay Jihoon-ah you've been strong for so long now so let it all out" Joshua said with Woozi doing it so and after a while they heard the door open seeing Dino, Seungcheol and Jeonghan.
"I'll go now... Goodbye Joshua-Hyung im glad to be able to be part of your life" Woozi said one last time tried his best to smile which he did with Joshua smiling too and Woozi left.
"Hyung..." Dino said as it was Dino's turn then after dino it was Seungcheol then lastly it was Jeonghan's turn..
"Shua i-" Joshua cutted Jeonghan off by grabbing Jeonghan's hand.
"Can we go to the rooftop? I wannas see the sunset one last time Hannie" Joshua said making Jeonghan tear up
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s he haven't heard the nickname in so long but he hid his tears and smiled and nodded taking Joshua to the rooftop.
"This is nice" Joshua then leaned his head on Jeonghan with Jeonghan's heart beating faster.
"Shua why..?Why didn't you tell us? Why didn't you tell me??" Jeonghan asked tearing up.
"You guys are happy i didn't want to ruin it by telling you guys this so don't cry and smile Hannie" Joshua said feeling relaxed and comfortable with Jeonghan who did stopped crying and calmed himself down for Joshua.
At this point Joshua is feeling so relax and comfortable now that he feels like he can go know and he is slowly feeling a bit tired.
"Hannie im sleepy.." Joshua said making Jeinghan flinch knowing what it meant.
"Then sleep Joshuji I'll be here" Jeonghan said wanting to cry but stayed calm for the younger.
'Cmon Jeonghan tell it to him why am i getting so nervouse in telling the truth that i love him?' Jeonghan anxiously thought.
"Yoon Jeonghan.."
"Yes Joshuji?"
"I-i.. I love you.. Jeong.. Han.." Joshua said as he completely leaned his body on Jeonghan with Jeonghan tearing up but said.
"Mhm i love you too Joshuji, i always have"
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5 years later
"Woozi-aaahh Cmon dont be mad" Hoshi whined with Woozi ignoring Hoshi.
"Shua-hyung can you please smack hoshi for me" Woozi said with Hoshi saying "Oh cmonnnn Shua-hyung he's the one at faultt" with the others just laughing.
"Im glad everyone's happy right Shua-hyung?" Dino just said with the others nodding.
"Where even is Seungcheol he's taking too long i wanna go home and sleep now" Jun said with Seungcheol arriving in a car.
"Hey guys he's here" Hansol said with the others going to the car leaving Jeinghan and Joshua in their spot.
"What a bunch of kids right Joshuji?"
Jeonghan giggling but no reponse making Jeonghan's giggle turn into a slight smile.
"Who would've thought this day would come Joshuji.." Jeonghan then stood up and looked down.
"We're both once 19"
"Now im 24 and your still 19" Jeonghan smiled looking at the written a quote that Joshua requested to have written on his grave saying
'Im always happy for you'
"I love you Shua, i always have and always will" Jeonghan felt tears escape his eyes but still smiling.
"JEONGHAN-HYUNG LET'S GOOOOO" Seungkwan whined with Jeonghan wiping his tears off.
"Anywyas Joshuji we got to go we'll visit you again next time" Jeonghan smiled one last time and went ot the car.
A/N: yes just yes but no im crying