Biglang nanghina ang buong katawan ko't napatulala ako sa kawalan nang marinig ko ang mga sinabi ni Professor Tan at napabitaw ako bigla sa kanya kaya nang maramdaman niyang napabitaw ako sa kakahawak sa kanya ay agad niyang binaliktad ang position namin. Napaluhod ako sa malakas niyang pagtulak saken pero tila di ko man lang naramdaman ang sakit. Agad niya akong hinablot sa buhok at pinatayo tsaka hinawakan sa leeg nang pagkahigpit dahilan upang di ako makahinga. I didn't struggle and parang mas gusto ko pang higpitan pa niya ang pagkakahawak sa leeg ko.
"I could kill you here, kid. But I won't. I think once you know that you're just part of a play, yo-"
"LET HER GO"
Napalingon bigla si Professor Tan habang hawak pa din ang leeg ko at nakita ko si Justin na naglalakad patungo sa direction namin. Napakaiba ng expression nang mukha neto lalo na sa titig neto kay Professor Tan.
Biglang humalakhak naman si Professor Tan at mas hinigpitan pa ang pagkakasakal neto sa leeg ko na mas ikinapanghina pa ng buong katawan ko.
"Molino, you can't protect her...just like how you can't protect your sister.." ngumiti pa eto na para bang hinahamon pa si Justin.
Bumagsak bigla si Professor Tan nang biglang sinuntok eto ni Justin at duguan ang ilong na nakangiti pa din na para bang mas hinahamon pa niya eto.
"Well, at least may use din ang pagsali mo sa..Bratva is it? The last time I remember you can't even punch one of my men.." panghahamon ulit ni Professor Tan.
Bratva?
Napatitig ako bigla kay Justin at sakto namang tumitig din eto sa akin at yung expression ng mukha niya ay biglang nagbago na tila bang ayaw niyang marinig ko iyon.
Akmang susuntukin niya ulit si Professor Tan nang biglang magsalita eto.
"Don't let the history repeat again, Molino. Stop feeding her delusions, you should already know that these wasn't all real. She's part of the play..."
What is he talking about?
Please don't tell me that it is what I think it is.
Pagkatapos netong magsalita ay agad na tumayo eto at humakbang palayo sa direction namin ni Justin.
"Well then I guess we're just gonna enjoy the show if you don't want to stop her."
Tinitigan ko si Justin at inantay na magsalita eto pero tahimik lang etong nakatingin sa kawalan na para bang napakalalim nang iniisip neto.
Nang wala akong makuhang explanation kay Justin ay agad akong nag umpisang humakbang upang iwan siya ngunit bigla etong nagsalita...
"Alexandra-"
I looked at him with so much questions in my mind but my expression was intense that it sends him a death stare which made his reaction changed.
Please don't lie to me, Justin. I trust you and you're like a big brother to me. Please don't disappoint me.
"Alam kong sinuportahan kita sa mga decision mo but this time I am begging you to-"
"Bratva?" I saw how his eyes tried to avoid my gaze pero it's like he can't escaped to my death stares and he was fighting with himself on what to do.
"Anong pinagsasab-"
"Tang ina naman Justin hindi ako ganon katanga sa mga gantong bagay! Gusto mo bang magpakamatay? Kung ano mang problema meron ka kay Professor Tan or sa mga professors dito hindi solusyon ang makisali sa gang na yan! Alam ba to ng Ate mo?!"
"This isn't about me.."
"Oh so is this about me?" tanong ko pabalik pero umiwas lang eto ng tingin.
"Hind-"
"Pwede ba Justin magsabe ka naman ng totoo. Una pa lang nagdududa na ako e ba't hindi ka na part ng grupo mo? Dahil ba alam na nila na sumali ka sa gang na yun? At ano yung kelangan mo ng pera? Dahil din ba sa grupo na yun? Ha? Sumagot ka!" sigaw ko ulit pero hindi man lang eto sumagot.
Nang wala akong makuha na sagot ay agad na humakbang na naman ulit ako palayo sa direction niya pero bigla ulit etong nagsalita.
"You're the closest thing to my sister. Let me protect you, please.."
Napalingon ako bigla sa kinatatayuan neto at nakita ko kung paanong bumagsak ang mga luha neto habang nakatingin sa direction ko. It's like he is scared of something he can't tell.
"Protect me from what?"
"From them.."
Bigla na namang nanghina ang mga tuhod ko na tila bang ayukong marinig ng mga susunod na sasabihin neto.
"Do you love Miss Diaz?"
I was confused sa out of the blue netong tanong but it also scares me at the same time trying to comprehend what he is about to explain.
I nodded but my heart was racing so hard and fast na feel ko hindi ko kakayanin pakinggan pa eto.
"I would take a bullet for her.." I confidently said pero deep inside I feel like I won't recover if there's something that would change things.
"Even if she's the one holding the gun?" tanong ulit neto.
Biglang nagblanko ang utak ko't tila nabingi ako bigla sa tanong neto.
"I- I would let her shoot me if that meant saving he-"
"Pwede bang wag ka munang magpakatanga kahit ngayon lang, Alexandra? She's in love with Professor Tan's sister and my sister died because of it!"
Mas bumagsak pa ang luha neto habang pasigaw na sinambit ang mga iyon na tila bang matagal na netong kinikimkim ang hinanaing na iyon.
But I muted in silence. Feel ko biglang bumigat ang buong katawan ko't di na ako makagalaw habang tinutusoktusok ng mga milyong milyong karayom ang dibdib ko na halos di na ako makahinga.
Wala sa sariling inangat ko ang kamay ko kung saan nakasuot ang singsing na nilagay neto sa daliri ko at napatitig sa daliri na iyon habang nanginginig ang mga eto.
"Freyja just arrived yesterday maybe to stop the marriage of her brother with the love of her life and you're just some part of their pl-"
And before he could mutter another word ay agad akong tumakbo palayo nang wala sa sarili. And I ended up staring at myself in front of the mirror sa CR.
Freyja?
Her love of her life?
What about me?
Did she even like me?
Did she used me because I looked so desperate of wanting her?
S-she used m-me?
Tang ina, ansaket.
Why did I let myself into this?
I love...her.
Damn it.
After kong maghilamos ng aking mukha at nag ayus ay agad akong lumabas at tumungo sa classroom. Lutang pa din ang sariling naglalakad na nakatitig sa kawalan.
Nang nasa harap na ako ng pinto ng room namin ay halos di ko na naman mapigilan ang pagdagundong ng aking dibdib. I want to avoid her for as long as possible.
Akmang kakatok ako nang biglang dumating din si Justin sa likuran ko. We stared at each other and it's like he's giving me a look of comfort na it's gonna be okay na I just have to act cool pero my body is betraying me.
He knocked instead dahil nawala na talaga ako sa sarili ko and bumukas naman kagad ang pinto. Nakatitig lang ako sa paa ko the entire time kase I don't know what to do if I look at her. My heart is racing while I felt like I'm dying.
Do I have the right to ask and confront her?
"Good morning, Miss." Tipid na bati ni Justin and I was only supposed to look at my classmates nang nag umpisang maglakad na kami sa kanya kanyang upuan pero napadpad sa kanya ang titig ko.
We stared at each other and I couldn't even sit properly nang makaupo na ako sa upuan ko.
I already saw her outfit today but I felt like I melted and suddenly got thirsty because how can she stand there and look hotter than anyone I've ever met?
Damn it. Focus, Alexandra. Focus.
She smiled which made a commotion around the room. Everyone was murmuring seeing her smiling. Is this a first?
Mayamaya pa'y umupo na eto sa upuan niya sa harapan at nag umpisang magkalikot ng mga materials sa harap neto.
"Get a whole sheet of paper for a 50 points short quiz. 5 equations and 10 points each." Biglaang utos neto na ikinareklamo bigla naman ng mga kaklase ko.
Everybody was complaining and I was there trying to process my problems not even thinking of the exam.
I felt her stares kaya napatingin ulit ako sa direction neto. She smirked at me.
God please don't let me be tempted with this woman 😩
I stared at her with my mind blowing off to somewhere but she just kept on doing stuff effortlessly that made me want to just ignore that I am hurting.
And she started writing the questions and never even put what equations to use on the board.
The silence in the room started, making me realize that everyone is already answering their papers.
"I'll give you all five minutes to copy this and I'll erase it. Once you got your equations on your papers, I don't want any of you to move your heads or any parts of your body to any direction. I want each of you to focus and stare only at your papers. One move and you're out, understood?" utos neto na ikinakaba at mas ikinapanic ng mga kaklase ko.
Napabilis din ako nang pagkopy ng questions sa board kit alam ko namang isang tingin ko lang dito ay memorized ko naman na kagad.
I already know the equations needed to solve and have the solutions and I was peacefully answering my paper nang biglang naramdaman ko ang presensya neto sa tabi ko.
Tang ina naman.
Nagkunwari akong di ko siya nakita at naramdaman na nakatitig saken at mas pinagfocus ko pang magsulat ng mga answer ko sa papel ko nang biglang naramdaman kong may nahulog sa paanan ko galing sa kanya.
I saw her ball pen rolled and stopped in front of my feet kaya agad ko etong inabot pero naunahan ako neto at parang intensyonal netong inilapit ang mukha neto sa mukha ko kaya napaayus ako kagad ng postura nang maramdaman kong nang iinit na naman ang buong katawan ko.
What the fuck is she doing?
I acted like it was nothing at bumalik ulit sa pag answer ng papel ko but she suddenly started touching my leg from bottom to top near my undies and it made me... horny.
I tried to swallow the last remaining liquid in my mouth and I felt more thirsty when she start rubbing my leg like it was something else. I was still trying to fight the urge to not feel anything and just ignore her when she suddenly lean closer to my ear and whispered.
"Feel my hands and stare at me when I'm in between of your legs. What's with this cold stares, Miss Attitude? You smell so good.."
Pota- fuck!
I closed my legs trying to fight the temptation but I'm already wet down there and closing my leg's won't do anything to stop her.
"What's wrong, baby girl? What did I do, hmm?"
Lord ilayo mo tong nilalang na to!
Fuck!
I felt my veins heated up the moment she breathed on my ears intentionally and chuckled seductively.
Lumaban ka self please lang. Hindi year of the marupok ngayon 😭
Mas binilisan ko pa ang pagsulat at tinapos kagad ang pagsagot at agad na inabot eto sa kanya with blank stares.
"I'm done, Miss." Saad ko at mas nilakasan pa iyon para marinig ng mga kaklase ko din.
She stared at me with questions but good thing that I was able to control myself of what she did to me.
After the class ay kagad akong mabilisang lumabas din kasama yung mga kaklase kong nagsitulakan din sa pinto. I don't want to spend my lunch sa canteen because for sure dun din yan kakain di pa naman yun nakapagbreakfast kanina.
Wait, she didn't really had a breakfast kanina?
I suddenly felt bad but I also suddenly remembered what we did on the car. Gosh! Feel ko namula na naman yung pisngi ko.
"Ano bang gusto mo para paorderan kita ah? Ayaw mo naman nentong sushi e yan lang baon ko na natira.." saad ni Zara na kanina pa kuda nang kuda sa kakakwento tungkol sa kambing na niregalo niya saken na siya naman nag alaga. Well, technically di naman siya nag aalaga kasi nasa malayo naman ang mga iyon at may taga alaga lang dun na nagbabantay na palagi niyang vinivideo call para makausap lang daw niya babies niya. Di ko nga alam if niregalo ba talaga niya yun sa akin or sa sarili niya sabagay di ko naman tinanggap.
"Matutulog ako pakigising ako mga after 30 minutes." Pagbabalewala ko sa mga sinabe neto.
At ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko't pinilit na di muna makinig sa mga pinagsasabe neto.
"Grounded ako for one month kaya! Pwede bang punta ka sa bahay tas sabihin mo kay Daddy na di ko naman sinadya kung bakit nagtatae ngayon yung mga kasambahay namin? Gusto ko lang naman makaexperiment sa pagluluto e at tsaka wala naman akong nagawang iba pa except sa sunog sa kusina namin.."
Ano ba pinagsasabe na naman nento? Hayys.
"Tapos yung ano...."
Kinover ko ang backpack ko sa mukha ko para kahit man lang makatulog ako nang maayus kahit ang ingay neto pero di talaga natigil sa kuda.
"Alexandra, may natawag sa phone mo uyy!" tawag neto saken at niyugyog pa ako pero mas inignore ko pa eto. Gusto kong magpahinga muna please...
"Gomez speaking, who's this?"
Luh tarantado naman nento kanina lang iba ang boses ngayon parang expensive na boss ang tinig neto.
"She's sleeping beside me, who are you?"
Sino yun?
"Listen, lady. I obviously don't know you but if you claim to be her fiancée then you should know that I'm her wife. You hear me?"
Teka...
Napabangon ako bigla at nakitang phone ko ang hawak neto sa tenga neto na mukhang nakikipagbardagulan pa talaga.
I'm so sleepy that I don't really care who's she's talking to pero...
"I'm the wife and you are the kabit!" Pasigaw neto at biglang ibinaba ang phone at inend ang call.
Tumawa't humagikhik pa eto pagkatapos at napatigil nang makitang nakatitig ako sa kanya.
"May tumawag na unknown number hahaha fiancée ka daw niya kaya sabe ko ako yung wife HAHAHAHHA!" Tumawa pa eto nang malakas at humiga din sa damuhan habang hinahampas hampas ako sa paa sa kakatawa.
Mas kinabahan ako at nginig na kinuha ang phone sa kamay neto at chineck ang number na iyon.
No...
I-I'm dead.
After kong maconfirm ang number na tumawag ay napatulala na lamang ako sa soccerfield habang si Zara ay patawatawa pa din, tang ina.
Literally, jut after a couple of seconds ay may sumunod na mga text eto.
"If you don't go here in the office in 5 minutes, I'll make sure to tie you everywhere with me. Mark my words."
Nanginginig na isinukbit ko ang backpack ko at wala sa sariling kumaripas papuntang office neto. I heard Zara calling me pero di ko na eto nilingon pa
Marami pa akong nabangga na mga estudyante sa daan sa kakatakbo bago makarating sa harap ng office niya pero nang akmang kakatok ako ay nakaramdam ako ng alanganin nang maalala ko na naman ang mga bagay na kaninang umaga ko pa iwinawaksi sa isipan ko.
Bumukas bigla ang pinto at nagkatitigan kaming dalawa and it was intense that she want to eat me alive!
Pota her eyes is killing me with daggers.
Agad ako netong hinablot sa kamay at pinapasok tsaka nilock ang pinto.
I was just watching her walking in circles in front of me trying to calm herself nang bigla ulit ako neto hinablot at napatigil sa harap ng office glass table neto.
"Who was that girl that answered your phone?" out of the blue netong tanong.
And again wala akong naisagot sa sobrang pagkalutang ko. I was just staring at her distracted with her collarbone and her neck as her hair falls perfectly in a bun with a messy style that makes her more... eatable.
Wait.. eatable? Is that even a word?
For fuck's sake what am I even thinking at this moment!
"I have a class po in a couple of minutes, Miss." Saad ko na mas ikinaigting pa nang panga neto.
"Don't give me this attitude, Alexandra! For Pete's sake, don't do this. You're sending me in hell with this cold and blank stares!" Sigaw ulit neto at nilapit pa ang bibig neto sa bibig ko and she was teasing me for revenge. She didn't kiss me and she's like seducing me to kiss her first.
My body is betraying me again but my mind is also contradicting it.
And when I wasn't able to give her what she wants, she looked at me straight into my eyes trying to maybe read what's on my mind.
Bigla ako netong binuhat at ipinatong sa table neto at hinawakan ako nang mahigpit at hinawakan ako sa bewang nang napakahigpit upang di ako makawala.
"Let's talk. What did I do?" Saad neto but her eyes is staring at my lips and her hands was already in my legs, caressing it gently and it's making me insane!
"Let's stop this.." sagot ko and I don't even know how I muttered those words staring at her.
She looked at me with confusion in her eyes filled with questions pero biglang umigting ulit ang panga neto at nag umpisang i-unbutton ang butones ng suot neto na siya namang ikinadagundong ng dibdib ko't mas lalong kinabahan ako na parang sasabog na ang utak at dibdib ko.
"A-anong ginagawa mo?" Kabadong saad ko.
Mas uminit bigla ang buong katawan ko nang makita ko na ang dibdib neto kaya triny kong umalis sa pwesto ko na iyon pero mabilisan ako netong binuhat ulit at pinaupo dun.
"Stay there or I'll be forced to tie you up." Utos neto.
"Anong gi-"
"I want you to beg and scream my name echoing in every corner of this room as I rail the fuck out of you..."
Fuck.
"I will make your legs shake to the point that your eyes starts rolling back and you start seeing stars with your whole body twitching with the rhythm of my tongue..." dagdag neto.
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