Day 9 17.06.2022
"What. The. Actual. Fuck." Apo said.
He was currently laying in his bed, next to his boyfriend.
"What happened?"
"Look at this !"
"Woah, what the.. Tawan and Gun are friends now?"
"Well I know Off and Gun are kinda dating right now. I love Tawan as a big brother but I swear to god if they screw with Gun, I will kill him."
"Calm down baby. Why would they-"
"Listen Mile.. Gun got bullied almost all his life. Tawan, Off and Arm are the universities playboys and this actually started with Jumpol fucking with Gun's feelings. I mean - I really hope for Gun to be happy but I just can't trust Off."
"I get what you mean. But to be honest - Tawan loves Joss. Joss is your brother PLUS he loves Gun. I'm pretty sure Tawan knows better than to hurt his boyfriends brothers." Mile said.
"I hope so. I don't mean no harm I just want Gun to be really happy for once."
"I totally understand."
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Day 19 27.06.2022
First day of school.
"They're official !" Gun said and squeeled in joy.
"Who's official?"
"Your second enemy." Tawan said jokingly to Off who just sat there, staring at his best friend with a death glare.
"Apo and Mile are finally OFFICIALLY a couple." Gun said and Off's eyes widened.
"What?!"
Tawan and Arm watched their best friend amused.
They knew that Off was in love with Gun and jealous of every living boy near the youngest but it was still funny to them to see Off act like a stubborn child.
They were currently sitting at the canteen.
It was the first day of school for them, Off passed his classes, Tawan and Arm were sleep deprived and the other students couldn't help but stare. Why ?
Simple. Gun sat with them.
Actually, he could have gone home already, since his lessons for today were already over, but he wanted to spend the break with Off and therefore stayed.
People were whispering about them, trying to find out what the fuck happened at holiday classes and why Jumpol acted all lovey-dovey towards the schools nerd.
"See. One enemy less." Gun said jokingly and Tawan and Arm couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"Ah shut up you guys." Off said to his best friends and turned back to Gun.
He grabbed the youngers hand and smiled.
"So they're official, Tawan and Joss are and your brother and Billkin too. When's our turn?"
"Off.. stop." Gun said shy and giggled.
"The others are looking at us."
"I don't care. I'm proud to have you Gun. I want to show the world how much I love you."
"Woah, LOVE ? Did you really just said that?" Arm said shook and Gun turned red.
"Oh it's nothing new to him." Off said cockily.
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-Flashback-
"Off ?"
"Hm?"
Off and Gun sat together in a small café.
It was saturday and Off wanted to see Gun so badly, so they decided to spend their weekend together.
"Off come on ! Order your breakfast now !"
"Oh yes. I'll take the pancakes and some orange juice please."
Off was deep in thoughts, he didn't even realized the waitress next to him until Gun pointed it out.
"I'm sorry I was thinking about you."
"Off.. what ?" Gun said blushing and giggling.
"You know, I missed you. You weren't at school yesterday so I was alone and without your smile I don't like it there."
"You don't like school anyways."
"Yes but WITHOUT YOUR SMILE I absolutely HATE it there."
Both boys laughed and Gun put down the menu to look at Off.
"So.. What's the plan for today ?"
"Let's go to the mall. I need a new shirt. After that I want to go to this new restaurant at the port."
"Okay let's do that." Gun said smiling.
"You look so beautiful when you smile."
"Stop-"
"Hey what about a movie night? You can sleep over at my condo and we watch a few classics ?"
"I would love to !"
Gun saw out of the window.
It was 9am, sunny outside and he felt good. Really good.
He was genuenly happy.
He enjoyed the silence when his phone suddenly vibrated and he got a notification from Off.
"Off Jumpol tagged you in a post ?" He read out loud and opened Instagram.
"OFF ?! What are you doing ? Your followers will be pissed at you ?!"
"So ?"
"What do you mean 'so?' ..? Off ?!"
"I don't care. Gun we're not a couple yet but we're currently dating each other. I don't want a secret relationship so why would I date you in secret ? I want to show the world that I have you by my side. I don't care about my followers that will be mad. It's my life. I want to be happy and I am happy with you. So why bother ?"
"Off.." Gun said quietly with tears in his eyes.
"Oh no don't cry please."
"I'm not crying shut up.." Gun said and Off laughed.
The comments went crazy.
People were saying mean and hurtful things about Gun and Jumpol tried his best to delete them before Gun could see them.
In between all these mean comments there were a few sweet comments and most important - comments from his friends.
"See ? Tawan and Arm love you more than me. They only comment stuff like that under your pic. They're always mean to me tho."
Gun laughed.
"Well you're always mean to them in real." He said and laughed loudly.
"She's your cousin, right?" Gun asked and pointed at Jennies comment.
"Yes my cousin but more like my sister. Weerayut likes her. Asshole."
"Why's he an asshole ? He's in love tho."
"I know.. He's not an asshole for liking her tho. I love Jennie, She's my sister and he's my best friend. I don't want them to be a thing. What if they break up ? I don't wanna lose one of them."
"Off come on. You're not stopping them from being a couple. You're just stopping them from telling you if they become one."
"You know something right?"
"I don't know anything. I just know that he likes her."
"Oh Gunnie please stop. I can't deal with this right now."
"Just saying tho.. Gunnie? Since when do you call me Gunnie ?"
"I don't know.. Apo commented it under your pic and I thought it's cute."
"Oh Off.." Gun said giggling.
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"Papii , what do you think of this Shirt?" Gun asked and Off turned around.
"Looks cute Gun." He said.
"Come here. Let's take a picture."
Off's heart began to pound hard again.
He loved it when Gun wanted to take pictures with him.
Memories.
He felt loved in these moments.
Off sadly had only a few pictures of him as a child.
His grandma and aunt, Jennies mom, took a few.
His parents never.
They missed his whole childhood.
School shows, Christmas, everything.
So Gun taking pictures with him made him emotional.
"You want the Shirt?"
"Yeah kinda but-"
"Then let's go. Get changed." Off said and Gun looked at him confused.
"I'll pay."
"No."
"What ?"
"I mean no. You're not my sugardaddy."
"I want to buy -"
"No."
Gun turned around to go back to the fittingrooms when he saw a bag.
"Oh my-"
"What ? What's wrong Gun?"
"This is the bag my mom had. It's beautiful." Gun looked at the small bag with tears in his eyes. He blinked a few times to get rid of them before he turned to Off with a big smile.
"See. My mom had taste !" He said and put the bag back again before he went to get changed.
Gun stood in the little cabin trying to steady his breath.
He didn't want Off to feel bad because he's crying. They're on a date after all!
He wiped the tears and looked at the mirror one last time.
"Fighting Gun." He said before he left the fittingroom and searched for Off.
"Gun ! Over here." Off shouted and Gun went over to him to the exit.
"I bought the black shirt you said would look good on me." He said proudly.
"Oh really? You will surely look good in it."
"Pretty sure I'll look good without a shirt too."
"Off !" Gun said and blushed.
"Oh you should know that." Off said with a smirk.
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They were currently sitting in the restaurant Off talked about earlier.
It was a beautiful, cozy place and Gun really liked it.
He couldn't help but think that this place looked familiar to him, but.. why ?
Gun ordered Papaya salad and a coke while Off had Green Curry and some sprite.
"Is it good?"
"Super delicious. What about yours Papii ?"
Off smiled.
"It's delicious as well. You wanna taste it ?"
"Thank you." Gun said and Off handed him his filled spoon.
His eyes widened.
"Oh my that's delicious!"
"Told ya Gunnie."
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"Careful there don't trip." Off said as they walked out to the restaurants terrace.
"Thank you na." Gun said and as he looked up he finally remembered why this place was so familiar.
"Apo.." He said and Off's smile faded.
Not that he hates Apo..
He's just still pretty jealous.
"This is were Apo and Mile had their first Kiss !! Oh my god now I know what he meant. It's beautiful here. Thank you so much for taking me here Papii." Gun said and Off's mood changed again in an instant.
"Stop playing with me Gun.." Off whispered giggling.
"Come on ! Let's sit over there at the table."
"You don't wanna leave ?"
"No. I want to sit here with you. Let's order some iced coffee !" Gun said smiling.
OffGun sat down in silence.
It was a beautiful scenery and Gun tried to took it in when Off spoke up.
"Gun I need to tell you something.."
Fuck. That came of really weird.
Gun sat there, eyes wide open and his heart beating like crazy.
"Uhm.. okay ?"
"You know.. I bought that Black shirt earlier.."
Gun relaxed. 'He's talking about the shirt? Damn he scared the shit out of me..' Gun thought.
"I'm so sorry if I made you feel awkward with the shirt thing. I don't want you to see me as a sugardaddy and I don't see me as your sugardaddy myself. I know you could get it yourself but I really just wanted to make you smile.."
"Off it's not that I was mad or something, don't worry. The shirt was expensive and I don't want you to spend so much on me when I can't give it back to you. I'm not rich Papii."
"I know babii, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable."
"Jumpol it's okay.."
"I want to give you something okay ? Close your eyes."
Gun was confused but did what Jumpol told him and closed his eyes.
Jumpol took out a small bag of his shoppingbag and gave it to Gun, who was still very much confused.
"Where did this came from all of a sudden ?" The smaller one asked when Off handed him the bag, Gun's eyes still closed.
"I hid it under my shirt." Off said proudly.
"Now open your eyes and open the gift."
"But it's not my birthday?"
"Gun.. Open the gift now !"
Gun was nervous. Off got him a present, probably expensive and he couldn't give him something in return.
Gun opened the small bag und took a glimpse of the thing inside.
His heart stopped and his eyes filled with tears.
He tried his best to stop the tears from falling but when he took out the small bag they saw at the store earlier he broke.
He wiped away his tears and wanted to thank Off but he just couldn't speak.
"It's okay babii, I know what you wanna say." Off spoke and Gun nodded with a small smile, still crying.
Off stood up and kneeled down next to Gun. His hand patting the youngers head he tried to comfort him and Gun pulled him in a hug.
"Thank you so much." Gun finally said and Off thightened the hug.
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"You sure your brothers okay with me being over ?"
"Of course."
"Really ? We can just go to my condo and-"
"Off. Calm down my brother won't kill you."
"I'm actually not sure about that. Yesterday when we facetimed he looked at me like he never hated anyone more than me." Off remembered.
"Papii, you know - he's just overprotective. He knows how much you mean to me and how bad you've hurt me. He's adjusting to the fact that we're going out. Don't worry he won't kill you."
"Promise ?"
"Promise."
Gun opened the door and they went inside.
Off was nervous and just stood there, waiting for Gun to tell him what to do when suddenly Kritt stood right in front of him.
"Gun you're home alre-"
They locked eyes and Kritts smile instantly faded.
"Yeah, we're having a movie night."
"Well then.."
"Hello Nong Kritt. I'm -"
"I know who you are."
"Baby be nice." Another voice came from behind Gun's brother.
"I'm trying." Kritt said, side-eyed Off and went straight into the kitchen.
"Your brother hates me, right ?"
"He doesn't hate you. He's just worried about his little brother. Hey I'm Putthipong Assaratanakul. You can call me-"
"Billkin." Off said in complete shock.
"Yes. Billkin." The singer said laughing.
"I'm so sorry ! That was so rude.. I'm a big fan of yours !"
"I know. Gun already told me, thank you for your support P'Off."
"P'Off.. Gun I-.. He knows my name !"
Gun stood there, giggling at how cute Off was.
"Of course he knows your name, he's my brothers boyfriend. Listen I'll go talk to Kritt real quick. Go sit down in the livingroom for a second."
Off nodded and watched as Gun left for the kitchen.
"Let's talk a bit Off." Billkin said and pointed towards the livingroom.
They sat down on the couch and Off grew nervous. He's sitting with one of his Idols in his, hopefully soon, boyfriends house.
His life changed in a blink of an eye and he wasn't sure how to feel about that. He was so happy to have Gun but at the same time he was so afraid of losing him. Besides his granny and Jennie nobody ever really loved him.
"So Off.." Billkin started.
"Don't be so tense ! I'm not going to hurt you." He laughed and Jumpol tried his best to play cool.
Awkwardly laughing, he looked at the boy in front of him.
"First of - I'm not trying to be disrespectful. I know you're older than me but I want you to know - I trust you. I really do. I trust you that you're mature enough to know that Gun really loves you and you should never play with anybodys feelings. I trust you when you say you like him and I know my boyfriend can be scary sometimes but I know you're aware how you've treated Gun before. My boyfriend wants to protect his brother, okay ? Listen Off, they had a pretty hard life and Gun was depressed for so long. I'm not trying to threaten you tho, but if you hurt Gun, just know that I have my ways of hurting you."
Off gulped.
"You understood right ?" Billkin asked to make sure.
"Yes sir."
"Good. And don't worry about Kritt. I'll talk to him."
"Thank you."
"You're welcome. Stop being so tensed up. We're good okay?"
Jumpol nodded, still tensed.
He felt like a child that just got scolded for stealing candy. He knew he deserved it, but it kinda hurts that nobody seemed to trust him.
He knew one thing for sure - he's going to proof his love for Gun to every single person on this earth.
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"You good?"
"Yes. Yes I'm fine Gun." Off said and stood awkwardly by Gun's door.
"Off, close the door and sit down."
"Gun I-"
"What did Billkin say ?"
"What do you mean ?"
"I mean - what the fuck did my brother say to you that made you act so weird towards me."
"I.. He said nothing and-"
"Off stop lying to me. I hate lies."
"No no it's not what you think !" Off said in panic and sat down next to Gun on the floor in front of his bed.
"Gun he only told me that he trusts me and I should calm down about your brother. And.. He told me he will kill me if I hurt you."
"Off that's nothing new. Why are you so cold towards me right now ?"
"I'm not cold, am I ? I'm sorry.."
Gun looked down to the floor and Off saw that Gun was overthinking this situation.
"Gun I'm afraid of losing you."
"Huh ?"
"I'm afraid, because I'm not used to being loved like that. My parents were never present. I lived with my grandma and her, Jennie and my aunt were the only people showing me that I matter. My grandma died and left me. Me and my aunt had a terrible fight and that was the last time we saw each other. Jennie and I were still in contact - obviously, but when they moved to Korea, my aunt didn't even came to say goodbye to me. She just left.."
"What was the fight about ?"
"Well.. I was sixteen and had my first girlfriend. There were a few problems and we thought she might be pregnant. My aunt found the pregnancy test and was furious. I don't know if it was because of our young age ? Maybe because she struggled with having kids. Jennie is her one and only wonder. She never got pregnant again. It's a stupid reason and I know I'm not in the right-"
"Oh no Off. I get her point but this is just stupid of her. Being mad at you - okay. But you needed her and she left you alone. All alone.
Your parents fucked up.. that's no secret sadly. You were left alone by your family. I'm glad Jennie never left you."
"She's my sister. She means the world to me."
"I know Papii." Gun said and pulled Off in a hug.
Off was slighty sobbing but tried to stay calm, what Gun noticed so he ran his hand through off's hair and tried to comfort him.
Gun pulled away to look at Off.
Both boy's stared into each others eyes and Gun gently stroked Off's cheek.
"I won't leave you, my dear." Gun said and Off slowly nodded.
With his left thumb, Gun wiped Off's tears and Off's frown turned into a smile.
Off grabbed Gun's hand, that was still against his cheek, with his hand and held it tight. He closed his eyes briefly and when he opened them again, they looked into Gun's with nothing but love.
Off's eyes wandered around Gun's face.
His lips, eyes, cheeks.
His dimples. Oh Off adored Gun's dimples.
He catched himself staring at the youngers lips and he was sure Gun noticed.
"Do it." Gun whispered.
"Do it Off." He repeated and Off slowly approached his face.
Both their hearts were beating heavily and they were about to kiss when -
"At least close the fucking door."
Off and Gun jerked apart.
"PP calm down. Let them be."
"On who's side you really Kin huh?"
Kritt and Billkin went by to Kritts room and OffGun sat on the floor, none of them saying anything, 'til..
"I told you to close the door." Kritt yelled one last time.
They stared at each other and broke out in laughter.
"Let's watch a movie. Come on up. My bed is more comfortable."
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'Is it weird if I lay my head against his shoulder ?' Gun thought.
'Is it weird if I take his hand.'
Off thought.
Both boys sat next to each other on Gun's bed. Neither of them dared to approach the other, although both of them wanted to.
"Holy shit !" Gun yelled what scared Off pretty bad.
"What? What's wrong ?!"
"I'm sorry this scene scared me.."
They were watching a horror movie and Gun hated nothing more than this type of genre.
"Oh I see.." Off said.
'This is my chance!' He thought and grabbed Gun's hand.
"Is it okay if I hold your hand?"
"Yes !.. I mean.. yes."
A few more minutes and soon Gun was curled up in Off's arms, slighty shaking while holding on Off's hand pretty hard.
"It's okay babii. I'm here, nothings gonna happen."
"I'm not scared!" Gun lied and instantly burried his face in Off's chest again."
"Is it gone?"
"Is what gone ?"
"The creepy face ! The woman !"
"Gun I-"
Gun looked up and with their faces only inches away, they stared into each others eyes.
'Should I kiss him?' Both thought.
'Pretty sure he wouldn't want that.' Off thought.
'I don't know.. wouldn't he kiss me if he really wanted to?' Gun thought.
"Off I'm so-"
Off leaned forward and just kissed Gun.
In this moment he didn't care about anything other than Gun.
This was it. Off was in love. LOVE.
Nothing else mattered in this moment. Just Off's lips on Gun's.
Gun returned the kiss directly. He pressed himself even closer to Off's upper body, deepening the kiss and when he stroked Off's cheek with his hand, Off literally melted away.
The boys started to breathe harder and when Gun sat down on Off's lap and moved just an inch,..
"Fuck.. I love you Gun."
Both boys froze.
"What did you just say ?"
"I.. I don't know, I-"
"Say it again."
"Gun I'm sorry-"
"Say it again please."
"Gun, I love you."
Gun started to giggle.
With tears in his eyes he just sat on Off's lap and giggled.
"Gun I-"
He couldn't finish his sentence because Gun smashed his lips on his and flipped them both over so that Off would lay on top him.
"Gun I want to expl-"
"Off, just shut up, let us enjoy this moment and kiss me for fucks sake."
With that being said, they spent nearly the whole night cuddling, kissing and talking.
-end of flashback-
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"YOU TOLD HIM?!" Tawan screamed and stood up.
"Pscht, calm down everyone's looking !" Arm fiddled at Tawans arm.
"Yes. I told him. Is there a problem ?"
Tawan sat down and stared at Off and Gun angry.
"I thought you love me. Why am I hearing about this love confession just now ?"
"Because this love confession was for Gun only."
"Pff.. bitch." Tawan acted dramatic again.
"Does this mean you're a couple now ?" Arm asked and Tawan span around instantly.
"No. He hasn't asked me yet." Gun said, sounding disappointed before he stood up.
"I'll go to the restroom. I'll be right back."
"Okay babii."
Arm and Tawan sat there, cringing at the way they acted.
"Guy's I need your help. I want to ask Gun to be my boyfriend. I don't want a lame ass confession-asking thing. I want something as special as Gun himself."
"Finally!" Tawan said..
"So here's the plan..."
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Hello Guy's:)
Phew I think this is the longest chapter this far -
Hope y'all like it :)
-Jessy