I Miss You
By vallwrites
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I miss you,
my love.
I miss the way we would lie in bed together
for hours on end,
not even speaking a word,
because we didn't have to,
just being in each other's arms was comfort enough.
We had no shame around each other,
you saw the ugly side to me,
the messy side that wore no makeup,
who had unbrushed hair thrown into a bun.
You would stroke my cheek,
gaze over my insecurities.
I expected a look of disgust to coat your face,
but...
you smiled.
You smiled when you saw the real me,
the messy me.
You placed a kiss on my head
and you held me while I cried.
You whispered,
calling me beautiful,
and that only made me weep more
because, in that moment,
I knew
that I would love you forever.
You saw all my cracks,
listened to every word I spoke,
saw the beauty in my broken self.
I told you about my life,
about my past,
I told you about all the nasty things that happened to me,
I told you my traumas
and my fears.
You told me
you'd never let anyone hurt me again.
You made me feel safe.
God, I miss that feeling.
I miss feeling safe,
the way I always would when I was with you.
I miss just about everything about you;
the way you'd make me laugh
but humiliate yourself in the process
just to see a smile upon my face.
I miss your moody behaviours,
I miss our petty arguments
that sometimes ended in our laughter
because of how stupid it was.
I miss the way you would brush my hair.
You were the only person who ever did that.
I never let any other man brush my hair now,
because the trust I had with you
can never be given to any other person
who fights for my heart.
I miss those notes you would write me,
even though they were so cheesy that it made me laugh.
I miss the box of chocolates that you would surprise me with
just because you knew how much I loved them.
I miss the way you took care of me
when you realised what was going on in my life and found out that I hadn't received a lot of love from the people I was supposed to.
You truly did save me
and you made me a better person in the process.
So, thank you.
Just know
that
I miss you.
01.09.2022