- Helios Loukanis -
I make enemies wherever I go, so why was standing here, above the people I had just murdered, been any different to any other mission that I had gone on? Was it the fact that I knew that they had all had a life outside of the one that they had been trapped in for years or that some of them had tried to run away from the life they were about to get into?
Was it because I couldn't get the image of the sister I could have had but didn't have and I could see the picture in the man's wallet, showing that there was more to their family; they had two daughters, one that looked similar to the sister I had right at my fingertips, but still let her leave.
There was much more that I should have done, but I just let it all go. I let her be drowned, shamed and humiliated not by the people that should have loved her and given her the best childhood, but by the people that were supposed to be potential friends of hers. I should have done more for her.
I should have spoken to her as a little girl, not let her grow up alone, without at least one brother-figure in her life. Just someone that she could turn to, and maybe her life may not of been as hard as I knew that it was. I could have been a better person, but that just was not who I was; I hadn't been brought up to be a good person, I was trained to be a bad person. Someone who committed crimes without people knowing.
I was supposed to be seen as hating on everyone that hated me. Everyone saw me as the boy that hated his life, and maybe I did. If I knew what my feelings were and how to express them, maybe I would understand that all the hatred I had in my heart, was because I was hated all of my life by the same people that had hurt the closest person I had of being my little sister.
"Helios" a voice whispered in my ear piece, making me sigh. I left the people I knew that were parents to three children, surrounded by their own blood, as I walked out, setting the place on fire. I really hoped that someone would not do it to me, and my family, but sometimes, I wonder, what would it feel like, knowing that this could have been the way that my parents died, and that I didn't end up being tied with the Anagnos.
Both of our families are equally as twisted and there is nothing that we can do that changes the way that people perceive our families. I wish that sometimes, people saw me for me. Florence, or as I had known her, Thalia, had always been seen as herself, not an Anagnos nor a Loukanis. I had started the chants my friends and I made when she was in middle school and I was senior at the time, telling everyone in the school that she was not related to me, and she was the cause of my parents death.
But now that I thought about it all, she had nothing to do with it and neither did I. I had been forced into something that she was lucky enough to be left out of and protected by her real family. She did not deserve the life we had given her, and I know that I am very much at fault for the way we treated her.
"Helios, what the fuck are you doing?!" a second voice spoke, as I scuffed my feet away from the crime scene, climbing back over the fence. I picked my pace up as I could hear sirens coming in closer to the perimeter.
Who knew that these people could be here so quickly. "Helios, get your asse back to the motorbike now!" Aphrodite sneered in my ear piece. Ever since Thalia had left, Aphrodite and Apollo had been pushing us boys to the limit. I was just about done with them at this point, wanting to get out of all of this.
I knew the girls would stay, or at least most of them would, cause they loved the lime light. They loved showing off whenever they could, and Aphrodite and Apollo loved it because the girls grabbed the attention they needed.
Maybe that was what I should do. Pull out of living with them and move on with my own life. If it all had started differently, I would have done that already. As a little kid, I had always wanted to live on my own, maybe with my little brother Eros and maybe Cora, but that had come to a stand still.
Maybe, just maybe, if I as least pulled out and started to slowly withdraw from this family, maybe I could find my old friends, the ones I lost because my eldest brothers always wanted us home and training. I had lost a lot of things in the past 10 years because of the tight security and relationships Apollo and Aphrodite had wanted us to have. Not that I was against it, but their plan had failed, like I knew it would eventually.
Leonardo Colombo and I used to be great friends. There was always a group of us that hung out together during high school, but towards the end of it, you could tell a drift was about to come between all of us. Ares, Eros and myself were forced into what we still know as the family we are in today, while Leonardo seemed to have disappeared from our lives. I guess I just never reached out nor kept the friendship going.
But right now, as I swung my leg over my motorbike, I regretted it all. I blew out a puff of air, before I kicked my motorbike into gear. Aphrodite and Apollo had gone silent in my ear, as I knew they were watching my every move. They always did, because they had never trusted me, ever since I was little kid.
They never trusted any of us, just telling us what to do. It was a constant vicious cycle. It was more like being a business partner than actually working in the family business with your own brothers. It was even worse whenever you tried to work out, and they watched your every move. Watching them hurt the person you thought was your baby sister, then knowing that you would get hurt yourself.
It wasn't as bad, but it was still the same concept. Basically saying that we weren't good enough for them. It was usually Adonis, Alexander, Eros, myself and Ares that were the ones that were punished. I still had the scars everywhere, while some bruises were still lingering. But I still felt at fault for everything to do with Thalia, even though I was lied to about the entire plan.
The plan that was basically saying that the Colombo's had been the ones to kill our parents, and that we took their sister so that we could bait her for money. It took them 14 years, to realize that the Colombo's had done nothing. If we had any contact with the Colombo's at school, we had to keep quiet and not say a word to anyone in our family. It had become like a religion; a belief.
Even I knew that Agatha, Alexandra and Leander had all had a relationship with Leonidas Colombo at some point, but all at separate times. I had met Leonidas, and I knew that he wasn't a cheater, and that it was my sisters that had done him dirty. They were the ones that had cheated on him, besides his current girlfriend, Ophelia. I don't know if they are still together, but I know that they are right for one another.
Ophelia was one of the only girls in our family that had gone to college, gotten a degree all while pretending to like showing off her body so our brothers could get more money. It was honestly like we were a charity family. But, Ophelia, was the only one that helped us if we ever needed it. I loved her for her hard working nature.
"Helios, they are hot on your tail" I slowed down my pace on the motorbike, as I curved in close to the mountain. Of course, Aphrodite could not go quiet without demanding something sooner or later. He was always so demanding, I guess seeing what I saw after everything that has happened recently, has just started to push me to my limits.
I would usually stay quiet, but for once, I decided to challenge my eldest biological brother. "Shut up Aphrodite, I know" it was something so simple, that I know most brothers say to one another when they are annoyed, but those words, felt weird, and I almost regretted saying anything at all. He was so going to do something to me when I got home, so I think it would be the right time to move out.
"You know not to speak to me like that" Aphrodite sneered, making me instantly regret everything. I couldn't go home, not now. I felt like an idiot. I was 23 and I was absolutely terrified of my eldest brother because I spoke against him. I felt like the 14 year old boy that was punished almost every day because he didn't understand that he couldn't have a relationship with his baby sister like everyone else at school did.
"I know" I muttered, before ripping the ear piece from my ear, and chucking it into the water below the mountain. I indicated off to a emergency bay on the highway, as I watched the people that had been on my tail, go past at an increasing pace, while I stopped my motorcycle and reached for my phone.
It rang for a few seconds before the person on the other end finally picked the phone up. I was shocked at first, before I realized that I would have to be the one to say something first, as I had rung him first. I really hope that this plan works out, or else I would be stuck going home.
"Hey, Leo, I need a favor"
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