the doctor said that he had to wait until the patient woke up and then observe the situation before allowing cheng wen to go in to see him.
from the morning when jian qing was taken to the hospital in a coma, to now a whole day has passed, cheng wen only glanced at jian qing hurriedly when he was pushed out of the operating room, and then waited outside the ward, waiting for when the door would open.
he told the doctor that he wanted to accompany ah qing, but the doctor refused, saying that the patient needed to rest, and that he would disturb him if he was there, but they allowed the nurse to go inside to take care of him, and even the door of the ward was locked.
cheng wen hadn't eaten much since noon, and assistant chen had bought several foods according to jian qing's instructions, but he had a heart tied to the people lying inside, and he had no appetite at all.
in the evening, assistant chen asked him to go back to the hotel to rest first, and then inform him when the situation improved, and cheng wen refused to wait outside.
if ah qing didn't wake up, he wouldn't leave.
the doctor said that he was very ill, and wen did not understand the specific course of the disease, only knowing that if he was not careful, he might endanger his life.
jian qing had always been so tall and strong in his eyes, and cheng wen had never thought that one day he would lie in the hospital room and wait for the judgment of the god of death.
he was still so young, he should have died first.
when he left jian qing, he had already made up his mind to never see again, but when the other party really hovered at the critical point of death, cheng wen's world was gray, and he even foolishly prayed to heaven, don't take away ah qing, you can use him to replace, he is not afraid of pain, nor is he afraid of pain, as long as the baby is born, he can bear all the suffering instead of him, even if it is death. <
at twelve o'clock in the morning, the door of the ward was suddenly opened.
cheng wen had been sitting stiffly for too long, when the beautiful female nurse came out from inside, he had not yet reacted, waiting for the other party to wave to him, saying that jane was awake, he could go in to see him, cheng wen only returned to his senses, the dry eye sockets were wet at once, and he stood up to meet him in a panic and clumsiness, "he... is he awake?
"yes, mr. jane woke up and said he wanted to see you."
cheng wen did not feel happy, but the tears suddenly fell, and he followed the nurse into the ward.
jian qing lay quietly on the hospital bed, his face was more pale than before by the incandescent lamp, his eyes were blind, as if he was very tired, he heard the footsteps before he opened his eyes slightly, and in a dumb voice he called out to cheng wen, "baby..."
cheng wen's tears flowed even more violently, and he choked up uncontrollably, thinking about the doctor's words again, jian qing needed to be quiet, so sheng sheng held the pain back into his throat and eagerly trotted over and grabbed his hand, "ah qing... you... how do you feel..."
"isn't it uncomfortable?" "
little fool... how to cry like this. jian qing twisted his eyebrows slightly, and struggled to raise his hand to wipe the tears from his face, seeing the red and swollen appearance of his eyes, he was really distressed.
in fact, i originally wanted to be fierce and did not see cheng wen for two days, and then i would scare him a little, and the little fool would have to be soft-hearted, and surely everything would depend on him, but i heard assistant chen say that he had been crying and was not willing to eat, so he was anxious, and according to this posture, before he promised to go home, his body would collapse. <
with a baby, where can you toss it so much.
he couldn't wait for himself, he really wanted to see him in his heart, and now that he really saw someone, he wondered more and more whether he shouldn't listen to bai yan's bad idea.
but everything has been done... giving up halfway seems unlikely, and it's even harder to coax him back if he knows the truth.
where did cheng wen know what jian qing was thinking, and thought that he really almost couldn't see him, a small face was miserable and white, not much better than jian qing.
he grabbed jian qing's hand that was pasted on his face and cried in a trembling voice, "they say you might die..."
"don't let me see you yet... i... i'm afraid..."
jian qing gave the nurse a look and told her to go out first, and then looked at cheng wendao, "don't be afraid... i'm not going to die. "you're
still in this world, how willing i am to leave."
"i'm going to marry you, accompany you to wait for the baby to be born, and raise the child healthy and healthy together."
"he will definitely be a very good person in the future, as cute and kind as you, if he is stupid, it doesn't matter, as long as it is our children, i will like it." 」
"you say we'll give him a name..."
if jian qing had said these words to him normally, cheng wen wouldn't have believed it at all.
on the contrary, at such a juncture, these words stabbed cheng wen with severe pain in his heart and blurred tears, "the doctor said that you are very ill..."
"you are not lying to me... you're going to be fine... rright? jian qing's
bloodshot eyes reflected the man's mournful face, and he suddenly fell silent.
slowly drawing his hand back, he turned his head to look at the void air above, and his voice became more and more hoarse, "actually, i don't know."
"if i really die, don't be sad for me, and live with your baby."
cheng wen collapsed, his eyebrows twisted together in pain, choked out uncontrollably, and stubbornly shook his hand, as if the other party would never leave him, "don't... you don't want to die..."
"you don't want to die, okay..."
jian qing smiled, "xiao wen, do you still love me?"
cheng wen did not expect that jian qing would ask such a question at this time, he opened his mouth to answer him, but there was only a sad whimper in his throat.
of course he loves.
from before to now, maybe from the day they met, they fell deeply in love, and now they have only increased, even if the other party is always failing him. "！ mountain! and! san! evening! blame
only the little fool for having a not-so-clever brain, and in many cases there is no way to turn a corner, and it is determined that it is forever.
"i know, i'm not good to you, i've done a lot of bad things, and i'm not qualified to be forgiven by you."
jane's throat knot agitated, and the corners of her eyes were slightly red.
"the damage has already been done, and regret is useless."
"it's just... i really can't help it. ""i don't
know how long i'll live... lung cancer is a disease, even if you insist on chemotherapy, it is difficult to have hope of survival, i heard that the back will lose hair, it will be very ugly.
"i don't want to go too ugly, i'm not ready to undergo that kind of treatment, i can live one day is one day."
jian qing closed his eyes, a drop of transparent liquid flowed out of the corner of his eyes, and when he opened his eyes again, he took a deep breath, looked at the man next to the bed, and pleaded.
"you say you love me again, okay?" "
even if it deceives me, it should fulfill my little wish... when i really leave this world one day, i won't have too many regrets. "i
only hope to meet you in the next life, and then i will firmly grasp your hand from the beginning and be good to you wholeheartedly..." before he could finish speaking, he suddenly stopped, looked away, and smiled sadly, "forget it, i don't know if there is a next life."
"i'm sorry."
"i failed you."
cheng wen understood that jian qing really couldn't live long, not only that, he was not willing to accept treatment and was bent on waiting for death.
the little fool has never been a calm person, what happened all day is enough to make his world collapse, in the face of life and death, jian qing has done all the bad things he has done to him, he can no longer mind, just want him to live, as long as he lives.
his hands tightened the big palm that was in the palm of his hand, and he couldn't cry.
"i love you... ii love you... i like ah qing, i never blame you..."
"so you don't want to die... the baby certainly doesn't want you to die, he... he hasn't seen his father yet..."
jian qing's body stiffened, even though he knew that cheng wen must love him deeply, but after such a long time, listening to him say it in person, his heart was still very happy, and he turned his head to look at him happily, "what are you talking about?"
"say it again."
cheng wen was reluctant to satisfy him, "i love ah qing... i love a-ching..."
"i love you too." jian qing drew the corners of his mouth.
"a qing... you listen to the doctor and cooperate with the hospital's treatment... even if, even if one day all my hair falls out, i will not be disgusted, no matter what ah qing becomes, i will like it..." cheng wen did not have the heart to laugh at all, crying for a day, and his soft voice was already hoarse.
"you have to live, okay?"
jian qing painfully wanted to take the little fool in his arms and tell him not to cry, just about to agree, and remembered that his purpose had not yet been fully achieved, and secretly gritted his teeth and said sadly.
"but you don't want to go home with me... even if my illness is cured, i will go back to a lonely family, living alone in a deserted house, lonely and old, it is better not to cure it, and to die early now.
cheng wen was immediately touched, "how can ah qing say such a thing..."
jian qing hurriedly said, "then are you willing to go back with me?" <
"if i get better, you'll go back with me and give me a chance, okay?"
"babies also need their father's." didn't you always want me to like him, i'm super super fond of him now, not as much as i like you, but already a lot, and i'll give him all the father's love.
"..."cheng wen looked at him sheepishly, his eyes red and red.
he was clearly still hesitating about something.
jian qing could feel that the little fool was shaken, and he almost kicked at the door, and this bitter meat plan would bear fruit.
nervous and excited, he shook cheng wen's hand and looked at him with a hot gaze, "you believe in me again, okay?" "
little wen i love you."
"this time it's true. you hand yourself over to me, and i won't make you sad again. i swear, in the future, if i make you cry again, you can beat me, and i will never fight back.
"if i make you cry again, i'm a pig's head."
cheng wen looked at him blankly, and his cold heart reheated little by little.
ah qing seems to have really become different from before... will care whether he is warm or not, will care if he is hungry or not, and be gentle with him.
but this time interval is only less than a week, and a person has undergone earth-shaking changes, is it really credible?
"you talk, are you really ready to leave me alone?" jian qing said aggrievedly, "then i am dead."
"ah qing..." cheng wen was anxious.
now in fact, he couldn't think too much, not whether he believed jian qing or whether he was willing to give him a chance, but that jian qing was letting him decide his life and death.
in other words, he was persecuting him with his own life.
jian qingben was his weakness, he had no choice but to compromise, and at the same time, he also cared about his brother in his heart.
"but... but ran ran..."
cheng ran definitely still loves jian qing.
"i've broken up with him and we don't have a relationship anymore." jian qing interrupted him and turned around as if he was angry, "if you don't agree, forget it, there is no need to use others as an excuse to refuse." "you
don't care about me anyway."
cheng wen suppressed tears, and after a while, he said in a dumb voice.
"i... i promise you, as long as ah qing is well, i will go back with you..."