OLIVIA FIND herself back in the bathroom, preparing to take a refreshing shower. It's getting late, so she need to head home soon. As the water cascades over her body, she can't help but dwell on the thing that transpired between her and Tyler. It all feels like a hazy dream, but deep down, she knows it was far from pleasant.
She's feeling a mix of emotion. It was her first time, and she had no idea it could be so incredibly pleasurable. Whenever those memories flash, her cheeks instantly blush, as if reliving the moment all over again.
Tyler already saw her naked. That thing can't get out of her head, it keeps on coming back as if it was haunting her. She bite her lips as the scene of her having an intimate séx with him last night appear on her mind. Di niya akalain na ganon kalaki ang àri nito, hindi niya ma-imagine kung paano iyon nagkasya sa kweba niya. It was painful but definitely the best thing she did in her entire life.
After taking a shower nagbihis agad sya ng damit na suot niya kanina papunta dito sa bahay ni Tyler. Nasa banyo sya ng binata at nasa labas ito ngayon naghihintay sa kanya, hindi niya kasi to pinapansin.
Naiinis sya dahil hindi niya alam na ganon pala kasakit ang umihi pagkatapos mapunit ang kaberhenan. May tumulo pa ngang luha dahil hindi niya mapigilang masaktan, sobrang hapdi na parang sinisilaban ng apoy, she swear it was so painful to the point na ayaw na niyang magsalita.
She don't want to do it again but at the same time she loves it—aish, i'm crazy.
Habang sinusuklayan ang buhok sa harap ng salamin, may napansin syang mapula pula pero nangingitim na marka sa gilid ng leeg, nervous eat her when she found out it was a hickey.
“No...” -hindi makapaniwalang sambit niya. “Holy—”
She fisted her hand as she turn her gaze infront of the door. “Tyler Montellion” -she murmured “Lagot ka talaga sakin ngayon”
Nanggagalaiting lumabas sya ng banyo na ikinagulat naman ng lalaking kaharap niya. With her fury and feisty eyes, she shouted.
“I hate you!”
Tyler was taken aback. “Wait what? Why?”
“Dont talk to me, you're making me pissed”
“Bakit? May ginawa ba ako?”
“Ginawa? Tignan mo to”
Pinakita niya ang leeg niyang may maraming marka. Napatingin sya sa mga mata ng binata ng makitang mukha pa itong nasisiyahan. “Why are you smiling?” -she asked, confuse “Are you making fun of me now?”
“Fúck—I mean, don't get me wrong, that thing on your—”
“This is not a thing!” -sigaw niya ulit kaya napaayos ito ng upo “Ayusin mo yang sagot mo”
“Okay calm down” -Tyler breaths “That is a kiss mark”
“Kiss what?”
“Kiss mark” -ulit nito sa sinabi “I'm sorry, I know you're mad because we did it, pero mawawala rin naman yan”
“Paano ako uuwi ng bahay?”
“I'll drive you home?”
“Tarantado ka ba?”
He look her. “Don't be mad. Stop shouting, I don't wanna cry”
“Tyler...” -nagtitimping tawag niya sa pangalan ng binata “Ang ibig kong sabihin paano ako uuwi kung may ganito sa leeg ko? Paano kung mapansin ito ni tatay?”
“Papanagutan kita”
Sinamaan niya ito ng tingin. “Im not talking about how you smashed my v¡rginity. Im talking about this kiss mark on my neck”
Realization hit him. “Oh”
“What Oh?”
“We will buy a turtle neck dresses or any shirts that has a capability to cover that kiss mark” -napatanga sya saglit. “Problem solve”
“Seriously? At sa tingin mo may panahon pa ako para mag mall?” -napapadyak sya sa inis “Tyler naman eh...”
Napaupo sya sa kama saka mabilis na tinakpan ang mukha gamit ang palad. Shes really lost. Magagalit sa kanya ang ama niya kapag nalamang isinuko na niya ang bataan. Gusto ng tatay niya na makapagtapos sya ng pag-aaral at makahanap ng trabaho bago itong kalandian, she's frustrated, sa dami dami ng problema niya hindi niya alam kung paano haharapin lahat.
She feel his sense moving closer to her na agad naman niyang hinarap. Tyler wrapped his arms around her from the side and gently kissed the back of her neck. “Im sorry”
Olivia felt the sincerity on his voice. Na gui-guilty tuloy sya dahil sa ginawa kanina, how can she act like that and shout at him when in the first place it was her fault and it was her will to give herself to him? How ironic, she know she should never blame him, they both enjoyed it.
“Please don't tell me you regret everything that happened” -ani Tyler na nagpatingin sa kanya rito “What I did and you did, are something that I'll treasure forever. I hope you'll remember that”
Tumingala sya sa kisame at pinunasan ang luha niya.
“Baby.” -Tyler called her out again “I love you, so much. And I want you to know that even if you don't like it. I don't regret. Im so sorry if I did stole your v¡rginity and took advantage of it, humihingi ako ng tawad, ayokong isipin mo na wala lang yon sakin. Please.. please don't cry, I feel like you're disgusted and that you want to stay away from me, wag kang umiyak sa harap ko, pakiusap”
Umiling sya sa sinabi nito.
“Ginusto ko ang nangyari, okay? Kaya wag kang mag isip ng kung ano ano jan”
Dahil sa sinabi niya bigla syang niyakap ng binata na ikinatanga niya sa kawalan. “You did? You like it?”
Dahan dahan syang tumango kahit nagulat sa yakap nito.
“Pero...”
“Hmm? Pero ano?”
“Pero masakit yong ano ko...” -she bend her head “Alam mo na”
Olivia can see how this man in front of her smiling inside, nakikita niya kasi sa itsura nito kung paano pigilan yong ngiti.
“Im sorry”
“Oo na” -aniya “Gusto ko nang umuwi”
Tumango tango ito na para bang naiintindihan kung ano ang gusto niyang mangyari, marahan sya nitong hinila patayo at mabilis na ginawaran ng halik. “Kanina ka pa” -sita niya “Suntukin ko yang labi mo eh”
“Why my baby so cute? Ayaw na tuloy kitang i-uwi”
Mahina syang natawa. “Hindi pwedi. Maiitak ka ni tatay”
“Now thinking of it. Should we tell him about—”
“No” -mabilis niyang sambit “Hindi pwedi”
“But—”
“We will keep it a secret. Promise me hindi mo sasabihin kay tatay” -aniya “Tyler please”
Kumunot agad ang nuo ng kaharap. Nagtatagis ang bagang nito na animoy hindi nagustuhan ang sinabi.
“Stop saying please to me” -malamig nitong sabi “I promise not to tell tatay about that thing”
Nakahinga naman sya ng maluwag ng marinig ang sagot. Hindi niya ma-imagine na malalaman ng tatay niya, if lying to her father can at least calm her down. Then fine, so be it.
Hinapit sya ni Tyler palapit sa katawan nito. Iniyakap niya ang dalawang braso sa leeg ng binata saka marahang tinitigan ang mga matang masyadong puno ng misteryo.
Hindi sya makapaniwala na ang isang katulad ni Tyler ang makakakuha ng pagkababàe niya. She maybe regret half of the thing that happened to her and to Tyler but the rest of it are surely from the bottom of her heart. She enjoy it. No—she love it.
“Are we okay?”
She stared on him. “Hmm?”
“Are we okay?” -Tyler asked again
“Bakit?”
“I mean... Yes we did it, but, are we okay? Do you still mad at me?”
That shut her up. Okay nga ba sila? Yong nangyari... hindi dapat yon nangyari pero nangyari parin, she's confused. She know she should stop seeing him even after what they did pero heto, nakayakap sya kahit alam niyang malabong maging sila. Tyler's fiancee threatened her, kung totoo man na engaged to kailangan niyang mag isip ng tama.
“Baby?”
“Im sorry, what?”
“Okay ba tayo?”
Sighing, she gave her a weak smile. “H-hindi ko alam”
She have to be honest. Kahit ngayon lang, punong puno na kasi sya. Hindi na niya alam kung ano ba ang relasyon nilang dalawa. She wanted to ask him kung ano bang meron sa kanila but she's thinking about that woman, yong babaeng nakita niya sa palawan.
“Hindi kita iuuwi kung sa tingin mo hindi tayo okay”
Napabitiw sya sa pagkakayakap ng marinig yon. Hawak hawak parin ni Tyler ang bewang niya ng mahigpit.
“Anong ibig mong sabihin?”
“Baby, can't you see? Sa tingin mo ba papakawalan kita pagkatapos ng nangyari satin?” -mahinang tanong nito “Hindi pweding hindi tayo okay. We will fix this problem”
“Tyler—”
“I can't let you go. Fúcking no, tell me what’s wrong para mapag-usapan natin. Is it about that professor? Sya naman yong nagsimula ng lahat”
This is it again. Mukhang hindi nito alam na ang ugali nito ang pinoproblema niya. “Its not about him, its not about that professor”
“Why are you siding him?”
“Hindi ko sya pinapanigan. Hindi mo ba nakikita? Yan—” -she pointed him “Yang ugali mo. I already told you na nasasakal ako”
Wala pang segundo ang lumipas ng lumambot ang itsura ng kaharap niya at hinawakan sya sa mukha.
“Okay. I understand, please... please don't leave me, nagagalit ka na naman”
“Hindi ako galit. Sinasabi ko lang sayo ang totoo”
“I know baby, I know”
Niyakap siya ni Tyler ng mahigpit kaya hinayaan niya. Kapag ito na ang nagpapalambing, asahan mong hindi ka makakawala.
Nagtagal sila ng trenta minuto sa loob ng bahay nito. They simply embraced each other until they decided to leave and go back home. They talked about things that could pass the time habang nasa kotse. They mentioned about his favorite food, movies, colors, and various other topics. They also talked about his favorite sports, and music.
All in all, after knowing everything, Olivia seems happy, gusto niya ring sabihin kay Tyler lahat ng gusto at paborito niya pero mukhang hindi na niya pweding gawin, why would she ask anyway?
Tyler is obsessed with her.
PAGDATING SA bahay ay nadatnan niya ang ama na kumakain mag isa. Pumasok sya kasama si Tyler habang tinatakpan ang leeg gamit ang buhok. She have to be careful, one wrong move, she'll be doomed.
“Tay.”
“Tatay”
Sabay nilang bati. Nagmano sila pareho at umupo sa harap ng mesa. “Bakit ngayon ka lang umuwi Yesha? San ba kayo nagpunta?” -sunod naman nitong tiningnan si Tyler “Ikaw Jeremy? San mo dinala tong anak ko”
Hinawakan sya ng binata sa kamay ng mahigpit.
“Namasyal lang kami Tay. Pasensya na kung natagalan”
“O-opo Tay. Pasensya na” -segunda niya
“Okay na kayong dalawa?”
She sat straight. Si Tyler naman nakangiti ng malaki. “Were good Tay. Really good”
Namula ang pisngi niya dahil lang sa simpleng sagot ng katabi. Iba ang pumasok sa isip niyang They're good.
Hala! Napaka green minded niya na!
“Mabuti naman. Iiyak iyak ka dito kagabi. Tch! Akala ko kung anong nangyari”
“Is that bad?” -Tyler look at her “If you love that person, kahit sa simpleng hindi nyo pag-uunawan, iiyak ka.”
Her father just groan. “Hindi mo nga lang makita anak ko, iiyak ka na”
Natawa silang tatlo. Tignan mo nga naman kung gaano sila ka close. Yong pamilya niyang wasak, ngayon kahit papano unti unting nabubuo dahil sa mga ngiti na binibigay ni Tyler. She love the thought of him being with her for the rest of her life—their life.
After talking to her father. Nauna na itong pumasok ng kwarto, she and Tyler still hugging in each other's arm. Magaan sa pakiramdam na okay na okay yong tatay niya sa kanilang dalawa, it was as if welcome na welcome talaga sa pamilya nila ang lalaking kayakap niya.
Hinahalik halikan ni Tyler ang gilid ng kanyang nuo habang sinasabi kung gaano sya nito kamahal. She appreciate it. She love him actually, hindi niya lang masabi dahil sobrang komplikado.
She wanna tell him how much she loves him, na pareho rin sila ng nararamdaman at gusto niyang ipagsigawan kung gaano niya ito ka kamahal. But she's stopping herself, naaalala niya palagi yong sinabi nong babae sa kanya. They're already engaged at kung totoo man yon, ayaw niyang makasira. Masakit man, pero hindi niya kayang sya ang maging dahilan kung bakit hindi to matutuloy, marami na syang nakikita na ganon sa isang telebisyon. Para syang naging kontrabida sa lagay niya, at nasasaktan sya sa isiping yon.
“Love?” -Tyler called her “You sleepy?”
“Not yet” -sagot niya.
“Oh.”
“Bakit?” -tumingala sya para makita ang gwapo nitong pagmumukha “Inaantok ka na ba?”
“Nope. Pag ikaw katabi ko hindi ako aantukin”
“Sus, nambola pa”
“What’s nambola?”
She pressed her lips together. Mukhang mag e-explain na naman sya. “Wala” -sagot niya saka kumuwala sa pagkakayakap “Uuwi ka ba after this?”
“Definitely. Ayokong maitak ni tatay”
Natawa sya ng marinig ang sagot. “Takot ka talaga kay tatay ano?”
“Oo naman, takot na takot” -hinawakan sya nito sa mukha “But you know what? I'm more than afraid of you”
Sinamaan niya to ng tingin, yong tipong matatakot talaga. “Bakit? Mukha ba akong multo?”
Tyler chuckled. “Halika nga dito”
Hinayaan niyang yakapin sya ulit ng binata. Napakasarap sa feeling na ganito silang dalawa, na hindi sya natatakot at parang sobrang gaan lang ng pakiramdam, noon... tinatanong niya sa sarili kung may tao bang magkakagusto sa kanya, lahat nalang kasi ng manliligaw niya kinabukasan hindi na nagpapakita. Nawawalan na sya ng pag-asa na may magmamahal sa kanya. She can't help but send a silent prayer to God, hoping for someone who would embrace and love her unconditionally, just as she is.
But to her surprise, God granted her the most extraordinary man, without her even realizing that he was the one she had longed for all along. Unbeknownst to her, he had been silently following her for quite some time, which may sound unsettling, but she had no control over it. As time passed, she found herself gradually falling for him, unable to resist his irresistible charm.
Jeremy Tyler Yamaç Montellion - one of the most sought-after and affluent men, and a god created whose physical appearance seemed to be exquisitely crafted by a divine hand. He was the man she never expected to cross paths with, but destiny had brought them together in the most unexpected manner.
“Tyler?”
“Hmm?”
“Bakit mo ko nagustuhan?” -tanong niya kapagkuwan, “Bakit ako?”
Tyler heaved a breath. “You seriously asking me that?”
She nod.
“I didn't know either. But... when I first laid my eyes on you, you completely turned my whole system upside down”
“San mo ba ako nakita?”
“At your school, Weston International” -saglit tong napahinto “I thought liking someone could be a waste of time, an immature feeling and a word that shouldn't put on a dictionary. But fúck. When I saw you? I know I'm fúck up”
Talagang kumabog ng mabilis ang dibdib niya, hindi niya alam pero para syang kinikilig na kinakabahan.
“Sa school? What year?”
“You're thirteen years old that time”
Napamaang ang labi niya. “Ano?T-Thirteen?”
“Yep” -ani nito na parang wala lang
“Seryoso?”
“Im fúcking serious baby” -hinawakan sya nito sa baba “You're thirteen. I was actually 21 that time when I saw you” -Olivia was so stunned when Tyler kissed her. “And caught my heart like a thief”
Their lips stayed for a second, running out of breath, their eyes even lock to each other.
“Matagal kong hinintay ang pagkakataong ito para mayakap at mahalikan ka” -dugtong nitong sabi “Lahat nang nangyayari sakin na kasama ka, parang isang panaginip lang, and if this is a dream? I don't wanna wake up anymore”
Napalunok sya nang sunod sunod.
“Eight years... Eight years bago kita nakilala” -aniya “Bakit hindi ka lumapit sakin? Bakit kailangang maging stalker kita?”
“You know that I'm your stalker?”
“god, Tyler” -sinamaan nya ito ng tingin “I know that you are. Noong unang kita natin kilala mo na ako, lumuhod ka sa harapan ko at bigla mo nalang akong niyakap” -sinimangutan niya to “You said I love you’s to me. Everytime. You always said how much you love me, you know my father, you always send those groceries in my house, and lastly... pinapasok mo ako sa skwelahan na gustong gusto ko” -mapakla syang ngumiti “I actually know that you're... obsessed with me”
Nakita niyang ang pagdaan ng gulat sa mga mata nito. “I know everything” -she added “You hate seeing a lot of guys gawking around me, you hate men who are talking to me, you don't want anyone get in touch with me, you don't want every piece of them touching me”
“Madali kang magalit kapag may mga lalaking umaaligid sakin. Kapag nag aaway tayo, umaamo yang mukha mo at umiiyak ka, ayaw mo na nagagalit ako” -she blow a loud breath “Ano pa nga bang maitatawag sa pinaggagawa mo?”
“I-im sorry, I mean—”
“Dont say that” -hinawakan niya to sa kamay “Hindi mo kasalanang nararamdaman mo yan”
“I know that but—”
“There's something's wrong inside of your head, right?” -she ask, cutting him off again “Tell me, when you first brought me inside of your house, why were you talking to yourself? Bakit mo sinasaktan sarili mo? Bakit mo sinasabi sakin noon na may mga taong bumubulong sa isip mo na iiwan kita?” -she caressed his cheek “May problema hindi ba? May problema dito”
She pointed his temple.
This past few month, Olivia has been diligently trying to make sense of everything unfolding her around. Dahil nga hindi sya mapakali, she took a conduct thorough research. However, her fear intensified as she discovered the unsettling truth behind—Tyler need’s a help.
Mabuti nalang at nakapag-open topic sila ngayon, kailangan niya itong tanungin. It maybe creepy, but there's no backing out.
“Tyler.” -hinawakan niya to sa kamay ng makitang hindi nagsasalita “You can tell me”
“Shit”
“Tyler—”
“N-No...”
Bigla nalang itong tumayo. “Hey—”
“—No” -sagot nito sa kanya at tila pinapatigil sya “You're not thinking that I'm crazy right?”
With her brows furrowed, she look at him confused. Ano bang pinagsasabi nito? She never think that way.
“Tyler—”
“N-no” -pigil ulit nito sa kanya “Please baby. Please tell me that you're not thinking that”
“Of course not”
“Inaamin kong may bumubulong sakin, pero nawala na sila. Im not crazy. Hindi ako baliw, wag mo kong iiwan. Oo, obsessed ako sayo, I admit that, fúcking admit that. Tangina” -napahilamos to sa mukha “W-wag mo kong iwan. Hindi ako baliw, wala naman na sila”
“Calm down, please?”
“Bumabalik lang naman sila kapag hindi kita nakikita, kapag nag-aaway tayo, kapag may nakakapag trigger sakin na may taong gusto kang kunin at ilayo” -napakagat ito sa labi “H-hindi mo naman ako iiwan diba?”
Parang pinunit na naman ang puso niya ng makita ang mga luha nitong nag-uunahan sa pagtulo. “Im not crazy. You can't leave me, tangina, hindi pwedi...” -nagmamakaawa ang mga mata nitong tumingin sa kanya “Bakit ba naungkat ang usapan na yan? Hindi mo naman iniisip na baliw ako diba? Hindi ako ganon, mahal kita, yon lang yon.”
Dahan daha syang naglakad papunta dito at mabilis na niyakap ng mahigpit.
“Calm down”
“L-Love—”
“You're at it again. You can't let that emotion eat you” -she said “I wont leave you, I promise... I can't leave my baby”
Ramdam niyang natigilan to sa sinabi niya. She caressed his back, patting it carefully. “Calm down okay?” -she hush “You're gonna be fine”
“I love you”
She smile bitterly. Ah, that line. She wants Tyler to be okay before she confessed to him, kailangan muna niyang masigurong maayos ang kalusugan nito before she tell him about her love. This affection that she's feeling can't make her happy.
Actually, to make matters even more complicated right now, Tyler is engaged to someone else. It's a heartbreaking realization for her but she need to endure. He is also struggling mentally, but then again, she need to face it. Mahirap, pero kakayanin. Pasasaanpa't malalagpasan din nila lahat ang problema. Hindi ipapakilala sa kanya ng panginoon si Tyler kung susukuan niya. Everything has a reason, and she will use that reason to help him.