My head hurts. I did not eat for the whole day nor had a sip of water. Everything is so bad right now. Everyone irks me lalong-lalo na ang nalaman ko kanina. Mommy Kayla...that woman. I know she was never someone kind. A blind person can feel it.
I tried to talk to Nanay Meera, and she did, too. Iyon nga lamang ay wala akong lakas ng loob na sabihin sa kaniya ang totoo. All the details gross me out. I do not want her to be so worried about me. Masayang-masaya siya sa nalalapit na graduation ni Ranz, I do not have the slightest thought of ruining her happiness.
Daddy did not come back at my room. I was expecting he will because he always does that. Kahit minsan ay nakukulitan na ako sa pabalik-balik niya, I want him doing it still ngunit mukhang sa ngayon ay nahawakan na siya ni Monmy Kayla. That woman will do everything to achieve whatever her intention is. Alam kong pipigilan niya si Daddy lalo na ngayong may nangyari nang hindi maganda sa pagitan namin.
"Mad... madly seductive, Ariella."
I heard Leopold's voice, and I had goosebumps from it. Iyong kiliti at kaba, palaging kakaiba. Hindi ko siya makita. Ni hindi ko rin alam kung saang parte mismo ng kwarto siya nanggaling ngunit alam kong ngayon ay siguradong nananaginip na ako. Siguro ay napagod na ako kakaiyak at kakaisip ng mga bagay bagay kaya naman nakatulog ako nang hindi ko sinasadya.
"Your heart is racing madly. Your desires...they are burning. Ariella, did you miss me that much?"
I chuckled as I feel his touch on my cheeks. Slowly but burning out of desires. Desires that I probably started, too. I admit that I need him and his touches. That is the reason why he is here. My desires always summon him but deep inside, I know my subconsciousness wanted to ask him a very important question.
"I was able to see..." I said while I am feeling him kissing my neck.
"Hmm? How?"
"I dreamt in reality." I said.
I am not sure about that. I just said it to get a reaction from him and that made him chuckle.
"You cannot dream while you are awake, Ariella."
He almost laughed and then started kissing me again. Nagawa na rin niya akong hubaran. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang pagnanasa at pagkagutom niya sa akin. The lust he feeds on.
"That is beyond a human's skill."
I grabbed his neck. Mahigpit at biglaan. Napatigil siya roon. Alam kong nakaupo na rin siya sa aking harapan dahil hindi niya inaalis ang pagkakahawak ko sa kaniyang leeg. For some reason, he did not become so stubborn. I do not know why nor why he isn't moving away from me but that is a convenient for me.
"I did. I was able to see for a split second." Asik ko. Ipinipilit pa talaga iyon sa kaniya. "I know what I saw, Leopold. I know what I felt. You were there."
"Oh,"
Para bang natauhan siya. Para bang may sinabi akong kakaiba na naintindihan niya.
"That split second...hmm. I know, I felt it."
"What do you mean you felt it?"
"Stop lying, Ariella. You were not awake. You were losing consciousness that is why you were able to summon me for a split second. Such a brag that that split second was used to quicky summon me, too. Your lust must be so fucking high. Ang bilis mo akong napasunod."
"What? What do you mean I was losing consciousness?"
He chuckled. Hinawakan ang kamay kong nasa leeg niya at agad na naalis iyon. Mayamaya pa ay naramdaman kong mahigpit na niyang hawak parehas ang kamay ko at ayaw iyong bitawan. Pinahiga rin ako nang marahas saka pinatalikod at hindi pa rin binibitawan ang kamay ko.
"Your lust...it's higher and higher. Sa bawat pagsummon mo sa akin, palakas nang palakas ang libog mo, Ariella. Are you..."
"I was able to see!" I hissed.
Sinubukan ko pang tumayo ngunit hindi ko na nagawa dahil nakapatong na siya sa akin. I can feel his nakedness on me. His heat, his lust, and his body too. Naramdaman ko rin ang pagkagat niya sa tainga ko at ang mahina niyang pagtawa at pagbulong.
"It is still a mystery how you can do that without my permission. Borrowing my sense of sight. Even for a split second...you did it."
"So you agree that I can borrow it!"
"I did not say you can't."
Makahulugan ang pagkakasambit niya noon bago ako inayos ng posisyon na nais niya. He made me bend and shut up. Even though I said no because I wanted to ask more questions, I cannot make him follow me anymore just like how I did it before. Hindi ko na siya kayang pasundin sa akin at sa ngayon ay kahit anong gusto niyang gawin sa katawan ko ay nagagawa niya at wala akong lakas para ayawan iyon.
He is intoxicating. He has always been but tonight, it is different. It is...so full of lust. All I can do every time is moan his name from the pain and pleasure he gives me.
"Leopold..."
Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang ulit ko na bang isinisigaw ang pangalan niya dahil sa sarap ng sensasyong ibinibigay sa akin. The first time I tasted his body, and he tasted mine did not feel like this. This is intense. This is...something I always wanted to feel. Rough...painful, dirty, and more. His kisses...they are aggressive, but I am wanting more.
"Leopold..."
"Shush, Ariella. Your lust is satisfying me differently tonight." He hissed. Sinabunutan pa ako habang naglalabas-masok ang pagkalalaki niya sa akin. "You glow differently tonight. I no longer want to just feed from your lust. I want to own your lust...all of you."
Hindi ko alam ang ibig sabihin noon. Hindi na rin ako makapag-isip nang maayos dahil sa ginagawa niya. He knows how to pleasure every part of me. He knows all the things I would love to do on my body.
"Fuck, Leopold. Hmm."