ALLYSSA's POV:
"Why is he avoiding me!?" malungkot na sabi ni Ysabel samin ni Jessica pero di nalang kami sumagot at mamaya kung ano pa ang masabi namin sa kanya
After kasi nung nangyari last week sa gymnasium ay bigla nalang nakipag palit nang pwesto ng upuan si Kyle kay Ernest and it's so obvious that he did that on purpose just to avoid all the questions from Ysabel.
But the problem is that the more Kyle avoids Ysabel, the more she gets confused, which will make her eager to get answers from him.
In fact, she's also started asking us why Kyle keeps appearing in her dreams, and she even asked us if there's something that happened between them, and as usual, ang sagot namin palagi ay, 'We don't know!'
Yes, we want to tell her the truth, but the thing is, it shouldn't be coming from us because Kyle should be the one to tell her the truth, and if he doesn't want to tell her, then at least he should be helping her get her memories back.
"What should I do?" nalilitong tanong niya samin kaya nagkatinginan nalang kami ni Jessica
"Sure ka bang si Kyle talaga yung nasa panaginip mo?" curious na tanong ko sa kanya kaya tumango lang siya and I can clearly see in her face how much that mysterious man in her dream has been troubling her
Naka upo kaming tatlo ngayon dito sa may bleachers of archery training center dahil mag try out kasi ako for the team.
By the way, Ysabel is now the new student council president, and thanks to the power of F4, I also won as the 4th year representative, even though I have bashers who are against me running for the position, but I still won because F4 is more powerful than those bitches.
And after the student council election, the first thing Ysabel signed was the official start and opening of the clubs here at school. Responsibility daw kasi ng student council president ang pag open ng academic and sports clubs.
At itong friend namin na kahit super stress nang dahil kay Kyle ay nagawa pa ring asikasuhin lahat nung kailangan for the opening of all the academic and sports clubs.
"Just try talking to him" biglang sabi naman ni Jessica sa kany
Di na rin siya nakapag pigil dahil sa sobrang nastress na rin siya siguro na makitang naguguluhan itong kaibigan namin
"Paano ko nga siya kakausapin kung di pa nga ako nakakalapit sa kanya umiiwas na siya agad" naiinis na sagot niya
May point nga naman siya!!
I mean, paano nga naman sila makakapag usap kung panay ang pag iwas sa kanya ni Kyle.
"There are lots of questions in my head that need answers, but the one person I thought could help me is avoiding me" naiiyak na sabi niya ulit samin kaya hinawakan ko nalang yung balikat niya para i-comfort siya
"Don't worry! Makakausap mo rin siya" pagkakalmang sabi ko pero umiling lang siya
"I don't even understand why I feel so hurt" sabi niya sabay hawak sa dibdib niya at halatang nagpipigil siyang umiyak dahil sa nanginginig yung boses niya
"I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I can't help it. I'm so confused! I don't understand why my tears keep falling from my eyes and I don't even know why my heart feels so heavy" sabi niya at tuluyang tumulo na yung luha mula sa mga mata niya
Wala naman kaming magawa para tulungan siya.
Gusto naming sabihin sa kanya kaso natatakot kami sa pwedeng mangyari.
All we can do for her right now is comfort her and help her ease her pain.
We really feel sorry for her.
"I'll ask for Ernest and Joseph's help so that you can talk to Kyle" biglang sabi naman ni Jessica tsaka niya pinunasan yung luha ni Ysabel
"So stop crying na, because you're breaking our hearts when you cry" sabi ulit ni Jessica sabay yakap kay Ysabel
"If you're sure that mysterious man in your dream is Kyle, then I'll find help so you can talk to him and finally find the answers that you've been looking for" sabi ulit ni Jessica habang yakap yakap niya si Ysabel tsaka tumingin sakin si Jessica with that face asking if she's doing the right thing kaya tumango nalang ako
Kung ito lang ang maitultulong namin sa kanya then so be it. We will try our best to help her talk to Kyle.
YSABEL's POV:
"Are you feeling better now?" curious na tanong sakin ni Jessica habang naka tayo kaming dalawa dito sa may locker area while waiting for Allyssa na pinatawag sa teachers office
"Actually, I don't know what to feel anymore" dismayadong sagot ko nalang sa kanya
"Why?" worried na tanong niya sakin
"The more I think about it, the more I feel lost because I can't find answers to all my questions!" sagot ko nalang
After what happened in the gymnasium that day, his whole face keeps appearing now in my dreams, maybe because I can finally picture who that mysterious guy is because I got to recognize him.
Dati kasi mga parts lang ng mukha niya yung nakikita ko. His eyes, his nose, his lips, his back, his hands, and the back of his head were the only ones that appeared in my dream, but after that day, I was shocked because his whole face appeared in my dream.
Mas lalo tuloy akong naguguluhan! Yung hindi ko alam yung dahilan kung bakit siya nagpapakita sa panaginip ko.
I mean, there must be a reason why I kept seeing him in my dreams, but in my dreams he's not talking at all, and he's just looking and smiling at me. That's why I feel disappointed because at least he can give answers when he appears in my dream.
"Just be patient, Ysabel! Maybe soon you can get the answers that you've been looking for" sabi naman ni Jessica sakin kaya ngumiti lang ako
"I hope so!" sagot ko nalang sa kanya
To be honest, Ernest and Joseph are also helping me para maka usap ko siya pero wala pa rin talagang nangyayari dahil sa kapag nakita niya akong papalapit sa kanya ay umiiwas siya agad.
Yes, I admit, I was hurt when he started avoiding me, and I cried many times because of that. I don't even understand why I feel like this, which makes me feel so confused.
I'm not even sure if the reason I feel so hurt by his actions is because I thought we were getting close, but he suddenly started avoiding me because of what I've said, or maybe I'm hurting because there is something more about him that I just don't really remember.
"In fact, I think I should also have bangs" natatawang sabi ko nalang sa kanya para mabago yung usapan naming dalawa dahil alam kong mag aalala na naman siya kapag nakikita niya akong naguguluhan
"I also need to have bangs" sabi ko ulit sabay hawi nung bangs niya kaya naman siya natawa
"It will suit you!" natatawang sabi naman niya kaya tumawa lang rin ako
"So that the three of us will have bangs" sabi ko ulit kaya naman mas lalo siyang natawa
"Oo nga! Nakalimutan kong may bangs rin pala si Allyssa!" natatawang sabi niya kaya ngumiti ako tsaka ako tumango
"Literal na friendship goals kapag nag bangs ka rin" natatawang sabi niya ulit
Habang nagtatawanan kaming dalawa dito may locker area ay biglang may lumapit na isang nerd na lalaki saming dalawa.
"Excuse me?" nahihiyang sabi niya samin ni Jessica kaya naman natigil kami sa pagtatawanan
"How can we help you?" tanong naman ni Jessica sa kanya pero tumingin lang siya sakin
Yung as in naka tingin lang talaga siya sakin at wala kaming marinig ni isang salita mula sa kanya.
"Do you need something from me?" tanong ko nalang sa kanya since kanina pa kaming nag aantay sa kung ano man ang sasabihin niya
"May nagpapatawag sayo" kinakabahang sabi niya sakin, na siyang ipinagtaka ko kaya napatingin nalang ako kay Jessica
"And can we ask who is asking for her?" seryosong tanong naman ni Jessica dito sa nerd na lalaking lumapit samin pero hindi siya sumagot at halata sa mukha niya na kinakabahan siyang makipag usap saming dalawa
"Well, if you don't want to tell us who that person is, then can I ask whether that person is a teacher or student?" tanong ko nalang sa kanya dahil sa parang hirap siyang ibigkas yung pangalan nung sinasabi niyang nagpapatawag sakin
"Student!" kinakabahang sagot niya
"Why do you look so scared?" nagtatakang tanong ni Jessica sa kanya kasi parang nanginginig siya at halatang natatakot
"Are you okay?" worried na tanong ko sa kanya sabay hawak sa balikat niya
"Pinapatawag ka ni Kyle!" biglang sabi nalang niya na siyang ikinagulat namin ni Jessica
Wait a minute!!
Is this the time that all my questions are about to get answered?
"Kaya ka pala mukhang kabado kasi si Kyle yung nag utos sayo" sabi naman ni Jessica sabay hawak sa balikat nung lalaki kaya tumango nalang ito bilang sagot
"This might be the chance, my friend!" sabi naman ni Jessica sakin kaya tumango nalang ako
"Where is he then?" curious na tanong ko naman dun sa lalaki
"Samahan nalang kita" sagot niya sakin kaya tumango nalang ako
Nag umpisa na siyang mag lakad tapos susunod na sana kami ni Jessica pero bigla itong tumigil sa paglalakad at humarap ulit saming dalawa.
"Mahigpit na sinabi ni Kyle na si Ysabel lang daw ang isasama ko" nahihiyang sabi nung lalaki kaya naman napatingin ako kay Jessica
"Kahit kailan talaga napaka demanding nung lecheng lalaking yun!" naiinis na sabi ni Jessica kaya ngumiti lang ako
"Just go to Allyssa and wait for me in the club room" sabi ko nalang kaya tumango nalang siya
We're going there anyway because we have a meeting with the archery club members about the upcoming tryouts for the new members of the varsity team. Well, Jessica said that both of us don't need to do the tryouts since we were already on the varsity team last year, and that means only Allyssa needs to do the tryouts.
Naglakad na kaming dalawa nung lalaki papunta sa kung nasaan man si Kyle. Kaya niya siguro ako pinapatawag dahil napag isip-isip na rin niya sigurong kausapin ako. Ilang araw na rin kasi niya akong iniiwasan.
Maybe na convince na rin siya nung mga kaibigan niya na kausapin ako.
"Hey, there's no need for you to go with me. You can tell me where he is so that I can go on my own" sabi ko dito sa lalaking kasama ko while we're walking papunta sa kinaroroonan ni Kyle
"Samahan nalang kita!" sagot niya sakin pero umiling nalang ako tsaka ako ngumiti
"It's already past dismissal time, and I know you need to go home. Just tell me where he is, and I can go there by myself" sabi ko nalang kaya naman tumingin siya doon sa may relo niya
Dismissal time here in school is exactly 5 o'clock, and it's almost 6 o'clock, and I'm sure that he needs to go home.
"There's no need to worry about me because I'm already familiar with the places around the school" sabi ko nalang ulit sa kanya at halata sa mukha niya yung pag aalala kasi kanina pa siya hindi mapakale
Siguro nag aalala siya dahil baka mamaya mawala ako dito sa school since may amnesia ako pero di naman niya kailangang mag alala since alam ko na rin naman yung mga lugar dito sa school.
"Just tell me" sabi ko sa kanya tsaka ako ngumiti
"Familiar ka ba sa hideout nilang F4?" tanong niya sakin
"That's on the rooftop of the main building, right?" tanong ko sa kanya kaya tumango siya
I just want to be sure na nasa main building talaga yung hideout nila since madaming building dito sa St. Anthony.
"Sige na! You can go home now. Ako nalang mag isa ang pupunta doon" sabi ko sa kanya tapos magsasalita pa sana siya pero ngumiti nalang ako tsaka na ako nag umpisang mag lakad papunta sa may hideout nila
Sumakay na ako sa may elevator papunta sa rooftop dahil hindi ako pwedeng mag hagdan papunta doon baka wala pa ako sa kalagitnaan ay naubusan na ako bigla ng hininga.
Pag bukas nung elevator ay bumungad agad sakin yung pinto nung hideout nila dito sa rooftop.
Pinto palang halatang pang yayamanin na ang itsura ng hideout nila at partida may pa-doorbell pa sila.
Actually, this is my first time coming here, but I'm aware that they have this hideout since I've heard Yvan and even Jessica talk about it.
I didn't expect that this would be what their hideout would look like. I just thought that it was just a simple tambayan here on the school rooftop, but I was completely wrong. It's so obvious that they transformed the storage room here on the rooftop into their hideout, and it must have been Joseph who asked the school for renovation.
Syempre nag doorbell muna ako, alangan naman na pumasok nalang ako bigla bigla. But after minutes of waiting walang nag bukas nung door and I don't have any other choice kundi pumasok nalang sa loob hideout nila naka mamaya tinatamad lang mag bukas yung pinuno nila.
Pagkapasok ko ay laking gulat ko nalang dahil sa wala akong makitang tao. I looked everywhere, and no one's here.
"Where the hell is he!?" tanging nasabi ko dahil sa wala talaha akong makitang tao dito sa loob
Maglalakad na sana ako palabas pero bigla nalang nag sara yung ilaw dito sa loob ng hideout nila.
"This can't been happening!!" kinakabahang sabi ko tsaka ako tumakbo papunta sa may pinto para maka labas dahil sa sobrang dilim
I was shocked when I couldn't open the door, and it's obvious that it's locked from outside.
"No! No! No!" natatarantang sabi ko dahil sa hindi ko makapa yung phone ko mula sa bulsa ng coat ko
"Oh my god!!!" naiiyak na sabi ko when I realize that I left my phone in my locker with my bag
I can't help but cry while looking around since I can't really see a thing in here and there's only a small light coming from outside through the window.
"What's happening!" natatarantang sabi ko nalang sa sarili ko while crying
I don't even know what to do!
Naglakad nalang ako palapit sa may bintana na kung saan may liwanag kaysa naman mag stay ako dito sa may pinto na sobrang dilim.
I still have a phobia of dark places, but there's a difference now compared to before. Dati kasi as in nag panic attack ako kapag nasa madilim na lugar ako, but right now I'm trying my best to stay calm, but I still can't help but cry.
I suffer from nyctophobia, and that's because of my traumatic experiences during my childhood.