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It was the last day of the camping trip with Steve, Robin and Eddie, leaving early morning tomorrow for Hawkins then straight back to work.
The first day you all arrived at the camp spot was just spent around the fire roasting marshmallows, watching Robin and Steve bicker like always while keeping warm wrapped up in a blanket with Eddie, who's been more close to you this trip but you hadn't really noticed, not yet, as he's always been like that with you but according to the two people who want more than anything for you and Eddie to actually commit, see otherwise.
Maybe robin could open your eyes a bit more about it all....
Steve was talking about how refreshing it would be if you all had a quick morning dunk in the lake, being freezing you all said no at first, but he somehow persuaded you all in going in with him, managing only around 2 minutes of the cold water, dunking the ends of your hair under to somewhat wash is before you all ran out and up to the tents, wasting no time drying off and putting two shirts on,one being Eddies, a hoodie and sweatpants then sitting around a smaller fire this time.
"Never again Harrington"
Eddie says holding his hands to the fire, rubbing them together
"Bunch of babies the lot of you, do you not feel refreshed and aliveee now?"
He asks shaking his hands, getting a glare from all three of you
"No, Steve, I do not feel aliveeee, If anything I feel like my body is freezing up from the inside"
Robin says shivering, pulling over the hood on her jumper and tightening it up around her head and face with the strings.
"Can I comb your hair steeeve, I can't do Eddies, it'll mess his curls"
You ask jumping up from the log you were sitting on.
"Doth thee has't a combeth?"
Steve replies randomly breaking out in Shakespearian making you chuckle and play along.
" I has't a combeth, aye. In mine own backpack"
Making Steve laugh putting his face into his hands, Eddie and Robin sat there also amused by it, you quickly ran off to get the comb from your backpack in the tent and stood behind Steve, grabbing the towel beside him and roughly dried his hair more
"Thanks for that, it was much needed"
He said, obviously being sarcastic about it.
Combing back his thick hair and scrunching it up like how he normally wears it, "Messy but stylish" , his own words.
"Should we go for a walk? Look around and stuff"
Eddie suggests, you look up from styling Steve's hair to see him looking at you, but before you could give him an answer Robin jumps in
"That sound f-"
"Oh, I'm sorry...was that at allll three of us or? Because you were just looking at yn, are me and Steve not included in this activity, Edward? Are we not wanted on this walk with you?"
She asks all dramatic and offended, waving her hands about, Eddie stretches his back before standing up
"Quit calling me that, then yeah you can tag along, of course."
He replies dumping a bucket of water over the fire to put it out.
"Ugh that's so kind of you for including us ,thank you. Now let's go, walkiessss"
Robin pokes, waving a stick at Eddie like he was a puppy, grabbing the stick from her and throwing it away before shouting
"FETCH THAT, BIIIIITCH"
Playing obviously, Steve mumbles "Oh boy" under his breath, giving him a pat on the shoulder to let him know you were done with his hair.
----Walkiesss----
The plan was just a walk around the woods where camp was located but Eddie turned it into looking for hidden caves, surprisingly made Steve join in with him while you and Robin walked behind them.
They gave up about 20 minutes into the hunt and decided to battle eachother with sticks, you and Robin who were still behind them as they walk on ahead, hearing the woods echo with the sound of sticks being whipped against skin, mixed with laughs and groans of pain from both the boys as they whip the hell out of their legs, arms and backs.
"So what's up with Munson this weekend"
Robin asks trying to hide her smirk.
"What's up with him? What do you mean...?"
Looking at Robin like you've missed something and kinda panicked, there
definitely wasn't any inportant event today, or yesterday, but you mentally checked incase somehow something had slipped your mind.
"What do you mean what's up with him? He's been all over you MORE than usual, and that's saying something"
"What? No he hasn't Robin...It's Eddie, he's, he's always been like that."
You laugh a little under your breath and shrug, thinking back about the two kisses, realising she might actually be right.
"Yeah sure don't think I missed him drying off your hair, or cuddling up by the fire last night."
She tuts, like she was offended you thought she WASN'T paying attention.
"He was just drying my hair...! it was a sweet gesture..."
You say,keeping your voice down as much as possible. But now Robins brought that up you start thinking on it,
maybe too hard as you go quiet for a moment.
"Did you see anything else?"
[Meaning the kiss by his van]
"I mean, because, I'm clearly not getting what your talking about"
You ask
"He's been staring at your mouth the whole time yn"
She pokes your forehead
"What's not clicking up here huh?"
Batting her hand away playfully, hearing Steve and Eddie painfully groan while whipping eachother with sticks making you both look up at them.
"Boys....And something apparently Robin, he's always been like that...I think your looking way too hard into it Bucks"
Shrugging again.
Robin gives you an "Are you serious?" look, before grabbing your arm and stopping you from walking so you two get a little more distance to be private about it from Steve and Eddie.
"You're really gonna tell me you haven't caught him looking at your mouth? Dude it's like he's gonna devour you how are you missing this??"
She frowns, not angrily but more confused that you haven't picked up on things, you sigh slapping your free hand against your leg.
"I mean- well I guess..he's been a little, different? More...I don't know what word I'm looking for but, especially yesterday on the way up here.."
You start explaining, shoving your hands into your hoodie pocket.
"Affectionate? Touchy? And what do you mean what happened on the way up here?"
Robin pokes slowly starting to walk again.
"Ummm..."
Biting on the inside of your cheek a few times knowing Robin will freak and most likely make the boys look over.
"If I say will you be quiet..."
"Scouts honour"
Robin says putting up her hand. Though really it's hard to know for sure when she'd be able to keep her voice down.
".....He ki- We might of, Kissed when we took a break from driving...twice"
Mumbling the last word.
"On the trip?!"
Robin hissed in a whisper
"How did I miss that?!!"
Your head turns to Robin SO fast
"Shhhh...! Robin for christ sakes"
Whisper shouting back, notices the boys still pissing about ahead of you, thank God.
"You missed because it wasn't in the open..."
Robin's literally bouncing on her heels all excited at this point.
"Well JESUS CHRIST YN and you still aren't seeing what I'm seeing??"
"Well now that you've brought it all up I kinda see, yeah...he's been more, touchy I guess especially yesterday"
You finally agree with her.
"YeH?? See! Has something changed?"
She gasps and smacks her hands to her cheeks right after she finished the sentence making you stop in your path, again.
"Did you guys finally start dating?"
she whispers
"No..at both of those, nothing's changed , and we are not dating"
Looking down at the ground while you walk.
"I thought nothing of it at the time, the kisses, mostly the second time as I kinda...hinted, but I don't know why I was still shocked I guess, but it wasn't anything bad"
You say with a small huff.
"Why? Does he not pick up on hints very easily?"
Robin adds, taking your hands out of your pocket and crossing your arms, feeling a little off
"I think it's me..."
You say, not meaning for your voice to quaver.
"What...do you mean by that?"
Robin asks softly, sensing the tone had changed.
"Its complicated"
Shaking your head.
"The first kiss yesterday happened when he pulled me underwater, and the other time was by the van, but I hinted at it. There's been other times where he's wanted to-to kiss me but
I panic but only if it's public..."
Trying to control your voice from shaking.
"What? When else has he tried?"
She asks not taking her eyes off you.
"A while back we went out for food at the diner, he lent in, but I moved away, I hurt his feelings, I know I did. And when we had to get out of town that time, and just when me and you were about to drive to the hospital he asked to kiss me...I can't remember what I said exactly but I could tell he really wanted to because he mentioned blocking it, I agreed and we kissed that time. You and Steve where there, just over by the car"
You explain, feeling a little weight being lifted now that you told someone about those times.
"Have you guys talked about it much? Like what you two are? Or what you want to be to one another?
Or has it just kind of gone ignored since the motel?"
She asks, more gentle pokes into you and Eddie's "confusing" relationship.
"We've talked about stuff, mostly just the things we're worried about if something does happy with us, like..a relationship it's not as easy as people think.
Things have...happened, it's not just those times I've already mentioned"
You were trying to say that you fool around but not sure on how much to say. Or how the motel was your first time and yours and Eddies first time together,but it hasn't happened since then.
"What "thingggsss" yn I'm not a mind reader. Have you guys...you know again..?"
"No, we haven't again"
Looking at Robin
"That's the truth....the motel was-was the first time, but since then I guess..Things have got more umm, heated? Between the both of us, though before the motel there was stuff, but I feel like since we..you know, it's been a lot more intense?"
"Instense how?? Like emotionally or, seriously yn what's going on, Cus everyone can see that the two of you want to be all over eachother, and I mean that in the least teasing way possible. He watches you like a lovesick puppy"
She laughs.
"Intense as in...Things have been happening more often, since mm-our first time at the motel"
Scratches your forehead almost slipping up, stuff like this was difficult to talk about, for you anyway.
"It's just not publicly, nothing's official, we fool around just not slept together again. We've talked about "us" and things, the worries of it not working out and ending badly, we've grown up together and to me that's not worth the risk of losing him if we don't work out, Eddie feels the same towards me.
He wants something, he's told me...And by "things" I mean we've fooled around,Robin. We just haven't gone all the way again. We haven't made anything officially only because of the things we're worried about, more so me. But I know he really wants it"
Starting to feel awful now about everything, you go quiet after saying all that, your body language shows.
"Well..."
Robin starts, a little calmer now trying to contain how excited she is by the fact it's even been discussed, so she doesn't overwhelm you
"What do you want?"
She asks, you raise an eyebrow, like you haven't heard that question in a while or hadn't even considered it for yourself.
"I just told you I've told him I—"
The words die on your lips when Robin shakes her head
"No no, I mean,not what you're afraid of, not what you risk losing, in a perfect world, perfect scenario what do you want for you two? Are you content like this? Basically being together behind closed doors but too scared to take it further and more openly?"
She puts her hands up defensively before anything can be said.
"I'm not judging you, I get the fear, believe me I can be an anxious mess, and it's a lot to risk losing, but, do you want to be with him?"
You pause for a moment, not because you need time to think about that, but because whatevers between you and Eddie hasn't been talked about to anyone BUT the pair of you.
You watch them mess about, Eddie picking up another stick and sword fighting Steve with it.
"......The fooling around is, great. The motel was perfect. Yeah, I do...."
"No one can force you into anything, god knows I won't, and Eddie would never pressure you, we all know this.
But I've just never seen people look at eachother like that and NOT give it a shot"
You nod agreeing Eddie would never pressure you.
"I feel like a bad person..."
Shrugging your shoulders feeling low about stuff.
"From the times he's wanted to kiss me in public but hasn't because he knows I get nervous..Or like the time he blocked it, Robin I even told him he couldn't touch me if I agreed...I'm a horrible person..I feel broken or something.
I know I'll miss my chance and someone else will get it."
Robins eyes go wide for a second, before furrowing her brows and folding her arms
"Yn, you're not a bad person for setting boundaries and being scared. The issue is, and correct me if I'm wrong, you want more with him, he wants the same but neither of you are making a move to make it happen. Does he know you want the same thing, eventually at least?"
"Yeah he-.... I don't know...I don't think that's come up, about me wanting things too I mean, the only thing we've mostly talked about was all the things that scare us, I don't think he's aware of that, no..."
Panicking on the inside and kinda showing it, you don't recall ever telling him anything of the sort.
"I'm totally going to mess it up aren't I? He's gonna find someone and it'll get serious this time-"
Hands are out of your pockets now, picking at your fingers staring over at the boys, Robin grabs your hands and stills them, getting your attention back.
"Like I said he follows you around like a lovesick puppy, and he almost caved Hargrove's head in for touching you... he's not gonna move on you've got more than a shot yn...but doing this to yourself won't help. Maybe just start by talking to him, tell him that you didn't mean you never wanted anything, just be direct, don't leave room for interpretation"
Robin was good, and you finally started to see what she had been seeing for months.
"I can tell him...do you think I should..I don't know, make more moves? With him..in public, just completely ignore how nervous it makes me"
"Yes I think you should! Duh! If you're feeling bold enough you kiss him when you have the urge too, just don't think about it."
She smiles, you nod giving her a small smile back.
"Yeah, sounds easy enough..I-I can kiss him first....We had a talk last night, it was sweet,something that we never even thought about till then. I feel like that might of cemented things in a way, we're already close but if it's even possible I feel like it might of brought us closer.."
Dropping your head blushing.
"Really? That's great, can I ask, What was it about?"
"Uhh.."
You say with a little nervous laugh.
"About other people funny enough...he just asked if I had been with anyone and I asked him the same after"
"Ah gotcha gotcha-"
Robin's cut off by Steve and Eddie yelling at eachother.
Eddie- "OW YOU DICK"
Steve- "You STARTED IT"
She snickers
"You got this don't think about it too much okay?"
You nod.
"I'll try, can't promise anything though"
Smiling at Eddie and Steve who decide to race eachother back over to you and Robin, it was a tie.
"Do I have a mark, fucking ass whacked me really hard"
Steve asks Robin, trying to look at his back himself.
"Yes you do you dingus, what are you Five?"
Steve whips the back of Eddie's leg while he wasn't paying attention, catching him off guard
"AHHA! YOU FUCKER"
Eddie whips him back but on the ass and all Steve lets out was
"OOOO"
Making Robin burst out laughing, you cover your mouth trying not to laugh.
"Stop stop ! We don't have enough first aid shit to deal with open lash wounds Jesus"
You tell them, it didn't come out as serious as you wanted it to as you let out a chuckle.
"I think I have one near my shoulder thanks to YOU"
Eddie says raising his stick at Steve just to make him jump, Steve flinches.
"You started it, it was self defence Munson"
"You hardly got whipped Harrington! Pussy"
"Alright alright ladies, are we done? Hold still let me look"
You say lifting the back of Eddie's shirt.
Steve tries hitting Eddies stick out of his hand but gets his finger instead
"OW!"
Eddie sucks in his teeth.
"ENOUGH, give me that..."
Robin takes Steve's stick.
"And give me this.."
Then takes Eddie's and throws them both away.
"You two are ridiculous, and Eddie your back looks like graph paper now but your not bleeding"
"He made my finger bleed...let me whip him again"
Steve hides behind Robin, folding your arms over your chest giving him a 'bad idea' look.
"Eddie you smacked his ass I think you can call it even"
"But he drew blood on me"
"Man you've probably gashed my fucking ass cheek open"
Steve pulls his jeans down enough only showing the top part of his ass cheek and Eddie got him good.
Smacking your hands over your eyes
"Seeeeee his ass is bleeding, your finger is bleeding , call it even STEVE PUT YOUR ASS AWAY"
You tell him
"Reelaxxx I didn't fully flash I just showed the top of one cheek"
Steve rolls his eyes.
"I got a better ass than Munson so"
He shrugs and Eddie scoffs before jumping in with;
"You wish"
"I know we ain't about to have this conversation"
Robin steps in, trying to stop the conversation before it starts.
"Put your ass away before I kick it, this isn't even a debate Steve"
You add, he sorts his jeans out.
"Alright now then, who's is better"
Steve asks looking over at Eddie then at you and Robin.
"We are not doing this, you boys discuss that between yourselves keep me and yn out of it, I do NOT want to see your ass again"
"I agree I'm keeping my mouth shut on this one this is dumb you two"
You say shaking your head before all four of you walk together, Eddie lays his arm over your shoulder
"....You think mine, right?"
Mumbles to you, clicking your tongue quietly and reddens in the face a little bit
"Yes obviously."
Mumbling back to him.
"Got a nice one yourself"
"Yeah well you would know"
You mumble teasing that he's definitely seen it all before, he leans in closer to your ear while Steve and Robin are talking about stuff on their own.
"I can just close my eyes and picture it whenever I want, it's great"
He grins.
"Oh really? you do that often?"
You ask looking at him, teasing you by having his eyes closed
"Oh..ohhh yeeeah"
You let out a small laugh, elbowing him gently
"Dork"
"I'm only Kiddinggg"
He says pressing the side of your head with a kiss and smiles.
Your lips tug into an amused smile, lacing your fingers through his dangling over your shoulder.
---Back at Camp---
You've been back at Camp for a while, cooked up some soup and sat around the fire eating it.
When you had finished you caught yourself zoning out again as you watch the fire, only hearing the crackles and not the conversation the three of them were having.
Thinking back to that talk you had with Robin, and how clear things had finally started to be now between you and Eddie, you realised some stuff, that there had been something between the both of you, obviously, but having that talk with Robin and hearing her side of things really opened up your eyes.
It made you not want to miss a chance though Robin's positive Eddie isn't wanting anything with anyone else, you think otherwise but not in a rude way towards him.
It had lifted a lot of worry and overthinking off your shoulders, though of course the worry about the main things was still there.
The one thing you've been thinking hard on all day was being the first to make a move, just a small one made you feel like you were about to start sweating buckets trying to figure how and when you should do it.
Eddie was sat behind you again, back against his chest and a blanket over the both of you,his arms wrapped around your knees you had to your chest, his chin was resting on the top of your head till he moves it to your shoulder
"Are you warm enough sweetheart? I can get you a hoodie if you want"
He softly says against your hair, giving you a light squeeze.
Even things like this, him being so caring and sweet yet probably not even realising it himself, made your stomach flip with butterflies.
You smile laying your head against his
"No, I'm ok. Thank you though"
You say back, hiding the smile against the blanket.
Eddie scoots up behind you more making sure the blanket was fully wrapped around you.
Robin and Steve had a blanket each, but Steve shared his with Robin knowing she gets cold easily.
The warmth from Eddies body and the blanket was more than enough, if you could, you'd stay like this all night till the sun comes up.
That's when it clicked, the moment was perfect...the fire was crackling away and apart from those sounds all you could hear was the light talking from Steve and Robin on the other side of the fire.
Heart pounding against your chest you prayed Eddie wasn't feeling it, it was now or never, well...till you get the confidence back but who knows when that would be.
Just as Eddie lifts his chin off your shoulder to stretch his neck out from side to side, you turn on your side slightly , enough to see his face
"...Hey, Eddie.."
You quietly say, trying not to show the nervousness in your voice, looking up at him, his face was perfectly casted with shadows and golden hues from the campfire, his eyes sparkling as he watches it.
"Hmm?"
He hums looking down at you, you gulp slightly, lifting up a hand that's still holding a fistful of the blanket placing it on the side of his neck, you stretch up a little, he doesn't question how close you had put your faces, he just stares into your eyes.
Then you go for it...pulling him down the rest of the way by his neck, pressing a soft but firm kiss to his lips, his hold on you softens as he melts into it, then you feel his arm begin to lift and the blanket about to cover you till you stop it,
gently putting his arm down because you wasn't wanting to hide it this time, but he thought you would've wanted to.
The kiss slowly breaks as he pulls away, looking down at you a little confused, then quickly looks up which you knew he was looking over at Steve and Robin, before he focuses back on you with a smile slowly forming on his mouth.
You don't say a word, partly because you had no idea what to say, but also because the moment was just perfect, all you do is smile back up at him, knowing that it had made him happy.
He glances at your lips and you just nod, knowing he wanted another kiss, this time being met with his lips on yours first, his hand was hesitant at wanting to be placed on your cheek, not knowing if you'd be comfortable with that also being done in public, so he kept it on your shoulder, brushing his fingers purposely against your neck.
Lips slowly moving in perfect sync you nudge his arm, telling him it's ok to hold your face, it took a couple nudges till you smile against his lips and lift up his arm, his hand immediately cupping your cheek he smiles back.
Once the kiss breaks, Eddie has the biggest smile on his face as he looks down at you.
even that made you blush and you started it first, turning yourself back around to face the fire, noticing Robin and Steve grinning over at you witnessing the whole thing.
Robin quietly claps her hands, more like light tapping, as she smiles at you, Eddie let's out a huff hitting the top of your head till you feel him hide his face in the back of your neck laughing a little.
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Saying your goodnights to Robin and Steve a few feet away by shouting it like their across the damn lake.
Then heading into your shared tent with Eddie who gets it zipped up.
"It's more colder tonight, don't you think?"
You say pulling out an extra blanket, laying it over your bed.
"Yeah Jesus it feels like it dropped in just the last ten minutes"
He says rummaging around in his bag
"Here sweetheart"
He says tossing you an extra hoodie from his bag.
"That might be because your not wearing one..."
Squinting your eyes at him a little
"You just wearing shorts again? I don't think so.Its freezing you'll get sick"
Tossing it back to him trying not to smile,you know he's gonna fight about it.
"Woman I swear-"
He comes over and slips it over your head so it remains bunched up over your shoulders and around your neck
"I sleep better without a shirt you know this"
Giving you a kiss on the top of your head
"Ughhh"
You groan putting it on properly now glaring at him.
"Yeah well......whatever then. It smells nice"
Trying to think of something smart to say back but getting stuck, mumbling the last part about it smelling nice.
"I have extra sweatpants too if you need?"
You simply shake your head, climbing under the covers which he takes as a hint to do the same.
You make sure he has enough of the blankets covering him considering he's only in shorts, the torch was still on above your heads as you always have random talks before both passing out.
"Are you sure your warm enough? I'm not gonna wake up in the morning and you've turned to ice"
You chuckle, He laughs pushing some hair out of your face, his fingertips are cold but the rest of him felt like a furnace before you were even touching.
"No no, I'm fine have you seen how many blankets you brought? You almost brought all of the ones we own. I'm okay sweetheart"
You smile laying your head into the pillow more.
"All but one I think"
You add,just looking at him, even with just the one torch it lit up the tent the perfect amount, softly hitting his face.
"Yeah, the one we left on our bed"
His fingers linger in your hair, silently deciding everything about this was perfect, the whole weekend had been but especially right now, laying with eachother in a dimly lit tent, practically being swallowed by blankets.
"I um...I just wanted to ask"
He hesitates for a moment.
"That kiss, by the fire, where'd that come from?"
He was definitely not upset by it, wearing his signature grin, and a pink tint to his cheeks.
"N-not that that was a problem, I'm really glad you did actually, you've just never done that, in front of people I mean."
He quickly adds, you give him a small smile dropping your eyes to the tattoo on his chest, not sure why that made you shy.
"........I know I haven't, I just, wanted to?"
laughing nervously against the blanket
"The whole public thing makes me nervous but- *you shrug* The moment felt right to-to kiss you and to forget what I'm worried about because-"
Stopping yourself before you could finish , not sure on how to tell him that you didn't mean you never wanted anything with the both of you, everything you talked to Robin about suddenly left your mind.
"Because...?"
He presses gently feeling a little bit nervous himself, he knows it makes you nervous so you can take your time. For now he was just glad that you'd done it.
He catches your hand before you could start picking at them nervously.
Instantly playing with his rings when he takes your hand.
"....When we had that talk awhile back , about...us, and I told you things that scared me..That-that wasn't me saying I never want something to happen, between us...like, at all"
He seems a little taken aback, but also seems to relax instantly when you say that, like a weight had been lifted or he'd finally unclenched his jaw. Just relieved.
"I didn't want to assume you meant that, but I just...I never wanted to make you uncomfortable or seem like I'm pushing..."
He says softly.
"I never thought or even felt like you were pushing Ed, with anything. Those times I got nervous with things in public wasn't because I was uncomfortable with you or that you made me uncomfortable, you've never done that either. I think...I think it's just more me, if that makes sense? Um..yeah just myself."
Nibbling on the blanket unsure of how to say what you're trying to, or if he'd understand that.
"It's okay...hey I understand it's okay, if it helps I'm not upset. And if you're nervous I never want to make that worse for you. The hardest part honestly is just the amount of brain power I have to muster up not to kiss you in public."
You smile a little at that, but not helping to feel a bit down and angry with yourself with how nervous you were about things, not wanting him feeling like he has to wait for you to stop being "silly".
"If you ever want something that-that feels more real, which isn't me..I won't be mad at you. I'll be mad at myself for missing my chance and for not growing balls and just being that person,for you."
Quickly looking him in the eyes before dropping your focus back to the strands of hair fallen down his chest.
"W-what I'm trying to say is, I'm not forcing you to wait, I won't be angry with you for wanting something better. Who doesn't make you feel like you have to tiptoe or something around her while out in public..
someone who isn't a bitch and moves when you lean in to kiss her."
letting out a shaky breath, hating the thought of someone else getting to have him that way, but you wouldn't be mad at him, you'd hate yourself. But you dont want him to feel forced to stick with you, you only want what's best for him.
His grip on your hand tightens a little bit, brows furrowed in both confusion and a little bit of hurt, not because you'd offended him but because it hurt a little to hear you think he'd want someone better or that you was a bitch for moving when he'd tried to kiss you.
of course that hurt but if anything it made him feel like he'd overstepped, but he was never mad at you.
"Sweetheart do you really think I'd wait at all if it wasn't what I wanted? I stopped thinking about looking for anything in middle school cus I knew you were it for me...you're not a bitch for being scared, hell I'm a bit scared too, we talked about that remember? I'm not gonna find something or someone better than you."
His hand had abandoned your hair, and instead came to your face to cup your cheek.
"Nothing I said at the motel has changed since then...and it's not going to."
Your eyes get glossy all of a sudden, blinking it away a few times.
"Nothing I-I said has changed either. I just want what's best for you, I guess sometimes I don't feel like I am what's best. But-but that's nothing on your part, it's just me.."
You reply rubbing the blanket over your lips zoning out somewhere.
"Nope"
He says firmly, leaning forwards to press his forehead to yours
"No, absolutely not, don't do that to yourself."
He scans your eyes making sure you were paying attention to what he's saying.
"You will never be anything less than what's best for me, you are everything to me, I love you... you bring out the best in me...Don't ever think anything less of yourself okay?"
Only managing a nod as you hold his wrist softly, taking everything in you to not tear up and keep your breathing controlled.
When you feel able to, you reply with what you'd been wanting to say again
"I love you too,Eddie"
Sparking the flutters in your stomach.
It makes his stomach flip in the best way, he begins to press some kisses to your face, starting at your forehead, and coming down and hiding his face in your neck because he was bright red.
"I love you so much you have no idea."
He was taking Steve's mentioned advice, saying it when he could, even if your hair was muffling it this time.
You smile and wrap an arm around his shoulders, fingers softly grazing the back of his neck up to his scalp.
"You've no idea either.."
You say nudging your face into his shoulder.
"About how much I love you.."
Your hand slides back down to the back of his neck where you grip gently, pulling him closer. But he really didn't have any idea,
not even things you'd do to keep him safe, though you knew exactly what he would do for you...
He kisses gently up your neck from where his face had been hidden, to your jaw, and then finally giving you a kiss on the lips, not too long, not wanting to push his luck at all, but firm enough so you knew how genuine it was
"I'm serious, don't ever think that you aren't what's best for me. Okay?"
You smile moving your arm to wrap around his waist,getting as close as you can while still being face to face.
"Okay..."
You reply, nudging noses together before giving him a soft but firm kiss back.
He simply smiles against your lips kissing back. It was soft, but firm, needy but slow, and filled with every bit as much love as your conversation had been.
Beyond the hand cupping your cheek his free one pulled you against his bare chest.
He gave off warmth like a furnace and you got cold easily, often he was like your own personal space heater.
"Thank you for telling me all of that..."
He whispered once your lips parted.
"Of course, I wanted you to know"
Placing your hand on his jaw, thumb softly rubbing his chin and brushing his bottom lip slightly. Feeling like you could kiss him all night.
"I should be the one saying thank you"
Gliding your hand to the back of his head.
"Thank me? For what?"
He says chuckling softly,
absentmindedly leaning into your touch, especially when your hand brushes across his cheek on the way back to his neck.
"For being extremely sweet, duh. And you know...for the talk lastnight when I told you about the motel..I knew you wouldn't care but I was still nervous to say. For helping me with things, like helping me sleep...
(meaning the pills and weed)
You've always been sweet Eddie, I think I'm trying to say thank you"
You laugh hiding into the blanket, hating how you ramble on and on instead of getting to the point.
"Sweetheart it is my pleasure to help you with anything you could possibly need, for as long as you'll let me. And, for the record I am only sweet for you."
He says with a small grin, playfully nipping at your neck.
"I am at your service for as long as you want me"
You giggle at his little bites, scrunching up hiding your neck in your shoulder
".....Forever? Even when we both cark it and cause chaos in hell?"
You ask with a sweet smile combing out his bangs with your fingers.
"Oh god especially then are you kidding??"
He gives you a half serious look not able to cover up a cheeky grin.
"Better not ditch me for some hot demon chick Edward"
Holding his jaw shaking it a little roughly, giving him a serious glare.
"If I'm going after any hot Demon chick it's gonna be you, you'll be the HOTTEST demon chick, so hot it'll put actual hellfire to shame"
Your glare softens on him, pouting slightly in awe
"I'm-I'm a hot demon chick..? Reeallyyyyy?"
Your voice getting squeaky at the "really" , then grinning, attacking his neck back with nips and demonic growls.
"Ah! Shit! bitten to death by a hot demon!"
He says dramatically before settling and welcoming the nips in his neck
"Damn what a metal way to go."
He adds making you chuckle and flop back down beside him, keeping your hand on the side of his neck rubbing it with your thumb.
"Very metal, Munson"
You smile, glancing at his lips.
"Couldn't ask for a better way to go out,"
He says, paying more attention now, to all the little things Steve had mentioned you do on a regular basis, and again, he caught a glance at his lips. Normally, he'd hesitate a bit, or in public entirely fight down the urge to lean in and kiss you, but picking up your hints, and the privacy provided by the tent and the cover of night, this was a 'fuck it' moment.
Ever the gentleman his hands stayed at your cheek and between your shoulder blades when he kisses you, gently, but deeply.
You smile against his lips and keep one hand on the side of his neck, leaning into his lips more.
Gentle deep kisses,mixed with soft hums from the both of you.
You lay up on your side, lips still connected and gliding your hand down his neck to the middle of his chest, slowly leaning over him till he smirks, pushing your lips harder together so you'd have no option but to lay flat on your back again, not letting you have whatever control you tried to take.
"Really...? You can't even for a minute?"
You ask shaking your head rubbing his bottom lip with your thumb.
He grins.
leaning into the touch of your hand on his cheek, and thumb on his lips, turning just enough to press a light kiss to your open wrist, he was half above you, held up by one arm, and the other cupping the side of your face, memorizing details down to how soft your skin felt, or the shade of pink that your cheeks got when you were like this.
He hummed briefly as if in thought before opening his mouth
"Nope"
He presses a peck to your lips then pauses
"I like the view too much from here"
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