Olivia's pov:
December 2021
"Pregnant? Are you sure?" I asked, I was speechless. "Very sure, it came back hundred percent positive" the doctor said. "Alright, thanks for calling me" I said, then we set up an appointment for me to get checked again.. And then we said our goodbyes.
As we hung up the phone I was left with a weird feeling, I didn't know what to do with myself. Where do I go from here, what do I say to Charles and how far along am I!?
I guess everything made sense now, my stomach pain and nausea. The sudden need of a midday nap, and the constant need to eat something. I'm really pregnant, what..
After a few hours I had gone to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test just to see for myself, I took it and immediately after five minutes it was clearly positive. So here I was, standing with a positive pregnancy test in my hands, not knowing if Charles or even I want to proceed with this, am I really ready to be someone's mother? Well I guess I am?.
"Hey love, where are you?" Charles called out for me, as he stepped inside the apartment after being away almost all day with his brothers. I quickly hid the test, and walked out of the bathroom. "Hi babe" I said and pulled him into a hug. "What's wrong?" he asked and looked at me, of course he could see that something was wrong.
"Nothing" I said, since I didn't know how to tell him. "I know you, somethings up? tell me" he said and sat down on the couch, which I did too.
"The doctor called," I said and looked down. "She did, already? What did she say, are you alright?" he asked worriedly, while taking my hand. I looked at him and I didn't know how to say it, but the words just flew out of my mouth. "I'm-..I'm pregnant apparently" I said.
"You are what exactly.." he said and looked shocked and even more speechless than I did.
"Yup! I took a test to see for myself, and it's very much true" I said, looking at him. He didn't smile or anything, this must be a bad sign.
"Wow, so what do we do from here?" he asked, not really knowing what to say. "I have no idea, are we ready to be parents so soon?" I asked. "I don't know, I need some time to think" he said and looked down, while he was still holding my hand..
We didn't talk much after, Charles went out to get some air and think about everything, which left me alone in the apartment, with so many thoughts running around in my head..
I sat down not knowing what to do, so I texted my best friend since I really wanted to talk about this with someone, and since Charles left I had no one else.
Olivia:
Hey Danny, are you in Monaco? I could really need you right now?
Daniel:
Hey Livia, I will be later this evening. What's wrong?<3
Olivia:
Are you alone, if so can you maybe facetime me then?
A few seconds later my phone rang, and I picked up right away. "Livia hey!!" Daniel said, smiling big as always. "Hey Danny, where are you?" I asked while sending a little smile back. "I'm in London now, but I'm flying to Monaco in a few hours".. "Alright, so ehm, there's something I have to say" I said and a little tear rolled down my cheek.
"Oh no, what is it?" he asked and changed into a more worried tone. "So you remember I have been feeling sick and all that, right?".. "Yeah?" he nodded.. "So it turns out I'm pregnant, and I don't know what to do" I said almost to shed another tear.
"Omg that's good news! So are you keeping it or? And have you told Charles?" he asked, he really looked happy on our behalf.. - "Yeah, I told Charles. But I don't think he is happy about it, he said he needed to clear his head and then walked out of the door" I said. "He did?! That doesn't look like something he would do.. I'm sorry Olivia.." he said. "No right, he didn't seem just a tiny bit happy about it, which is probably the thing that made me most sad" I said.
"You should really have a talk with him later, this is huge and something that will affect both of your lives forever, so please you guys should talk about it and make the decision that's right for you guys" he said. "We will, I promise.." I answered.
We talked a bit more about it, and then we hung up. It was great to talk with my best friend about it. I knew he would understand even though he's not a girl, but he always understands me in any situation, that's what makes him the best friend in the world.
About two hours later, Charles finally came home again.. "I was not sure you would come home again," I said, a bit frustrated. "Please Olivia I can't handle this right now, but we have to talk about what we're gotta do" he said and sat down next to me.. "Yeah we should, I'm sorry. But I just don't think it's fair that you just left me alone, we both are shocked and surprised, but leaving the other one alone is not fair, we are in this situation together" I confronted him..
"I'm sorry for leaving, I was just shocked about it, and I can't believe this happened" he said. "Me either it's not like I planned this.. I mean do you even want this baby?" I asked and he took a deep breath. "I don't know.. I'm not sure I can handle being a father right now, with my job I wouldn't see the baby so much and whenever I have kids I want to be there for them all the time, and we are still very young.." he said before I interrupted him. "Then why didn't you just say no, sounds like you have already made up your mind.." I said and looked away. "It's not a no, but I'm just saying we are only 24 years old, we're still young and there's so much more I wanna do before starting a family" he said, and those words really hit me.. "So it's a no.." I said and a little tear rolled down my cheek. "It's up to you, it's your body and your choice. But I'm sure if you decide to keep it, I will love it anyway" he said and moved a bit closer to me. "Yeah, but it will not be the same.. I won't enjoy it if I know the baby is unwanted" I said.. He didn't say a word, he just looked down at the floor.
A few hours went by and we didn't talk much during the last few hours. I walked into the bathroom where I washed my face and then went to bed. "I'm sorry.." Charles said and laid next to me, and then gave me a goodnight kiss.. "Goodnight.." I said and ignored his apology.. It was a weird situation, also because we have never had an argument, so why do our first one have to be such a serious life changing one, this is not fair..
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The following day was new years eve, originally we had the whole evening planned, to go eat something good for dinner and then celebrate new years with most of the drivers at a local nightclub.. But with me being pregnant, I would not attend.
"So, what do we do today?" Charles asked as I was sitting at the dining table eating my bowl of boring cereal. "You should go, I can stay here, it's fine" I said. "Don't be silly, of course you should not be alone on new years eve.." Charles said and sat next to me.
"I don't care, I can take care of myself. You should go party with your friends" I said and smiled. "And you think I really would let my girlfriend be alone on new years eve, how bad of a boyfriend do you really think I am?" he asked, while looking at me, waiting for me to answer.. "You're not a bad boyfriend, but I really think you should go to the party, and then we can figure everything out tomorrow or the following day" I said..
Charles pov:
The tension in the room was terrible. In the last twenty four hours Olivia's and my relationship has really been put on a test. This news about her being pregnant has changed so much. I want to have kids with her of course, but not already. I want to be there for my kids, and with my job situation right now it will just not be possible. I have a contract in formula one that many people can only dream about, and that is where my focus is for the next few years. I wanna see more of the world and enjoy the time being young and not having to settle down right now..
"Daniel just texted me, he and I are having a chilled new years eve together, you should celebrate with your friends" Olivia said and walked away from the dining table. "Olivia, don't act like that, you know I would do anything for you, so why do you let me out?" I asked, I didn't like where this was going to be honest.
"I'm not letting you out, but if you would do anything for me, you would do this with me and to have this child with me" she said from the kitchen. "Oh, don't set it up like that.. this pregnancy is a big thing that we both need to figure out, and as you can see it has only caused us problems and lots of arguments already.." I said and left the table as well. "Maybe we moved too fast with everything, and maybe we just need a break from each other for a few days?" she asked, those words hit me. But maybe she was right, maybe we did move too fast, maybe we aren't each other's future, just each other's present which hurts to say when thinking about how much I love her..
"Maybe you are right.." I said and a few tears rolled down my cheeks, and Olivia had some as well. "I'll go stay with Daniel for a few days" she said and went into the bedroom to pack a bag, before I even got to say something.
After a little while she had packed her bag and got ready to leave. "Are you sure this is the right thing to do?" I asked when she was standing there with a packed bag. "I don't know what's right or wrong anymore Charles, but I need time to figure out what is gonna happen and I can't do that here, I'm so sorry.." she said and went to take her shoes on.. "I love you, Olivia," I said as she opened the door. "I love you too" she said and gave me a fake smile, while closing the door.
Then here I was, alone in what had just turned into our apartment, with my girlfriend leaving to stay with her best friend. I was devastated and broken, the feeling of not knowing what would happen was an empty feeling. Was this the end of our relationship or is it the beginning of fatherhood for me? - All I know is that I'm not ready for either of those things. Life is so messed up..
Olivia's pov:
I knocked on the door to Daniel's apartment. "Olivia" he said as he opened the door, where he immediately pulled me into the biggest and most comforting hug. "Danny, I don't know what's gonna happen, everything's so messed up!" I said and another tear fell down. "Aw, come on inside" he said and took my bag.
We sat down on the couch and started to talk. I told him all about what happened from yesterday when I found out to when I left home.. "but I guess you want to keep the baby?" Daniel asked. "Yeah I do, but I can't do this alone, I need him by my side" I said. I couldn't handle the thought of ending it, and taking the life away from our baby inside me, even though I obviously knew it's not a baby yet.
"I'll be there for you, whatever you decide to do. And please whatever happens between the two of you I will always be here.. but I really hope you will stay together" he said with a smile. "I love him so much, and I can't imagine not being with him. But I want this baby, and if he can't respect that I can't be with him.." I said. It was the truth, I know I have only known about this pregnancy for about two days but I could already feel the love for this baby, and how much I already want to protect it at all costs.
"I understand.. is he going with you to the ultrasound on Wednesday?" He asked. "I don't know, I didn't tell him," I said. "You should tell him, maybe he changes sights when seeing the baby".. "I promise I'll tell him, but can we please do something else now? I need to think about something other than all this right now" I said and looked at Daniel who looked at me.
"Of course we can, everything for you".. "thank you Danny, and thanks for letting me stay here" I smiled.
We then went to the store before it closed since they closed earlier today, we bought so many different kinds of food to make at home, and then something to make a few alcohol free drinks. When we got home we started to prepare the food and then we played some games on his PlayStation. It was actually quite fun!
We ate our homemade food which turned out pretty good, I had also made a dessert for later! We watched movies and talked, we talked and laughed a lot which was just what I needed after a bad day.
When the clock hit midnight we jumped into the new year together, we drank our surprisingly good alcohol free cocktails and then we went to bed quite late since we had so much fun the whole night.
The calendar now says 2022, I'm excited for a new year to begin. But the uncertainty of what is going to happen is making me a bit scared. Will my relationship with Charles come to an end. And will I become a mother and raise this child alone?
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I hope you liked this chapter, I indeed liked writing it. Even though it's quite sad what's happening..
stay tuned for next chapter, to see what will happen next!✨🥺🫢