Life is full of surprises. You never know what will happen next. Thats how this whole summer felt. It was all just one big surprise back to back. I thought doing that task would get some pressure off my back or maybe make life a tad big more simple. Nope, It did not work like that.
I spent all summer training and working on my healing power. Voldemort would kill people in front of me and tried to get me to relive them. It never worked. I just could not do it. So every time it did not work I was up for grabs. Some of the death eaters would allowed to abuse me. "Making you more tuff" Is what they said.
I was fine with the punches, kicks, spells but one day it was Greybacks turn. He did something. Something he was not supposed to do. I never told anyone. He said if I did he would kill Draco or my siblings. I could not deal with that. So I stay silent.
I hardly got to see Draco. I have not seen him for 4 months. I also have not seen my family. Voldemort will not let me right now. He said "You need to focus on your power and they will distract you". I hate everything about this.
Bellatrix is allowed to come and abuse me. Before Voldemort leaves she acts like she will mess me up but when he closes the door she just talks to me. Me and her did not have the best start but she said she feels sorry for me and she does not feel that for a lot of people. She is the only one to know about Greyback because he did something similar to her.
Bella would update me on things I miss. Amir is walking , running , talking and everything. Xena is talking some. My mom is missing me. My siblings are working and they are getting tried of waiting for me. Also my dad and Lucius broke out of Azkaban. Also my dad is getting very angry and he wants me to stop training. Bella told me he is defending me and that he has already got in trouble for it multiple times.
Then Draco. My sweet boy. Bella said he looks sick. He hardly sleeps. Hardly eats. She hears him crying at night. Hears him screaming from nightmares. He keeps asking for me.
It breaks my heart to know how much they are worrying about me. I just wish they were not so worried for me because I know when they see me they will be more sad to see me then I would them. I will be more happy. I heard about things they have went though. They know nothing about me. I hardly know anything about me. All I see is the bruises on my legs and my arms and my stomach. I can not see if there is any else where. I can not see how much weight I have lost.
I am sitting here just sitting on the ground. I heard the door open. I looked and seen Wormtail. I jumped up. "Miss Nessssaaa" He said just like that. "Wormtail" I said. "Today you are needed at this meeting" He explained to me. I smiled. I finally get to see people I love. Wormtail took me by the arm and pulled me up the stairs.
I walked and I seen the table. There was a women laying on top of it. She looked dead. I seen some of my siblings. My mother. My father. Snape. Narcissa, Lucius, Bellatrix. Then I seen him. No one has seen me yet. I got to look at everyone.
My eyes lasted a long time on Draco. "Ah Nessa welcome" I heard Voldemort say. I still had my eyes on Draco. He turned his head and seen me. He was about to jump up but his father stopped him.
I looked at everyone. They all looked scared. Maybe because I looked like death? Maybe because I was wearing the same heels and dress the last time they sall me. I honestly feel embarrassed to be dressed like this. It is not like I can help it. It has been 4 months since I seen out of the basement.
"Nessa please come dear" Voldemort requested me. I walked down the table. I seen a man I feared more than Voldemort. Greyback. I almost threw up in my mouth. I got to Voldemort. He placed his hand on my shoulder and I flinched.
"You see this women here?" He asked me. I breathed in. "Yeah what about her?" I asked him. "She believes Muggles are not much different than us. She also thinks we should mate with them. I wanted to see how you feel about that statement" Voldemort explained to me.
I knew there was a lot of things I wanted to say. I knew I could only say somethings because he had his hand on my shoulder. "Why ask me? My opinion doesn't matter" I told him. I usually do not back down from something I believe in but I just can not keep fighting anymore.
"You always add your opinion in things" Voldemort added. "There's no point in fighting because its not like I can make you change your mind. You already killed the women" I pointed out the obvious. I feel horrible for this pour women. Just for having her own thoughts she ends up dead.
"Exactly why I need you here Nessa! Some people have been wanting to see your improvement so lets see if you can heal her" Voldemort said. I heard people laugh.
"There is no way she can bring someone back" I heard someone sitting at the end of the table say. "You do not know shit!" My father told me. I raised my eyebrows. Is he taking up for me? Sorry dad to let you down but there is no way I can do this.
I climbed on the table and put my hands over her chest. It was weird. This time I felt something. I had a tingle going up my arms like when I heal animals. Then I felt a heart beating on my hands. Then her eyes blinked and she sat up.
I took my hands off her chest and just looked at her. She looked at me. She touched my face. "Are you an angel?" She asked me. I had tears in my eyes. "I have been told" I told her with a smile. She wrapped her arms around me. I haven't had a hug in a long time. I returned the hug. "Avada Kedavra!" I heard and her body felt so heavy in my arms.
I sat her down and looked at the man with his wand pointed. Voldemort. "Why would you do that?" I asked rasing my voice. "Do you seriously think I could keep someone like that alive? She knows to much" He told me. I hoped off the table.
I was pissed. How did he want me to bring someone back to life and then when I can finally do it he kills them. How is it fair? I just stood there and looked at the ground like a baby.
"You know.. I miss the old Nessa who used to fight back. The one who would not go down without a fight" Voldemort told me with a laugh. I looked at him. "I bet old Nessa would have a lot of shit to say" I told him. "Lets hear it" He told me.
"You know you think you are like some hero. You call yourself "The dark lord" But you could not even survive two kids.. Actually infants because of love. You sit on your ass while everyone does your dirty work. You tasked two teenagers to kill their school professor. Locked me in a basement for 4 months away from my friends and family. Let grown adults abuse me in different ways and then when I come out for the first time and I do not argue with you then you say you miss the old me? It makes no sense" I explained to him.
Some people looked surprised at the table. Then I looked back at Voldemort. He looked scared and surprised. "Oh did I hit a nerve?" I asked him. He just looked at me. He sat back down and Warmtail grabbed me and pulled me to the side of the room. "Let me go you filthy rat!" I said to him. He let me go.
"Nagini.. Dinner" Voldemort said. His snake went and attacked the women's body. I felt horrible for her. I wish I could have taken her away. Somewhere safe.
Voldemort left soon after that. I was free from the basement. I could celebrate. I seen people coming towards. The main one I cared about was Draco. He came and wrapped me in his arms and picked me up. He was holding me like I could break any moment. He swung me around and sat me down. He grabbed my face. "Its you" Was all he could say. I just nodded my head and smiled. I never wanted this moment to end. Then it did.
"Nessa?" I heard my father say. I let Draco go and I seen him. He was smiling at me. He looked better. He looked tried but he gained his weight back. He needed to shave. "Dad" I said. He came over and gave me a hug. He squeezed me tightly. "I missed you darling" He told me. "I missed you dad" I told him.
Even though before he left he was a complete asshole, I still missed him. He was still my dad.
We got back home. Sandy missed me so much. I also missed her. My mom made me some food. I ate it. Me and Draco went to my room. Draco would not leave my side. I got in the shower and he sat on the toilet lid until I got out. He was terrified to lose me again.
Me him and Raven were sitting in my bed. I have not heard my mom and dad fighting. I hope everything is good with them. Draco had me pushed up against him. Raven was laying at the end of the bed.
I was thinking to myself. Thinking how everything can change so quickly. It feels just like yesterday when I was in the bathroom with that troll. Or when it was the yule ball and Hermione was heartbroken on the stairs. When I seen Cedrics dead body and knew Voldemort was back. When my siblings and my friends all had that snowball fight. Me winning my first quidditch match. When I beat that girl up in 5th year and I hit her with the tissues and everyone thought it was so funny. When I first got Raven and held her. Me and Draco's first time on Christmas eve. Sirius giving me big hugs. Lupin and Tonks making jokes. Missions with Harry, Ron and Hermione. The way Luna's face lit up when I gave her some clothes because people kept stealing Her's. Ginny always be so kind to me after quidditch even if she was mad about losing. Neville and him teaching me more about different plants and their uses. My siblings always sticking up for me.
Everything just by so fast. I knew it would happen but now I am looking back.. It makes me sad. I can control a lot of things but time, No one can control.
"What's wrong love?" Draco asked me. I looked at him. "Nothing" I said plainly. He had a lot on his plate and I do not want to bother him with my issues. "I can see something it bothering you. We do not have to talk about it but if you do , I am always here" He told me. He was sweet to me. I felt like such a bad person. How do I deserve such a good person?
"Time. We never realize in the moment that some day those times will be memories and when we do it is already to late" I said to him. He cupped my hand. "But memories are what keep us alive. If we have nothing else we know we have amazing memories" Draco explained. I smiled at him. "That is a good way to put it" I told him.
He wrapped his arm around me. "Good night Nessa" " Good night Draco" "I love you Nessa" "I love you Draco"
He fell asleep fast. I bet he feels better with me being here. I was just laying looking at my celling. I heard something at my window and I ducked down. I was checking it out and seen it was my owl. I gently got up and went and got the letter.
"To Nessa Manson,
Tomorrow at the Weasleys it is Bill and Fleurs weeding. Fleur wants you to come. I also need to ask you about something. Please come around 5pm.
Harry Potter"
I just looked at the letter. Everyone has to know about me being a death eater. My stomach was hurting. Maybe this is a set up. They might kill me. I could cry. I never wanted to be this person I am. It was not my fault. I know they hate me. I really can not go. I need to though. Especially if Fleur wants me to come. She was so sweet.
I just got in my bed. I will deal with it in the morning.