H: no shua hyung, you have to look at jeonghan hyung during your part okay ?
Joshua nod and sigh
They did again the choreography
H: no no, I'm sorry hyung but we need to feel the emotion of the dance, I'm sorry I don't want to force but yk
Js: I'm sorry hoshi
Sc: let's do a break hmm ?
All nod and went to take a break
Joshua went to the side and sat I n'a ball, knees against his forehead and hands holding each other and his knees close to his face hiding his facing down
Sc: you okay shua ?
Joshua look up and nod as no
Scoups nod and look at hoshi and nod
Hoshi did as well and scoups took Joshua's hand and lead him to the bathroom
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Sc: what's happening ?
Js: j jeonghan
Sc: why ?
Js: s since our pre debut he he doesn't like me, nor talk to me, we only act in front of fans, but in the end he n never look at me nor talk to me
Sc: why would you want him to look at you ? You like him ?
He chuckle as for him it was silly as the two never been friends even in their pre debut and debut period
But Joshua nod
Scoups gasp and hold Joshua's shoulders
Sc: like, love or like as someone you could be friend with ?
Js: l love
He cried and look down and scoups hug him
Sc: aww shua don't cry, shh, it's fine okay ? Talk to him, try to be his friend first
Js: b but I if he wanted to we would have b been s since our pre debut or debut, but n no he doesn't l like me
Scoups felt sad for him because all the fans liked Joshua's and jeonghan's interaction, even tho it was fan service and fake for the two, he always agree with fans who ship them
And to be honest he always realized how Joshua felt sad whenever jeonghan ignore or act as if he was disgusted or annoyed by being touchy and close to Joshua as he didn't want drama
But deep inside he knows jeonghan have a reason and he might know it, if what jeonghan told him years ago is still the reason of it
He so pat Joshua shoulders
Sc: it'll be fine okay ? For now focus, even if it's hard to look at jeonghan do it okay ? Think it's your parents or any other members okay ?
Joshua nod slowly and thanks scoups
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Their practice ended and everyone was packing their things
Joshua left already with woozi, hoshi and Dk
Scoups on his side decide to talk with jeonghan, because even tho he wasn't happy to know jeonghan and Joshua weren't friends since the start, he was always amazed by how much both knew each other without talking much to each other
Sc: channie, wait me outside okay ?
D: why ?
Sc: I'm going to talk to jeonghan
D: why ? You said not to hide anything from each other
Sc: and I didn't plan on hiding baby, I'm going to help him and Joshua
D: finally, those two need each other
Scoups nod and peck Dino and went to jeonghan who was packing his bag
Sc: hey jeonghan !
Jh: hi hyung, need anything ?
Sc: well yes, may I talk to you ?
Jh: ofc
Scoups sat beside jeonghan and said
Sc: why do you not like Joshua ?
Jh: what ?
Sc: why don't you like Joshua ?
Jh: I never said that
Sc: then why aren't you friend with him ?
Jh: idk, why ?
Sc: well it's weird that out of all members your friend and consider them as your brother, all except Joshua why ???
Jh: because, nothing else to add
Sc: jeonghan ?
He cross his arms and look at him
Jh: what ? You know why anyways
He cover his mouth
Sc: so it's like what you told me years ago ?
Jeonghan nod
Sc: why didn't you told him ? Why waiting like.....8 years ?????you're crazy, if I'm being honest I waited for Channie to be major and then I ask him out, I would have died to have wait this much like you
Jh: I im scared, like he might not want to ?
Sc: he doesn't seems that bad ? We know him since years and he's so kind, he'll listen and accept I'm sure
Jh: really ????
Sc: ofc, but tell me really was it only the reason ? Because it's weird that this is the only one ?
Jh: ab....I was also hum yk jealous
Sc: why ?
Jh: Dk or seungkwan, they've been close to hum since years and since some weeks mostly
Sc: hum yk that hum dk and seungkwan are taken ?
Jh: Ik, but I can't help it, and I also felt like he was untouchable like I couldn't reach him, its relate to the first reason but this plus the jealousy where a plus to it
Sc: hmm don't let these get over you, believe in yourself and go talk to him. I'm sure he is sad that you don't talk to him
Js: I I know he always tried to talk to me, and be friendly but I always ignore or push him away, I really feel bad for it
Sc: I'm being honest I don't think he will understand much, but he'll forgive you if you're being sincere
Jeonghan nod and thank scoups
Sc: oh before I forget, stop being a coward, like do it you have one life, live it, it's not with but and if, that'll you'll be happy, we both know who can be and who is your happiness
Jeonghan nod and smile softly to his hyung
He finish packing his bag and join scoups and Dino out and both went into their van
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All the members were eating and were laughing and talking while out of all 13 one was quiet
Joshua just played with his food and ate slowly
He then whisper to scoups something and he nod to him
He so stood up and went to put his plate in the dishwasher and went to his room
Sk: hum ? Why did he leave ???
Sc: he's tired
Sk: aww poor shua hyung
Scoups look at jeonghan and hit him with his foot
Jeonghan look at him slightly hurt and got what he meant by how scoups point with his eyes Joshua's room
Jeonghan went to put his plate as well and went to knock on Joshua's door
Sk: the hell.....
Scoups shush him
Sc: no comments let them be
Dino then whisper
D: he will ?
Sc: if he is not being coward then yes
All chuckle silently and look at jeonghan who just have knock
He then look at scoups while other members focus on their food and jeonghan shook his head
Scoups told him to enter even tho he didn't have any response jeonghan took a deep breath and enter
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Jeonghan enter the room and saw Joshua on his bed facing the wall
He was wearing his earphones maybe that's why he didn't hear him knocking
He was going to jun when his foot hit a paper on the floor
He pick it up and was about to throw it away when he read a word « Hannie »
He remember it's his nickname and unfold the paper
He then read it and felt bad and hurts by what he read. On it was written all the thing Joshua felt about jeonghan and how much he wanted to be his friend and maybe more, but he said he knew it'll never happen
Jeonghan sigh and fold it and kept it in his pocket and exit Joshua room but did write a little message on a paper on Joshua desk and wrote
« I love you, I'm sorry »
And put it on Joshua's nightstand and left
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Sc: he didn't accept you
Jeonghan didn't say anything and drag scoups to his room
D: but ? I was suppose to cuddle with cheolie
Sc: come baby, it's okay jeonghan ?
Jeonghan nod
And Dino smiled and hold scoups hand and the three went away
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Scoups and Dino were against the headboard Dino between cheol's legs and back against his chest and scoups holding Dino's hands on his stomach
Sc: so ?
Jh: I went in and I hum
D: you talked to him and he said he needed time ?
Sc: he didn't accept you and said he didn't trust you ?
Jh: n no, I I didn't talk to him
Sc&D: why ?!?!
Jh: because of this
He handed the paper and both read it and « oh » at it
Sc: so what will you do ?
Jh: I need to find a way to first makes him happy and change my way to be to him, I can't go to him, out of nowhere and say I love you, if I never talk nor been friend with you, is because I was scared to loose you and because I loved you and being close to you just feed my feeling and I couldn't be close to you without feeling the need to keep you to myself ?
D: well that's a good start, buuuut you're right, he will feel like your using him or idk
Sc: hmm you have a point
D: what kind?
Scoups smiled and peck his cheek
Jh: ahem ? I'm not here to hear or see you being lovey dovey so please help me
Sc: I'm sure you'll be like this if you and Joshua end together
Jeonghan blush and look away
Jh: don't say that, even if I start being close to him he'll never accept me
D: and this letter ?
Jh: even if he wrote he loves me, he will never accept me with how I always act with him,
I'm so stupid
He cover his face with his hands and look down
D: aww hyungie
He went over and hug jeonghan
D: just talk to him, be friends, get to know him and then tell him the truth, maybe start by going to him and tell him why you never wanted to be close to him but without mentioning the fact you love h....oh that's the main point the reason you didn't talk to him was that you love him, haha ok never l mind what i said
He scratch his neck and chuckle nervously
Sc: the first part is good, be friend with him and if he ask you why out of nowhere, tell him it's cause your sorry and wanted to change and wanted to know him and because you are sorry to have ignore him and if he really I sit say your not ready to tell and then later tell him why and tell him you love him
Jeonghan nod and thank both of them
D: we'll go now hmm ? I'm tired
Sc: I need to put my baby to sleep, think about it jeonghan hm ?
Jeonghan nod and thank them
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The next day
Joshua woke up and stretch his arms
He then reach to grab his phone and saw a paper on his nightstand
He read it and wondered who it was, he then recognize the handwriting
Js: it c cannot be ? Can it ?
He then heard a knock and put the paper in his phone case and went to the living room and all members left to the practice room
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All the members were again in the practice room
H: okay let's practice ready to love ? It's been a while ?
All nod they so start and hoshi stop
H: woozi, your arms after while jeonghan hugs you have to be more like yk how to explain
Wz: flexible ?
H: I wanted to say gracious rather than being like a wood stick, but if you want
Wz: seriously ?
H: hihi sorry, so hum yeah
D: like this hyung
He so showed him
H: wait let's see, Joshua hyung ?
Js: huh ?
H: can you show woozi?
Js: but it's not my part ?
H: and ? In case you'll know ?
Joshua nod and hoshi look who will be his partner to do the part and his eyes land on scoups who point at jeonghan
He got it and said
H: jeonghan
Joshua gulp and tried not to blush and same goes for jeonghan
H: okay so woozi look well and everyone too
Wz: sorry
H: don't be that's why we are practicing and don't worry you're not the only one, you're in the front so I saw you at first but some members might not even remember the rest of the dance
H: so jeonghan you do as usual and shua hyung you rise your arms and put them down graciously
Joshua nod and got close to jeonghan
Jeonghan then hug him and Joshua tried to focus and did the move they then get away from each other and Joshua look down
Wz: oooo right, sorry it's been some month so I'm not use anymore
H: rock with you is really different in the moves smoothness
All nod
H: you were cute with jeonghan
He whisper to Joshua and he blush
Jeonghan on the other side felt like he couldn't contain himself and wanted to hug Joshua longer and hold him forever
they so went back to practice and then took a break
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Jh: hyung, I can't
Sc: huh ?
Jh: I can't wait to tell him
D: I knew it
Jh: huh ?
D: you were obvious during the practice
Jh: oh, w whatever what do I do ??
Sc: tell him, but think before speaking
Jeonghan nod and look at Joshua and went to him while glancing at scoups and Dino before going
Jh: j Joshua ?
Joshua turn around and was shock to see jeonghan and mostly calling his name without being in a situation like in front of cameras or fans
Js: y yeah ?
Jh: c can we talk him privately
Joshua nod and both went away
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They were in the bathroom and jeonghan look at Joshua in his eyes
Js: so ?
Jh: hum I wanted to say sorry
Js: for ?
Jh: for ignoring you, for not being close to you nor friend comparing to other members, I know that it's stupid and I'm so sorry for my behavior and I hope you can forgive me and that we can go back on the right path and start a friendship
Js: y you really want to ?
Jh: o of course why?
Js: w well I thought you didn't like me so I never thought we would become friends one day
Jh: I'm so sorry for that and hum I I
Js: y yeah ?
Jh: don't hate me for that, I I love you, I'm sorry, Ik it's weird coming from me who never talked nor been close to you since our pre debut, but I really do, a and if you ask t the reason I never talk nor wanted to be friends was because I was scared to loose you, like I really really care about you and I wanted you to me only but I felt like you were untouchable and like you'll not like me back and so I didn't want to be hurts but also I wasn't ready to face you while still having this feeling for you, I wanted to wait until they fade but being close or far didn't change anything, I still and love you more since first day and I was such a coward to never confront you, but I was just so scared to loose you
Joshua listen to everything, and was shock and cover his mouth
Jh: I hum...
Js: y you really love me ?
Jeonghan nod and Joshua hug him crying
Js: I I thought you hated me and didn't want to be friends because I was weird or idk
Jh: I'm sorry to have make you feel that I I was just so stupid and not smart enough and didn't have the courage to confront and talk to you
Joshua shush him and hug him and jeonghan hesitantly hug him but when he did he didn't want to let Joshua go
Js: I love you too
Jh: Ik
Js: huh ?
Jh: I read what you wrote on the paper
Joshua gasp
Js: so it's you ? The paper ? It's you who put the paper on my nightstand?
Jh: yes, I'm sorry, I found the paper where you wrote what you felt a and I didn't meant to take it but hum I enter in your room and you were listening to music and I found it when I was about to talk to you and when I saw my nickname I couldn't control, so I I didn't disturb you and I live this paper
Js: y you like this nickname ? And t the paper you l left ? Why ?
Jh: if the nickname is from you I can only like it, and for the paper, I wanted to tell you yesterday but I didn't and I still wanted to tell you I love you so I left this, but how did you recognize it's me ?
Js: because I know your handwriting, and not gonna lie it's a beautiful one
Jh: th thank you
Joshua blush hide his face
Jh: Joshua hum, do you accept to hum be my boyfriend ?
Joshua look at him and nod and hug him again
Js: I'll
Jh: really ????s so y you're not mad at me ?
Js: I was never, just sad because I always wanted to be at least your friends, but hum I can't be mad, but you'll have to make it up
Jh: how ?
Js: hmm, hugs and kisses ? None stop
Jh: then okay my baby
Joshua blush
Jeonghan caress his cheeks and kiss him
Joshua blush and kiss back and grip jeonghan's shirt
They pull away after some minutes and smile at each other
Jh: I'm again sorry
Js: stop being sorry, your here now ? And and I it's okay, even me i was little bit like this
Jh: you weren't. Me I pushed you away whenever you tried to talk to me and it wasn't right
Js: it's the past please hannie, let's forget this, only you and me now and later and for the futur ?
Jeonghan nod and hug Joshua and kiss his hair and caress it
Jh: let's go back Hmm ?
Joshua whine and nod
Jeonghan hold his hand and both went back
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They enter and all the members were shocks
Dk: I missed a episode ?
Sk: a season
V: first this expression is old, second explain ?
Jeonghan look at Joshua and he nod
Jeonghan then explain and look down but then Joshua rise his chin and peck him while blushing and hug him
D: I knew the both were fated
Wz: we all knew
Sc: congrats
All claps and congratulate them and all then went back to practice
And after all went back home
Joshua and jeonghan didn't even leave each other for a second and stayed together
They were now on the couch all watching a movie and both were clingy
Sc: I was right you'll be even more clingy when you and Joshua would be together
Jh: I can't help it, 8y it's too long
Joshua nod and snuggle to jeonghan
Who kiss his head and then lips and both then continue to hug each other, Joshua being on the side of jeonghan head on his chest and holding his hand
Jeonghan then peck his lips and Joshua smiled and snuggle to him like a baby
Jh: I love you
Js: I love you too
They whisper to each other and focused on the movie
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